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[ "life meaningless everyone trying convince dieits month life lost meaning purpose outside im successful beautiful woman fascinating life loving friends family nailed new prestigious job colleagues would kill for would best time life ready move new beautiful house first time life started thinking family own none matters anymore person wanted share longer life leave him even though love know loves me cant find pleasure anything do friends family trying keep alive weeks trying distract me theyve grown tired blame them ive become pain cant sleep night every passing moment im thinking love tenderness life filled recently love replaced gaping void able eat properly month feel like robot everything mechanical feel detached dehumanized ive seeing therapist", "im pretty sure clue feel believe tell him see im always laughing making jokes misery people actually think im fine everyone keeps telling life worth living things get better pain go away something new something better come way know say want believe themselves id say bullshit shoes know myself know rare find real connection someone know utterly impossible find someone replace connection lost know words sound like cheap banality know happinessme know sun rise tomorrow want replace special place heart anything else know nothing measure up without love spoke heart reason breathe understand keep living like empty shell keep people satisfied spend every waking moment neverending nightmare work meaning ive unable focus fulfill obligations clear soon everyone see perfectionist used more keep open even humiliation point thing comforts day think dying want hear bullshit gift life would like people respect decision help exit world love dignity hold hand let go" ]

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[ "would go hacking command console minecraft server own friend hosting minecraft server want troll them server hosted apex hosting plugins authme option bonus way could get command line connectedcmdmaybe could connect server using cmd way idk ampxb help would great lol" ]

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[ "happened various forms life even got physical abuse fucking fact people feel entitled including system live ininvoluntary hospitalization psychiatrymost shitholes strip rights human being acting accordance think the best you anything really spoiler nice make feel worse entitlement" ]

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[ "know want anymore ive posting since old im tired" ]

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[ "nights worst distractions left alone thoughts feel empty alone purpose world never amount anything soon enough everyone hate me everyone see failure am looking forward day comes end pathetic life guilt" ]

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[ "stuckwent outside last night probably home around am planned know why around hours standing sitting staring railing back fourth kept thinking this dunno whats called stopping me wanna it really do bad get cant sure anxiety looking wondering bad itll hurt height think ending another way sure though appointment nurse wednesday dunno im supposed hold im keep thinking going back tonight actually it im stuck" ]

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[ "twisted ancle today jumping posts do condo evacuated due fire parking garage kept jumping non stop somewhere like fifty posts started get tired leg got hit toppled over brother pretending personal trainer thankfully managed carry way back condo issue done with bo ive lying bed hours" ]

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[ "sort depression slump another around years used love talking people exercising writing thing actually enjoy watching tv movies know healthy thing want anymore detached everything else see point much anything work shitty barely minimum wage job cannot even afford live think would really help situation friends anymore could keep contact regularly bc depression kind floated away one vent to barely existing shitty world trying dive deep fiction can feel wearing though comfort get fav characters really scared getting close end thing interested anymore media" ]

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[ "cant stop thinking redflagit feels like always way out brain hyper focuses much diagnosed earlier year bpd feel ive got worse worse constantly think ending know right it would hurt many people yet lay awake night crying eyes constantly thinking life worth it im lost know do one day fear feeling get much simply it" ]

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[ "one favorite movies saw preview seattle tom hulce amazing words could convey feelingsthoughts actually sent mike ferrell donation money help film get distributed good system says need lines want give away plot stuff audience seattle hulce director writer think mike ferrell talked hour afterwords really dry eye house hollywood continues stupid know actually know fault look watchwell get pay guys get see someone special gem" ]

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[ "need signits one nights cant keep thinking pain ive caused everyone whos left life want sign want something make feel like still worth im scared life" ]

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[ "want anymore bpdpersistent depressive syndrome years unstable relationships friendships im left one good friend across ocean anyone else probs wishes well cant bothered say anything else matter hard time making friends becoming close people mainly find people interested wanting friends connectionchemistry terms social circle legit alone clearly good reason years suicidal ideation recently intense attempts firm belief always way want way always way ruins follow life evidence sort also revealing messed person am cant job effectively anymore could even that reaching incredibly hard justify reasons so hard do cant around people family job im unhappy life be cant around sakecant anymore" ]

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[ "guys help street lamp outside window got hit massive lightning youd expect stop working started turning super annoying rain makes atmosphere bed quite nice street lamp ruins it idea sleep comfortably" ]

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[ "obsess head even though try stay positive truth really feel comes almost every time go drinking friends become extremely negative sometimes cry alone bf told unhappy weight also hates seeing unhappy summary bf complete workaholic loves death tells beautiful every day dumped times weight thinks excuse maker know commit me indian white us since ever spoke phone would never able guess indian" ]

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[ "feel bad today suicidal thoughts bad theyve ever been made tiny progress lately come crashing back feel like could call quits right nowi think im gonna probably text number feel guilty texting always seem trying push get next person feel comfortable calling redflag hotlinelike said made tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny progress step forward steps back live alcoholic parents terrible house got new jobs see way often triggers hell even around cant anything else ive spending lot time library friends houses stay away theres much do point id seriously consider living car cold wisconsin already tried yet another med change really recently course done nothing number million thats point im seriously considering cold turkeying meds done it almost weeks next therapy appointment im pretty sure hates anyway tried get kicked clinic accidentally noshowing appointment psychiatrist stuck said needed stay im gonna comfortable talking therapist refuse try another one hes already number cant even remember sure also fucked up totally fault excuses im gonna completely financially destitute least month account overdrawn", "im gonna able afford phone bill real friends live far away phone plan able talk time im home and try home little possible ive selfharming lot one injury id even consider seeing doctor could afford copay convenient care mean serious burn happened trying firstaid well can ironically still selfharming places body stuck scars life top stretch marks im stuck brings next point weight im literally obese bmi fluctuate lbs back years ago healthy liked body numbers pounds emotional binge eating absolute inability exercise consistently try get hyperaware weight stop cry probably go home hurt ironically binge eat top everything ive talking old friend finally able meet coffee we see maybe year seems great im starting feelings develop knowing theyll never reciprocated know best thing distance her one biggest support systems me theres good way handle situation yes chances feeling already this big problem top everything else feels like it" ]

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[ "one way make better nowi got help waited tried everything could think of almost deluded thinking working fortunately reminded unwanted worthless am im moving date redflag december probably around christmas nice gift everyone least plenty time write note want apology sticking around long thorough record point tell awful give people false hope here get better mean say otherwise" ]

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[ "friend middle class dead silent whos stinky whore didnt realize unmuted" ]

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[ "depression damn brutal add top ugly virgin extreme social redflag lower iq learning disabilities many internal issues what fk suffering could dead seriously nothing here people tell try new things get me fatigue beyond awful scared death hate religion making scared hell think awful things christians now hate existence alone dead inside gone even idk much longer last" ]

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[ "cousin stupid cousin stopped eating pm girl already boyfriend this every night terribly aggressive unpleasant already quarreling almost whole family do" ]

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[ "film great comedy drama christopher walken tremendous supporting role manager commentary keep laughing robin williams plays great role quick wit jon stewart amuse fans comedy central show good viewer halfabrain see needed subcultural attack policies current republican government criticism american democratic process mention means politicians get electedbr br i amused subplots found film fast paced entertaining without usual ohbrothers would agree film less comedy marketed however without question better garbage theatres present thoughtsdon" ]

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[ "happen love show refreshing take older scifi feels styles afraid shoot people tend die far many shows afraid end pointing guns standoff farscape also comes complete large amount heartwarming characters grow till point confuses hear discuss taking animatronic ones boxs make miniseries beginning end farscape leaves feeling hope dispair new unexpected things happen people live die surprising every time worth watch even time" ]

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[ "losing hope fasti thought abuse would end thought pain would end moved course didnt feel like im walking fucking empty sack useless flesh would give anything give life anyone deserve die sure fuck deserve live hate im wasting it jobim school make want fucking kill less medication fucked brain forever never helped doctor hospital last year trying kill myself im barely better now go class go work come home sleep im depressed anything else talking people chore barely eat love father thinks im fine heart tell im miserable everything hes done me hate like this im waste eyes hate it" ]

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[ "feeling really alone wrote thisits always like this everyone seems think works like grief hit waves waves pull back slowly completely get better waves stopped ill next march hear happiness said genetic family tree pretty upsetting one unfortunately true nothing mean friends those mean family found family one given dysfunctional makes life harder made life hell living has see world around me eyes woken peaceful nightmare see real painful world cant keep this cant keep giving heart people trying friend receiving agonizing pain especially always ask anything back started realized self respect something supposed pretend have days far behind me beginning life either im weary starts im sad im kind wallow seek help usually takes long whatever reason get worse start build way back stability myself im bad it usually get help along way usually therapist take look got bad work love therapy always have get better better sort of hits always different always hard times easier most always springs back me theres cure even want it i want risk would rather peace feel alone afraid like first times hit hard thing ive called help ive asked around ive done bit", "im therapy weight everything crushing much chronic depression doesnt always go away functions similarly grief lingers hangs air keeps you isnt simple never be" ]

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[ "live alone depression time high believe worth anymore finally given myself wake alone everything own fun activities truly enjoy doing nobody wants me anyone else wants something want do always it nobody me everyone else another person people walk over want genuine friendship people genuine love life seem get short end stick every time nice guys finish last happens time time again hate here want pain go away need someone talk to" ]

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[ "college idea im doing pretty much nobodyi attend expensive college idea fuck im feel like im squandering parents money time being idea want career motivation study feel like nobody purpose world keep hearing everything right trust god cant anymore want drop kill something" ]

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[ "favorite show kid man favorite show obsessed it still remember back seat car small dvd player different heman season disc watched like times also remember favorite character skeletor favorite show kid" ]

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[ "time favourite movie everbr br i remember seeing younger since love it used rent often one video store used carry it moved find kep going back tot far away store could watch movie againbr br finally found sale bought watched again great moviebr br since though first dvd got gotdvd playerok well got time quality dvd way better believe it gotta see one" ]

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[ "spend time researching redflag methodsim unemployed refuse work job amplify depression want work walmart although im pressured family take job become leech brother would covering next months rent cant live shamebut perhaps people believe might able to im tired running around things best interest others im tired listening advice others taking it realizing never i wanted all instead use researching abilities know things im good at find effective way completely obliterating form consciousness person called ever possessed people hate me probably cant feel hate side feel anything anymore" ]

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[ "soo uhh umm anybody wanna play minecraft" ]

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[ "happened watch movie chance days ago flipping channels expectations high interesting moviein a guy thing jason lee plays paul straightlaced seattlebased fellow marry fiance karen selma blair settle unchallenging life middleclass domesticity first meet paul bachelor party professes desire engage normal bachelor party type activities surprisingly few buddies encourage case hes bit naughty gets hot bother soon trouble strife course next thing paul knows morning night before hes bed naked hula dancer motherinlaw phones inform karen way over oh hula dancer karens cousin becky julia stilesbr br from small acorn potential trouble grows mighty oak frenetic misfortune paul scrabbles misadventure misadventure trying cover hes done whilst keeping appearance dutiful familyoriented good guy whos superexcited forthcoming nuptials efforts ensure karen remains none wiser potential wrongdoing part ironically forces paul closer closer funloving becky forcing question whether really wants life seems mapped him movie contains right mix comedy romance definitely worth watch" ]

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[ "fucking done bullshiti cant trust best friendand dont want talk others romantic prospects future one dream everyday fades away say fuck it fuck would keep suffering bullshit" ]

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[ "screw ittonight iti done planning seeing morning" ]

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[ "know selfdeprecate much part still lacks confidence even worked much it scared lazy stupid way overwhelmed life actually hard certain degree justified know perhaps combination said almost like want apply want anyone else either perhaps felt sure thinking opportunity always therei actually busy lot stuff college although little bit old well also gone lot trauma both mild severe throughout years understand need kind needed time heal hate unproductive lazy hate people use excuses justify shitty behavior seen ugly looks want one those seems repetitive pattern behavior deny opportunities maybe deep unconscious part feels like deserve better life bullied much recent past left filled shame guilt noticed exact thing dating too know great personality naturally deserve love loved again whenever want date keep thinking need fix life first like good enough know excuse know excuses understand life already happening between supposed perfect moment start living yet broken mentality let go despite fact keep empowering everydayhow stop break free past stop procrastinating adhd", "yes meds help focus selfdiscipline makes things better still am make things like better better lost amazing job opportunity procrastinated much applying it taken feel awful" ]

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[ "guys im stuck bathroom please send help horni fuck nnn got stuck bathroom closing door keep updated looks like id sleep bath" ]

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[ "maybe programming spend hours day needed learn programming point is im looking handouts anything like that im ready spend countless hours work help family thoughts tl dr father passed away mother cant pay rent bills etc ask advice jobs ways increase income help mother pay rents" ]

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[ "relationship weird relationship weird little context answer shes im started dating almost months really happy togetherim afraid people frown upon tell relationship far ive told people trust sets parents know mom it happy wont let explain myself honestly feel like could go long term her title asks relationship weird might delete soon friends know account didnt enough karma throwaway" ]

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[ "fucking masturbated final fantasy xiii coverart umm bored recently friends busy decided tidy room throw awaydonate old childhood things used ps back day many awesome games like lego star wars uncharted final fantasy xiii felt nostalgia looked various coverarts came across old final fantasy xiii game coverart basically main character named lightning holding swoard standing front white background nothing special that first crush idk wanted replay game badly ps got broken long time ago sitting there holding game hand got incredibly horny took shower wanked yeehaw coverart using parts imagination im good rubbing love stick imagination fucking busted nono sauce place anyway feel bad took single coverart game trigger me good day" ]

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[ "need help talking girl aight know may best place ask advice wateva im outside friends car passes like girls theyre like waving im one turns sees one waving back on found one girls insta hit got laugh like twice conversation finished followed me problem post pictures like casually get see face cause like saw kinda faryeah send help i use snapchatimmago sleep help plz bye tldr casually send picture face girl" ]

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[ "lets face it nancy drew never great literature category babysitter club magic tree house goosebumps abc mysteries fact one original formula stories nancy perfect pretty thoughtful nice internal conflicts ever never changes ned pretty much same movie true style say liked it never great movie nostalgic flavor books held right amount suspense children almost offensive language liked push conservative dressbr br corky bit annoyance little place high school campus never quite got first place" ]

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[ "ventingi know life perfect go bashing life saying much hate me get it words hurtim gonna get rid toxic person me im going kill myself" ]

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[ "amazing movie clever using actors sets also shocking physical psychological torture both explicit implied mixed calm even humourous stretches horror always unexpected brutal im soft would shocking film ever seen message film definitely delivered sledgehammer film always remember actors for" ]

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[ "im kill myselfim year old male ive pretty much fucked life already see anyway im going successful adult little situationwell im pretty much done school", "im technically drop state drop gone school months school really done anything it really friends talk anyone all days sit room listen music read philosophical books play video games also really like mathematics taught calculus anyone knowledgeable math limits derivatives integration started teach differential equations going series little later master differential equations seems lot integration used solve differential equations want forget integrate genuinely like learning figure since im probably going college higher education institution probably teach stuff now also hear einstein mastered differential integral calculus even though im told myself hey want that saying im genius anything honestly anyone iq least stuff anyways really hate school though hate way everything enforced stuff useless get wrong think genuine learning going public schools like set it cant stand it need independent study prefer teach someone teach me know probably sound like typical winy angsty teen truth told probably am expressing rarely get to said before really nothing day life job drivers license actually apply job back never go back me probably low gpa is jobs looked honestly fucking ridiculous", "im even old enough work places like family dollar walmart seeing lot internet news prom prom stories im going junior prom one knows exist anymore besides really fucking ugly like strikingly ugly hate myself even still school girl would want go prom me gross disgusting makes want die most hate myself hate much social anxiety public hideous face made fun kid ugly words never gone away ugly smelly stupid future ill living parents basement fucked up fucked bad low life piece shit lonely feel lonely never go anywhere talk anyone eating away hate myself keep alive want die worst part is know situation fault too really thought maybe hanging overdosing maybe even jumping bridge downtown live" ]

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[ "bruh many schools closing country still open every day news school shuttijg due least case covid one school actually close live thank fully aslo school clise area school case like dont go online learning fucking thing blow" ]

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[ "help im sorta panicking went website blocked internet service provider sky said blocked clicked away closed tab parents get notification telling went blocked website anything said internet service provider searched im uk btw" ]

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[ "trying something newhey everyone name callum im live england know safe share kind information internet really care less ive diagnosed autism social anxiety severe depression im currently four different types medication make feel numbive lived life thats privileged comfortable life really supportive mum two adorable doggies ive counselling depression anxiety always temporary fix problems feel incredibly superficial makes uncomfortable seeking help them title suggests im trying something new dad left mum im still contact him still see every then still shocked core ever experienced anything like before still adjusting secondary school life getting bullied lot life really strange me got seriously depressed", "im nihilist always been always be find world live absolutely disgusting everything big corporations personal gain adverts blaring tv huge boards make spend money irrelevant junk need someone sensory processing disorder courtesy autism barely leave room without subjected kind sensory battering ram world care people makes sick thats kind world want live in cant even leave room thought around people terrifies me sit desk watching youtube videos gaming thats like spend time nearly year ago yay happy anniversary broke girl loved heart relationship harmful mental health right thing hadnt would worse state tore apart same", "im overweight secondary school walked four miles every day two miles in two miles back meaning good shape kind ate wanted lot since used eating coping mechanism depression started college kept eating much since walking anymore burning off like that im fat cut myself often need to im addicted anything helps like said world series overbearing stimuli like whirlpool pain cutting gives like anchor me steadies me relieves me contribute this nothing failed gcses teachers get access arrangements place waste year life retaking them im computing course wanted teacher like me even gotten onto second year im waste time waste space ive contemplated redflag many times thinking ending life become perfectly normal occurrence me", "im incredibly lonely since broke her void life makes develop crushes girls far easily try something crushes laugh me think killing every day one day think ill it soon im pathetic terrified actually act now one day soon enough though read far im grateful incredibly grateful maybe needed vent maybe im actually looking help know thank reading seem like anyone cares anymore fact someone listening would help please read entire spiel let know sort advice all even hug please guess sums entire thing please" ]

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[ "currently film studies as level this love song film watched opinion film simple storyline complex backstory scratch surface find thrillerchase film two men running countryside farmers committing murdersounds quite exitingbr br however need dig deeper uncover true feeling true genre suggested love story two homosexual lovers filled trust deceit betrayal told love directly film events happen out example way heaton acts towards spike almost screams untouched love affair facesbr br overall film good example british films dismissed rubbish done low budgetbr br a good film intricate story line however definitely acquired taste possibly suitable average fan hollywood blockbusters" ]

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[ "barbara stanwyck plays lily powers waitress fathers speakeasy little crummy mining town also sells men escapes new york literally sleeps way topbr br originally seen minute version pretty extremefor time nowadays pretty tame movie moves quickly tons sexual innuendosome comes pretty silly but fun today moves quickly easily ignore could never happeneven theres nothing classic monumental thisits quick gleefully dirty little film thats lots fun falls apart end little moral ending censors demanded comes across unbelievable stupid i saw theatre audience laughed itone guy quite rightfully said no way saw uncut minute version different somewhat tragic much better ending version thought lost discovered mistake believe one releasebut aware br br the acting goodstanwyck jumps role plays way top makes believe enjoys cruel sleeping around also strong supporting performances handsome donald cook george brent also look prestardom john wayne hilarious bit meek mild office worker fun dirty fast give" ]

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[ "grasping straws go farim sorrythis like publicly breaking know else do im clinically depressed im driving mad thoughts redflag constant memories thimgs ive done wrong feel may end life cant convince change background guess im early twenties angst red flags firing already afraid not diagnosed clinical depression year ago gps i wanted second opinion i like everyone else experienced changes emotion throughout life longest prolonged drop mood continued today sometimes feel ive come itive lasted five days best one point worst far ive tried number medicationsgood", "ive lost faith validity antidepressants ive tried therapy could see little nuances ticking heads never seen person boring complicated puzzle solved judge it therapy work me ive tried confiding family could see hurt eyes described felt cant take anymore either cry wolf cured see them may suspect theyll never sure ive lost friends happened slowly level purpose could longer connect acquaintances every conversation felt like mentally bashing head wall unnatural uncontrollable cognitive dissonance spread like tumour even people closest felt like distant dreams accross hallucinated worlds became desperate called redflag hotline tried describe felt kept repeating rubbish like its good reached us today reached minute mark understand felt hung me told early suicidal night redflag hotline refused help me you may call bullshit thats fine care nothing gain lying now state mind feel normal consistent like rat maze often feel ive found escape find dead end ive enough intents purposes think im bad guy average joe done stupid things before even cant stop believing truly deserve this constant state mental pain human see thus cannot understand one day finally give end all want out want constant fog hours sleep followed random bouts insomnia inability hold conversation poor work ethic selfishness want fucking normal like every god damn mother fucker see arround me rredflagwatch imagine many experienced before classic case clinical depression want fucking bythebookwasteoftime answers oh family miss you it pass time im you have tried suchandsuch drug andor therapy its good reached out fuck kinds people also give shit guidelines here real fucking human being real sence want offer advice please please do get reward maybe self satisfaction stroke ego bit tell friends saved someone get upvote care", "im dick loser fucking human grasping straws wants someone real help me" ]

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[ "dont even know bro going day nd fucking people dont even know bought pills take get back home tonight people talking like im even nd dont even know fucking easy fool people" ]

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[ "feel though many people disagree know fate sooner rather later knees pain feel within core much push point literally existing peoples sake even feel benefit either feeling good feel like right thing talking people understand urge taken core thing stopping pain trying figure get past point lost love plan to cannot see without life want space want everyone else ever cared bitter heartbroken guilt regret cannot live like anymore wanted good mother loved understood left cold again again complicated story explain many details missing know think suicide selfish felt like since lost love never forgive letting go one truly loved me stand another second reality sister sorry ever wanted like make proud me thank mother love you son mummys sorry put bad situations pushed away needed most zaney always treasure curious little mind daughter sorry could strength need grown like me know always dream love sweet girl core empty" ]

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[ "canadian homies live ontario dont feel comfortable answering obviously dont curious fellow ontarians canadians matter wonderful lads from" ]

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[ "horny post second nvm theres nothing say im tired h time lemme happy" ]

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[ "objectively pretty unlikable talks speaking you know try see best people ignored talk him claims bisexual introduced lab partner current girlfriend asked interested pursuing her stated clearly no fast forward three months winter break hanging bit frequently" ]

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[ "always feel like everyone hates either ignored people talk me give one word replies idk really want exist anymore tired breathing" ]

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[ "paris je taime film made segments math segments minutes means director seven minutes tell story movie based premise can indeed tell story short amount time premise works almost segments powerful complete satisfying presents different aspect parisian experience almost every director draws forth outstanding performances cast great neargreat actorsbr br there many powerful portrayals film hard pick one two favorites probably memorable juliette binoche grieving mother segment place des victoires gena rowlands aging beauty quartier latin catalina sandino moreno maid segment loin du me margo martindale colorado mail carrier learned speak french visit paris me arrondissement segment br br special mention must given gulliver hecq probably meanest little boy ever harass american tourist parisian metro station segment tuileriesbr br this outstanding movie wife decided rent months catch subtle points surely missed however paris photographed beautifully would suggest try see large screen case miss it" ]

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[ "dorecently ive thoughts redflagim sure depression kicking imagine situations would easier gone life keeps dragging seems like nothing going way grades dropping work life getting worse im happy myself know talk to want parents think differently this friends im lost need guidance talk hard reach out do" ]

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[ "felt sad days thats good nevermind time consume unhealthy amounts sugar" ]

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[ "wish someone elsei hate myself sucks cant anything im afraid time one likes me everyone bullies me cant live myself know do cant escape myself im thinking taking life" ]

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[ "actually good dayi dont know else really post this usually days school shit thought would today minutes school started realized forgot math homework also big test th period smaller one th ib school also mile run th period test around week write notes single lined piece paper since big history test forgot home thought doomed that instead day absolute shit finished work early st period finished math homework since sub math second period thought fucked mile run managed get it felt really proud since last mile well test th period parts multiple choice online test written part paper got multiple choice missing one question google forms saw grade instantly felt like also knew stuff written part th period didnt even need notes test knew stuff felt really happy uncommon also first time years got new lego sets ive always fan lego boosted moodwell maybe things change maybe wont today great day me though hope someone else feels like do" ]

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[ "angry want stopim sure say dropped high school work dead end job money indulge anything parents kicked let back matter much tell need move back im years old im forced adult august went hospital redflag attempt went times suicidal ideation im angry time ive tried therapy shit ive tried hard happy tried hard normal functioning part society time fighting life want live point struggling anymore want angry anymore want sad nothing works im sure" ]

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[ "chinese class cringeoh god im going die cringe syndromeim taking chinese class test talk random subject determined dice roll see screen minutes in front entire class zoom already bad enough the topic how people teach responsibility education i even know heck is teenagers interested absolutely know heck answer speak min without whole bunch fillers cringe also like unit test grade probably going quite bit ampxb httpspreviewredditrphraulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfebdcbebcfcdbaeee wait sec recording im absolutely done" ]

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[ "starting work next week seriously wanting end theni really dont want go back work im supposed to dont get breaks end work coworkers nothing attempts friends them hate me dont know why dont say anything controversial im nice everyone full insult face whenever bring boss doesnt care cant find new job anxiety would much im tired putting much effort job called fucking loser directly face top off redflag attempt ago arms covered scars considering judge every little thing appearance theyre gonna field day realized im likable friendship lasted week me slitting wrists messy obv didnt work plug someone could get drugs could overdose on ill probably try hang wednesday went bullied school bullied college bullied work im meant planet mistake" ]

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[ "drown alcoholi drown alcohol people around want drown lake realise difficult thoughts getting hand realise way thinking normal realised happy myself realised hated anyone ever hated me even realise drank way much drink drink drink drink hoping would never face reality but" ]

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[ "im going kill myself im surei date soon" ]

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[ "anyone want play animal crossing me anyone want play animal crossing me would nice play game someone friend code sw" ]

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[ "terrifiedthis first time months ive self harmredflag thoughts im able make go away like feeling like this want feel different" ]

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[ "want disappear id bored know id back minutes later" ]

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[ "hope yall googled why pee red forget december st" ]

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[ "guilt eating aliveso couple weeks back mother episode stopped taking pills cared whole episode eventually bring hospital weeks visit presumed dad going let know going visiting cant drive btw phone good times weeks make sure ok ended getting visit hospital guilt eating alive feel like ending" ]

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[ "guys lost v card today gf kind drunk hanging bed kind just happened unexepected amazing" ]

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[ "dont give upif think one cares youre wrong mom walk room scream cry try wake up dad run hold moms hand cry siblings school crying bathrooms something reminded you principal announces school friends break tears one kid bullied run scream unable cry boyfriendgirlfriend cry weeks unable eat sleep even shower funeral family sit living room complete silence unable say word whether know not people care you people dont expect" ]

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[ "feeling worthless take years figure im addictim doctor prescribed benzos benzos since im guess im depths withdrawal keep reliving whole life new pyschiatrist cussed friday month ago messed rx reduced w refill set telehealth appt march th informed said get rx fix march th till hell friday spoke w nurse told would change called said im making look crazy wanted goscripts changes person sorry im going suffer long guess thought would pleasantly suffer silence asked cold heartedly want prescribe valium liking scolded calling cvs make sure dont pick refills told wanted prescribed years want billed", "two telehealth appts hung phone screaming bye moved hours away leaves office pick up anyways guess im addict keep hating im anything right addicted benzos never anything hard dealt w ignorant docs past pull shit take business streets isnt prescribed benzos doesnt know somebody knows somebody gets benzos im broke getting older dont want illegal shit whole shit questioning relationships failures like damn prescribed wrong drug chose heroin younger least help benzo addicts get fucked system making us look pyscho doc makes mistake arent feeling good even mention risk getting pegged addict losing rx sanity im really hating hour ride tomorrow make thoughts dissipate feeling hopeless anxiety anxiety thanks" ]

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[ "give someone something stupid child years later regret want back dont even use itokay ask back also lets say old ginormous golden freddy plush gave say distant dad hates" ]

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[ "secretly wish got universe id love pet dragon name barbecue" ]

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[ "fuck lifegrew nothing one nothing me friends one wants talk me currently spent entire life playing video game barely eating game thing makes happy p family threating take stuff away get job shit even tho cant live smallest place ever ones hiring im fucking miserable nothing worth live" ]

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[ "want live twentyonly days thereabouts th thats deadline guess maybe setting one finally make able take next step want twenty want idea theres another year ahead another year soulcrushing loneliness another year selfhatred another year wanting die want futureme know ever good oneim person ive met entire life truly think hopeless see nothing myself ugly toxic piece shit dead set path inevitable empty funeral days ago finally set in im getting return investment need im unlovedno family lover hardly youd call friendsand honestly pretty unlovable ugly face ugly body ugly personality trifecta considering love one things keeps going guess realized meaningless is cant keep living people care love anymore enough thats im at days either man bite literal bullet wimp keep living hell begrudgingly call life heres hoping" ]

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[ "yooo whos wants talk especially ur south americayeahya boy wanna speak people ur south america dont matter still pm" ]

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[ "im done care anymore im ending sooni hate myself hate world hate life supposed be ive suicidal since young least th grade always thought things would get better dont everyone everyone get happy ending life shit show shit show brief moments happiness cant seem find makes worth it cant wait old age freak accident free pain want now want know hurt most im fucking alone never special anyone never friends lovers even family closest person ever life straight told tonight never meant shit him hurts much want loved ill never enough something wrong me im cut life ill peace soon know that first time ever im crying tears happinessitll soon feel way anymore" ]

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[ "want understand dontim posting place wanting understand im old late s understand posting want commit redflag also understand redflag phone lines ive thought redflag long remember hospitalized already constant part me never wanting die part wanting live find hard people learned blend become like outside found anytime reached learn felt one like learned caused issues seemed could ever solve stopped landed hospital shoes ive lived life got married created new living being built company helped hundreds people find happiness wearing mask mask heavy ive open close friends go managing logistics leaving life overwhelmingly attempts help find help want put mask attempt appease people important ive started seeing professional mind numbingly easy time want med talk feelings today said part must want help took step coming them seem understand never want help anything personality flaw mine reason came try make predefined eventually easier people care about question many people saying i want kill myself really saying i want kill know stop hurting adulting things needed handled die id helium tent right now like said im wanting die im wanting live different" ]

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[ "help girl agreed meet get drink ask free wednesdayim free thursday saturday says oh not say cant saysoh htf responseoh say available anyway actually date" ]

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[ "tampai moved tampa fl good job moved becalms last job stressful cant take more want impress parents sister cant anymore decideded end it sorry spelling errors im give upn im drunk give up rthanjks reddit great time" ]

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[ "jetsetting life wants dieim living peoples dreams now loving family always supportive do loving partner sacrificed much us together graduated top class travelling every months freelance job pays enough parents partner always chip afford travelling see work out planning get masters done foreign country soon live near partner friends really supportive always want hang make time have everynight still feel like kill myself" ]

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[ "sure anymorei brothers wedding coming look forward to thatyeah know give up hate planet live on hate people people self centered cruel ive even guilty times hate too im seeing shrink next month maybe help know th time ive entered therapy since first work" ]

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[ "hit certain goal probably kill myselfgiving around days complete it around th birthday tired myself tired world tired feeling like burden tired fucked up want go sleep never get again ive got windex with ammonia ammonia plastic bag options nobody probably readcare matter guess" ]

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[ "telling jokes corona gone day hipster burn mouth pizza ate cool" ]

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[ "boyfriend cop live sweeden cops got high authority boyfriend abusive harrases infront everybody let gohe forces sex anal sex led hospital many times asleep goes in lost sleep days days wake sexual acts done mehe hits time slightest disagreement want go friends goes enraged giving black eyes every thenhe burnt fathers memory led fight tried punch pictures father memories us beautiful childhood always hits back harder breaking foot bending wrists knocks cannot anything hurt times size always threatens cut hair eyebrowsi tried contacting local police ended punished kept locked room letting go bathroom embarrassing therei cannot anything poor nobody friend phonei know life get rid nowhere else go maybe suiciding painless way would really help redditors got ideas please share them could find solutions online f scared boyfriend need help" ]

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[ "free ebook last chance sit act less month prep may given dream score decided apply test optional current act giving confidence well dont still one shot trust me tips personal dream score whole lot closer may think google form link free ebook registration httpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwghttpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwg know thinking this must scam i heard many different tips tricks makes different honesty would think exact thing however spare minute time assure one best decisions made comes act prep sat act february achieved good score not good enough ivies international student uk figured use apply could never compete students one friends convinced give another shot registered july act really rusty however only month prepare super stressed really thought could achieve good score but spent countless number hours reading different tips tricks majority tips completely failed use however i discovered hidden gems propelled super happy celebrated getting however seen many students able sit act due cancellations simply cannot get dream score say dream", "i thought could never reach let alone honesty started feel really guilty i many niche unknown tips acquired shared anyone want share help anyway can i process creating free ebook released within weeks be free amazon hours make sure download asap launches remember applying year still december act one last shot lose interested receiving ebook launches just fill linked google form you use email google one receive amazon link goes live completely free pages so contain waffling best tips acquired hope help many possible best wishes drdurak google form link free ebook registration httpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwghttpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwg" ]

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[ "im hopeless redflag solution end sufferingive extremely suicidal pretty long time now ive depressed around years ive made failed attempts dont want live anymore fear knowing exactly happen finally end life something worry about wont hold back ive finally enough something im constantly thinking about death seems peaceful im constantly wondering would like finally end sadness end ability feel pain death seems desirable aspect worry family friends theyll feel hurting isnt enough stay alive theyd sad finallyit time werent support knew bad struggling maybe theyll say selfish end life selfish supporting needed support love theyllokay life isnt worth living youre living yourself im living myself trust me didnt want go path tried getting help depression tried everything could many things helped temporarily end im still finding hole cant get of im still completely miserable friends family dont care enough me", "im hopeless going far long dont know much longer take go plan last night boyfriend got it spent night crying usual always cry night usually him made feel particularly unloved uncared last night knows depression hes around see dark sides feel hopeless suicidal sad doesnt really know support right way already wanted end life pain feel daily basis maybe last night pushed closer towards ready it entire mentality lately die end ive suffering long time nothing gotten better nothing worked dont understand point living feel pain suffer die end skip part die instead going life suffering im completely hopeless cant find one reason live says lot million reasons end life cant take anymore" ]

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[ "sacha baron cohen genius movie good although film nearly reach quality tvshow still funny seriously wicked moments ive liked ali g since first time saw material show think hes one best comedy characters time say peter dragon action blues brothers biggest surprise film theyve actually got serious actors dance gambon absolutely respect even more good sense take chance nothing really bad say filmfunny juvenilehey what br br one thing mr g sequel pleasebr br" ]

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[ "im starting think crush likes back meanive looked things shes like staring stuffim honestly freaking inside" ]

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[ "know well emotionally fucking venting ranting ur professor ur weekly reflection essay true story second week" ]

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[ "friend beat sure whether sad jealousjust got phone call sister let know k paramedicno paramedic bloody good paramedic funny kind would help anyone apparently problems work his sister tell kind muddled understandable k retained left opiates patients need full dose injected himself found turn shift yesterday many friends afford lose one hand guess one less person disappoint die godspeed k love you" ]

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[ "broke found money drink like usual drinking problem escaping feelings problem sometimes food tv games phone but thing week important several interviews high paying jobs broke anymore instead celebrating still want die want anymore alone financially supporting bf animals love want leave deserve better know broke lol" ]

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[ "guys know people named dick originally came fathers penis" ]

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[ "saying hello languages zdravo kaixo salam prshndetje hallo" ]

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[ "endi think im gonna try attempt month two im honestly done life shit nobody needs wants me nonstop suicidal thoughts weeks now see reason keep living im gonna get worse everything gonna keep tearing shreds life getting worse improving years month worst month idk else do im welcome here best leave wont hurt anyone else wont problem anyone elses life burden anyone else" ]

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[ "wonderful gritty war film focuses inner torment blinded marine al schmid although tough unpleasant end heroic schmids triumph disability depression battle scene superb one bone pick matter many bullets fired never saw water dirt kicked impacts hurt realism live it fine performance eleanor parker again girl friend" ]

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[ "feel like killing thinking redflag everydayim male convinced im gonna end bottom scrapes barrel one all constant instances disrespect people whole life rejection people wanting get know im different depression kicks hard work hard cant help feel hopeless feel like im even going anywhere whats pointanywaybody loves need better reason live" ]

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[ "hate myselfcurrently home drunk ive wanted kill since around maybe years old im now thoughts seem come waves tried exercising eating healthy seeing doctor social none works keep coming back wanting die worst part feel like could fixed getting relationship know make things worse im lonely crave attention get wish could exceedingly happy like people see almost exhausting me year die" ]