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[ "Raining.Got @ddlovato on repeat.This day couldn't get any better!- wait!Kelly Clarkson's on Rove....booyah!!!!!" ]

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[ "@jillybean65 Awwww, thanks Jill." ]

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[ "@sooch4cats Ness goes with her SD from 12-3.We can come pick her up after.I think I remember how to get to your house still!!" ]

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[ "first time years finally push kinda shape able push working month last night able push first time years" ]

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[ "long anxiety anti depressant meds take workhi im getting emergency appointment gp tomorrow need urgent solution really cant cope day day reasons explained another thread able seek therapy long term solution mean time need anti depressants anti anxiety medication help straight away take long time work really getting hopes ease short term finish exams get working job which love know mood improve thanks taking time day read incoherent ramblings" ]

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[ "often yall beat meat normally november is bored wondering whats normal yall" ]

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[ "over the past few year i ve had trouble with relationship being irritable weird eating pattern and suddenly being overcome with fear that i can not shake i have avoided telling anyone in fear of self diagnosing so my question is how do i know if it s time to see a doctor" ]

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[ "enoughenough said fatal blow heart good enough said years trying mind fills doubt sufficiency attainable enough said cant this enough said enough kill me" ]

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[ "about the fact that you need to put your sex life at risk temporarily or sometimes permanently r pssd in order to feel mentally stablei hope one day they can make an antidepressant for anxiety and depression that doe not cause sexual side effect it would be a true life saver for me it suck when you value both that you need to really outweigh the pro and con tldr buspar suck" ]

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[ "odd yesterdayyea nearly enough kill go hospitalim back home awkward family took away all sharps missed stashed ones took away pens like cant even write feelings cope phone first responders told parents sh arm mention thighs thats kinda awkward think bearly cut theyd ashamed saw thighs lol think im ment cope without drawing writing walking privacy cant left alone although almost try came back did guess rant one angry upset know im ungrateful something stupif parents wedding anniversary yet complained ruined day deserve love support im failure want torture constant pain go know everyones gonna sad go hard cant take much more left hospital stood edge bridge really wanted jump step mum trying get appointment help phone idk deserve this im weak cant cope yea ungrateful pathetic human wishes alittle stronger follow through" ]

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[ "alone mutei even know come here feel like talking feel like shouting feel like letting go wrecking everything path feel tense frustrated cant anything good bad feel stuck head replaying old regrets inadequate memories again want kill maniacal fervor yet know it control myself senseim slowly losing grip reality quiet myself boil crumble beneath blank dead stare want everything everyone shut up world meant me im idealistic naive arrogant demanding others able function it im slowly turning mass seething hate targeted humanity let spat ridiculed sake being good now kept unto others emotional insight starting wane i feel nothing die alone die without ever feeling love die without someone else ever knowing true thoughts feelings die knowing meant good guy fate took away me kill pity disdain dissapointment echo void die selfironyzing selfhatred last thought i please go i see shivering thought spending yet another useless day dare tell live know much selfhatred have cannot know nobody can me me" ]

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[ "@craig_iretonThey should be more emotional!!Men repress emotions more to appear 'masculine' which is super damaging hence gender variation rates in suicide and depression diagnosis x fight me x" ]

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[ "loris sl morning how thing in italy today depressing i imagine that is bad news" ]

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[ "got notif scrolling thought text nope phone telling left im lonly" ]

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[ "i just need to figure out a fool proof plan and figure out how to say goodbye to my friend and family without being suspicious and getting hospitalized again i really don t wan na hurt my loved onebut they don t act like they really careanyways i wa living for other peoplebut i have no one anymoreso there s not much to live for anymore i have bipolar and borderline personality disorder and my existence is painful day by day i m just posting here basically to get advice because if i do this wrong again and live through it i will hate myself even more also i have tried getting help from any and everywhere that i can and it s still this way i ve lived my year and i m at peace with my choice at this point" ]

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[ "best way disappearim interest ideas commit redflag body disappear forever without anyone traumatized clue happened whatsoever thoughts ideas" ]

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[ "heremy world falling apart hypothetical brick hypothetical brick nobody cares either dont friends leave im lonely constantly want reasons go it reasons usual cant anymore dont want dont want exist dont want mortal vessel want die" ]

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[ "smiggle best stationary negative fact seem many stores" ]

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[ "Despite all the success & adulation,the demons were never too far from Marvin's door: DRUG ADDICTION, DEPRESSION, two failed marriages, FINANCIAL RUIN and a fateful and tempestuous relationship with his alcoholic, cross dressing preacher father, pushed Marvin closer to the edge" ]

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[ "peed floor toilet seat foot id like inform everyone yes indeed potty trained reason got pee everywhere pee going two different directions one stream going left another going right thank timeyes clean" ]

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[ "el chavo del like chavo something stupid quiqo ramon tries stop them doa florinda blames ramon hits him ramon gets mad hits el chavo repet times" ]

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[ "i got broken up with overnight a year relationship because she thought for a week that she s falling out of love i am absolutely devastated i can t carry on with my life and truly am considering ending it all i think i am gon na do it because she wa the only one for me what is the best way not to hurt your family thanks" ]

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[ "friend disappeared back since accounts deleted would like help finding again tldr bottom so recently saw post guy wanted contact old discord pal also similar experience post worked simply hope mine could too name discord gloomy lunar met years ago know stupid post reminded this talked like months day got along really well suddenly text anything anymore aside that also know lost password know relevant met robloxi know stupid simple fun game met kept touch name account soulessbodyx reason deleted now know asked question lateyeah reminded this alliea even know remember me worth try xander used play magic training roblox tldr met girl roblox used play magic training together account deleted discord account name gloomy lunar suddenly uncontactable time alliea xander even know remember lolhey try" ]

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[ "know selfish request figure id rather talk someone maybe prevent harming themselves practiced committing suicide today told familys loved hugkissed all even gave pets one last hug ended going w cryingyeah anyone wants talk distract here anyone willing talk make time go by" ]

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[ "crying knife againevery night feel lonely im useless nothing working friends left dirt one friend left doesnt reply often im usually room wanted feel anything dont took whole bottle medicine nothing happenedi already knew didnt work ive taking since january ive felt worse im crying bed knife tonight ready see blood hope maybe one day ill strong enough cut throat open instead legs" ]

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[ "had a really tiring day with a lot of technical shoots and apple eating!" ]

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[ "helpi need way kill fast please someone help cant game anymore" ]

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[ "@ellapaigebabe Don't worryI won't forget, if I go backstage after the show I'll do it" ]

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[ "underemployed verge bankruptcy redflag would solve problems forever im barely covering bills course student loans start paid june so find something better im screwed well wifeanywayso life never really great me always manage snatch defeat jaws victory blind short asthmatic lifelong anyway a significant life insurance policy paid father would cover expenses for well long time im literally worth dead alive cant think reason come june earliest january" ]

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[ "pretty much decided kill myself repent things done way place selfpity feel remorseful turned out much empathy affected let go without repercussion know impact family already struggle mental health trust god comfort whenever happens get judges according will selfishly gives peace know paying price everything feels just stain" ]

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[ "is heading to band practice.but currently stuck in traffic." ]

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[ "imagine dogs still wating owners come heaven realising gone hell dogs go ass definitely going yo hell afterlife exists" ]

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[ "keep thinking madison holleran stoif iti deeply depressed external point view all young gorgeous successful something fight for future deeply depressed external point view nothing disgusting look at socially crippled zero appealing nothing fight for wish could trade her give life deserved better" ]

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[ "hey everyone im currently ill idk feel like rubbish vomited times last days banging headaches throughout crap sleep gotten morning trying get sleep support amazing also great day amazing peeps enjoy first day" ]

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[ "whats whitepeople thing ever done itd thinking regular chicken mcnuggets mcdonalds spicy" ]

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[ "advice fall asleep am welcome as long as it doesnt involve closing my phone and closing my eyes" ]

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[ "parents right blaming fact trouble sleeping lack exercise trouble sleeping semester started parents dont see connection two things flat said physiatrist wouldnt helpdo anything me diagnose lazy trained professional second twin brother said anxiety brought physiatrist quickly also feel like dont believe me say get good sleep wait sec let like one word say oh course didnt constantly getting xgt hours sleep tried waking asking plans never work guys think" ]

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[ "sad insecureparanoidfyi going bit nonsensical long and think dark rant also using throwaway obvious reasons consumed suicidal thoughts hours day even remember time think cutting myself shooting myself taking pills hanging myself even child nightmares people killing ritualistic way dreams always left conscious enough feel terror knowing slowly murdered someone else gaining enjoyment act fact earliest memories kind monster thinks sort thing grade school know theres something wrongme normal want hurt oneself time im kind paranoid maybe im murderer kind violent person know sounds stupid actually want hurt anyone else would someones brain programmed like mine ive never chosen think dark things always happens ill typing imagining convulsing taken cyanide thoughts constancy terrifying think people sense am choose polite really violent people always off look eyes im guessing it too ive always severe trust issues feel like friends simply pity me keep around someone laugh at seems like something lot normal people dokeep loser around feel better themselves", "im pretty sure im loser people work constantly talk lazy incompetent coworkers clearly interest selfaggrandizement im also sure im incompetent weird person there im around stories uncomfortable around me least thats suspect that felt like constantly one everyone put feel better ive always hated it school people would brag got better grade me able problem faster me romantically seems like every guy ive ever liked already someone else thought beneath them first two people asked said much hurt time actually appreciated honesty last guy really liked girlfriend constantly gave looks", "yeah chose me bitch mutual friends often social settings ramped pdas whenever near even family always given shit weird mother complains im androgynous need care less people says im good manipulated used view society negative want adopt simply philosophical grounds even parents criticise front people always have ive never tried prove anything bloat value individual everyone moments get bit full overestimate abilities ive never willingly represented something better am think this people take advantage low selfesteem take advantage fact im civil quiet easygoing coworker recently announced matter shrugged off understand acceptable say things like people especially ones supposed colleagues see inconsiderate behavior like time everyone always goes it especially chatty people ones simply fill silence time literally spew hatred questioned expressed opinion world politics everyone looked though idiot really dislike confirmation bias applied personalities understand people measure worth social settings last paragraph really over sorry lately paranoia seems getting better me feel like hear peoples thoughts walk past them theyre thinking much want make eye contact me stupid look awkward am feels like everyone knows messed am theyre choosing laugh make feel worse rather try help really want someone help me cant believe anyone would actually want to exist none normal fact lot really wrong snap lose sense empathy compassion others know im horrible person even probably sound like serial killer waiting cant die already" ]

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[ "happy birthday to me <3" ]

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[ "think live world anymorehi all past weeks seriously felt like killing myself cant seem get rut in want die got fired job may which totally take blame for girlfriend three years broke september hates really know wrong friends lonely one person get cant life find job even fucking mcdonalds got rejected three different jobs today thought nailed two interviews miss happy cant feel anything anymore", "im emotionless want feel again something anything pain thing want feel imagine knife going arm good feel know wrong life im feeling way want go therapy get antidepressants insurance really cannot afford pay pocket anything want feel way want happy again miss everything life used be miss ex know hates me miss friends know avoid me want move somewhere far away place money to want get job save leave cant even seem that hate feeling alone try make new friends city live fucking small closed minded hard meet people even willing talk you hate fucking much want text friends tell much love miss know respond would make feel even worse top cant really contact deleted facebook avoid seeing ex exs mom shut phone earlier week im tired trying hard getting anywhere hard wake start day knowing nothing give back literally nothing hate fucking much want feel way anymore days even feel like im alive feel empty first two months year flown really know done time im pathetic" ]

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[ "genders genders male female attack helicopter honda civic panzer many more people think two people do yall crazy something" ]

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[ "principally story two men part portuguese revolution easy understand contest usually directors starts historical fact speak something else shows also period fact everything happen couple days revolution acts could also seen kind documentary movie focalize two people showing normal were like common heroes revolution come people although made military army title understand capitaes main characters nice colors lights whole movie excellent work director first movie fall banal way well shown emotions passion people crowd character maia main oneis wellmade also good interpretation stefano accorsi able show maias limits notbeing hero" ]

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[ "is headed to sunny San Diego today for work" ]

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[ "im big disappointment im asian parents want get good grades two grades dropped complete garbage due bullshit supposed get ap gov teacher assigned group project group evaluation someone decided work dropped grade entire group failing grade dropped overall grade points b disappointed parents cant anything get points back bio grade dropped well turnitins shitty plagiarism report working group online test even though supposed to someone needed help needed help already done someone asked answer question asked copy answer word word sure enough copied answer word word lost points turned test first looking test teacher absolutely hates plagiarism subject im actually good at math going great either pretty bad first two tests one test guaranteed get good grade three four days lock down absent day test then go two day field trip ended day lock started now teacher let take test would unfair testing environment leaving shit grade math too top this literally nothing else going me brother got accepted good school lot friends succeeding there im shit public high school friends parents expecting successful brother point near impossible", "im athletic talli often mistaken fifth grader im ninth grade little extracurricular activities even good personality back failures want die point even courage that" ]

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[ "everything memy year badim live alone getting covid struggling death friend much i food left lost alot weight stomach burning got money welllifefairi nobody help feel like exhausted optionsi really feel like cant go im fucking crying completely alone goodbye" ]

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[ "jokingly said gonna show face k karma im k chuckles im danger" ]

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[ "thoughtsi would like proud one day want life sort purpose would like longer ashamed am want reach point im dying live instead living die" ]

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[ "vent thanks anyone reads this wish luck new lady also yoga instructor maybe good" ]

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[ "seeking help finallyive hating life situation years even though probably better people job college degree good pay least one reliable friend hobbies still want die daily dont think ive gone month without thinking redflag since started anxiety attacks elementary seemed go undiagnosed passed tantrums finally went doctor got prescribed venlafaxine hopefully start enjoying br good life" ]

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[ "@Natazzz I will remember this going forwardI love your "regular features" such as Pretty Places and <name> cos you're hot!Lol" ]

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[ "Amazing time with my best friend tonight I really truley see why we are best friends everytime hang out<3" ]

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[ "im good personim good person lie time ones love most want others getting hurt im scared losing people this reality makes things worse want better cant honestly life everyone would better without it family basically outcasted me boyfriend best person ive ever met still fuck things up cant keep going like this cant change either want die everyone forget me id rather rot hole alive right now probably belong anyway end matter situation ill end fucking everything over deserve happiness love anything good im horrible deserve death deserve people forget me" ]

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[ "worth itive told times try find reason live hold it have year now first musicals books studies whats damn point keep forcing care things live reason im alive keep grabbing scraps hoping itll make feel okay moment dont inherently want die shit worseyeahim alive im breathing heart beating past fucking nothing theres personality theres people theres talents hardly life certainly worth living" ]

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[ "I can feel all that depression coming back <Emoji:Weary face>" ]

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[ "downvote guys downvote want get controversial post sub" ]

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[ "day masturbating first started may pm mnt standard time currently november pm mnt standard time running weeks days nothing say" ]

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[ "hello againfirst all fuck say gets better would like know long ive told that decades im years old gets worse much much worse every time think cant get worse least made it gets worse next anyone recommends exercise as couch potatoes get depressed fuck too went size size look better years feel better feel much much worse honestly theres really much else ive told tried fix this know that like one advice maybe one cares much maybe know lost cause want someone talk to hell even someone sit next talk would fine put bitching hours till get it", "god itd nice someone could tell need do even better push it help me guide me stop till im there thats much ask someone though know that keep wishing though im probably done wife really ability decide point im trying make break im going lose daughter house ill drop school friends family go to anywhere want go nothing want accomplish cause contribute to lot pain sadness keeps begging end ive seeing therapist tried taking meds done delay bit difference would done before daughter could grown better dad know post here people cant really help wish could cant even last meal tried eating keep down literally painful taste hurts move hurts think hurts even im sitting thinking im painim afraid know do hurts breath pain lethal even anything id dead years ago guess pain bodys way flipping off by way know piece shit life sucks thought want know that feel like saying thank you even though none ever helped me like thanks trying effort that sometimes think asshole die way people sad know work way thought" ]

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[ "today make one hardest choices life long ampxb hate cory dont mean wow guys jerk kind way mean despise him everything pisses off hes always hanging around street cant bear step houseim sure ill see pathetic godless face makes heart pound whenever walks near me", "im obsessed think every day hair face way walks smile angled toward right cheek eyes widen hears someone call name it close eyes right imagine him smallest detail hate him loathe him backstory cory neighbour family always debt far remember father manipulated mine signing legal document basically gives rights land corys dad uses leverage dad always dads reach never completely grasp wont go much details situation far remember family struggling this anyway happened today made rethink whole life park once trying get mind cory like said guy lives rent free head late sky getting dark corner eye noticed someone walking albeit great difficulty swaying kept pausing regularly peering bushes instantly recognized him cory id know anywhere would never forget spineless spoilt cowardly figure felt pain arms palms stinging looked see blood flowing clenched fists nails dug deep looked back up cory staring right me every inch screaming rip head off hate him got closer mumbling incoherent words got closer him smell better imagine skin would feel like knuckles hate him hate much die thing could make out whole demeanour changed looked confused didnt know was then taking guard reached pockets faster ive ever seen move pulled knife out clenched jaw thought end going died shanked gut someone never work day life whose whole family enjoyed fruits fathers labour eyes looked coldly soft blue eyes determined pulled close stood there like mannequin accepting fate wrenched hands open placed knife fingers eyes locked mine whispered three words kill me please shocked doesnt describe it wasnt happy either felt nothing everything time giving power end life me man minutes earlier would given anything end sorry life couldnt bring it moment saw cory was normal feeling pain miserable human couldnt it given opportunity golden platter knew would never recover taking another mans life even life one person despised entire life know ive made right decision" ]

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[ "hate posting personal stuff cannot talk anyone anonymousi know people say care me doubt that know me tell someone knows would feel like to everyone leaves know fault become attached become obsessive feel last friends leaving want new friends want someone tell care want that want alright want stop hurtingi know could worse looking attention someone come savior need get there know someone knows okay tired things that bad life feel comfortable complaining tired quiet lying doing want stop first therapy appointment lied lot told want think it truth is do would give anything guilt free death one one would blame others happened struggle keep fighting everyday every night lay bed trying keep away medicine cabinet tired trying see point anymore things really hard" ]

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[ "Just a simple girl..oatmeal makes me really happy in the morning..and the blooming wisteria" ]

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[ "Me to myself:Hell yeah, man.You've got this.My depression: https://twitter.com/jbillinson/status/988835197910159362 …" ]

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[ "twista 0i think i want to read some book but the library doesn t have them" ]

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[ "@EtotheZ heyy can I get an invite to #spymaster ?!" ]

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[ "@themarkerwow!good to know..." ]

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[ "@_celia_bedelia_ @Catseriously Hear hear!I've lived with mental illness (depression and anxiety) for decades and I have been unintentionally celibate too (my issue, not women's) and I have never felt the need to kill over it.These men are not normal, that is true.But I'm tired of armchair psych evals." ]

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[ "mum found one condoms like week later dad pressured truth that girlfriend took virginity me like im trouble guess us living uk dad big go waiting till completely legal ummmm anyone got ways make everything less awkward maybe get girlfriends back" ]

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[ "guys dont go therapist therapist rapist ok get therapy someone says therapist dangerous people avoided costs" ]

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[ "tell forget person tell solution problem im gonna give fingers" ]

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[ "music would killed nowive always described someone potential potential was ive good things dropped them feel hopeless sometimes failure ive never someone regular around talk to hand hold anything common parents talk them feel like friends fake even bother asking ive girlfriend music reason im here know felt wow life incredible feeling nothing else gives it whether im home lying bed listening absolute favourite album time shutting rest surroundings porter robinsons worlds front row concert absolute euphoria always seems pull pain anyone relate" ]

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[ "@Murraymilitia I would spiral into depression, but thanks!" ]

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[ "say life sucks think meheyim years oldive done lot stupid things otherwise think would right now loving family parents try support life choices brother happen like hobby lot fun hobbies together but everytime look future see reason stay alive job really want education want follow everything boring me know ive said like hobby near realistic job option think worth living eather cant income atleast something cannot figger what tried lot things afthere time keep dropping it next school year ive got nothing nothing all job school money plan parents cant understand quiet mad finishing education im left nothing day normaly would called crazy complaining anything othere reason kms mentioned beginning ive done quiet stupid stuff basically lost friends mistakes ive made example went japan best friends acting childish annoying got back friend never wanted talk again ive got nooneim mostly left lonely today ive desided finally put end this good bye live happy life" ]

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[ "@princessalexis9: 'Up' hosted wonderful imagination.The innocent fun made me relax.The 3D effect was good, too!You will enjoy it." ]

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[ "@xwidep that's exactly what I had for dinner, except I had an onion bhaji with it too nom!" ]

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[ "Online Mindfulness Therapy via Skype for Anxiety & Depression.Inquiries welcome!https://ift.tt/2CSUvLBÂ" ]

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[ "@OatsyWilliams wow ha that was entertaining?haha interesting." ]

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[ "@batboysings isn't that a contradiction in terms...?" ]

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[ "wooo everyone come to little lehigh parkway and support @msarro and I in our first race!" ]

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[ "debt deb debt debtlost job last yearweeks later lost second job pretty much gave rest year ive always bad money gotten worse worse years stupid decisions catching me abolutely money income anything used able freelance used able get work done used able communicate people like normal person know went know whats wrong me much debt ill never make enough make monthly payments much less form rent anything im going struggling whole life painful memories watching mom tears car gets repoed house boughtbank know thats im headed whats point want that want work life away barely even survive miss feeling emotions" ]

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[ "intense actors like bruce dern jason patrick rachel ward combine make modernday film noir winner three knowinteresting offer good performances intriguing charactersbr br patric narration noir playing exboxer mental patient wow alone makes interesting guy looks dumb isnt ward slinky attractive cynical intelligent compassionate co conspirator kidnapping plan goes bad bruce dern also mix dern never fails fascinate filmbr br the movie could considered kind downer average viewer found fascinatingand like depressing movies normally found kind quirky crime film take look see agree pretty unknown film status simply good story welldone" ]

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[ "feel bad wanting die see many people worse melike sometimes wish could escape time real reason too theyre intrusive thoughts get brains running feel severe im thankful time feel stupid feeling like first place ppl clearly worse" ]

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[ "nono pleasures smiles relaxation recreation conversation loneliness interruption deed done more bullet shatters skull" ]

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[ "cope pressure performance since little always achieving best possible result top class elementary middle school get good high school en eventually university failed drivers theory exam suprising lots people feel like let also down know sounds like bitch feel every test pressure peform dont know anything else expectations high feel anxiety every test" ]

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[ "@iamdiddy LOveyou DIDDY Diddy live &gt; http://bit.ly/BeN2t" ]

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[ "@Lairosiel Forgot my eyepatch How are you?" ]

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[ "ugly went uks inbred town stuck like sore thumbi saw fat ugly inbred girl today wearing crop top started comparing her realised would need surgery change skull shape starvation diet order look fat ugly inbred means wanted look like girls london would need skull surgeries rhinoplasty breast enlargement butt implants starvation diet far uglier one worlds ugliest women makes feel sick" ]

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[ "wish redflag agonizingso ive cycle wanting die thinkingplanning it tired scared pull years now ive already decided method drowning sticking head bucketdrum water ps live near easily accessible body water thought would sure fire way die given couple hours without discovered would fairly easy clean up prepared tried times already agony always gets me times held breath times aware inhaling water beginning would expedite process times thought sister shed devastated times id break bathroom decided stop attempts hold idea living someone wanted live sister every time thought redflag visited mind let linger longim fixating thought loved one would devastated came family abuse family lies person considered real family thought maybe id stick around long needed me fast forward now im good placelifeim suicidal thoughts again time im sure living someone anymore sister gained close friends act support system grown distant lying like everyone else family thought relationship better that recently discovered shallow water black out thought would take care agony part drowning almost instantly pass hyperventilation tried minutes ago still bring pull through know anymore ive wanting die long", "ive tired angry pain long im much wuss it part thinks whole living someone stint masking cowardice know anymore want live cant kill next" ]

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[ "im one disaster away losing sanityover past year felt live continue slip away drive career make world constantly beat gone even spend time trying fun anymore think world one day automated husband means education survive worry bad house bought debate go bankrupt survive allowed place live happens lose job much means get another lucky five years trying low pay ones gone automation learn survive street want try survive permanent damage feet cant afford fix ongoing list medical problems wish one things would hurry end naturally years old feel best life offer already shown me feel never meant make world mental illnesses starting show one day cost job place world someone like cant make own reason ended things trying hold worst comes next time car breaks money house floods anything something happens think deal everything life wants throw me end anything worth fighting even did bother want live see world turn into know done want anymoreworld seem want take naturally want see make" ]

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[ "stupid fights siblings em one suck sometimes youre right sometimes youre wrong sometimes person right times theyre wrong one fight sibling youll remember forever" ]

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[ "laertesgirl sorry to hear that anything specific x" ]

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[ "dear humanityits funny life worksit really roll dice people live brilliant successful lives climbing way top people live lives heartache painthey turn art become successful too people ordinary blessed family maybe single parent thrive overcome odds people born terminal illness mental illness disabilities whatever else succeed got people like mepeople tried everything could fought way everything hadonly enough nowhere random reddit page venting see outcome death this treat people well treat people respect treat unfortunate encourage love give boost anyway realize one single species end day planet doesnt belong us belong planet significant otherout arm around say much love never know tomorrow", "bring make significant food breakfast lunch dinner whatever feel like dobuy flowerstake datesmake smile laugh help feel motivated like anything alllet know always there ignorant arrogant thought could help everyone hate people hurt tried make number one priority help others anyway could thought needed love world took responsibility impossible seen comingbut alas allowed ignorance arrogance blind me fault take ownership foolishness recovering botched surgery killed franki wish did finally got better tried start monthly disabilitynatural disasters struck hometown leaving many home car everything lucky regard day disasters happened car stolenprobably someone desperate isme years oldtried make something happen lifenow failed therefore officially failure want life end figuring way how wish well justdo best world filled hate hostility lies deceit cruelty" ]

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[ "i don t think i have the ball to do itbut i ve become obsessed with the idea of killing myself all i can think about is suicide i ve developed a deep and genuine hatred for myself i don t want to live to see another day i don t want to get betterbci don t deserve iti wish i had the courage to kill myself" ]

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[ "work til 7 pleeeeease be nice outside." ]

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[ "a king sized bed is nice but sad and lonely with no hubby puppy or kitty i am over this whole conferenceing thing" ]

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[ "have a brain tumor worst part is i have no one to help me or comfort me good news is i know that if i tell them i will make it worse if they can t handle the small stuff they can never handle this i m so alone it not even going life threatening" ]

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[ "ONLY need 4 mre 2 gt 2 130" ]

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[ "feel like people secretly hate methey hate behindback tolerate order seem rude feel bad worst part dont even know true slowly kills anyway" ]

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[ "mint choc chip ice cream httpsformsgleugzjvqhmjeov" ]

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[ "theres sense crying every mistake keep trying till run cake" ]

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[ "me think think lost matter point never felt want much" ]

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[ "doso gonna tonight even though probably work ill end inpatient again im supposed going seeing nan weekend know try anything ill yelled i want see nanim selfish i ruined weekend really want kill lol goit" ]