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[ "exactly one year th july tried failed ended snapping ligaments landing ankle unconscious since gotten surgery fix massive scar also developed arthritis multiple slipped discs hurt time days bad think killing escape physical pain really really fucking angry last year fuck hide scissors knives got interrupted mother cut perfect hanging set had minutes would peace guess what today kg heavier since day still wish free nooooooo stay bitch earth honestly see drugs help people weed occasion helped calm down would love freed worries thoughts since years old feel like suffered enough back pain bitch without honestly would still feeling suicidal excruciating physical pain is rant one year since attempt" ]

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[ "everywherebeen struggling depression severe anxiety whole life ive attempted times recent week ago bipolar well showing signs schizophrenia mom believes fully bought yet im seeing symptoms scarring me also recovering addict current alcoholic need words encouragement maybe someone tell gets better thanks time guys god bless" ]

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[ "im boutta restart like windows vista hiccup sneezed farted time whats happen" ]

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[ "neither irl dog minecraft dog die today cuz either im literally crying please give fake internet points make feel better" ]

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[ "dont see purpose livingi male med school student third world country recently mi grades kibda low friends parents always yell not manly enough gf much ibto church etc recently routine consist waking up stealing food fridge avoid contact anybody hace considering redflag since long time ago like year so want belive things get better someday everything change cant see how life gets worde everyday fights parents work failuresi want end pain" ]

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[ "okay ppl need chill everyone salty everything need chill tf literally posted smt tired writing many college essays responses get whyd procrastinate get used kid you started earlier hold tf started frixkin novemberrrrr applied eight schools different countries never procrastinated literally submitted everything well advance wtfffff trying connect ppl like whattttokay thanks got pissed sec lol" ]

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[ "killed moonlord expert mode switch aw shit go" ]

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[ "nick see please dm friend back summer leave got grounded dont remember username reddit met subreddit username words guy thats remember nick see this u pls dm wanna clarify stop texting snap know good good friend me anyone knows pls tell thanks remi" ]

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[ "writing thislet absolutely clear know devastate family know devastate friends know devastate community let also clear saying depression made look horrific consequences realize simply willpower live life solely benefit others tomorrow going drown lake cold painful perfect quiet end quiet life perhaps lived longer would find something live for perhaps would make something myself perhaps none would happen year line kill anyway let cruelty hope drag another painful year know problems lie intrinsically within myself simply cannot bear longer sad seventeen years old im going hurt family ways even vengeful person dream of done sad tired goodbye" ]

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[ "quick storytime bc im super embarrassed feel stupid months later skip video httpsyoutube_xo_ihaap viewer asks question mine married course realize video months later due friend tellingyeah" ]

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[ "im going crazyplease help me think im going crazy need someone talk to dont anyone help nt want risk put stationry mental hospital phone call would help much" ]

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[ "diewhy tried hang instinct kicks in want die fucks sake" ]

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[ "fuuuuck worst first off let say never seen heard friend chatted online mom would get super mad caught talking us earlier today friends mom threw bottle her bleeding over arms legs head neck everywhere told group chat happening immediately started panicking made quick decision call mom phone house call like different phone numbers live city rush questions terrified might bleed out one point said breath felt lightheaded dizzy operator stopped asking questions wait felt like eternity replying anything sent thought dead around half later operator said able reach scene still waiting full story happened stressful event life fucking tired tldr friend attacked abusive mom call" ]

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[ "ok basically parents sister grandparents gone boat day yesterday we belong boat club came back sitting around table dad end grandfather from mums side told dad carrying knife whilst boat case fell could cut free life jacket kind idiot that yes think shall cut thing keeping alive apparently weather water shit faced high waves wind axopar dad still laughing grandfathers stupidity bloody hell must screw loose" ]

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[ "spookiest cat change mind shes black called wednesday wednesday addams hates people occasionally nice the rest time scrunch bites black collar studded glittery fish metal thingsit" ]

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[ "fuck would want dieeverything terrible tried writing th fucking attempt somehow worse first im trying draw year half year old could better im terrible making friends even question goddamn sexuality time cant stand toxic behaviour matter much ive tried anxiety trauma still stuck heart brain like c waiting make go mad second now death seems like even harmreduction could possibly avoid dissapointing tiny handful people still somehow believe me im fucking embarassement cant even write proper english motherfucking fuck even mother language cant take shit anymore guns even legal cant even kill properly end me" ]

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[ "logical reason end life emotional one inferior never happy therapy optioni pretty much tired forced live every day faced nothingness despite trying find different perspectives improve myself care improving meaningless first all guy average attraction weak frail make eating healthy smooth face intelligence lower end average proven intelligence test school resulted going special class pretty bad school college interested able do special ed limited could achieve this failed college get university wanted go maths stats physics barely scraped foundation math even constant revision active reading mathematical textbooks went subject best in getting around c college got equivalent e partially due lack understanding absence interest towards it social person because whilst agreeable enjoy leaving house eating out travelling nature animalspets sports ive tried numerous occasions ive hated every second point makes depressed also little friends throughout life currently one distant friend meet every weeks want alone ive liked ive never liked friends ive kid", "ive pretty much forced presence ive never girlfriend likely die virgin cant get laid want girlfriend something despite trying smarts willingness involved fetish involves bodily functions least somewhat attractive me compassion willingness leader relationship good talkerarguer educated good politicsdebate plus optional sex means nothing desire intimacy relationship blame issues anybody else desires idea achieve hobbies really occasionally force write wanted writer one point hate every second always have wanted goal follow hate want give offers positive value life hobby interested politics debate history science maths linguistics general knowledge despite trying actively read interested forget try talk embarrass forgot read seconds ago despite reading over taking notes actively reading it going end life soon believe nothing live for tried find things worked little therapy therapy shit country cant afford private therapy might desire get debating politics science maths etc knowledge despite trying cant retain anything even theres nothing learn academically clubs city million involved anything similar see people younger smarter hate much know comparing necessarily good means fucking nothing choose fucking it family", "yes care much removing world feelings try convince live care enough spare death want talk somebody im tired keeping myself hope even die spend time talking guys go" ]

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[ "worth anymoreshe never asks whats wrong anymore guess cause want hear it knows always care want there calls best friend think knows am know her third run antideppresants worst month life still going im fucking depressed cant even bring anything even think energy kill mmyself point living me transgender completely un passing one believes wants support me friends parents give two shits everyones forgotten fact suffer every day life think im better now im young everyone says everything left life know timeline ends here know one care glad glad to" ]

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[ "feel like im going kill sooni know expand title things going okay cant deal them ruin everything becomes even impossible im tired trying want tell people know im posting guess wish id die already im piece shit" ]

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[ "anyone else wanna die even though circumstances really arent badam one really wants kick bucket because sure loneliness isolation makes harder honestly dont believe utopian future solve problems often think unrealistic future might even help depression alone this" ]

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[ "hey guess what didnt sex neither you" ]

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[ "idk vent guessim sitting bathroom knife im sure im gonna yet likelihood ill cause superficial damage patch up move on wish could cut chest open rip lungs done im one friends vent everyone else falling apart drifted away feel like theres one go to ive tried therapy ive tried medications doesnt work think wasnt meant exist world" ]

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[ "wanna dieim scared try again unsuccessful redflag worst honestly reason alive matter time" ]

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[ "i perfected fooling everyone thinking im great unless bring something up roommates dont know me surface level friends family nowhere near me pain own loneliness own feel life worthless pointless suffer matter good circumstance is want die dont know much torture endure" ]

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[ "feeling psychoticim sorry im breaking rules cant seem function read rules im feeling like crap feel like bashing head wall took walk didnt seem help" ]

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[ "plans tomorrow includes asking crush mean already pretty late wake dumdum" ]

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[ "join rcult_of_fuji r bunch people havin fun getting battle fair king appleslice" ]

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[ "posting gnarly space facts run knowledge day three days remain wow three days thats insane always questions topics me let know comments ill see tomorrow fact lets talk little bit saturns lesserknown moons cool are titan enceladus iapetus cant get attention want give info on im going waste time here lets dive right in ampxb dione first moon dione like moons tidally locked parent planet however theres something odd way dione tidally locked side dione faces saturn fewer craters side face saturn exact opposite many scientists expecting could indicate point past massive impact may caused diones orientation completely reverse ampxb mimas third favorite saturnian moon one feature named herschel crater put simply massive crater likely made impact nearly obliterated mimas big makes mimas look like death star star wars ampxb rhea back nasa announced observations cassini probe suggested rhea could small ring system would marked first time moon known rings cassini observations unfortunately revealed evidence ring material ampxb tethys final moon tethys dense liquid water suggests moon may almost entirely made water ice saturnian moons super interesting loved fact little quirks" ]

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[ "desperate break upim lost desperate break boyfriend months broke completlt detroyed me im year old girl good student really feel like ii reason continue living life losng hes first everything world enetered state total desperation dumped me still insistted friends remaining important part eachothers life told hard me hurtful course id never wanan miss him since still feelings him still love anything else got harder harder me felt losing him feeling replacing feeling lover friend two months friendship noticed new girl life snapped u see course cnt focus lectures anymoreuniversity one thing kept going cause evry day see much cut contact compeltely im dying im devasted hes fine absoletely fine every time see happier hes always smiling adn said me doesnt love anymore said wants friend cant friend love much never gonna able finds bbetter girl replace im sorryim really sorry know longer together know say behaviour know move byt cant parents done supporting me tell stress out glad hes longer life one reach to dont care anymore want best him obvously negative factor life rn wanna stop" ]

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[ "dont care someone rickrolls cuz love song sansrolling thats whole different story" ]

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[ "give hope dontmy life pain understand cant get happiness want end it worth longer stay alive" ]

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[ "know one movie could possibly compete opening night thats bergmans persona movies simply amazing richness ideas hard grasp first sight profound meditation relation art life one actress myrtle gordon gena rowlands finds touch character playing stage would want to accidental death one fans young girl declares love myrtle hit car leaves deep mark actress starts asking question related aging starts affect solution becomes alcohol help much myrtle one step away complete madness scene kill imaginary or not spirit dead girl one thrilling scenes found cassavets film movie ends display genius behalf director films theater scene gena rowlands improvise scene since myrtle comes drunk opening night perform part accurately scene filmed spontaneously live audience laughter genuine chemistry casavates rowlands absolutely amazing liked persona interested movie offers substantial ideas alongside great entertainment movie suit fine" ]

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[ "went philosophy holethe thing alive completely normal feel pain matter feel happiness content pain there got thinking pain exist reason to universehuman body allowed pain exist normally case logically want life smart enough know way change properties nature would cause live im smart enough know im smart want experience pain anymore experience pretty much key understanding need out" ]

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[ "well boys it shaved nuts without nicking skin third time always charm" ]

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[ "everything went hill fastlast night typical got work feeling kind depressed wanted hurt sister said could crash place ive depressed suicidal since way anyways around four sister asks watch son get nap work goes upstairs get call dadid kicked online school second year online id transfered local high school bullying im extremely socially awkward get along authority figures constant battle teachers well gotta go back highschoolim supposed senior nearly credits much mental hospitals since seventh grade ive never thought redflag would best option now always just welloption seems like im gonna high school drop loser life really worth it edit id talk parents father told go home pissed theyd think looking attention way get trouble" ]

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[ "thoughts livinghello all last sunday tried kill myself tried cut arm hard failed live aftermath honest either properly even try sucks lot attention people knew tried it died couple days im alone again seems people care enough reach see really bad spot enough friend mine realize couple people care bit more make bit happy honest still thoughts redflag mainly think actually better everyone people care would sad yes worry them fling onto everyone make couple people care start dislike me mentioned previous post girl love anything would say life thats big compliment forced things like trying meet hard person growing distant think today first day months speak all really fucked up definitely best thing happened me end do tried kill myself pushed onto her drove away stupid actions would set would questions would say goodbye ask remember good things me", "what suffering day cant talk her think greatest time either know thinks feels quite sure talk anymore maybe wait couple weeks actually kill myself talk shell forget me best alright actually started write story ask everyone reading live for well thats say wanted pour heart friends cant keep bothering people helped much already least read want to lot better" ]

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[ "whats something made cry helped realize kind patheticive pussy crybaby life think realized pretty much worthless regards cried piss poor video game mindset definitely something like wow cant even win dumb game even incompetent thought first time actually dropped tear realized pretty much lmao you" ]

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[ "friend suicidal dohey made friend school whos extremely suicidal ive known three weeks hes talked lot hes depressed doesnt want live ive course extremely concerned tried help theres nothing really do hes therapy sent hospital multiple times not attempting cutting thoughts redflag dont really know do seems really happy sometimes hes depression years ive kind hoped itdokayim worried hes trans grandmas supportive grandpa isnt he lives grandma grandpa messaged tonight said hes genuinely considering forget him ive sent long messages hes important many people care doesnt really respond says something else doesnt matter get im saying isnt helping hes upset dont even know say anymore ive tried listening point feel like thats enough want talk hotline something like said earlier hes hospital hasnt helped do" ]

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[ "im fucking tired constant problems pain sufferingso already adhd little friends got depression started struggling cant tell anybody though im scared wont believe think im looking attentionim still pretty young ive considered redflag im scared family need way" ]

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[ "yrhey im last child brothers dad got killed siblings grownim mom gave im old enough provide everything im depressed cant take anymore attempt redflag time didnt work got sick boyfriend trys talking im going try soon gun hurts wake knowing im alive situation cant wait future" ]

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[ "time sleep p night yall f l l e r f l l e r f l l e r f l l e r" ]

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[ "hey dude quite possibly gamer hugs" ]

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[ "god im tiredi want die bad know hurt horribly might fail wish could leave hope afterlife everything want perfect people damn mean here dont like live constant stress anyone know easiest way go" ]

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[ "theres really big cliff near house basically walk jumpbut want hurt family ampxb theres much pain im tired myself keep failing everything try im unlovable fat sack shit want gone wish everyone forgot existance could kill myself" ]

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[ "someone help please ive harming years really want stopi never cut feel depressed anxiety several things cause sharp pain myself far tell feels like im addicted endorphins released start impossible stop last days even weeks main thing squeeze nose way skin inside gets pinched causes sharp pain gives huge release feels amazing calms me things drive nails side finger punching skin nail finger similar release there really want stop thanks advance advice" ]

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[ "school started cant really handle thingsthe reason havent killed becoase couldnt girlfriend would feel horrible loves soo much love her struggled depression since met her school started realize dont really friends also girlfriend moved away cant see anymore hour ago mom tried help prepae school got freaked touching stuff got today thought would mess up ended screaming continued help ended crying feel horrible becoase awful kid justifacation mom drugs treat whole familly horibly feel like really end myself" ]

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[ "rapunzel cute hey one else hair long soft" ]

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[ "oops dentist appointment hours sleep goodnightttt" ]

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[ "guys believe class rings worth itwhy not im junior high school im considering getting class ring im sure theyre worth theyre charging singular ring" ]

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[ "become extremely difficult find good horror movie anymore thought movie good thrillerbr br could better production values kept going suspense twists real reservations seeing movie because cover afraid would excessively bloody gory wrongbr br although lot scary parts lot suspense drama toobr br the acting dead line better would expect micro budget horror flick characters believablebr br the movie really thrilling quite scary moments makes grab seat ending credits rollbr br because production values the sound good example" ]

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[ "suicide note passengerthere rules obeyed standartsliving charade thy all real purpose save mentally ill ocd non responsive meds everday lose part identity constant fight beetween two spheres brain star dust ready fulfilled life go back everthing started love friend yamur mix passion love charity anything healthy enoughi love family matter lot tolerate daily melancholic suicidal depression obsessions sake them world rules grand scale justice purpose distract mind create illusion second forget exist yes exist must bad joke walking eventual death us day us suffer us happy distractionfor example girl loved texting ilove much without even seeing face voice yet know never meet touch ever top void calls me always dreamt jumping bosphurus bridge jumping look mu childhood photos family photos photos girl deeply fell love in want lose tarnish love call coward probably right anyway sleeping pills jumping bosphurus crystsl blue current choice maybe time would free dying misery become part eternal silence maybe revorn example another big bang maybe never knows maybe simulation th grade student real day universr cease exist availi want thanks reddit full nice also weird people", "people shows true selvesi love yamur foreverand family morn finally freein another life brothers bye die born nothing become nothing suicide note" ]

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[ "im asking someone talk it need help convincing best friend faultits fault way convince not love her keeps breaking heart knows every area life gone dogs pushed past breaking point tonight swallowed pills im going send one last text know tell" ]

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[ "life going nowhere friends care me feel like nothing burden familyi lowestive ever felt right now plans four different friends today one returned phone call text odd occurrence feel like im ignored forgotten soon leave room dropped college earlier year handle pressure classes depression live home tell parent disappointed know fix it times happy im distracted something like movie work food one source income minimum wage job feel noticed appreciated think future see nothing think im alone killing myself many people give two shits want feel way help me" ]

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[ "ask trans girl questions unless jest thou look no pity thy thought perhaps" ]

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[ "using sub diary part hello scrolling new guy nice meet you nice day anyway today bit productive started working birthay gift friend sadly remembered moment drawings suck well either nothing next days try best make acceptable school begins tomorrow bit productive again teachers really handle whole lockdown situation quite questionably fuck life guess wake tomorrow posts made much earlier also means less likely anyone sees this happen see though thanks stopping by good night reddit" ]

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[ "guys freaking right now new season pixel gun d scp themed one skins logo back new pet scp" ]

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[ "feeling completely worthless pointless rantingthe anxiety getting worse worse year goes on barely talk anyone anymore phone calls always impossible cant go doctor therapist help cant call them supposed call someone apartment finally better place obviously never really going happen redflag text helpline useless get empty platitudes go walkyeah thats gonna solve shitty personality men loved abusive assholes second one told jump front train since everyone would better off didnt say it already knew actually fucking miss despite ripping heart out need help dont know get im useless theres nothing inside meim incapable taking care myself worst kid feel like late actually kill now im forced stay suffering forever him cant break heart like that thank god good dad lord knows cant take good care himim failure every aspect life" ]

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[ "emotional support time im girl therapist try help need it information distributed ill give honest point view ill even try give advice alsoim help avoid problems" ]

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[ "even like watching late night talk shows found one really interesting imagine probably close truthit feels like honest account means anything kinda feel people somewhat watch it nice movie saturday night" ]

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[ "update yesterdays post da post httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskqyi_managed_to_do_something_big_epicutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf fuck saw astolfo internet said no also thinks big gay" ]

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[ "caught movie ifc enjoyed it although felt like editing job little rough though may deliberate little bit hard time figuring going first seemed going little bit pulp fictionstyle nonlinear plot presentation seemed little forced though certainly think movie worth watching think could used little cleaning up scenes seem make sense others br br im surprised see rating low is outstanding really serious problems gave movie show least laurence fishburne act wants to must told matrix movies" ]

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[ "ok ive hours need stayanother fix sleep schedule didk it touch bed fall asleep dont wanna anything especially hw" ]

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[ "american exposed character before good disappointed nothing compare to found enjoyment mindless idiot humor american teen movies although slightly similar type humor stop laughing hardly ever laugh loud movie usually movie funny parts me movie funny start finish disappointment over im actually going buy dvd find it" ]

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[ "saying opinions random movie get girlfriend day honestly even though stark unlikeable times way many things going in still liked iron man much original" ]

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[ "know much longer thisim aleady ussues alcohol like parents im drunkright now im drunk much often thing makes ok im fucking disappointment" ]

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[ "heart cant handle anymorethe loneliness ive lonely entire life im almost late twenties cant take anymore everything try never enough theres whole side human experience ill never get experience many people able understand this extremely rare imagine constantly observer peoples relationships never wanted never able experience intimacy hellive done everything improve myself never enough im ready dieif heart could literally break sadness loneliness thats occurring me cant take anymore" ]

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[ "health class fuck homework conversation parents teen relationships premarital sexabstinence record answers why dont get needs happen teacher reason sre taught everything go talk parents fml dont wanna this" ]

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[ "passively suicidali dont plans end life dont courage im huge wuss paindiscomfort feel like found cancer fatal disease wouldnt care got accident came would feel relief kind want die dont want one end it anyone relate" ]

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[ "totally surprised good movie actually first saw mildly amused must say however still disappointed donald oconnor given bigger better role enormous talentbr br there great chemistry among main cast members matthau never funnierbr br i tremendously glad picture got made get see lemmon matthau team last time vehicle puts talent great use brent spiner proves data star trek next geeration good character playbr br the storyline really quite simple comedy characters work really well laughed heartily throughout movie highly recommend it" ]

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[ "itwhats purpose go school get job get wife kids grow old die death catches us matter amazing life live ive suicidal thoughts since like im senior year college least another ahead grad school want pediatric occupational therapy work special needs population whats fucking point family friends dropping left right healthiest people know getting cancer scummiest dwellers continue succeed really see purpose life anymore whole life ive pushed idea away family would heartbroken fuck cares anymore selfish act theres little ones home theyd get it work go numerous times week live fulfilled life seems utterly pointless maybe im missing something here many honestly say waste time energy look stars night helps realize fucking irrelevant one us bigger picture" ]

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[ "anyone san antonio want chillsome fucks work obliterated emotions tonight make worse work considering harrassment persay first time life get invited bar drink coworker whove ive grown like were leave ducks bathroom piss decide too enter coworker stall taking shit talking shit guy neither notice standing right there first guy calls creep accusses killing dog convinces guy invited ditch lying bar were going go somewhere else instead finishes shit exits notices me thing says well im going sugarcoatitwhatever fuck means hes never expressed displeasure me caught talking shit making pretty bad rumour hit pretty hard since give dog recently save money also coming back houston people stayed went logs caught them lied explaining themselves called out actually bitched not giving enough info even though bought groceries open book failed ask anythingoh yeah bitch reditor use dog thread asked advice investing house im fucking crushed want good friend here" ]

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[ "depressed several years ago thought ok seems come backlong story short fucked youth scarred pretty badly got shit together thought right track this years ago however lately past months so feeling horrible back point suicidal thoughts cannot talk people problems matter hard try tried several psychiatrists etc hate job get recognition anything do hours exhausting see change future applied several jobs reply qualified finance wise stuff going shitter well surprise costs makes savings like bucket hole it last euros moment luckily girlfriend but stupid know wrong dick towards her means well frustrations get irritated work her relationship tense weird thoughts dumping click anymore crying im alone thought leave sooner later nobody friends only drinking buddies family non existing due problemsissues first sentence feel lonely lot even though like alone really know going post apologies possible mistakes english first language sort weird back phase killing scare calms sort way knowing could end miserybe peace one little act" ]

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[ "bruh answered textscalls ex miss bad fjciixsomednf fine help" ]

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[ "first saw film seven years old completely enchanted years unable find film called twenty one stumbled upon film accident two weeks ago bought copy although memory film little hazy way disappointed saw animation film superb conjuring entire world believable well animated drawn film alone film also plot enchant entertain adults children alike floating island mad general friendly pirate granny well constructed love story film let would recommend film one" ]

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[ "usmy friend wants die cant help her want die wont talk me friend trying balance us making two us feel worthless us want die question wholl crack first" ]

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[ "kinda feel terrible born later like idk anyone else really weird think everything im gonna miss ill either dead old enjoy amazing technologies well develop colonization mars crazy virtual reality kinda wish born even later feeling like im getting old lel" ]

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[ "cant give start ya bestselling teenage rebellion" ]

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[ "best way stop feelinghi ive suicidal roughly years hospitalized times since last visit actively trying improve genuinely started feel better shit hit fan life past several months ive feeling depressed suicidal sleeping become difficult lay bed sudden wave holy fuck need hits me deep dont want act thoughts want stop ive tried medication past made feel worse advice stop feeling constantly wanting drive car bridge thanks" ]

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[ "know fightin freak knuckles were pumpkin ready" ]

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[ "two hollywoods great child stars elizabeth taylor mickey rooney perfectly teamed deliver one alltime family classics story determined year old girl whose adoration horses allow turn away goal win british nationals mickey rooney newly orphaned drifter looking tie follow dreamsbr br a beautiful side plot reveals girls mother ambitions young girl repeatedly overruling fathers decisions favor spirited daughter mother seems know best scene exhausted taylor rushes go school priceless father protests why let go school shell drop exhaustion noon worry shed back within half hour saturday brilliant technicolor sumptuous music score beautiful faces telling bittersweet story heres good reason old saying makem like anymore" ]

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[ "teacher rold believe problems always helping others happyi overdue important papers school wrote school counseling struggles thoughts message shared everyone school parents later oral exam french done person online lessons teacher like you like find want get back home talk people like really sorry hear mental health problems hard believe it teachers like come from always seem happy helping others problems around school even noticed one talks foundation students like really talk talkpeople let talk problems get lost little world really say anything myself present sad around people try help me give fake empathy kinda role started exam" ]

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[ "redflag hotlines garbagefor first time life used crisis center fucking joke is parrot emotions back like talking robot you seem frustrated im sensing lot anger so feel burden never using shit again im better deed badim already drunk home alone would go drive train tracks wanna kill anyone else driving" ]

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[ "cant handle itlet start saying im going hurt every time im feeling overwhelmed mind goes straight wanting myself wont it ive got much going it even slightest bit overwhelmed cant help start suicidal thoughts want stop dont know how cant even bring therapist ive got kids theyll report it itll turn problems need stop please help dont really want it seems like brain thinks answer problems" ]

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[ "really need friendi bpd course months ive gotten heart broken lost jobs dropped credit classes hospital got cut mother sister ive thought giving never follow dream family childspecifically right im debating abandoning car walking natural selection think help help please" ]

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[ "wanted say nice day stay hydrated check friends case hear last time friendly reminder you guys gals nonbinary pals" ]

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[ "feel worthless hated everyonein reality two friends talking rare rest people know me thinking weird poor not people tells satanist go church try make angry later tell aggressive hobby panic disorder might get panic attack day reasons live" ]

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[ "m turning soon delete nudes girls eyes fucking weird post also typed phone theres probably spelling errors also forgive weird name made quick account ask questions ap exams shit online site actually seemed aight kept it basically gathered bunch nudes girls high schoolim still high school im senior year dont really know originally started collected turned competition friends far ish nudes friends arent arent deleting dont wanna delete cuz kinda holds sentimental value difficulty keeping sent principal every week checking phone friends send different phones make multiple snapchat accounts drugs issue tho dumbass friends kept pics weed dab pens dorm room im boarding school anyways dont even like jack anything like cuz competition go fuck ton shit these also like chad move kind know also got consentually like others came friends became competition in total definitely also arent different girls pic girls might know im gonna get downvoted shit ton cuz seems like fucked thing normal person fair is want advice someone isnt friend group wouldnt judgmental" ]

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[ "im ending tuesdayeveryone subreddit suffered alot meive read stories abuse abandonment etc makes feel weak shitty reasons life ive happy child genuinely times parents suffered severe eczema toddler years old despite bullying ew ugly boy remarks pretty girls school fact bottom classes genuinely stupid everything seemed fine however recent years ive pushed edge developed bad anxiety hate meeting anybody even family live with it never know stand sit talk look point worth going effort anyone all got point began hallucinate auditory visual fears hid years im wierd af avoid bullying knew would emerge hid aspects created boring teenage character talk avoid mistakes hung losers school avoid get attention others listened rap others did existential crap started happening began realise life whole point meaning whatsoever let alone individual stupid little person", "im things getting even worse earlier parents found cutting myself freaked out mum got pissed beyond imagination ended getting help psychologists psychiatrists thought would change me would come completely fine didnt even expensive highly recommended psychologist help somehow avoid wasting parents money put happy face pretended got better stop treatment major exams coming revised shit ive sat home played video games constantly broke crying skipped necessary work day even somehow manage stumble past exams good grades future interests know barely take hour work let alone required levels let alone work whole life im bit pathetic really asked hobbies are thing say playing video games forget world means escape lie people want engineer doctor shut up ive tried getting interested topics good always end thinking useless cant bothered research anything make worse go private school everyone around achieves really high parents im always failure top knowim monsterive never helped anybody mum dad love bits still snap everyday lie time", "internal frustration im pretty sure dad aspergers infact kinda obvious selfish evil upmost despicable thing me hate him hate hes different wierd hate fact genes within hate fact married mum made life miserable forced born whenever try communicate friends end toxic never bother talking anymore never get girlfriend want one know ill ruin life much ive ruined own lived till long afraid afterlife religion forced upon sense leave grew older fear the punishment redflag always stopped me im longer pussy endhellit deserve anyways" ]

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[ "emotional person feel may need talking about mredflag answer something reminding myself problem something remind myself posted got great advice feel maybe address correct issue alive seeming enticing like work school never liked school know nothing anything usless material like video games magic gathering know ky family loves religion really esqued thinking how know love something must grant everyone let religion control without it know am tried discover avail ranting now need help" ]

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[ "bruhhours life gone ive spent hours solving sudoku daysand around hour watching youtube videos solving sudokuyou ask questions something idkim really bored now" ]

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[ "idk trust apparently girl asks kiss better rush kiss theres chance atleast case using tiktok actually want kiss happened friend felt inform fellow teenagers" ]

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[ "want diemy grades shit want anything future im piece shit year old exist play videogames futureim planning blowing brains years now" ]

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[ "either love hate movies thriller set inside lonesome asylum far lonesome land much horror show concoction frightening imageries wackozoid mental patients scream best term use obviously popular drivein classic noted strange wicked behaviors notice judge whos put ax behind doctor brrrrr much else described bloody tasty goodness get chance remember familiar old saying hag lady get out get out never ever come back wish looked basement" ]

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[ "know someone pause online game hes powerfulhis name isis" ]

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[ "year half since last tried kill myselflong story short ive severely suicidal since graduated college even that im honest constantly inpatient years recent attempt landed icu three days seizure like brain activity breathing tube shoved throat one worse experiences life really sucks im feeling suicidal again really dont want put family something like again thought past bullshit" ]

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[ "you tell feel im you love you every oneyou" ]

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[ "advice boys boy tokyo drift saw two prior posts advice boysthey nailed it thought id throw hat ring story list advice theres still valuable lesson share anyways story tale begins mid december last year covid unheard of people looking new year excitement optimism working stage crew member schools production one day one breaks sitting alone flicking phone mindlessly girl sitting friends called over started asking questions hobbies were subjects did etc while left tasks teacher time really confused this barely spoken before later evening realized saw sitting myself assumed lonely called over small act kindness stuck me im certain im gonna remember rest life time watch news lose hope humanity remember kindness girl showed me moral storythis applies everyone boys girls everyone inbetween idea much tiny act kindness help someone" ]

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[ "need someone talk to nowi feel really lonely" ]

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[ "leave interesting comments ill back morning wait sorry meant pm bc thats bad sleep scheduel plus rn" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "straw broke camels backlife one big pile misery me year especially hell severe social anxiety communicating people hard finding people feel comfortable around even harder even know normal conversation without awkwardness silences used three friends would actually talk hang with lost year anyone left talk feel comfortable around lonely depressed graduated cant seem find job good would like do hate everything current job whats point going work everyday hate family provide anyways even friends going spend money basically something hate survive even want discovered today receding hairline used think bad hair days lately started occurring more today realized got shit hairline losing hair twenty fucking four one family bald bad hairline like me used kind good looking basically thing holding to thought would maybe meet girl someday liked looked would look past social anxiety inability connect people actually take time get know me now im physically repulsive too one ever love like me goodbye" ]