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[ "would guys interested watching like minutes videos forza horzion like first boss response comments filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler" ]

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[ "anime year good swear animes point year" ]

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[ "fuck full beard bold defined eyebrows blond hair blue eyes strong jawline big dick athletic still virgin meet western beauty standards men goes show looks everything" ]

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[ "im drunkhow vreatve help idk breathw drankw lor od alcohol pleasehelo cant breathe k cant breathe help e" ]

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[ "cant get aheadits secret problems pile up grow grow successes quickly fade problem one deal sits there finally fixed cant remember last time ahead problems immediate worries issues future ability plan it prepare instead problem problem lost job little two years ago ive keep head water problems pile up teeth rotten ive unable buy anything relax enjoy like movie video game moms tv broke cant help computer broke phone finally job bit budgeting start improve get tooth pulled save new computer", "hell maybe one better old one finally get ahead car moms car broke fifty three love her needs taken care of me walk work car jobs forty minutes away needs taken care though working poverty wages whole life one whos taking care past two years stuck payday loans almost four years thought could pay back helping get them maybe help get ahead too piles up cant see end it two incomes poverty wages eventually get cars road eventually get new tv computer occasionally treats along way like video games movies theres hopeful thats nothing goes wrong true two beaters breaking continue run without issue theres accident sudden cancer diagnosis plan get ahead take years much go wrong six months moms entire life already tell going mine too wish librarian fantasy world book shelves ten rows high almost form maze museum section curious artifacts glass containers plaques hours sitting forgotten corner reading book eating lunch thats life wish had instead broken useless self" ]

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[ "ever wanted trigger depressionanxiety feel okaylittle long feel like somethings off itch needs scratched" ]

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[ "sister pro kam sister pro kam do like barely talks dad men thats much hates men" ]

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[ "getting worsei used hit head really hard got headaches blurry vision fantasize cutting today threw tantrum scratched arms nails really old best friend dead told rapist fault his wish rapist dead wish new girl friend told rape matter dead happiness makes miserable want kill myself die fault want gone badly hate skin want body back body broken me cant sex without panic attacks cant get aroused easily cant orgasm anymore since started abusing me supportive friends wish dead badly cant keep anymore knowim probably going start cutting know thats going lead worse things ive tried get counseling help many times work always tell im depressed refer someone else constant support arms burning much" ]

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[ "last visit sonthree years ago wife left taking year old son her parents wealthy money family immediately moved place go family thousand miles away since get days christmastime weeks summer made ultimate mistake trying keep relationship alive friend father summer last ask see okay that man moved far better father figure ever though love ever could decided take last week vacationhe comes weeksand explain mistakes try dad culture shock expects full leniency always visiting friend thing works people children resent you least case resorting this turn teens year old cool friend telling him turning loose surrendering son another man better me boards aircraft tell love him watch plane takeoff head car kiss picture carried key chain since left life beg god watch him ask quarter almighty actions fact believe deserve nothing short hell leave parking lot alive absolutely wanting attention sympathy save one man one long distance father parenting mistakes would worth it kids need parents want parents find friends could stupid cannot step one someone else damn sure will losing child another father something maybe live with cannot pray please good boy got dealt bad dad thank letting tell story" ]

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[ "damp garage conversion ruined life need painless way end itwas dpm down dad built rushed ignorant damage caused me years ago used fit healthy confident strong get girls developed awful taste mouth teeth rotting barely breath time stomachs agony everything eat makes worse nothing comes tests get told head tongue always coated nothing gets rid it ive lost friends love life family lived ill months got ignored doctors again got point got angry frustrated much started kicking home got sectioned still toldim deluded put antipsyhcotic drugs came out still nochangestarted kicking sectioned again still help tests still clear family still think im mental got nosupport anyone tried therapy walks treat big detoxes tried spending s health food fitness etc ultimately ive lost everything theres nothing do still kick off im irrationally angry cant keep waking like this ive lost whole personalit mind im still intelligent still aware amo expected live like anymore theres avenues go down" ]

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[ "turned rick amp morty high iq copypasta family guy fair high iq understand family guy humour extremely subtle without solid grasp theoretical physics jokes go typical viewers head theres also brian griffins nihilistic outlook deftly woven characterisation personal philosophy draws heavily narodnaya volya literature instance fans understand stuff intellectual capacity truly appreciate depths jokes realise theyre funny say something deep life consequence people dislike family guy truly idiots course appreciate instance humour peters existential catchphrase anything misogynistic towards wife cryptic reference turgenevs russian epic fathers sons im smirking right imagining one addlepated simpletons scratching heads confusion david a goodmans genius wit unfolds television screens fools pity them yes way family guy tattoo no cannot see it ladies eyes only even demonstrate theyre within iq points preferably lower beforehand nothin personnel kid" ]

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[ "hate good reason bad things kept happening last year worst one fault girlfriend depressed months got overwhelmed broke worst moment ever since regret fucking day hate myself three weeks break argument blocked again hated even more found covid ive hella worried reached her apologized asked doing fine want hear ever hates hate fucking self would everything fix done see smile fix something like this know do first relationship ever ruined coward find crying everyday yall questions suggestions please let know please go hard meim already broken" ]

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[ "finding happiness anythingi happy since girlfriend years broke back ago cannot life find anything makes life worth living really know im trying wish could feel way felt fucking gross incel dude want life back genuinely want stop always miserable theres nothing waiting misery theres nothing pot gold end rainbow want done" ]

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[ "mightve eaten live bugs eating look bowl theres fucking half dead bug god felt fucking sick think spat another one bathroom idk ate im scared feel sick im lol edit im scared eat anything rn ive calmed lol" ]

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[ "gun redflag questionif killed boyfriends gun would get trouble law im considering option want cause legal problems im gone" ]

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[ "whats point living ugly skinny short manlike really point im years old top terrible social skills zero confidence for obvious reasons barely friends never job never girlfriend virgin feel incompetent literally look like year oldim certain undiagnosed adhd depression anxiety obvious reasons also eczema asthma atopic dermatitis my scalp eyebrows itch hyperhidrosis thyroid issues plethora food environmental allergies struggle hygiene phimosis a tight foreskin tight frenulum foreskin barely retract try best clean thoroughly smell quite unpleasant times hair gets greasy fucking quickly feet start smell quickly im exactly ugly take care myself would viewed ugly society features compliment other skin part clear high cheekbones chiseled jawline haircut looks good however head small big eyes big nose hump big lips also look horrible smile teeth showing avoid that seems like problems stem ugly short could worse though make suffering better sure things improve life life still fucking suck know need improve life many things want do seems pointless hate course im college", "im pretty much forced work familys store live them literally dictate life across country even see friends anymore feel weak like alien seriously dealt shitty hand get better see people complain short theyre like fucking short try barely foot literally lose fight year old born attractive eyes society count fucking lucky life seems like endless suffering born attractive talented born rich family genetic lottery also grovel work shitty rest life die drift fantasy world tend dream ideal version appearance wouldve loved have living life likely never able live reality hits im back again ugly short man nobody gives fuck you people say what see instagram facade", "yeah right people see instagram who even models women men attractive enjoying lives partying travelling constantly updating stories stop trying make feel better even want work normal job as adhd something interest torture life already feels like torture dreams singer even social media star im goodlooking talented enough that hear people age talking partying travelling sorts stuff absolutely nothing understand people care please stop telling us follow suicidal ideations struggles simple getting help especially literally one turn to were still pandemic im actually planning killing myself really would mean hurting family small circle friends have keep telling get better followthrough plans anyone adhd depression know fucking sucks meaningless existence is probably missed stuff life fucking sucks see getting better im lying feel better point" ]

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[ "sleep socks onand feel sleeping socks on i tried first time heavy long socks felt really nice woke up benefits according healthline prevent hot flashes women find wearing socks helpful cooling core body temperature improve cracked heels wearing cotton socks moisturize help keep heels drying out increase potential orgasms according the bbchttpsnewsbbccoukhihealthstm researchers accidentally discovered wearing socks increased participants ability achieve orgasm percent decrease chance raynauds attack raynauds disease affected areas skin usually toes fingers lose circulation start throb swell wearing socks night help prevent attack keeping feet warm blood circulating" ]

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[ "get k likes awards ill delete account think supposed delete regularly never got attention child im trying make it im going edit out probably" ]

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[ "plan dont courageits quite tough put thoughts together maybe thats way move somehow since long time ive struggling intrusive suicidal thoughts whats sometimes connected concrete plans sometimes not course lot periods wasnt bad dont feel sayinggoodokayim good life least others people perspective good job cool place nice living conditions one could say shouldnt complain all feel since quite time something going wrong cant bear anymore nothing specific mind right now thats overwhelms much knowing exactly whats problem would try solve it ive long dont feel makes sense anymore try chase this", "im sure im writing call help let know plan tried reach help im kind people hundreds friends everywhere spread across europe one neighbourhood more point behaviour wrong relationships buried family also lives quite far away makes contacts difficult really wanted get specialists help felt still made sense didnt enough courage own friend rather ignored fact asked help reaching someone fixed mind thoughts dont make sense try deal own right dont feel anything last days really tough me yesterday went day trip going town always helped felt like existence makes real sense im calling emergency trips doesnt help anymore dont feel neither good bad things nothing mind whatever happens impact me plan simple simpler better bridge call emergency tell something strange happening cant know im calling myself otherwise sure try discourage me dont think cause much trouble people that sure now dont even feel make difference many people around me probably even make everything better last days cleaned open projects easypossible people keep going dont think anything else minimize consequences idea im really writing this sorry keeping long wanted put everything thinking about thanks take care" ]

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[ "say mario party ruins friendships obviously none played demotion gun game bo" ]

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[ "okay know mrbeast clickbait u check channel livestream scheduled one hour put anything u want moon bucks" ]

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[ "guys watch gay porn get rid morning wood since im straight watching gay porn turns sexually find get rid morning wood much faster wait normally suggest anyone try next time need get rid boner" ]

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[ "never thought trying play college sport would ruin lifein high school optimistic going played sports clubs generally fun lot really bright future not athletics all decision ruined mentally less two years later dropped quit job second acl tear look back wonder wtf life didnt quit first one id still mental health likely wouldnt retorn it lack motivation do anything ive lost muscle body lay bed parents force get up ive already gained quite bit weight legs feel like shit used hopes dreams reason theyre gone dont care them want knee fixed lack motivation discipline exercise dont want kill myself dying anything like sleep could go that" ]

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[ "im probably going commit redflag every day mind" ]

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[ "cant cryi cant cry vent feel bad feel numb happyknow im happy im probably going kill fucking ass want people know sit like fuck dont give shitanymore ive tried everything people wont care nobody does fuck mr smith fuck system fuck people" ]

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[ "nightmares looking mirrorive pretty fascinated recurring nightmares ive past years involve looking mirror seeing someone reflection sometimes even see people already know real life last night dream slightly different looked mirror reflection all kind ironic think able see reflection least dreams considering spend lot time looking mirror soon come home soon wake go bed etc again ive already solved mystery dream turns out see mirror reflection ive spent time socializing people real life words dream trying tell soul im nonexistent entity earth nobody earth acknowledging fact exist theres nobody tell real here you ive socially isolated years im nothing animated piece meat blood bone living dead trapped worlds makes wonder point even dying considering im metaphysically already dead nobody would care nobody ever cared begin with maybe became celebrity things would different id real girl real human then curse goes on guess" ]

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[ "first way remake good japanese society quite different plays major part film explained opening narration adds humor well warmth movie slew different supporting characterspersonalities part making movie wonderful movie full comedy vulgar anyway like todays grossout comedies yet still laughing loud reality is real life choice work go school withetc movie truly emphasizes shows natural good people overcome petty differences mention makes great subplot much humor story dance actually story good one that back stories place actually support main storyline truly well written film dancing great too happen fan movie dancing sort aspect however movie goes beyond dance fact that story first happens written dancing japanse society highly recommendedbr br" ]

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[ "wonder much itll hurt stab myselfill bleed death leave miserable world behind" ]

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[ "im closei think killing daily basis thoughts past couple months now thing stopping right children say thing really mean thats it sometimes though feel like maybe would better without anyway deserve someone better anyway husband cheated one family members apologized trying hard make me thats even really though family knew never told me lot well almost everyone life completely lied this absolutely one life with exception kids really me care me come big family find life completely change damaging think ways this kids find anyone else think stay sibling come back house hang myself call police one them finds me close think live way anymore cant it" ]

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[ "religious ppl here ive thinking religion recently believe god gives faith" ]

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[ "online school redflaging much nsw back lockdown month means online learning attended classes except maths far fuck maths gives much redflag fuck ever going use knowledge area parallelogram future need psychology degree knowhow statistics also fuck mood shifts want run away god fucking damn" ]

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[ "want dieim tired keep strugglingthe title says all life ive struggling make ends meet im poor family certain thirdworld country since little knew need break away poverty need make parents proud despite circumstances born into fast forward years later im studying local universityim nowwasrock supports friends helping way can caring them havehad loving girlfriend everyone believes perseverenever many friends never used social apps then one month beforei argument girlfriend little know would come bite rear later sooner three days ago final exam semester combinations loneliness due absence life fatigue boxing stress papers yet come anger dissatisfaction seeing friends ones came depend things get rough playing games generally rowdy hit face overcame feelings retreated solitary first friends came check time passed reluctance say anything fear ridiculing thinking feelings started isolate turn even talking day went back respective hometowns first blamed abandoning smoke cleared out realized brought myself blame feels right reasons im still struggling commit redflag thoughts disappointing parents passion boxing sorry long postrant needed vent everything me tldr want live", "im slowly losing reasons to" ]

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[ "actual point sub even used proper purpose im gonna real here majority posts get attention karma awards things pet died feeling confident posts selfie first time really shitty meme feeling suicidal once sorry know internet majority outright bullshit yet due general age democratic feel need take safest option instead question validity posts believe take advantage genuinely form social mental issue actual services help well dedicated subreddits argument played said person wants support backing peers respect think probably approach situation less wanting attention extravagant pictures stories rather approach discussion conversation joined subreddit thinking would discussing debating issues involving peers accomplish well passive support need directing proper services not filling attention karma take want" ]

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[ "thought racism wasnt thing america im disappointed im eastern europe always thought like racist place earth rest world nice accepting saw movies people colours assumed everyone living peace racism simply doesnt exist usa im disappointed right" ]

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[ "pulled first allnighter recently feel anything different till dusk sunrise came felt like intergalactic nova cluster forming eliminating black holes body dunno rn" ]

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[ "since puberty comfortable naked males sure exactly why ended using shorts showering mostly physical training seeing naked males makes uncomfortable like girl trapped male body lol" ]

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[ "haha im literally failure in im putting much effort can still failing every class failure definition guess doomed follow forgotten middle child stereotype sooner later" ]

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[ "day writing something positive happened today went local lake best friend" ]

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[ "ive wavering suicidal thoughts since im almost nothing going rightim ready give uptitle remember miserable far back consciously remember remember calling redflag hotline hung making excuses everything lady end saying trying help ive loser forever always picked on always forgotten always pushed aside im black sheep family theyre bunch pious christian straight white baptist fanatics im white bisexual atheist mom constantly tells need god tell anything personal dad brushes tells need happy tell anything personal ive downward fucking spiral since graduated high school moved parents got slapped paying stupid amount rent every month failed college programming class lost scholarship flopped around looking jobs dropped out took credit card debt fix car struggled paying rent lease ran out kept flopping around one job next moved back parents crashed car thats mention health issues ive got exact issues mom fibromyalgia though diagnosed benign tumor growing inside femoral neck hip causing suffer basically constant back hip neck pain today im living parents nowhere else go sleeping air mattress relying parents bicker constantly sort travel staffing agency", "im currently employed work thats within affordable travel range much job interview past months despite efforts send applications even know fuck decided write this think anyone gives shit sure hell dont im ready give put bullet skull even privilege parents firearms wat do" ]

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[ "normallyid take meat clever cleverly cut buttholes hour today blessing kill name blowjob cost what damn lost train concentration center none oj pulp like advertised watch reservoir dawgs today lol" ]

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[ "keep thinking detailsive suicidal long remember im lately ive thinking little details redflag involves id wipe computerphoneipod clean sell theres money funeral create apology letters close family members friends plan body found method redflag spontaneous thought was" ]

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[ "every day im losing moremy mind turning absolute goo word recall shit social skills shit fuck quarantine dont care people die virus never never meet im going insane" ]

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[ "ever think made worst mistake remember didnt host gender reveal party burned thousands acres cries poor air quality near me" ]

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[ "please dont end ityou may nothing left family could passed abandoned you dog may died im talk need vent always reach me" ]

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[ "absolutely notredflagly loved movie saw cant wait come dvd beautifully welldrawn masterpiece always amazed intricately drawn work ghibli studios br br others commented sosuke calling risa first name never calls father first name unless speaking someone else get impression risa mother never even mentioned implied anyone quite obvious stepmother makes promise come home gets upset finds empty car mother must died infant mentions nursed risa coupled father sea lot abandonment issues everyone also talks mature is usually occurs child loses parent" ]

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[ "anyone get decent nights sleep last night looking yall since couldnt sleep dog licking balls night" ]

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[ "produced little song school project much thought id show guys see think lmk link working httpsdrivegooglecomfiledewy_kvvvilateilgxhfmdfgjiv_qviewhttpsdrivegooglecomfiledewy_kvvvilateilgxhfmdfgjiv_qview school project made feel like wannabe soundcloud producer" ]

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[ "cat dying dream live th floor apartment living room windows looking street dream opened window look outside cat jumped window second opened it fell car blood came him ran outside still car sitting suprised shocked foot broken blood paw dreams realistic blood mean deserve this scared" ]

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[ "telling jokes corona gone day theres joke today im sorry come back tomorrow edit ok ill tell joke httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslsxetelling_jokes_until_corona_gone_day__theres_a" ]

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[ "feel like dyinghi family doctor revealed mother depressed ssri medication im legal adult expected information classified anyways mother told grandmother told uncle told cousins told mutual friends everybody knows im incredibly embarrassed ashamed completely enraged doctor cannot believe information got everyone want kill myself anyone somehow convince might bad seems" ]

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[ "part two things normalised accepted mainstream eating discharge using moisturiser ghanaian culture something lot women and men get discharge form women life do many health benefits many people know also makes skin smooth" ]

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[ "dear humanityits funny life worksit really roll dice people live brilliant successful lives climbing way top people live lives heartache painthey turn art become successful too people ordinary blessed family maybe single parent thrive overcome odds people born terminal illness mental illness disabilities whatever else succeed got people like mepeople tried everything could fought way everything hadonly enough nowhere random reddit page venting see outcome death this treat people well treat people respect treat unfortunate encourage love give boost anyway realize one single species end day planet doesnt belong us belong planet significant otherout arm around say much love never know tomorrow", "bring make significant food breakfast lunch dinner whatever feel like dobuy flowerstake datesmake smile laugh help feel motivated like anything alllet know always there ignorant arrogant thought could help everyone hate people hurt tried make number one priority help others anyway could thought needed love world took responsibility impossible seen comingbut alas allowed ignorance arrogance blind me fault take ownership foolishness recovering botched surgery killed franki wish did finally got better tried start monthly disabilitynatural disasters struck hometown leaving many home car everything lucky regard day disasters happened car stolenprobably someone desperate isme years oldtried make something happen lifenow failed therefore officially failure want life end figuring way how wish well justdo best world filled hate hostility lies deceit cruelty" ]

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[ "sleep p n decent amount physical pain mainly left arm cant sleep side usually would im laying hella uncomfortable unable fall sweet void sleep" ]

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[ "tell forget person tell solution problem im gonna give fingers" ]

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[ "camhs experiencetoday first assessment camhs child adolescent mental health services officially diagnosed severe depression really want break confidentiality tell parents redflag attempt thoughts really want trust parents would understanding im absolutely terrified theyll call parents let know before do im legally cant tell without breaking consentright dont quite understand works" ]

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[ "friend cheated girlfriend really dont know do hes probably closest friend told cheated her also told broke up shes become pretty good part friend group im really sure situation stay friends him need give forgiveness hes said feels like piece shit ive made sure tell as friend really shouldnt again enough muchim really confused guess advice welcome" ]

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[ "im using reddit lightmode ill use dark mode ill end jail racist" ]

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[ "whats effort put something else procrastinating procrastinating homework often procrastinate working stuff needed while example day pretty deeply cleaned room not quite deep clean got rid stuff clean another time photoshoped friend thanos avoiding math assignment whats something put lot effort procrastinating" ]

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[ "anybody elses mental health completely destroyed october every year since started depression depression rapidly increases throughout mid late october usually peaking early november anyone else similar issues" ]

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[ "parents bought car drive werent looking car yet saw sale much since years old research bought it wanted tell friends couldnt figure word without sounding like bragging because none drive either im putting here" ]

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[ "getting worseim still thats alright guess im still dropping regards esteem determination hope left me ive made cheesy post before ill spare tge detail time vent want vent about ive gotten point becoming hard get bedim eating much all nan entire life final stages cant breathe without moan airways expand make things worse take prescription drugs every hours hardly mentally already miss much woman was outlet nobody cares make things worse got midterm im averaging dreams going university shattered well whatever reason keep pushing though landwhale aunt joined pos uncle honestly toxic entire family uncle related nan blood lets stay around kicked once aunt told nan terrible mother abandoning child nothing done though kill im afraid snap late now everything bottled long im breaking point" ]

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[ "anticipatory griefis normal anticipatory grief redflag im preparing leaving birthday card fianc every birthday ill gone" ]

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[ "america country created europeans get independed hate eurpeans bad thing anything" ]

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[ "im done planeteverytime give heart someone crush it im tired trying find love everything shattered front continuously never never happy logical conclusion come taking life thing kept going long hyped game album trivial piece media confuses people try convince people kill theres literally nothing redeeming life least me im really looking sympathy post im mostly explaining im choosing am really plan writing note anything anyone wondering refer post since little ever wanted wife someone love me age ive numerous online relationships ended disaster inb comments saying online relationships work care im going cold approach people public way many false rape accusations hard commit redflag prison cell identify nonbinary make sense someone born male im expected make first move everything lose person receiving end nothing lose world unfair ridiculous really worth it know life relationships thats ive ever really wanted perhaps like ive said post perhaps think incel something stupid like that really care anyone thinks me point nothing lose", "ive watched devolve super caring nice naive person cold monster cares nothing see reason keep existing theres nothing makes happy except one thing struggle hard obtain point im done trying juice aint worth squeeze were regardless thank taking time read have peace" ]

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[ "would appreciate suggestions alternative rredflagwatchthis place advertises" ]

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[ "pushups decide to day sets pushups situps" ]

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[ "fuck thisi hate much hate life fighting anxiety good could nothing ever changes really dont want hurt family god hate world sick all tomorrow tonight im going take knife cut deep wrist pain nothing compared anxiety hope life god hope tortured way tortured me fuck god" ]

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[ "goodbyeim years old lowpaying job cant stand girlfriend years k debt k student loans k credit card debt k taxes k various stuff assets crappy car small apartment full crappy furniture real talents skills ive spent last years life dicking around internet watching tv instead socializing learning stuff friends none respect me parents assholes saw therapist finally last week like much canceled appointment week sick literally reason killed years leading want whoever latest girl reject think her im that done" ]

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[ "breakthe break fun spending entire time sitting room bed crying door locked looks like head back school i could take knife beside reasons jam throat slide across bleed horrible pain really bettertwo considering go back school guy wants slit throat anyways reasons seriously really want gather enough courage time illit" ]

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[ "rating cokes cokes allowed interested pepsi" ]

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[ "anyone gives flying fuck made lyrics made tune yet supposed lofiraphiphop umm think ofit like kaash paiges music u know cocoa butter kisses girl circles kayla think know this loved start think noticed master heart say distance makes heart grow fonder theres lie think last without longer id waited little talk you confront you maybe id fully love saying already before waited wouldve loved even more think possible guess theres always knowoh know love love love youuuu know know wish loved respond texts wondered really worth time know little hours seems pretty small know time respond knew half sentence meant much give need baby bring dopamine high self esteem yet always cycle bicycles first ignoring yet say busy second apologizing get tizzy last forgiving cuz else would girl im blind go circles wish true loved" ]

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[ "died step sister kicked dad balls rly hard fucking tiktok boys ik feel pain like hours still feel nauseous sick" ]

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[ "methodsjust purely theoretic discussion easiest ways out would prefered way least impact family least destruction body course purely theoretical" ]

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[ "aging rocker movie mentions heep quo favourite bands ever incredible cast everyone fantastic storyline love piece creative genius cannot recommend highly mick jones added much foreigner lead primary songwriter along greatest rock singer ever lou gramm watched great work times bill nighy voice jimmy nail talent oozes every pore astrid karen could aging rocker ask for bloody brilliantbr br alastair perth western oz originally windsor england" ]

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[ "im okayidk post here down havent slept think still want live wish could shake sadness" ]

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[ "feel like shit nothings really working cant tell friends im already enough burden theyve dealt shit enoughfuck fuck everyone" ]

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[ "back why thought free thoughts guess im hurt cant escape inevitableright leahim complete fucking loser right make fun use cheat taunt right" ]

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[ "im probably going end soontitle says all thought someone know ive tried help worked while tried guilting stay alive work anymore even know ill make christmas wish would end mistakeim useless worthless want die tonight" ]

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[ "want kill myself sure wish id stop breathing maybe never wake upgt whats point life hold job yrs life thats life thats fucking sentence", "god damn prison sentence fucking place like work dear usps understand now people go postal drive fucking hard barely able pay bills fuck you gt mom wish wouldve put adoption keep someone told think could make age done make everything never considering peoples feelings made countless shitty fucking decisions ass hole gt dad whyd worthless know parents teach well parent husband jesus couldve there made better money decisions actually put food table instead mom starving time maybe father hard watching kids now get dad never had gt lauren miss much loved you still do walked door id scoop arms ask start over im sorry know man needed man all wish wouldve told everything open me fucking maze unexpressed emotions thoughts gt myself disappointment try harder stop fucking pushover go things always wanted reach was late tell everything wished wouldve always scared scared setting expectation putting there starting over hate you reason weve always hard fucking man good enough could separate you everything would different gt god there life make sense without beginning eyes you you everything fault mean stepped in given hand taken me im lost need help answers love companionship someone talk to know anymore wish id never born" ]

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[ "recently ive eating stomach problems im getting really bad stomach pain im hungry appetite throw little food eat think eating disorder something im sure" ]

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[ "told floating whole time without even know heard atoms able touch right mean floating whole time may feel like were touch ground actually" ]

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[ "hate working much drives redflag keep fighting alternativesworking years retire living years damaged bones something else die pointless thanks motherfucking piece shit started breeding cycle" ]

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[ "liked roman polanskis repulsion probably check the tenant since similar concept polanski stepping playing schizophrenic wacko actually one favorites movies second rosemarys baby course straight forward journey mental collapse man moves former apartment suicide victim residents building flaky sticklers keeping noise level even slightest titter becomes big deal polanski stars becomes increasingly paranoid succumbs loony hallucinations film carries on gets point dressing acting like former tenant realize matter time decides tor reenact fatal leap window film bit slow dawdling while ever seen roman polanski movie know going end bang flick disappoint also best question intricacies premise take descent madness pretty trippy surreal times polanski good timid deranged resident who somehow attracts ever illustrious isabelle adjani also get see running around drag disturbing hilarious time damn makes one ugly chick so polanski fans actually look past thirty yearoldpedophile charges enjoy the tenant entertaining psychological headtrip" ]

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[ "go school leave new kitten home sitting purring" ]

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[ "im sorryim sorry disappointing mom dad know im strong smart kid wanted im weak ugly faggotim sorrygay im sorryuglyim sorry fatim sorry turning like this im worthless know that everyone remembers remind every single day truth cant fight back im sorry weakim sorry hurting tyler really wish turned different im glad still friends wish ruin like everything else im sorry making spend time meim sorry people associate now im sorry way ive changed you im sorryeverything ive done friends im sorry making look me im truly sorry everything hope forgive over" ]

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[ "parents said want actually spite ig parents said would kill big hassle" ]

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[ "unpopular opinion memes better without meme original picturetext seriously like taking joke far add less funny is feel like memes left jokes" ]

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[ "give life feeling worthless tbh recently accepted cant move forward life advice support guys give me nothings changed im old old nothing ever change thats fact me honestly feel like im abomination hate body everyone always calls skinny feel embarrassed im made fun body also feel ugly people gave gestures disgust see me one kid even called ugly im going keep playing video games watch youtubeim going abandon dreams find new job career heres worthlessbye guys good day" ]

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[ "pain doesnt stop stop temporary pain isnt" ]

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[ "need make thursdayoh please help make iti strength left last week made appointment therapist earliest could arrange know bothers it took psychology school know say know do want magical session gives hope want doc say somethign already thought give hope keep going im sitting here thing think is im done want go on want life anymore want lay pass peacefully sleep days lay awake thinking time go wish would come naturally right now keel heart attack aneurism disease seen coming far wake every morning alone give comfort doesnt feel bad cause id leaving behind siblings parents nieces know love me dont cant help think irrelevant really am sure theyd upset theyd live lives eventually hit ends wheels time turn turn dust life would meaningless now need hope something keep going till least thursday cause right now thursday hope have slimmest hope best heart head fabric hurts" ]

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[ "cute girl texting friend literally using ssenpai wwill notice isnt responding groupchat ima whoop dumb brain doesnt seize opportunity" ]

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[ "dont want give inbut need kill myself" ]

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[ "anyone else feel worthlessi feel completely useless think anything anybody serve absolutely nothing purpose anyone else feel way" ]

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[ "taking girlfriend applications cool even cooler maximum cool cool little less hot ignore cool" ]

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[ "really able get emotion out smashing cups stuff punching face inflicting pain trauma choking denial punch face" ]

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[ "group members always shit lazy care stuff solo order get marks also get free credits peanuts hate itgive x test exam individual assignment fine it group assignment literally killing inside triggers redflag depression insomnia cannot sleep without thinking will lend hand tomorrow will pass assignmentfuck group assignment every group members ever school group assignment killing" ]

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[ "were kinky watched kurzgesagt nutshellhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvxotdixatfw video learned electrons help build atoms body kinks electron field technically kinky" ]

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[ "theres aaaaaa ghost home better bein alone" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "one minute im stable next minute im planning hanging myselfi bpd utterly exhausting fast mood shift used moods would shift course couple days bounce back forth extremes several dozen times single day yesterday morning woke extremely bad place ive displaying escalating parasuicidal behavior several weeks talking using pellet gun looks much like glock prop try get people acknowledge validate shitty horrible feel also get help dig hole ive dug myself clue climb own", "ive also extremely manic random mania manic urge hide emotional turmoil pain talking things like getting car driving hundred miles blowing literally savings maxing credit cards fancy hotel ridiculous dinners two weeks also cruising around car tune additional miles hell not manic energy scares me especially combined rapidly cycling moods massive impulse control issues recipe disaster spent day heart heart talks mom best friend phone spent hours talking phone total two them felt better talking them within minutes call ending started feelings despair hopelessness consume again feelings issue urges impulses feel particularly strong wave emotion hits me first thought hanging stepping front bus ive felt urges wash several times today came close giving temptation stepping front bus literally started sweating degree weather close it walked around hours afterwards dazedissociated state silently crying moved new hotel room spent least minutes examining room find best place anchor belt bathrobes belt basically anywhere post night honestly im always scanning surroundings see best path living moment case decide indulge urge like im always planning lay bed ill feel okay minutes thought triggers", "strong emotion run head next thing knowim literally mentally picturing taking necessary steps hang myself minutes later im back calm collected minutes that another triggering thought pops head go back fantasizing ending all rapid oscillationokay one minute ready wrap belt around closet hanger bar next minute exhausting unpleasant unwanted roller coaster ride worst all kinds rapid massive emotional state changes urges increasingly common life level frankly mentally crippling dont want die feel like limited shitty options dying favorable outcome still shitty choice none options staying alive letting go past dearly miss desirable given emotional issues sucks much im beyond exhausted all want stability" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "comment much hate methink person hate most would make departure world less regrettable" ]