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The lies, the weight Deceit, decay The lies, the weight Its clear I lost my way Deceit, decay Decomposing I thought I was an architect, but I was just moving dirt Stacking mud over malice covered-up forming nothing but a pile of hurt I hadnt been building The time was spent digging Boring the barriers that kept others away The deeper the walls, the less anyone could hear, hear me fall So now I know there is no one else to blame Buried alive inside of my own grave And theres no one else to blame Buried alive inside of my own grave Inside of my own grave Beneath my lies Delusional enough to think Id designed something great Like a giant headstone inscribed to describe my shameful fate I hadnt been building The time was spent digging An ugly truth from which there was no way to escape Nowhere left to hide and then finally forced to face what Id become Buried alive inside of my own grave And theres no one else to blame Buried alive inside of my own grave What Id become Buried alive inside of my own grave Beneath my pride crushing me Beneath my lies collapsing But we are still alive We are still alive Buried alive inside of my own grave And theres no one else to blame Buried alive inside of my own grave My own grave Buried alive inside of my own grave And theres no one else to blame The lies and the weight, I know I lost my way What Id become Buried alive inside of my own grave And theres no one else to blame Buried alive, buried alive Finally forced to face what Id become What Id become in my own grave Buried in my own grave alive

I refuse to let go of the memories Cause theyve changed everything inside of me If I could go back now to save myself the loss Substanceless character brought back would be the cost Agony today is tomorrows strength So dont run away cause misery is Evolving into something that we cant see Evolving and becoming, transforming So dont run away The pain can never be erased Remain and turn it into strength, turn it into strength What do we value in the midst of complacency? But in despair, we beg for something, anything Even our mistakes can have the power To light the way like a glaring tower The pain can never be erased Remain and turn it into strength From our failures, we are refined Replacing frailty, allowing us to be redefined Healed scars can be stronger than skin The wounds we have can be rewritten Redefined, redefined, redefined Agony today is tomorrows strength, redefined So dont run away The pain can never be erased The pain can never be erased Remain and turn it into strength The pain can never be erased Remain and turn it into strength From our failures, we are refined Replacing frailty, allowing us to be redefined From our failures we are refined Replacing frailty, allowing us to be redefined Dont run away Miserys evolving

The wise before me chose to refine themselves Melt away their shortcomings by enduring trials A process we will all undertake Even if we try to prevent change Face it before you are pulled in Face it while its still within Like iron shaped by fire, we arent born this way Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain We arent born, we arent born this way We are reborn, we are reborn through pain Though I too have endured fire I wasnt wise enough to ignite the flame myself But carried enough fuel for a flicker to excel Face it before you are pulled in Face it while its still within Face it before you are pulled in Face it while its still within Shaped by fire, we arent born this way Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain We arent born, we arent born this way We are reborn through pain Shaped by fire, we arent born this way Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain Through pain we are reborn, we are reborn through pain The time has come to watch the fire grow Find new things to throw in, dont let the flames get low Ive grown used to the heat that makes me reevaluate What I carry with me and what should be thrown away Face it before you are pulled in Face it while its still within Like iron shaped by fire, we arent born this way Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain We arent born, we arent born this way We are reborn through pain Shaped by fire, we arent born this way Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain We are reborn, we are reborn through pain

Yeah Only through struggle have I found rest With a piece of me taken away I begin to understand Hollow out this machine-like chest With its gears that turn to make me feel And assembled thoughts that fade away Only through struggle have I found rest Only through struggle have I found rest Remove from me This deception That I called love That I called love Yeah With its gears that turn to make me feel And assembled thoughts that fade away Remove from me This deception That I called love That I called love Only through struggle have I found rest With a piece of me taken away I begin to understand I begin to understand I begin to understand love

Have you ever been blinded by the pain? Blinded, blinded by the pain Unwilling to see, senseless So blinded by selfishness Only focusing on myself And ignoring anyone else Becoming driven by despair Feeling trapped into a corner Losing more and more of reality Perceiving all the hurt only one-sidedly Have you ever been blinded by the pain? Losing yourself inside the heartache Losing yourself Feeling too powerless to change Stuck and unable to escape Incapable to see another way I need someone to shake me, to wake me I dont even need full clarity Just to start the shift from blind to blurry Have you ever been blinded by the pain? Losing yourself inside the heartache And does that mean we cannot change? Or will we always be seen that way? Will we always be seen that way? And does that really mean we have not changed? Or does it only mean The truth is not in how were seen? But in the actions that were now determined to take Revealing the new path we chose to mend the heartache Was it a pattern or a disastrous mistake? Is the truth in what you see or what I say? Have you ever been blinded by the pain? Losing yourself inside the heartache And does that mean we cannot change? Or will we always be seen that way? Be seen that way? Blinded by pain? Blinded by the pain And does that really mean we have not changed?

For so, long I, have felt alone Content, to live with unrest Longing, faded, into countless, nights that buried my, weary heart You brought an end, to this, dead hour And meaning, to a, a calloused life Held in Your arms, but too far from my heart Held in Your arms, but too far from my heart These thoughts, will carry me Through the darkest nights While your eyes rest in These thoughts, will carry me Through the darkest nights While your eyes rest in mine! I remember the way you looked, at me And the way you drew, drew me close with one, deep sigh Scattering pieces of my, my restless mind Forgetting all, that we, have left, left, behind We have left behind We have, left behind We have left behind These thoughts, will carry me Through the darkest nights While your eyes rest in These thoughts, will carry me Through the darkest nights While your eyes rest in These thoughts, will carry me Through the darkest nights While your eyes rest in These thoughts, will carry me Through the darkest nights While your eyes rest in

How many years have we waited For a ship that never set sail? And how many days have we wasted Chasing a love that was not our own? I sat ashore and watched as one Hopeless wave crashed upon another While my thoughts ran to the hills My heart never reached the sea With only delusions of an endless journey I am left with an ocean between you and me An ocean between Is this your salvation? Is this all you can give? I will not stand in reflection Of someone elses dream The gate to my heart has been weld shut With the splendor of my aspirations closed in How many years have we waited For a ship that never set sail? And how many days have we wasted Chasing a love that was not our own? Is this your salvation? Is this your salvation? Is this all you can give? I will not stand in reflection Of someone elses dream Is this your salvation? Is this all you can give? I will not stand in reflection Of someone elses dream How many years have we waited For a ship that never set sail? How many years have we waited For a ship that never set sail? Is this your salvation? Is this all you can give? I will not stand in reflection Of someone elses dream Is this your salvation? Is this all you can give? I will not stand in reflection Of someone elses dream

This world was never worthy But how can I call it unfaithful Every promise was fulfilled As decay crawled from its throat Like the dead rising from an open grave Like the dead rising From an open grave Lips of splendor and tongue of deceit All dying now as our fragile wrists hold only waste Like those gasping for their last breath We cannot hide theres nothing left Like those gasping for their last breath We cannot hide theres nothing left Nothing left Nothing left There is nothing left Nothing left If all my sorrow has led me here Then I would cry all of my tears To have this chance To have this chance again To have this chance To have this chance And know theres more than this And know theres more than you Like those gasping for their last breath We cannot hide theres nothing left Like those gasping for their last breath We cannot hide theres nothing left

We are all comatose We are overfed and under, undernourished, yearning for something more Never starving yet never quite satisfied Carnal but without useful flesh or mind I am a walking contradiction thats found consistency Consuming everything, all without producing sustenance In the parallels we struggle, struggle to upkeep There is a better way for us to be set free From all it is we crave, there must be more to life than to simply stay alive To simply stay alive We are not the same as I hope to show There is a better way if we just let go We are not, we are not the same We are not, we are not the same Let go In the tension between devouring want or simple need Its clear the only lines between the ones we preserve We are not the same as I hope to show There is a better way if we just let go We are not, we are not the same We are not, we are not the same Let go We are not the same And in the parallels we struggle to upkeep Theres a better way for us to be, for us to be set free And in the parallels we struggle to upkeep Theres a better way for us to be, for us to be set free We are not the same as I hope to show There is a better way if we just let go We are not, we are not the same We are not, we are not the same Let go We are not the same

We have all heard what we wanted to hear Truth that sounds right to our ears We have all heard what we wanted to hear Truth that sounds right to our ears But what wisdom is there within us To live based on the feeling of our hearts? How many times has instinct let us down? Never to be thought through, never to be questioned! Say what you really mean When your ambition calls you, calls you! For what use is there, is there in praying If you will only hear what you want to hear? We have all heard what we wanted to hear Truth that sounds right to our ears We speak of fighting to resist this world But what about the battle within us? If we have chosen to live against the grain Then why are we all facing the same way? There is no difference between us and them If we all blindly seek truth from sentiments We have all heard what we wanted to hear Truth that sounds right to our ears We have all heard what we wanted to hear Truth that sounds right to our ears We have all heard what we wanted to hear Truth that sounds right to our ears

That night that I never came home Wandering souls captured my thoughts Emptiness filled my mind Urgency spoke her lies in the confines of these grey walls I watched them move together Taking me places I cannot remember We have been poured out into a loveless bride How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless In a world passing through my fingers I still chase the wind How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless What have I learned from yesterday What have I learned from yesterday?

Pulled both ways, but still suspended The worst of each, reduced and blended Still suspended, suspended I thought I was stuck between two worlds Because I was not willing to let go Recklessly pulled both ways But somehow still suspended The worst of each, reduced and blended But as life unfolded, I realized The momentum to drift from side to side Came from within, came from inside I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on? One heart turned black, the other blue and bruised Arms breaking, arms breaking from the dreams Dreams shattered, the dreams that I cant reach There has to be, there has to be a choice I have not seen I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on? I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one One darkened over time burning away the shame Erasing hidden insights I did not want to be seen The other was beaten from being exposed So it hurt less to never hold it close I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on? I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one So why would I hold on? Ill trade them in for one Neither heart had power to fill my veins Or be the source of who I want to be Pulled both ways, but still suspended

Reality no longer battles perception This letters written to no one Sincere I sought your truth and divine purpose Through myths of revelation Guidance all wrapped up in a paper box Supported only so long As my mind was the enemy I could not in conscience hold on As we face distress We must not lose heart Stand fast and press on Triumph awaits As we face distress We must not lose heart Stand fast and press on Triumph awaits us The powerful constant that I had once leaned on is no longer there You call this shameful disbelief A process like losing my closest friend As we face distress We must not lose heart Stand fast and press on Triumph awaits As we face distress We must not lose heart Stand fast and press on Triumph awaits us Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart Before we can rebuild them again A greater foundation We watch our whole lives Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives Fall apart Before we can rebuild them again A greater foundation I wish there was another way But no amount of devotion can fix this Triumph awaits Triumph awaits Triumph awaits Triumph awaits Triumph awaits Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart Before we can rebuild them again A greater foundation Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives Before we can rebuild them again A greater foundation

The life that I sought was already like a jail Long before I was ever bound Wrapped up in chains No one had built the bonds Use to hold me captive I had locked away myself in a captain-less ship Destined to destroy ashore Destruction was my savior Crushing collapse Crashing from the impact I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me But I keep fighting to get away The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me My control disappeared Cause it was never real Aboard a ship with nowhere to go Guided by lifelessness, a skeleton without a soul Crushing collapse, looming ahead Crashing is imminent from the impact I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me But I keep fighting to get away The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me, pulling me Though I found freedom when I stopped fighting everyone else And loosened up the anchor That I had tied around myself I let go of the chains, chains Just let go of the chains I let go of the chains used to hold me in My addictions killing me from within I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me But I keep fighting to get away The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me But I keep fighting to get away The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me Just let go of the chains, chains I let go of the chains used to hold me in my addiction

The wreckage seemed too great for me I saw my dreams collapsing, collapsing But through debris, the tragedy Not one of us died fighting The wreckage We somehow found a way through storming weather Enduring skies turned grey when we all said never The winds, the rain Downpour needed to cultivate We dont get to choose when it rains We can fight or just get washed away Will we be transformed or Feel like were drowning, drowning? The wreckage So use the storms ahead to flood out shortcomings And then use what is left to water what is worth planting The winds, the rain Downpour needed to cultivate Debris, tragedy But not one of us died, but not one of us died fighting We dont get to choose when it rains We can fight or just get washed away Will we be transformed or Feel like were drowning? Will we fight or just get washed away? And now the mountains that we face are starting to look more like hills We rose to a higher plain so the whole horizon fell It fell, the whole horizon fell Through the debris of tragedy Not one of us died fighting, fighting We dont get to choose when it rains We can fight or just get washed away Will we be transformed or Feel like were drowning? We dont get to choose when it rains We can fight or just get washed away Will we be transformed or Feel like were drowning? The wreckage that once seemed insurmountable to me Is now becoming a part of rebuilding We somehow found a way through storming weather Enduring skies turned grey when we all said never So use the storms ahead to flood out shortcomings And then use what is left to water what is worth planting Deep roots that refuse, deep roots that refuse Deep roots that refuse, that refuse to break Deep roots that refuse, refuse to break Deep roots that refuse to break

I took what you gave me, destroyed it all I  had to lose everything to know that I was wrong And  now I see what was true all along A void in me, now that everything is gone Now that everything is gone The  emptiness can be a source of clarity Taking  away a way for us to hide, always revealing No choice but to rebuild, no voice, no peace, no love, no home Nothing  left to hold, nothing left but hope Take my broken frame What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains Nothing left to hold, nothing left but hope Like  hunting for prey that we dont even need to track So easy to follow whats next, we are left with only one path, one path No choice but to rebuild, no voice, no peace, no love, no home Nothing left but hope Take my broken frame What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains Take whats left in me, whats worth saving No matter how much time it takes From merely hope, we are brought back to life From broken bones, we revive Take whats left and create Take whats left and then rebuild You had every reason to give up on me But you stood and waited when everyone ran away I took your gifts, destroyed them all And then lost everything to know that I was wrong But you still carried me when you could barely walk You reminded me I was never too far gone Take my broken frame What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains Take whats left in me, whats worth saving No matter how much time it takes Take my broken frame What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains Take whats left Take whats left and rebuild

Forever your eyes will hold the memory I saw your heart as it overtook me We tried so hard to understand and reason But in that one moment I gave my heart away I gave my heart away In that moment I gave my heart away In that moment I gave my heart away With that perfect breath where my mind lay beside me And all I knew is what had overtaken me With no reason I am comforted by inability to understand Forever your eyes will hold the memory I saw your heart as it overtook me We tried so hard to understand and reason But in that one moment I gave my heart away I gave my heart away In that moment I gave my heart away In that moment I gave my heart away Forever your eyes will hold the memory Forever your eyes will hold the memory Forever your eyes will hold the memory When I wake from this dream Will your smile still open my heart And leave me transparent? When I wake from this dream Will your smile still open my heart And leave me transparent?

Youve lost touch Youve lost touch with the outcasts Have you forgotten your own past? Have you forgotten that your house is made of glass? So while youre pointing your fingers You are unable to use your hands To help with solving Solving real and present problems Cause were appealing And youve become too perfect to understand Youre a gatekeeper Blocking the entrance to nowhere Youre a gatekeeper Trying to keep others in despair, yeah Trying to keep others in despair I dont want you to get dirty reaching down to a lowly creature I dont want you to show mercy and make me like you, self-righteous preacher Did you think you were the only one The only one who held the keys? Did you hope that your judgement would Spread just like a disease? Youre a gatekeeper Blocking the entrance to nowhere Youre a gatekeeper Trying to keep others in despair The self-importance of the moral elite To think that their approval means anything, yeah So eager to capitalize Capitalize on other peoples pain But when the healing begins So quick to turn away Have you forgotten? Have you forgotten your own past? Youre a gatekeeper Blocking the entrance to nowhere Youre a gatekeeper Keeping others in despair

I never wanted and I never cared before I never wanted and I never cared before Take it back, this is a new day I never wanted and I never cared before Take it back, this is... How I long to regress To the days before I took upon myself The obsessions of this world A day of innocence equating beauty And tomorrow may fall And today is already gone Tomorrow may fall Today is already gone Take it back, this is a new day I never wanted, this is a new day And I never cared before I never wanted, I never wanted And I never cared before Ive grown tired of chasing Convinced I was in need And now the years Ive spent Only a slave to this Tomorrow may fall And today is already gone I will no longer adore These things that will never satisfy me Ive seen my world change And then go back to where it came In this vicious circle we are all brought back to life only to die In this vicious circle we are all brought back to life only to die To die In this vicious circle We are all Brought back to life Only to die In this vicious circle We are all Brought back to life Only to die Ive seen my world change And then go back to where it came

94 hours of regret For me to realize what I held Unfading beauty, not just a face I held its innocence within my heart Go! Now I wont let go I wont let go I wont let go I wont let go I wont let go The torment of your eyes Has awakened my soul The torment of your eyes Has awakened my soul The pain of a moments time Will forever beg your forgiveness Forgiveness 94 hours For me to realize I held the unfading beauty I held your innocence

Theres a sentence they gave me Then one that remains unchanging Like skin thats burnt by frost, itll peel if I pull away It hurts to hold or let go as Im trying to sustain Like feeling hunger pangs and eating bone to stay alive It tears me apart inside‚ but it seems like the better way to get by Like a broken hourglass‚ they fell Cutting sand through my fingers down the deepest well I know the toll it takes‚ but I wont let you go The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know There is no turning back, I cant fix what I broke The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know Youre a part of me that I may never be able to repair Like a lung thats collapsed, Ill always know that youre still there Always surrounding my heart even if it rejects air I know the toll it takes‚ but I wont let you go The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know There is no turning back, I cant fix what I broke The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know The true sentence I still face is one I brought upon myself Lost in a dark cell They said its easiest just to numb yourself and let go But these open wounds will forever feel fresh And I refuse to let them close yet I know the toll it takes, but I wont let you go The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know There is no turning back‚ I cant fix what I broke The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know I know the toll it takes, but I wont let you go

The worst form of illness is one that goes undiagnosed Subtle  decay secretly spread a cancer of the soul A  cancer, a cancer of the soul We are all dying‚ some of us just faster than our friends But pointing to a greater fault wont cure what we have hidden I  used to be able to pretend‚ but I can no longer hide from who I am My  deceit was displayed for all to see The only thing that couldve saved me Only  after weve fallen Can we then find the cure Looking up from the bottom When dust settles‚ its clear When  the dust settles, its clear Its so easy to believe that you are nothing like me Cause your deceit is lesser and yet to be seen But doesnt that change what youre hiding? Only after weve fallen Can we find the cure Looking up from the bottom When dust settles, its clear Only after weve fallen Can we then find the cure Looking up from the bottom When dust settles‚ its clear Only after weve fallen Can we then find cure We are all dying A cancer of the soul We are all dying A cancer of the soul A heart that is bound by snakes with a mind that sprouting wings A dangerous combination that fails to address our infection My deceit was displayed for all to see The only thing that could have saved me Only after weve fallen Can we then find the cure Looking up from the bottom When dust settles, its clear Only after weve fallen Can we then find the cure Looking up from the bottom When dust settles, its clear Only after weve fallen We are all dying But will we find the cure? Only after we have fallen Looking up from the bottom It seems so clear

Ive looked straight into your eyes And turned my head for the last time Because I was scared To leave these walls in ruin like The fate of those who trust In themselves, we are Alone and afraid I know you are the one weve left behind Yet somehow we are the ones who are alone Youre the one weve left behind Youre the one weve left be- I will no longer turn my head I will never forget you You are the one weve left behind You are the forsaken Weve built our confidence On broken dreams now left for dead Yet weve been condemned To chase these dreams that never end I know you are the one weve left behind Yet somehow we are the ones who are alone Youre the one weve left behind Youre the one weve left be- I will no longer turn my head I will never forget you You are the one weve left behind You are the forsaken I will no longer turn my head I will never forget you You are the one weve left behind You are the forsaken Our selfishness consumes us until the whole world Is not enough, forgive the day that I erased That I erased your name, that I erased your name For its the memory of me that will decay I know you are the forsaken Somehow we are the ones who feel alone I know you are the forsaken Somehow we are the ones who feel alone

All we can do is heal Or let it destroy us Some of our wounds Come from those around us While some are self-inflicted By thorns growing from within But the story remains the same Once we carry the hurt and shame All we can do is heal Or let it destroy us The wounds that we’re left with We cannot control The curse of the pain Feels like all we know Until we find the strength Drawn from the roots below In blackened soil nеw power grows New power grows Sеntenced to a lesser life For what we’ve been through? Or growing in ways that we Never thought possible before? Cutting off what can’t survive So we can let our weakness die The wounds that we’re left with We cannot control The curse of the pain Feels like all we know Until we find the strength Drawn from the roots below In blackened soil new power grows Regeneration comes after death And virtue from rooting out damage Cut off what can’t survive The wounds that we’re left with We cannot control The curse of the pain Feels like all we know Until we find the strength Drawn from the roots below In blackened soil new power grows Until we find the strength Drawn from the roots below In blackened soil new power grows New power grows

Now this is who we are, I am no one I am no ones hero, I am no one For we are not the giant men That some may think You are faithful when we are not So Id like to tell this story The way it is meant to be Without the burden thats in our hearts None of us would have ever found You For You are faithful when we are not You began a work That only you can complete Now this is who we are Ill never know the answers And Ill always wonder why Now this is who we are Ill never know the answers And Ill always wonder why Why were given grace well never deserve And a second chance that we will never earn For there is nothing I can do to save myself For there is nothing I can do Now this is who we are Ill never know the answers And Ill always wonder why Now this is who we are Ill never know the answers And Ill always wonder why And Ill always And Ill always wonder why Now this is who we are Ill never know the answers And Ill always wonder why But You have let me start again Id rather be called weak Than die thinking I was strong

Will I ever escape? Can we ever change? Will I ever escape? Can we ever change? Will I ever escape? Can we ever change?

I have traveled so far to find so little Meaning in tragedy or tragedy In the search for meaning Dark clouds have lead me here Confined freedom Guides us to security What if everything I have been taught is a lie And all of my teachers Have been wrong this whole time Compelling us to fight The battles they would not They have already won And we have already lost If we do not learn from their mistakes We have already lost We have already lost If we do not learn to change

None of this matters, none of these words Common and silent we will die in this world Weve only spoken to those who agree And without them weve fallen on deaf ears Stand on conviction and you will walk alone For once I have stood , no one will know But alone I was born and alone we must go In my convictions, Ive found my own grave But amongst the dead, we all fade away Yet solitude is better than a life not worthy of reaction There is nothing to lose So we stand alone or join those who follow in misery In my convictions Ive found my own grave But amongst the dead we all fade away In my convictions Ive found my own grave But amongst the dead we all fade away Fade away Stand on conviction and youll walk alone A voice is only a noise without someone to hear And without a crowd to feed that noise grows silent For once I have stood, no one will know But alone I was born and alone we must go Fading back into an anodyne sea To drown with all whove gone before me We must go In my convictions Ive found my own grave But amongst the dead we all fade away In my convictions , Ive found my own grave But amongst the dead we all fade away Stand on conviction and youll walk alone, yeah Fading back into an anodyne sea To drown with all whove gone before me Fading back, fading Fading back into an anodyne sea Fading back, fading Fading back, fading away

Go! The truth of my heart Is like a repressed tale A censored and silenced story Repression or restraint It is a delicate balance Between bleeding out what will make me drown And closing in what I cannot afford to spill Either way, I must cauterize, cauterize the open wound Im caught between the feeling Of being pulled apart Or stuffed into a cell Im caught between the feeling Of being pulled apart Or stuffed into a cell And if these are the only options This will be always be hell Never ending Though I still may be breathing There is no quality of life So I choose to risk it all for you For you to be by my side Im caught between the feeling Of being pulled apart Or stuffed into a cell Im caught between the feeling Of being pulled apart Or stuffed into a cell A crowd is easy to deceive But now I am a patient on the table Ill give you the knife Cut away as you see fit Just promise me the patience To wait for me to heal Im caught between the feeling Of being pulled apart Or stuffed into a cell Im caught between the feeling Of being pulled apart Or stuffed into a cell Im caught between the feeling Of being pulled apart Or stuffed into a cell

All these moments of pain Must add up to something Our bodies have been trained to keep it all in But our hearts still hold on Some say to release it, forget about your past Instead we count the cost, its part of us That doesnt mean that we cannot move on Its just a memory of what we once were No matter what it is weve faced Its now part of us We can overcome Why rid of fuel that can make us stronger When properly put behind us? And in the same way that everything good in life Can be taken away, so can all this pain No matter what it is weve faced Its now part of us No matter what weve faced in this life We can overcome Trying to forget is a burden we can never bear When facing trials openly Theres nothing left to hide New paths of strength come alive Theres nothing left to hide New paths of strength come alive We can overcome No matter what it is weve faced Its now part of us No matter what weve faced in this life We can overcome

Defender Fighting so hard to be heard Yet having nothing to say You talk about changing masses But forget those close to you Most of us have given up On these words that all sound the same But I am still willing to believe If you have done all that you can You can justify almost anything If you are willing to be loud enough But once youve spent everything To change the world around you Even if your voice is taken away Such actions will still inspire Most of us have given up On these words that all sound the same But I am still willing to believe If you have done all that you can Drained Spent Determined Intent Now youve earned the right to be heard Weve been deceived by elegant speech Whose only concern is mere distraction Defender Drained Spent Determined Intent Now youve earned the right to be heard I will follow to the grave A man whos willing to die Most of us have given up On these words that all sound the same But I am still willing to believe If you have done all that you can I am willing to die Defender

If music is a mirror revealing The depths of my heart, then I will write The darkest song For without forgiveness, my soul is lost All that is hope within destruction Comes from you for I have fallen All that is hope within destruction Comes from you for I have fallen, fallen All that is hope within destruction Comes from you For I have fallen and there is nothing good Within me, yet Ive been given life I will, I will never deserve For without forgiveness For without forgiveness, my soul is lost All that is hope within destruction All that is hope within destruction All that is hope within destruction All that is hope within destruction All that is hope All that is hope All that is hope All that is hope

Like a swarm of flies colliding with a moving windshield So are our lives on this never-ending road I have left behind my mark only to later be washed away And was consumed with the allure despite the inevitable decay When did the road that Im on become my only home? When did this become the one place I truly know? A journey making us like weeds Where the wind steals our splendor But spreads it to the distant fields Despite our fragile imperfections Yet shaking walls and wearing wheels Can never capture my heart the way you do When did the road that Im on become my only home? When did this become the one place I truly know? When did the road that Im on become my only home? When did this become the one place I truly know? I am missing what makes me whole I am missing what makes me whole I am missing what makes me whole When did the road that Im on become my only home? When did this become the one place I truly know? When did the road that Im on become my only home? When did this become the one place I truly know? When did the road that Im on become my only home? When did this become the one place I truly know?

Ive tried to find reconciliation behind the walls of those whose hatred burns For I find it easier to reach someone who still feels Than to make amends with passionless apathy Where all lines are the same a portrait cannot be made I need to burn inside I need to know that you are alive I need to know that feelings of discontent Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand Like a colorless sky over a sea of nothingness Hatred faces its enemies while apathy strikes furtively I need to burn inside I need to know that you are alive I need to know that feelings of discontent Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand I need to know that feelings of discontent Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand Until our anger burns against injustice We will create the faceless by dismissing those forced to concede Many of us have turned off the light outside, erasing what exists beyond our front door And for you I find it harder to reach common ground than my most glaring opposition But what about those whove lost the luxury of choice? Striving for identity, buried by our lack of interest, souls marked as mere history How much grievance will it take to awaken us? I need to know that feelings of discontent Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand I need to know that feelings of discontent Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand How much grievance will it take to awaken us from the comfort of our homes? The comfort of our oversized graves Ive tried to find reconciliation Ive tried to find reconciliation

The contingencies of another day unravel my senses And now your distance is darkness And now your distance is darkness My hope has been beset by your absence I decay from inside, from inside There is love, there is love, there is love There is love In the world there is love, there is love, there is love

Your resilience inspires me Facing tragedies I will never face Your presence is humbling To think of all that you have overcome It took such little pain For our lives to coalesce Finding what I couldve found in no one else You bring me through the darkness of myself And show me that frailty can be turned to strength Suffering Persistence Such sorrow Yet resilience From the outside Ive deceived the world With false bravery Yet you have taught me so much more Much more than I can ever teach And someday you might need Someone to lean on I can only hope that Ill have gained the courage To be there for you in whatever you face You bring me trough The darkness of myself And show me that frailty Can be turned to strength Suffering Persistence Such sorrow Yet resilience Suffering Persistence Such sorrow Yet resilience At times Im carried on the shoulders of a child I find power in your firm fallibility My source of hope is seeing that weak prevail And Im better able to live because youre alive I could not imagine a world without you Where I looked you in the eyes and left you to die Suffering Persistence Such sorrow Yet resilience

Whether locked up or on top of the world I felt the same sense of unrest Pursuing numbers The approval of others Outward illusions of success Just an illusion An illusion masking restlessness All ending in a downward spiral Rock bottom is all relative Some people lose their homes And others lose their heart The sad truth is i lost them both ‘cause i perilously chose To compromise my soul I could not see past all the distraction Until everything to hide behind... Until everything to hide behind was gone Now that everything is gone I’m free, free to see without distraction There’s nowhere left to hide As I face what is inside What is inside Now changing like the tide Devoid of peace but now finding What brings serenity And what can be centering But it’s not the things it used to be Because they have been taken And cannot be retrieved Now that everything to hide behind Until everything to hide behind was gone Now that everything is gone I’m free, free to see without distraction There’s nowhere left to hide As I face what is inside What is inside What is left When you take it all away ? A battle between desolation and sorrow Leaving behind destruction or strength Destruction or strength Destruction or strength Whether locked up or on top of the world I felt the same sense of unrest But now it’s gone Now that everything is gone I’m free, free to see without distraction There’s nowhere left to hide As I face what is inside What is inside Whether locked up or on top of the world I felt the same sense of unrest But now it’s gone Just an illusion An illusion masking restlessness

The storm is coming and I have a choice To accept nature or lose my voice Shall I scream and plead for nothing Or build a roof over my head? I mourn the days that I wasted Trying to change what has been set Fighting against myself Before I tear, tear out my eyes Ill just admit theyre part of me Before I tear, tear out my eyes Ill just admit theyre part of me Ive labelled enemies who do not hate me And then claimed friends who could care less All an unnecessary struggle So now I know what it means to repent Changing everything Before I tear, tear out my eyes Ill just admit theyre part of me Before I tear, tear out my eyes Ill just admit theyre part of me Theyre part of me Theyre part of me Ill just admit theyre part of me Instead of fighting against myself I will open my eyes To find who needs me I am awakened I am awakened Before I tear, tear out my eyes Ill just admit theyre part of me Before I tear, tear out my eyes Ill just admit theyre part of me Theyre part of me Ill just admit theyre part of me I am awakened Ill just admit theyre part of me

(This is what I am This is what I have become Repeating yesterday Drain me of my very essence To form again what lasts This is what I am This is what I have become Repeating yesterday Drain me of my very essence) This is what I am This is what I have become What is love without What is love without My tears hold no weight if my commitment is only failure Each day I, Repeating yesterday Each day I am born again to be A child in the eyes of love Repeating yesterday Repeating Drain me of my very essence To form again To form again what lasts This is what I am This is what I have become What is love without What is love without...

Many choose to find their hope in the thoughts of afterlife When there is none to be found right here before we die So I understand the feeling of helplessness When we are just taught to wait here, wait here for death Wait here for death Wait for this suffering to end Wait here for death, wait here for death Wait for this suffering to end We are not forgotten, for a kingdom is offered beyond that of golden streets We can represent now what will one day be complete Simplicity is not a curse where strength is humbled And the powerless rise This is a kingdom born upside-down This is a kingdom where the broken are crowned Wait here for death, wait here for death The blessings of excess are only a burden on us It is a broken system where we just wait for death It is a broken system where suffering can never end Simplicity is not a curse where strength is humbled And the powerless rise This is a kingdom born upside-down This is a kingdom where the broken are crowned, the broken are crowned If helplessness is our system then were better off upside-down

Can Can we die to live an other day? How could we lose sight of what matters most Trying to love what cannot love us back All we have is not worth living for if we do not know when to let go What is this life that we cling to it so tight Afraid that it will take from us These fading sentiments Can we die Can we die to live another day Can we die to live another day Can we die to live another day What is this life that we cling to it so tight Afraid that it will take from us These fading sentiments How could we lose sight of what matters most Trying to love what cannot love us back All we have is not worth living for if we do not know when to let go How could we lose sight of what matters most Trying to love what cannot love us back All we have is not worth living for if we do not know when to let go

I can only imagine that wrath is being held out So that there will be time for us to be redeemed But surely wrath is not being held out So that we may redeem ourselves For Ive seen the madness of those who died trying But is regret only a word that the living possess? I long to see their faces Regardless of the decay For in the eyes of the deceased We would see hope in our last day inside this dying world For there is still, for there is still beauty inside this dying world For what good is there holding off wrath If we are determined to bring wrath upon ourselves We would see hope in our last day inside this dying world For there is still, for there is still beauty inside this dying world We would see hope in our last day inside this dying world For there is still, for there is still beauty inside this dying world

I want to bring You all that is in my heart I want to give You my everything But Ive failed You so many times How can I stand here, how I can stand here before You How can I stand here before You When I begin to steal What only belongs to You What only belongs to You I am able to bring You Nothing that isnt already Yours Im so ashamed Im so ashamed of what I ever called my own Take what I have Take these broken remains What can I give to You That You dont already deserve You laid down Your life When I refused to give mine

I laid the night before me Unraveled the tangles of my heart All I felt was stale hollow air These streams of uncertainty They are collapsing upon my mind Upon my mind Torrents fill my veins until I burst With mistaken guilt and shame My battered bones Try to keep fighting Against the endless ocean of self defeat As time goes on Some months are yet to pass As time goes on Some months are yet to pass As time goes on Some months are yet to pass Are yet to pass Lets go Puddle puddles of ink Surround this tired chair All of my sorrow has been spilled Into into my reflection Reflection

All along it was me who changed Morning now waits for me All along it was me Morning now waits Morning now waits for me What I have to gain does not matter If what I give is all to You If what I give is all to You I have seen the stars fall And the sun rise again But You are yet to change You are all that is You are all that is worth You are all that is worth living for What I have to gain does not matter If what I give is all to You If what I give is all to You All along it is was It is was me who changed

There are days when sorrow seems never-ending Like the countless roads upon which Ive driven The price of attachment in pursuit of dreams That I so often cant seem to remember Yet there are days when beauty cannot be contained It even crawls out from under ordinary things A foreigner, no place to go Holding on, making the most Of what little time I have All the wasted words I said In all the cities that I left The last act of our precious play Must not close with regret I will not leave wishing I had done things differently The moments I treasure are seldom the ones that I planned for And if I knew where pain hid I might still let it go So when the audience has run toward the latest drift It will be my time to face the life that I have set A foreigner in my own home Holding on, no place to go All the wasted words I said In all the cities that I left The last act of our precious play Must not close with regret, regret All the wasted words Some days the line between peace and pain Seems more like a blur, but I know with certainty I cant leave wishing, I cannot leave I cant leave wishing Id done things differently All the wasted words I said In all the cities that I left The last act of our precious play Must not close with regret, regret All the wasted words

Each little piece begins to stack up Now suffering under the weight of my choices And I hardly recognize myself Somewhere along the line There stopped being lines at all Whispering silence The subtle contradiction Compromise creeps in Forgetting who I once was Slowly changing Who I once was Each moment seemed so small When looked at by itself But it adds up And it has torn me down All lines are gone Whispering silence The subtle contradiction Compromise creeps in Forgetting who I once was Slowly changing Who I once was So close the truth But still impossible It was never one thing And too many to try to add up Fueled by faint deception Conflict without acknowledging opposition All because I had taken pride in my hidden lies Whispering silence The subtle contradiction Compromise creeps in Forgetting who I once was Slowly changing Who I once was It was never one thing And too many to try to add up All because I had taken pride in my hidden lies

Rah! You sat and watched as I nearly destroyed myself Never had I felt so betrayed That you would sacrifice my life For no more than your comfort And now your love means nothing Nothing to me Your love means nothing to me Nothing to me Nothing to me You are a coward, the antithesis of a friend Take action before there is no one left to defend For I would have stood by you For I would have stood by you Right to the gates of hell For I would have stood by you Right to the gates of hell Right to the gates of hell

I fought who I am inside Until I wanted, I wanted to die Instead of finding balance I found hatred Consumed by failures and ignoring my own strengths Pushed out to sea without learning to swim Or stranded in the desert with no lungs to breathe With no lungs to breathe I had almost lost everything With no lungs to breathe I had almost lost everything How can I be expected to readily be content With a view of life that has rejected The basis of what has helped me to survive? And replaced them with precepts Rather than instruction Full rule is an illusion All I can do is contain selfishness And unveil what little power we may have With no lungs to breathe I had almost lost everything With no lungs to breathe I had almost lost everything Tearing away my flesh Before taking the time to understand it A miracle may not be the answer When anchoring first on what I have The ability to change Like being stranded in the desert With no lungs to breathe With no lungs to breathe I had almost lost everything With no lungs to breathe I had almost lost everything

Did you ever see me? Or could you even see at all? I looked at your cold white face So still, so empty Yet I knew you were at rest I knew you were at rest Much more comforted than I What else could I find to replace who you were? It was the carefree unrestricted love that You never meant to give You never had the choice You never meant to give You never had the choice It was your innocence It was part of who you were What else could I find to replace who you were? It was the carefree unrestricted love that You never meant to give You never had the choice You never meant to give You never had the choice It was your innocence It was part of who you were It was your innocence It was the comfort of a friend It was your innocence It was part of who you were It was your innocence It was the comfort of a friend

What we see now is only a fraction Bound to learn the hard way This is the human condition There is nothing that can be said To stop us from making mistakes When I look to myself as a source of ending pain No matter how many times before Ive failed It seems our problems solve themselves When we look beyond us to those truly in hell The more I focus on myself Then the more helpless that I become So why not erase this point of view? My suffering is trivial Beyond our suffering Compared to those who know real agony It seems our problems solve themselves When we look beyond us to those truly in hell It seems our problems solve themselves When we look beyond our suffering It seems our problems solve themselves When we look beyond our suffering My trials seem insignificant now Why wont we look beyond us? Why wont we look beyond our despair? It seems our problems solve themselves When we look to those truly in hell Personal redemption cannot change the world Unless we lay down our lives for those who still suffer

What is certain I have ignored I have spent most of my life trying to complicate everything that I believe So that while paralyzed in thought I will always have an alibi Just another excuse, just another excuse to hesitate, to hesitate Delaying true progress with passivity The answers that Ive found are all the same They uncover questions that still remain The answers that Ive found are all the same They uncover questions that still remain What is certain I have ignored And what I know is simple if I am honest with myself: My soul is broken, yet easily fixed And what I know is simple: I must die if I truly want to live The answers that Ive found are all the same They uncover questions that still remain The answers that Ive found, Ive found are all the same They uncover questions that still remain The greatness of us have become the least I must be reborn to revive a heart that hardly beats, keeping alive this hollow frame I must be reborn, I must be reborn

I see now, I see through the veil of expectation I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal Betrayal of those who are forgotten, yet vision alone furthers our blame Unless followed by transformation, it is pointless to be given sight Without the hope of our reaction, we overlook the purpose of our eyes Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny. In weakness, we are freed I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal With empty eyes Ive looked ahead , with clarity I now look back Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light Now is our chance to breathe without, without tyranny In weakness, we are freed. Yeah! I admit my failure. Opacity has dulled my senses Conformity controlled by lifeless vices. Oh! Yeah! Covetousness disguised as ambition But now it ends But now it ends But now it ends But now it ends Not with defeat but determination. We are freed. Yeah! Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light Now is our chance Now is our chance In weakness, we are freed

White shutters enclose The boundaries of my heart I hold my breath Till the steady beating is shut out In silence I wait for what is real For I know the truth of my perceptions Nothing in life matters more More than You Matters more More than You When first feelings fade I will still be here I hold my breath Till the steady beating is shut out Beating is For I know the truth of my perceptions Nothing in life matters more More than You Matters more More than You When first feelings fade I will still be here

The sound of silent voices Surveying my thoughts Regularity defining perfection Neither sorrow Nor contentment Whispering emptiness Whispering emptiness Frail words collapse My weight only stirs the ground How long can I hold your hand As you walk over graves? You search for tears Of compassion Yet find the comfort of winter You found the comfort Reassurance dead like the falling leaves Losing hope in your unchanging ways All of my strength cant save you If you are unwilling to help yourself

Can you understand my meaning Hidden in the roses, around my eyes I want you to know how much it means to have you in my life Your love brings me close again In this instance, this single moment when our worlds collide The wire of eternity twists around us I can feel this river rising, moving up my back Some things never change, some things never go away Some things never change, some things never go away I could never forget you, and I will never be the same I could never forget you, and I will never be the same You Some things never change, some things never go away I could never forget you, and I will never be the same

Ive watched them build Upon these empty hearts Ive watched them build Upon these empty hearts False hopes of lossless paradise Gathering together The dead hearts beat as one Stillborn comfort feeding lies Through answers of self denial Divided between a dissolute self And the sorrow of sincere devotion Devotion What is it that you find peace in now Where is your hope in this dark night? What is it that you find peace in now Where is your hope in this dark night?

We live in slavery to a past we cannot escape And I say its worth it to just start again Again Weve focused so long on ideals of freedom That it is this very belief that oppresses us We all want to be free, yet we find ways to forfeit liberty To our own impulses, to our own consumption So I say its worth it to build a new foundation A new foundation, a new foundation, a new foundation Its a past we cannot escape This vacancy will take everything this world can offer But what is control once we have let go of all we suffer? Once weve let go When weve awakened to admit we are all enslaved Then there is freedom in our choice to disobey Our creeds have become a justification To live the way that some see fit And no one is more hopeless than those blinded by the scales of content This vacancy will take everything this world can offer But what is control once we have let go of all we suffer? We live in slavery to a past we cannot escape So I say its worth it to just start again Weve let go Weve let go Weve let go This vacancy will take everything this world can offer But what is control once we have let go of all we suffer? We cant escape, we cant escape We cant escape, we cant escape So I say its worth it to start again

If we chase acclaim in search for, search for stature Then our status becomes a vacuum draining Opulence is a myth for there is no final rest Change in circumstance only delays The inescapable fact that we are downcast In looking to the end weve lost sight of where to begin Hope lies not in reaching, reaching the end If the journey itself is enough to bring fulfillment Without conclusion this song will end Without conclusion there is no final rest Without conclusion, shred We are void of purpose before we start For in chasing our destination the present state is sacrificed, sacrificed In looking to, in looking to the end we have lost sight of where to begin Weve lost, we have lost sight of where to begin Without conclusion this song will end Without conclusion there is no final rest Without conclusion this song will end Without conclusion there is no final rest Without conclusion this song will end Without conclusion

Condemned Without given a chance to speak Without acknowledgment Theyre made less than human Condemned Condemned to anonymity Trapped by Trapped by obscurity Condemned Condemned to anonymity Sentenced Sentenced to neglect They will never share our blood Yet is that reason To drain whats left of theirs Abandoning compassion Condemned Condemned to anonymity Trapped by Trapped by obscurity Condemned Condemned to anonymity Sentenced Sentenced to neglect Why do we uphold allegiance Higher than maintaining life? The ties of blood breaking a stronger bind Condemned Condemned to anonymity Trapped by Trapped by obscurity Condemned Condemned to anonymity Sentenced Sentenced to neglect

One night opens wounds and words utter pain The truth cannot breathe a one in your soul Youve hid hearts and songs as long as you recall His kind words just fall near your feet With their last air, all they wanted is to be heard In your sweet ears just once

Just like the spread of disease Debt and guilt or guilt and decree, the masters that we please Yet if we seek help for infirmities, we are made twice the sons of hell as before Reach out your hand Reach out your hand, only to be plagued by disease Reach out your hand Reach out your hand, only to be plagued by disease While religion tries to blame what we cannot see, I accept that part of the problem is me It was never a sacred mandate to accept conformity Through select revelations that we choose to believe Another blind guide replacing divine eyes Familiarity is the great deception Disguised by authority, sealing out subversion Whitewashed tombs have hidden the truth, for we unknowingly worship icons of ordinary life Reach out your hand to find forgiveness Only to be plagued by disease The horrors of beliefs and customs Camouflaged by commonality Reach out your hand, reach out your hand Reach out your hand, reach out your hand I still believe that there is hope for us, but I believe we must look outside The sanctuaries of oppression that have brought our world so much pain Yeah Another blind guide replacing divine eyes Whitewashed tombs have hidden the truth Reach out your hand to find forgiveness, only to be plagued by disease Reach out your hand to find forgiveness , only to be plagued by disease Reach out your hand, reach out your hand

The only constant is change The only constant is change, go The human heart is born without legs, sliding back and forth And never once does it truly rest, unless accompanied by death Sliding back and forth Even the strongest remnants of history They have begun to crumble against time Sliding back and forth The only constant is change Nothing remains the same The only constant is change Theres only growth or decay Lets go Unvarying scenes only found in pictures can never breathe life For nowhere else does level ground exist Unless it has been captured by a flash of steady light Sliding back and forth The only constant is change Uncertainty awaits The only constant is change Theres only growth or decay, or decay The only constant is change There is nothing that stays the same From the foundation of our lives There is nothing that stays the same There is nothing to erase time The only constant is change Nothing remains the same The only constant is change Theres only growth or decay The only constant is change The only constant is change

How can I bear this any longer Arms stretched out only to hold separation Take me away Im dying inside, emptied before you Take me into your arms I will fight until the day when I will see Sight given to these blind eyes When will I be taken from this life? Take what is yours You deserve more than my life

I see them coming With shrouds to bury us all Before we were born they shaped our lives Leading us into an unmarked grave In moments life could end So I will speak while I can This is my chance My time to stand We may fail alone but that is better Than dying with them only to be forgotten I for one would rather suffer now Than leave this life without passion This is our chance Our time to stand

Yeah Could I ever go back, back to the life where I lived amongst the dead? How could I go back, to live amongst the dead who have forgotten how to feel? And become slaves to memory, and wishful thinking? But your love has set me free as you awaken every star that has been sleeping in the constellation of my soul How could I go back to live amongst the dead? How could I go back to live amongst the dead? How could I go back to live amongst the dead? How could I go back to live amongst the dead? Those who imprisoned beauty I never want to leave your arms So I wait in hope for your embrace, for your embrace I wait in hope for your embrace I wait in hope for your embrace Yeah Illusions of what I thought was love Now I have clear sight to see that I have left nothing behind

What is this world, what is it weve created In the burdens of this life, I cannot rest This world means nothing Everything we hold will pass away With a void of completion comfort will ever fade I long for this wind to cease Everything we hold will pass away Everything we hold will pass away I long for this wind to cease We once held undying devotion Dead to our thoughts, undefined like our love Everything we hold will pass away Everything we hold will pass away

Up here in space Im looking down on you My lasers trace Everything you do You think youve private lives Think nothing of the kind There is no true escape Im watching all the time Im made of metal My circuits gleam I am perpetual I keep the country clean Im elected electric spy Im protected electric eye Always in focus You cant feel my stare I zoom into you You dont know Im there I take a pride in probing all your secret moves My tearless retina takes pictures that can prove Im made of metal My circuits gleam I am perpetual I keep the country clean Im elected electric spy Im protected electric eye Electric eye, in the sky Feel my stare, always there Theres nothing you can do about it Develop and expose I feed upon your every thought And so my power grows Im made of metal My circuits gleam I am perpetual I keep the country clean Im elected electric spy Im protected electric eye Protected Detective Electric eye

Control is dead in this blind world For we do what we hate Split from inside Betrayed by emotion, emotion We must look past What is in front of us Shadows are security They have become the solace Of my looking glass heart In search for certainty I no longer need control Take me through the fire Refine what is Yours Take me through the fire Refine what is Yours It is time to overcome this We must look past What is in front of us It is time to overcome this We must look past What is in front of us

I see no reason to try and be what I am not If simple honesty moves me, then why should I care? Others may think I lost my poetic way But Id rather make my point without confusion I have failed those who I love the most And in the process become aware I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations It is that knowledge that opens the door For greater understanding Perspective on what is still untold I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations I have accepted there is so much that Ill never know I have accepted my limitations Sorting out my thoughts, that is why I write Though I reveal my weakness surrendering is remedy These songs have helped me though my greatest pain Unwound within me the disorder of my life I now see things for how they are Even if that is a harsh reality I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations I have accepted there is so much that Ill never know I have accepted my limitations

I see who you are and who else can compare I meant what I said, I promised to stand by your side Until the end, thats where we begin From here to eternity, we begin understanding It is our hearts that define what has meaning in life Some will ask how can this be But it was you who made me feel

You brought existence To what I never thought could be A world where eternity finds description I followed a dream only to be left in reality You reminded me of the unexplainable And then reshaped me by your beauty Knowing you has reinvented love in my heart The perfection of loves true existence Experienced for the first time I tried so hard to wake from this dream But instead realized that I never fell asleep

We climbed a thousand steps without a single imprint This drowning regret will die Forgotten like my past Forgotten like my past Moving bodies lie in rest Carried by each other A thousand steps

Were born helpless But guided by humanity What was compassion? Soon controls the way we think Familiarity has left me desitized And inanity keeps deception disguised We are lost but keep moving forward To find the truth we must turn around History reveals an inviting Sense of compromise Our customs destroyed What was once unique Traditions started with useful intention Now Subjugate those too numb to question We are lost but keep moving forward To find the truth we must turn around We are lost! To find the truth we must turn around I desire to wake from Sedation And begin to seperate The truth from tradition We are lost but keep moving forward To find the truth we must turn around We are lost but keep moving forward To find the truth we must turn around We are lost but keep moving forward To find the truth we must turn around

You meant the world to me All I have now is memories Your love brought joy to my heart You meant the world to me Tears of sorrow stream from my broken soul But I will see you again When this world fades away I will see you again

Reality no longer battles perception This letters written to no one Sincere I sought your truth and divine purpose through myths of revelation Guidance all wrapped up in a paper box Supported only so long, as my mind was the enemy Until I could not in good conscience hold on You call this shameful disbelief A process like losing my closest friend AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart STAND FAST and press on TRIUMPH AWAITS AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart STAND FAST and press on TRIUMPH AWAITS us The powerful constant that I had once leaned on is no longer there But no matter how sincere my devotion The pieces never fit AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart STAND FAST and press on TRIUMPH AWAITS AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart STAND FAST and press on TRIUMPH AWAITS us Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart Before we can rebuild them again - a greater foundation Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives Before we can rebuild them again A greater foundation I wish there was another way Triumph awaits! Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart Before we can rebuild them again - a greater foundation Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives Before we can rebuild them again A greater foundation

Mug mug mug Coffee mug Gonna clear away the haze Liquid proof That i can win this race Coffee mug The grip that keeps me tall My inter-link Keeps me questing all I dont need no booze or drugs I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug And i dont need your kiss and hug I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug They havent banned My liquid drug of choice Theres too many hooked And theyve got too much voice So for the moment Were all pretty good to go With 98 cups With 98 more to go I dont need no booze or drugs I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug And i dont need your kiss and hug I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug Here a bean, there a bean Everywhere a mean mean Bean chug - a - lug - o - my Coffee - mug, mug, mug, mug

Reach inside of me Far beneath the encasing of ashes Bleeding red Still showing signs of life Remove the darkness Take me away A Stream of Hope destroy this corrupted cell Purification Unable to hide I am drawn to the fire It is this pain that brings me likely do

If I have been kept alive for one reason Its to declare that apart from you I can do nothing Though discouraged by my failure I remember who I used to be Like a murderer transformed into a pretty thief I have so far, so far left to go From shapeless to breakable I have involved. From shapeless to breakable I have evolved My transgressions are evident to all who know me Like porcelain carried through a Downtown street At any moment I might break From shapeless to breakable I have evolved I could say a thousand more apologies But to prove that I have truly changed Only time will tell From shapeless to breakable I have involved From shapeless to breakable I have evolved

This blood turned into tears A broken heart runs my body Dripping forth until I give my life I have become a sacrifice It hurts me just to think of you I void the pain that is unbarring

I see no reason to try and be what I am not If simple honesty moves me, then why should I care? Others may think I lost my poetic way But Id rather make my point without confusion I have failed those who I love the most And in the process become aware I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations It is that knowledge that opens the door For greater understanding Perspective on what is still untold I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations Soughting out my thoughts, that is why I write Though I reveal my weakness surrendering is remedy These songs have helped me through my greatest pain Unwound within me the disorder of my life I now see things for how they are Even if that is a harsh reality I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations I have accepted there is so much that I dont know I have accepted my limitations

Through this pain I refine Tearing me from within Screaming to be released but held fast by Your love Hold me here Break me until my face breathes upon this ground Outstretched with my head to the floor Spent of all my strength Relying on Yours

Exhausted beyond repair Stripped of all I had Forced to die inside Nw Ibreathe a renewed Life I is now I see without my eyes If this is what it takes To bring me to my knees Then feed me pain until I realize I am but a slave Remind me of my need for You Remind me of who I am

Emptiness running through me Taking all that i am Leaving me this blinding mask Grasping for the wind Everything Ive done Everything Ive gained It all means nothing A mere breath has passed away Sadness I embrace Left with empty promises I look at myself and see the scars That are brought to me by this life Then I ask myself Is that all this world has to give The chase is over I am finished Stripped of every reason I cry out to You From my knees I scream

I cannot make it without You All my efforts have failed So that I will cry out in the need of You Restore the strength of my Dependence Send me through the fire Make me pure again Everything I am I give it all to You In Your arms I wait I lay down my life I am nothing without You

Propaganda death ensemble Burial to be Corpses rotting through the night In blood laced misery Scorched earth the policy The reason for the siege The pendulum it shaves the blade The strafing air blood raid Infiltration push reserves Encircle the front lines Supreme art of strategy Playing on the minds Bombard till submission Take all to their graves Indication of triumph The number that are dead Sport the war, war support The sport is war, total war When victorys really massacre The final swing is not a drill Its how many people I can kill Sport the war, war support The sport is war, total war When victorys really survival The final swing is not a drill Its how many people I can kill Be dead friend from above When darkness falls Descend into my sights Your fallen walls Spearhead break through the lines Flanked all around Soldiers of attriction Forward their ground Regime prophetic age Old in its time Flowing veins run on through Deep in the Rhine Center of the web All battles scored What is our war crimes Propaganda war ensemble Burial to be Bones shining in the night In blood laced misery Campaign of elimination Twisted psychology When victory is to survive And death is defeat Sport the war, war support The sport is war, total war When the end is a slaughter The final swing is not a drill Its how many people I can kill

Only You know my pain inside Youve been there when no one else could be When tears fall from my eyes I know that You are always there No matter whats in my heart You are the One who cares When I doubt, You stand by me So Im not ashamed to say the way I feel I love You, You are my Everything

Shatter my emotions Take them all away Left alone to face You Now You know my heart Left only to speak what is true See through this plague of flesh With truth I say that I love You Yet my heart betrays me Be not far from me For these voices They must soon cease Despite their betrayal You died for me

For so long I was deceived Enslaved by these chains Blinded to Your forgiveness If only I knew Your love Giving Your life to save me from this pain Broken and bleeding I turned You away Now I have seen the scars inflicted by my hands The Innocence spilled to save me Reaching to the hand that brought You this pain And now I am on my knees Crying the way You wept for me Crying, crying tears of shame Dying, dying to take away their pain I hear the screams of those who call from the grave Dying for me to take their pain

Take me home Imitations surround me You are all I want to see So why do I turn To embrace what will never last All my life Ive tried All my life Ive failed And one day I will see Surrounded on every side

Hell hound! Hot leather on your legs Theyre smoking power kegs Your ranting on means Its hell bound! And youre the one they claim Is going down in flames Youre acting in Hades grave Hellion! The devils hellion in town Hellion! Well never have to die! Well, child Youre sweating and youre stoned Theyve got to knock you down Makes you crazy all night! Youre in never ending pain And drink the devils rain Youre screaming out your name Hellion! The devils hellion in town Hellion! Well never have to die! The Gods you worship are steel At the altar of rock and roll You kneel A slave who forever rocks His tail in the devils locks A slave like the bloody exile Hellion! The devils hellion in town Hellion! Well never have to die!

Reach inside of me Far beneath the encasing of ashes Bleeding red Still showing signs of life Remove the darkness Take me away A Stream of Hope destroy this corrupted cell Purification Unable to hide I am drawn to the fire It is this pain that brings me likely do

How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless That night I never came home Wandering souls captured my thoughts Emptiness filled my mind Urgency spoke her lies How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless In the confines of these gray walls I watched them move together Taking me places I cannot remember We have been poured out into a loveless bride How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless In a world passing through my fingers I still chase the wind How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless How quickly I forget That this is meaningless

I see now, I see through the veil of expectation I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal Betrayal of those who are forgotten, yet vision alone furthers our blame Unless followed by transformation, it is pointless to be given sight Without the hope of our reaction, we overlook the purpose of our eyes Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny. In weakness we are freed I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal With empty eyes Ive looked ahead , with clarity I now look back Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light Now is our chance to breathe without, without tyranny In weakness we are freed. Yeah! I admit my failure. Opacity has dulled my senses Conformity controlled by lifeless vices. Oh! Yeah! Covetousness disguised as ambition But now it ends Not with defeat but determination. We are freed. Yeah! Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light Now is our chance In weakness we are freed

How can I bear this any longer? Arms stretched out only to hold separation Take me away Im dying inside, emptied before you Take me into your arms I will fight until the day when I will see Sight given to these blind eyes When will I be taken from this life? Take what is yours You deserve more than my life

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I can only imagine that wrath is being held out So there will be time for us to be redeemed But surely wrath is not being held out So that we may redeem ourselves For Ive seen the madness Of those who died trying But is regret only a word that the living possess? I long to see their faces Regardless of the decay For in the eyes of the deceased... We would see hope in our last day Inside this dying world For there is still beauty Inside this dying world For what good is there holding off wrath If we are determined To bring wrath upon ourselves