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[ "tomorrowim gonna try itim pretty scared idk itll work idk whatll happen doesnt lots excedrin trick guess im failing classes need serious reason withdraw im thinking survive maybe allowed withdraw classes dont even know feel alone anyone spot me feel like way out" ]

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[ "would yall wantnot want see ya romance story wanna know yall think tropes cliches elements romances like resonate with seems unrealistic opinions would want see think seen seen enough of personally detest love triangles typical bad boy everyone totally fawns over" ]

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[ "yo girls actually like guys moan ive heard somewhere know true" ]

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[ "tour busso considering getting passenger tour bus taking vote go every night free park lake park loaded tour bus picnic every day much per day collecting list interested people maybe happen get people" ]

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[ "life pointless maybe see iti see point life others see pointless is redflag consideration life pointless is live die live learn work die live serve needs society whatever die people say get lots good life see that friends family woohoo no end die lose all same earlier later maybe dying earlier even better since weaker bond separation painful get little good things life get lot bad things sadness learn eventually work thats life its pointless this even living like im negative truth others see it read this people give support reddit see pointless life is understand someone understand life pointless something pointless quit right deathim missing guts braver options maybe im already gone life pointless understands" ]

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[ "thinking offingpm me need talk thanks" ]

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[ "im smooth me higirl hi me wanna make baby girlyeah" ]

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[ "hard find heroinat rate im probably going go home depot buy rope idc painful want already" ]

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[ "told online friend plan today threatened follow suiti thought online would safe thought cut people real life could talk people online pass time act grew care became rather codependent realized something wrong asked me spilled beans fucked up felt peace feel conflicted again know do something simple theory difficult accomplish resisted urge find sense belonging knew along goal keep fucking things everyone around me hate live others sure know live myself" ]

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[ "im tiredive written six drafts redflag note past week im wondering even worth it six years relapsed first mark however realized causing harm even worth either waste effort getting could lay bed sleep off ive trying hardmaybe little hard get someoneanyoneto seeim ok gone class weeks go work get away parents make feel awful career choiceim relationship going bad want cant bring hurt him", "im boring shitty person goals aspirations cant find pleasure art cant find creativity need make it cant even play video games anymore go dnd sundays so enjoys game dm best friend was hang close friend anymore tried found always busy j stopped trying get invited clubhouse anymore havent months kicked polyamorous relationship two liked liked me gave dream case manager parents thought would hate life make enough moneya friends also thought stupid like people comments finally wore down im art major somehow flunking college thought would give tattooing try parents conservative even like one tattoo havean armadillo wreath forearmand again think im going making enough money im tired trying meet everyones expectations failing trying thing pissing everyone off year ago well known generous kind supportive motherly thats wanted be wanted help people im even known reputation something care about like wellbeing interests disappeared everyones minds im tired time enjoy anything love feel passion think little beautiful things world know anymore im terrified time relieved im waiting trip colorado see nature spark something inside me noti around much longer one care" ]

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[ "ah yes rteenagers cesspool whatever is" ]

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[ "yesterday disciplining son things productive hoped for looked support husband response well annoying could stop it get car drive lake would us favor know antidepressants stuff would like stop making lives miserable would hurry along responded husband notsuicidal was would tellsomeone drive car lake concerned husband plotting death know bit extreme like said suicidal think husband wants dead turn dead want people think me understand right place know turn friends confide wantsomeone know turn dead me husband playing mind games" ]

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[ "five medical students kevin bacon david labraccio william baldwin dr joe hurley oliver platt randy steckle julia roberts dr rachel mannus kiefer sutherland nelson experiment clandestine near death afterlife experiences researching medical personal enlightenment one one medical students heart stopped revivedbr br under temporary death spells experiences bizarre visions including forgotten childhood memories flashbacks like childrens nightmares revived students disturbed remembering regretful acts committed done them experience afterlife bring real life experiences back present continue experiment remembrances dramatically intensify much so physically overcome thus probe transcend deeper deathafterlife experiences attempting find curebr br even though dvd released motion picture released therefore kevin bacon william baldwin julia roberts kiefer sutherland early stages adult acting careers besides plot extremely intriguing suspense building dramatic climax script tight convincing young actors make flatliners allstar cult semiscifi suspense knew years ago film careers young group actors would skyrocket suspect director joel schumacher did" ]

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[ "im okayive lived depression pretty much whole life past years anxiety problem too left house work morning already feel pretty bad ended putting fake practiced customer service face made work day got home got worse went pay couple bills first thing see paying bills credit card drawn couple hundred dollars make payment card bill actually going payim completely money got paid get paid two weeks town work trip pay day without direct deposit im completely broke bills due next pay check next pay check get late credit card blessing curse me reason im mountain credit card debt bad place needed use place live foodim glad needed it impossible get under know im going survive next two weeks im lowest point ive long time know everyone money issues one wants hear mine take much long ive crippling debt decade now every time start get something else comes up ill start getting bills bit car diesoh goes another couple thousand family member dies get inheritance make huge payment towards getting debtoh car dies again money got goes buying replacement money problem one thats likely break camels back today" ]

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[ "im alive yet redflag still mindi know replied previous post hated commit hate im still alive know why really wanted people believe dead im alive much obvious still cant stop thinking killing myself want someone love me somebody hold know reason here kills know possible want hang badim still terrified last time feel weak" ]

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[ "feel uselessi feel like nobody likes me ive never felt suicidal several monthsidk whats happened service dog still feel point life future get worse here go therapy therapist vacation going vacation wont therapy long time want vent real life" ]

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[ "rainbow brite star stealer opinion excellent masterpiece felt warm tingly rainbow brite voice bettina krys voice david mendenhall set get revenge princess voice rhonad aldrich ask me princess absolutely bitchy diabolical me deserved rainbow brite krys seek revenge him however liked castle well rest setting addition thought lurky voiec pat fraley murky voiec peter cullen diabolical wrap up id like say everyone perfectly cast direction flawless disney scored big hit conclusion highly recommend excellent masterpiece everyone seen it especially diehard fans tv series guarantee enjoy it" ]

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[ "im still aliveim going kill week maybe tomorrow im fed everything sleepless nights everybody care never tbh kill ages ago idk done im unwanted worthless feel hopeless feel dead inside numb tried everybody reach toxic cruel mean negative horny im going end may anyways already cant least week without self harming trying commit redflag suicidal thoughts everyday even dream commitment redflag even attempt redflag times im still alive mistake world everything im better dead" ]

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[ "whenever people ask feel genuinely share feel need box ship somewhere fault mind goes bridge crossing it also significant life thinks always secret way keep guilting them lol because feel much shame guilt hard get away from drink daily fucked life up never finished college high school stranded bar industry make enough money secretly feed problem prevents saving son makes issues worse cannot sneak couple needed get chest living lie anyone besides year old think best vent to hate routine" ]

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[ "people sub joke youre patheticlike seriously telling life going get better saying get therapy even know im going you u fucking dont suggest people start shutting fuck im going start getting real nasty shove hotline ass go light fireit like seriously fuck you" ]

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[ "movie entertainment imagine friends love spending time with ones know inside becoming bit silly perhaps taking character two thats film about inventive script brilliantly performed pleasing masses one fun bunch brilliantly talented people im sure thought signed it br br the review sounds completely unfair think person wrote wrong frame mind watched film lighthearted moment great dignity care lookbr br a job well done thought great film id watch north american norm daybr br in nutshell best film ever going see hell lot moments laughed long age" ]

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[ "know much longer go without actuallyhaha want okay again know could amazing life right much pain aparently everything get better eventually really hard see far futureright now really hope gets better literally every day come close killing" ]

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[ "already took excedrin pms last hoursreddit need help every time get depressed start taking sleeping pills point forget many ive taken pass out forced bed first time hours im worried im going absentmindedly take many end either dead coma mean estimate well more im attention advice want someone talk to preferably someone experience sleeping pills update pm est taken since amand put bottle eyesight tempted take anymore im still pretty shaky im finding ways distract myself art class hours boss gave day tomorrow which help relax sleep naturally bit want say thank everyone replied really helped lot may update later things bf go well pm people said okay thanks guys nd update okay pm feeling much better emotionally really physically ill dizziness nausea loss direction unable make coherent conversation fine again thanks everyone positive attitudes really helped out also dumped pills going try sleep tonight you guys awesome" ]

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[ "goes around comes aroundhard express even computer screen used everyone hard trust anyone love anyone cant move forward anymore past still haunts me sexual physical abuse family members bullied school kid im first nation male finished high school gave up either hunger failure every subject took guess thats it" ]

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[ "life sucks please dont itdo anything kill yourself drugs therapy excersize least something help change perspective give spark motivation way anyway people overcome redflag faith motivation believe same anyway advice get every day" ]

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[ "cannot believe unknown movie isit absolutely incredible ending alone stuck almost thirty years road sign rearveiw mirror blew away liked race devil love movie" ]

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[ "fuck facing problems imma stand like watching everythin crumple around" ]

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[ "want start good conversation crush need tips interact crush general want keep conversation going want enjoyable us thanks advance" ]

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[ "ive gay lately im bisexualim think im turning full gay girls interest anymore used love looking pictures pretty women im like ok unfollowed many girls used turn instagram dont feelings towards anymore im looking picsim like why even follow you hand ive perplexed emotions much want bf" ]

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[ "used thinking suicide mid mid year horrible days returning home sit behind door mental breakdown crying sleep thinking suicide past months gotten better strayed away people hurt me tried abide parents time prevent yelled at still mental breakdowns think suicide while really think option nowadays fear one day get worse worse never heal hope never happens whomever reading this things change better whomever reading this love you precious beautiful deserve world whomever reading this please hurt yourself please something good once" ]

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[ "life shit dog eats dog world nobody ever cared nobody would ever carei tools disappear im sad lonely nobody understand feeling except you look bright side things bullsht me feel cant talk anyone friends everybody happy right bother them could say this mentioned suicidal things one answer sad smiley horse poop life purposes problem solve frankly dont motivation feel stupid wortheless im hipersensitive wanna cry almost time situation work shit relationship mother exists dont partner dont want want one im looking anything anyone dont wanna ruin one life nonsense dont fear afterlife fear pain succesfull attempt cause trouble dont want point im glad minimised stuffim gone dont pack crp hoarded years thought would easier less sense good every time throw give someone else something feel less connected current place wish disappear items happening friends disappearing f" ]

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[ "fuck youfuck yoy fuck whats point anymore" ]

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[ "soo bored bored lying bed pondering life" ]

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[ "ive never actually stressed yeahive stressed bother like right now less week decide next years classes idea whats going math essay really dont know finish keep grades c parents dont get mad lot stress before almost every night finally able go sleep around am laying thinking whats gonna happen dont get stuff done sucks ton also wake go school im able see friends minutes lunch doesnt help either probably dont even bad compared kids sucks stressed like this" ]

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[ "specific memories things never happened time theyre delightful even make playlists make vivid also arent recent like probably mid late s child im still sure never happened" ]

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[ "guys hate english teacher wants summerize something already perfectly concise like basically gotta research find words make smaller stupid" ]

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[ "rd time or th know asking if know know think me reply seen posts comments tell criticism always appreciated lt" ]

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[ "wanna move on wanna get left behind wanna lead generation trains leave station wanna move wanna get left behind" ]

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[ "dissociationi every number blocked contacts besides mom mangers girl think love who hasnt texted back week social medias people get touch via email soundcloud need want something realized people call friends dont ever really return favor comes listening trying help me feels like everyone thinks im joke always give basic response nothing say really help like help im done talking everyone older brother havent spoke seen years makes high school friend think wont them anyone relate psychotic" ]

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[ "called best friend suicidal know shell ever trust again lived best friend almost years complicated relationship romantic times others one thing sure care lot other battling depression essentially whole life mostly due things happened childhood much control over recently though difficult events made enduring pain day day lot unbearable day work getting text messages really scary talking able do anymore wanting a way pain think ive ever affriad someone must called times minute none calls picked up could think could verify safety accross town would answer calls panicked first thing could think keep safe get apartment fast enough maybe emergency services could dialled called cab home cried got there walked door two police officers standing next herwe chat one said your friend agreed go voluntarily hospital honest hospital staff told seriously worried her would let leave father picked up important story understand friend traumatic experiences police past situations anything wrong knew feel guilty panniced stop think would feeling end needed safe friend feels betrayed says really knew would left alone knew calling would make everything worse feel like known better way help feel", "incredibly guilty says hate me never trust again wanting go behind back seemed insignificant face potentially loosing her feels like worst thing ive ever done" ]

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[ "youre cool funny imitate languages ok first all im super offended triggered try imitate mock indian people get it soundsfunny accentsillywhatever school last year goddamned annoying hear people say beta e pronounced like emma every fucking sentence indian accent popular kids thought funniest thing entire world dont hear indian people saying beta every sentence think part fact drip report released light sketchers song might heard about was hilarious watch people blasting mundian bach ke full volume hallways thinking coolest people entire world idk maybe problem school general youd think people wouldve matured enough th grade something else hellno anyways say somewhere cringe little internally hear someone bragging theyve memorized lyrics indian song theyre sputtering gibberish goodnight edit im indian born united states shouldve put start" ]

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[ "anybody else get weird halfcrush fictional character need seek media involving them like waifu cant escape" ]

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[ "ever look instantly think yeahlook like girl look mirror realise sad reality" ]

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[ "given dylan thomas icon modern anglophone poetry expected movie would prone hagiography subject contrary poet presented sexually irresponsible drunkard bad father lier hypocrite perhaps coward course one could argue things advantage one artist especially poet since one purposes art subvert standards conventional morality still thing notredflag role model could crop bundle personality traits way found male hero story captain cillic endearing character two female roles played actresses knigtley miller truly charming especially first performed songs slim outfit inspire bombarded londoners ww another good point role sexual jealousy plays even relatively progressive milieus think ageold conventions easily surpassedthe atmosphere blitz also convincing well portrayal distinct outlooks among people experienced war opposed talk theorizing possible political outcomesi think one would recommend movie" ]

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[ "bruh weird want tank like imagine fun would drive around" ]

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[ "anyone wanna chat im bored kinda wanna talk someone sleep maybe tomorrow dunno yet comment dm wanna" ]

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[ "six degrees hooked looked forward coming totally disappointed men trees replaced time spot thought hiatus would back early happened friends really surprised ended could relate characters real problems talked episode favorite characters anybody show like felt acting superb alway like seeing programs taped cities identify local areas one would like protest canceling show ask bring back give another chance give good time slot keep moving day day advertise people know on" ]

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[ "im scared ifwhen boyfriend breaks kill myselfso boyfriend together almost four months amazing helped lot reason im still here unsure everything im scared feelings girl met week ago talking problems idea even am talkin breaking said tries fix everything still meet talk feel like avoiding me hate wondering wrong im scared alone severe anxiety attacks time now breaks me dont anyone likely kill myself trapped broken scared him means world helped many problems feel like im first priority like doesnt care anymore sorry rant" ]

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[ "understand critics would bash movie teen movie thats actually serious rarity ill admit moments hugely sappy cmon young love gotta sappy valid biggest complaint chris klein funny american pie apparently ready switch dramatic fare yet hes uncomfortable looking mama stuff hartnett sobieski hand demonstrate remarkable amount depth believability parents although script heavily cliched lovers spouting poetry actors make work directing sports powerful images screen beautiful cinematography nice music great young actors impressed im jaded critic comes teen movies" ]

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[ "given soft drink days difficult first barely ever want anymore suggest anyone thinking giving" ]

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[ "try numb painbut never go away gonna go new year bang take care" ]

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[ "kinda dont wanna alive anymorei undiagnosed mental illnessim pretty sure borderline maybe stuff anxiety childhood trauma yknow cant afford therapist im also petrified death idea killing makes really nervous fucking suicidal breakdowns every days literally anything set off cut hit slam head wall cry hours sucks one talk to mh boyfriend says talk says im sorrywhoch finehes therapist goddamn hurts like im really hard time right close committing redflag person say im sorry like yea get isnt good way respond every single time im upset way always im sorry goddamn hurt want stay alive sake siblings boyfriend dog hate alive much stressed im basically parent siblings continue semester college home", "im suicidal like every days pressure already getting me hell school without extra stressors huge freakouts per week im drastically scary im becoming violent im scared ill do god sure know want alive anymore people say listen dont even anything say im fucking scared im abusive guilt trippy im scared everyone going leave cant afford therapy im scared im gonna hospitalized also redflag hotline fucking blows last time tried use told lady wrong like wow sucks yea know really sucks absolutely help all therapy awful went shitty therapist told nothing wrong even though self harm suicidal intense reactions minor things severe rejection sensitivity yea god want dead badim scared kill basically im depressed" ]

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[ "day recommending songs swae lee thrusting httpsyoutubevqhkcjogia it" ]

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[ "join discord server got discord server couple people teens pm want invite link" ]

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[ "must say impressed cinematography amazing frames close perfection way built tension around subject sound like dreadful bore beyond bebr br the film two narrators one seen one unseen trying explain significant series painting caused scandal long time back film theories explanations views conclusion quite shocking must say definitely film deserves votesbr br with minutes play plot film still felt like complete work fantastic direction must say far better blood poet strange reason remind bit of br br i suppose call slang word artsy pretty much lot professional talk various theories stunning visual effects crew ruiz pull off least me amazing film" ]

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[ "hatelovedont care israel zionists serious discussion please write meaningful civilised comments israel love country serve military dont want killdeport palestinians also know many people around world wish dead right or comments gal gadots recent comments choke fall stairs die why done wrong please dont use actions one man justify hate same" ]

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[ "problem lack loveweve heard get therapist go professional thing least once know therapists psychiatrists etc supposed help us whatever making us feel bad but guys lets honest ourselves times professional drug therapy solve problem origin comes lack love caring tenderness of yes love frustrating many people see supposed help feel better whats supposed help overcome pretty dark moments work find horrible professionals honest pacients keep talking shit keep prescribing drugs keep promising bright future never comes etc never say hey im sorry cant help this theres nothing fullfill empty space got so since honest ever tell truth opportunity pay expensive holidays want exist find cant help problem im going tell need hear therapy professional kind drug kind replace need never had thing love may hard hear know truth need know it start talking shit theres someone waiting there youll find person promise shit professionals do thats say" ]

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[ "bf wants febi know im meeting first time we ldr late january hes rough while want lose him want faithokay finally actual good therapist psychiatrist stay together weeks feel like breakdown go im afraidwant help him love much" ]

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[ "introduction flawless augusthey hey since new month want introduce new event like nonutnovember fingerfreefebruary you flawless augusti know name nearly sound good two come anyways idea came german streameryoutuber named taddl btw link end post idea flawless august nothing really groundbreaking revolutionary still wanna share you soooo idea things goodbad entire month maybe even longer you pay attention correct course recommend things bad things good you idea isnt try things know motivation anyways you know pretty damn well lazy work consistently easier things things maybe think drink much cola something consider drink cola end choose yourself also push limits beyond could also make supersaiyajinseptember that little example flawles august watch porn go twitter practice french duolingo everyday write diary least week practice playing piano guitar least every two days also decide participate flawless august would happy write list comments taddls video its german httpsyoutubehppbxsmobmhttpsyoutubehppbxsmobm he also makes musichttpsopenspotifycomartistldcabctyzkrksktzusictewhq_qmcbqrwbsvw nice day" ]

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[ "finalim drinking final drink right hot chocolate bit hot burning throat little thats okay need worry soon soon ill saying final goodbye bye older brother bye cat guess feel guilty leaving them do preoccupation death stronger that then final walk train tracks ill wait theres chance train come delay dayso mind come back tomorrow need be then final breath ill relish moment feel pain million pounds steel roll me ill dead final glimpse world final heartbeat final moment worry anything writing actually kind calmed me im going go kill now im still posting this" ]

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[ "saw the ronnie nancy show first time on austrian television time already big fan spitting image since bronze rose montreux film festival course recorded every show tape watched especially the ronnie nancy show remember scene ronnie stood front painting abraham lincoln thinking mirror said i need shave amusing all played ball dog viceversabr br its shame spitting image seems fall oblivion one fantastic intelligent made tvshows ever compared satirical broadcasts definitely best all br br well almost years passed since then wish could see show again possible purchase someone somewhere" ]

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[ "fantastic whodunit early prototype soon became popular film genre happy see william powell handling detective story charisma charm without silly attitude nick charles character from thin man series story good own think really makes movie fun watch michael curtiz fantastically imaginative direction visual point view richly textured movie curtiz showing incredible command medium split screen images weird camera angles imaginative flashbacks curtiz demonstrates one best hollywood directors highly recommended fan type movie" ]

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[ "wholesome award dark post funny reached peak comedy putting wholesome award dark post hope become world famous comedian make everyone laugh like right now ok real honestly annoying even funny even dark meme annoying see find funny wholesome award post something serious like someone lost friend redflag yes happen thats crossed line extremely disrespectful jistt dick move thank you heres random pic mad tanjiro herehttpsipinimgcomoriginalsffeeceedefdgif" ]

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[ "going really hard time lately need ventive struggled alcoholism depression poverty quite bit past quite bit present certain point blacking friends acquaintances couches place place while basically homeless basically wandering aimlessly stopped counting exact days ive sober ago years ive trouble finding aa meetings area closest area ive found reddit applies problems people whove dealt similar things ive dealt with mostly became sober pure necessity even really hard big motivator used member radical cult recruited bottom luck saw horrible things there treated horribly people managed get treated much worse managed escape easy that time got job apartment even gone apartment likely long welder recently laid due cuts make reason even utilities landlord understanding really tolerated beyond grateful towards him right now really even food quite literally food money food that feel incredibly weak numb mostly ive drunk water hungry quite bit last time low least liquor better nothing really friends lost quite friends feel suicidal much feel tired hungry urge drink badly months least maybe id distraction mostly vent id like someone talk well" ]

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[ "hi everyone honestly trying anything point therapy nearly decade anti depressants psychedelic therapy etc cannot seem reconcile emotional sect brain logic part brain reason issues emotional sect overreacts melodramatic always overwrite warps logic rationalization battling selfish wish stick around self help genuinely feel terrible hurt point shaken faith particular incidents miserable years battling depression tonight feels like losing night suppose need rant fair require somebody stick around misery ow amusement particularly poor night" ]

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[ "want end life feel extremely alone cant stop thinking girl making mistakes herim lot things going help dwell past experience bullying even loved ones feel alone make constant mistakes find alone bedroom end every night thoughts alonewell girl im love gettiong fucked someone else im afrid forward her knowim victim" ]

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[ "divorcewell looks like im ruled against doesnt matter ill dead make broke take kids me" ]

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[ "friendand better absolutely everything ive struggled depression since second grade know reality seeit reality looks even grimmer whats head long story short anything already accomplished done twenty times better did used valedictorian came alongand shoved middle class elected secretary position student organization suddenly she presidential position took jobs even let anything everyone constantly fawning much look disdain say what doing worthless slug get ass help her tried make nhs year one friends without form filled edges activities merit mine halffull filled two im journalist model un vice president even upset bossy whiny spoiled bitch upset everyone actually logical view instead adoring blindly puberty done well gotten pointim done im well aware imfailure reason world sees fit rub face im done living it hope career plausible future one would even notice show school one day doubt theyd even remember existed long enough come funeralim sick invisible last choice useless hated im sick living person miss boyfriend even forget time" ]

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[ "meor idk sign life do worry watch" ]

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[ "feel nothing anymore travelling days reason sitting bampb middle nowhere alone absolutely noone feel anything anymore nobody cared realised left come today please end suffering" ]

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[ "suicidal please someone explain want end lifeplease" ]

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[ "clonazepamif took enough clonazepam could kill me half bottle mg each thanks" ]

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[ "final birthdaymy st birthday coming weeks family going city next day presents excellent opportunity it wanted come too madeup work related excuse stay decade suffered depression ive kept hidden everyone planned way years ago go pain would cause loved ones especially mom depression gone worse ill take step even enjoy playing video games anymore passionate hobby since childhood bought equipment needed go painless way feel relieved ill finally saved pointless miserable existence ps throwaway account real account could tied me" ]

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[ "ever loved someone much leave hurts made many friends school lockdown came know many real turns love one best friend knows deepest secrets got selected different universities hurtswont able see face everyday hugged everyday" ]

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[ "ever feel like pissing teen years away ive never party never hugged kissed girl real life people terrify me feels like im stuck trapped" ]

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[ "best thing one say film traffic brought attention superior british miniseries traffik many people noted current film suffers truncating story accommodate short attention span cinemagoers turnaround time theater owners measure films success overpriced food salesbr br", "i first recorded mini series shown public tv watched many times whole documentarystyle series strong element tragedy doom it characters moving toward eventual fate strongest three tales pakistani family forced city find way keep body soul together poppy crop burned army staged show force put benefit western politicians hardships family similar rickshaw pullers family city joy eventually farmer finds work compromises pride honestybr br the pakistani segment film particular relevance today fight supporters al quaeda gives understanding support movements among disadvantaged poor pakistan afghanistan rarely receive money going countries film makes point farmers see barely aid supposed encourage grow cropsbr br with american inability see anything terms black white good guys v bad guys interesting see another view black white shades grey br br possible spoiler ahead problem story rather things continuing before would real life work fiction wrap bad guys getting coming them that fine piece work kind see rarely cast outstanding german pakistani locations helped give film different feel what change made seeing germans something villains wwii film" ]

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[ "long take anyone noticeim ive suicidal year im much worse year ago one noticed said anything meim really anxious say anything outright really obviousim like this ive felt suicidal since got worse ive never form help one ever said anything meant it others ive seen happen matter might well kill never worry anything ever again" ]

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[ "baseketball indeed really funny movie david zucker manages make us laugh heads again really silly many times smart comedybr br the creators south park main actors film play good surprisingly good actually first time see actors movie oftenly reminded south park one fav showsbr br its really good funny film miss itbr br vote" ]

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[ "one thinks dating stupid like put much time effort every day lmao also calling lonely argument" ]

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[ "im scared ocd back go awayi depression anxiety already makes suicidal thoughts used ocd well stopped getting obsessions year ago today im starting show traits also different intrusive thoughts know whos thinking cant help still feel like im awful person know panicking like help want ocdim terrified feel trapped" ]

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[ "quick question criticize wearing mask mask keeps things getting out getting in youre afraid spreading it wear two masks outer one inside out doesnt work way wont work way cause logic" ]

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[ "ending soonsuicidal thoughts new me ive almost done twice feel like ive living borrowed time forever tonight im going put end forever nowhere else turn recently lost job working home live house shitty internet landlord done anything fix it led many problems eventually decided renew contract feel like big deal time theyre pretty big company figured could get another job pretty quickly couple months gone nothing cant even get retailrestaurantfast food job lot places mode transportation get city ive tried looking similar jobs work remotely far ive bunch people lie lead blow smoke ass welcome real world guess ive overdrawn bank accounts car get aroundget another job feel like leech society im burden everyone know im fuckup life would relieved got rid myself tried crowdfunding project lastditch attempt get something going get feet ground one gives shit im stuck financial hell cant move back home parasite world would better without im ready stop delaying inevitable end it" ]

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[ "tips losing weight hello rteenagers ive trying lose weight dont know how tips losing weight" ]

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[ "life sucks want overi actually hate living hate me reincarnate person friends loving family future would okay living dont person things cant imagine would like wake get talk people go downstairs able smile someone look forward new day ever feeling ive outcast since child people still treat like today im fucking tired itim tired person everyone ignores person everyone talks over person one cares about fucking awfulim tiredit" ]

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[ "dad really knows ruin everyones day woke morning shirtless way garage cut hair i buzz cut cut myself getting lil longer id like walk garage room greet im going garage goes put shirt cold there said its ok im cutting hair who tf wears shirt theyre cutting hair gets itchy him saying disrespectful rebuttal walk away go get shirt step mom arguing morning ruined theyre pissed otherim confused" ]

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[ "south east asia rn im sitting phone hand typing out got college know deserved it know ill successful ill fail feel way told feel feel suicidal ive life u may look say be happy childhood ive known nothing physical abuse stopped cause parents cant actually hurt i mean im beat shit them ever since grade abuse lifted ive less violent memories feel like shit time worthless hidden scared feel like one single leaf bouquet beautiful flowers im bi", "anyone know id tortured raped arrested police would help torture me may say free speech lets say im convinced hunt people like me know walking road do maybe ill skip end road one childhood friend like me zero friends general mother believe mental health thing cant tell get bed cant tell im angry waking up life expectancy farther years old im stuck shit hole bad bad feel like crying time ive become devoid emotions cant even cry want to feel like im going insane mom dad fight every day day make angry makes want repay physical abuse did makes want hurt them shut up one thing loves unconditionally thats pet bird remember last time mother father hugged said i love you unconditionally remember last time one did really hurts much seeing posts saying i got girlfriendboyfriendshe said yes hate imperfect born world cant love boy girl cant girlfriend boyfriend theyll kill me id one bastard sinner right moment im im buying fire arm blowing brains away mom know meanings hateful words said me father dead naturally hes old brother", "well hell love mother share us ive searched god ive seen nothing witnessed love beauty however books calls people like sinners devils wants people like dead detest god life gave me detest everything am hurts stay alive pointless now call whatever want matter me" ]

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[ "want ground open swallow mei dont want deal pain heartbreak cant deal ruined am dont want this me" ]

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[ "pointless donesnt fucking matterwant anywhere world fucking pointless" ]

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[ "mom took playstation away took virginity whos laughing bitch" ]

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[ "dad fulfilled peak dadness today today marching band rehearsal stadium put sousaphone away texted dad you didnt know called went found him us stuff band went back car goes phone find message sent guess hadnt looked before deadass types car sitting right next him maximum dad moment tbh" ]

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[ "lets stay dorm room courage kill myselfyep im piece shit guys theres denying now im bad nasty disgusting worthless person im likable anyone likes me ruin lives why dont give shit others feelings toxic disgusting thing hurt whoever im around need stay completely alone classes me lets wait til slash wrists" ]

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[ "basically itbeen diagnosed borderline personality disorder told wait therapy waiting months apparently get six sessions tried kill overdose two weeks ago got scammed dumb life choices quit job early redflag attempt going start another job th march knowim ready money rent council tax honestly feel like jumping bridge methods could try home want something permanent know do live north east englanduk" ]

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[ "hey touch screen iphone broke anyone know way still use phone also merry christmas" ]

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[ "selfharm" ]

[ "wanna sleep never wake upim alcoholic im drug addict hate life much sleeping thing makes feel better motivation one motivates me cant go anywhere start new life nationality got cheated many times girls nowadays dont want loyal guys go rich ones really gave everything nothing works me wanna sleep rest peace" ]

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[ "selfharm" ]

[ "im feel ive lived much done muchim ready goits kind melancholy type thought get dad said told tired burden world ready pass would happen kind feel way want control destiny" ]