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Scared sister is going to do itMy dad and my sister have never been good friends. Today they started screaming at each other, my sister started swearing (we're Christians) and my dad tried to hit my sister (but I stopped him). She said she couldn't take it anymore and ran to her room. I'm scared out of my life that she's going to kill herself. What do/can I do?

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What happened to the male snoo? Just saw a post about it and noticed the sub Reddit icon. Why did they remove the male snoo? Did something happen?

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GET MONEY YA YA GET MONEY YA YA LIKE OOOOOOH OOOOOOOH

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My boyfriend ghosted me on Valentines day Shit sucks But he hasn't really been himself for about a week so he might be have something going on right now and just wants to keep to himself which I understand so I'll try to talk to him tomorrow

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When will redditors realize most videos on hot are from tiktok? seriously like tik tok isnt that bad, u can literally make ur tik tok page whatever content u want.

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I don’t like peanut butter It’s sticky, overrated and smells weird. And it gets everywhere.

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Imagine be the best super smart good looking rockstar in the world Then boom cancer

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Something super embarrassing I made the mistake of going on Reddit during lunch last year and my friend saw the Reddit icon on my phone👍last time I’m making that mistake. Why the fuck am I on here

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Does anyone else see streaky lines when looking at lights Like whenever I look at headlights or a lamp or a traffic light there’s long lines of light, not a fade. If any of you have it its apparently a really common eye defect. It’s called astigmatism and I thought it always was supposed to look streaky.

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Short or long note?Should I leave a lengthy long note describing everything I feel and answer as many questions as I can, or just leave it short and to the point?

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Lost all hopeI don't know why I have stuck around for as long as I have...I kept hoping that things would get better but it just gets worse everyday , I don't have anything to look forward to and I'm tired of this misery

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No reason to live if you aren’t normalThis will be my last post I don’t plan on using reddit because tomorrow I’m actually going to be going through with my plan to just kill myself and get it over with. I already have my stuff planned out no talking me out of this one I have my letters written and am going to send out my last text to loved ones which is just family in an hour or two and finish the day playing Pokémon and from there wake up and drive out look for a cliff and just jump off. I hate the fact that I don’t look normal I’m smaller than the average guy and always envied tall and average height guys because they have the luxury of being normal. All I’m ever seen as is just some loser who overcompensates for his height. I never even liked my life that much either college sucks and was a complete lie people told me when they said college gets better. “It gets better” what a bunch of bullshit. I’m thinking of taking out someone else but murder will just land me in jail not death well at least not immediately but I do plan on doing something stupid since it won’t matter so hopefully I’ll do something fun/illegal but in the end just leads to my death anyway.

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Need some ideas about this book I'm writing I have to write a book about self-discovery and I'm planning to write about a father who raises his daughter in isolation with no government system, but I don't know how to add different problems that relate could relate to self-discovery and identity, can someone help me with some ideas?

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God life is awful Guys fick this shit I'm outta this

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How long will this lastSince i was 8 years old i have had some thoughts about kiling myself, but from 12 to 15 i thought about it daily. Then suddenly it stopped at 15, i didnt think about killing myself at all. And i thought that this was just some stupid "teenager depression" thing. For a year i thought, about how everything is going good. But now, suddenly i am starting to get more and more days filled with thoughts about killing myself, Then days where i think i am stupid for thinking that and that i am such a great human, and that i am better than most people on earth, and then again days where i hate myself even more. I have a pretty good life, i have friends, i dont look terrible, yet i want to kill myself even more now. What the fuck is wrong with me

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Not enough energy for emotions? Can someone relate?my first post here, i'm not exactly sure why i'm typing this out but heck it, maybe some of you can relate a few months ago I used to scream and cry and cut myself. I had episodes where I really felt like i was one push away from just ending it all and that made me panic so much i would spend nearly hours screaming and hyperventilating in my bed. I don't why but strangely enough i miss it a lot, everything's so dull now. I just spend all day moping around and feeling nothing except tired. Often i want to cry and can feeling clogging up in my throat, but nothing comes out, like i don't even have the energy to cry half the time. I kinda wish I could scream and throw a fit and feel something like I used to Is this a sign things are getting better or worse? I don't even know what i want anymore. I still think about suicide but it's more feeling it's vaguely coming and less thinking i'm right about to do it

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Tell me What is your favorite thing you ate today and why? if you haven’t eaten anything yet what would you want to eat and why? And if you have eaten but didn’t like anything you ate why didn’t you?

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Guys please help I need a nut pass really really bad please pm me one

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Yooo you know what day it is Self love day so give yourself some love It's also my birthday but love yourself before you love someone else and i love you all

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Regimental Schooling This week for me was going great. I came home Saturday evening after a 5 hour drive South from my home feeling confident after taking my SAT. I had a somewhat relaxed Sunday and finished all the work I had to and prepared for a somewhat busy week. However i didn't know that Monday would be probably the worst Monday of my life. Of course, Mondays are bad. The feeling of going to work, to school, stating 5 days of <insert something negative>. However a grade came in for me, a 65% on an exam for my AP US History class. To give context on this, I go to a pretty competitive public highschool and I am currently a Junior. We had written an in-class DBQ (a special kind of US History essay format) as a test finishing our unit and as a kind of prep for the AP exam this year. I was kinda cruising at a 89.98, and the next minor assignment would have pushed my grade to a borderline A-, and I was kinda pumped. The grade came in before my period started, and I guess u could say I was a little shocked. I am not an extremely over-performing top 0.1% student, but I manage to get good grades. As literally everyone else in my class, I took to the group chat with everyone in the class. From the conversation, everyone was getting somewhere in the range 50-75%. Nobody got over an 85. When class started, our fatass of a teacher explained her reasoning behind the grading, as she was using the AP grading scale. If you are not familiar with the AP grading scale, you only need like a 70% raw score in the multiple choice, free-response, essay section etc. combined to get a 5/5 on the exam. So basically she graded without partial credit, no mercy. Everyone in the class was shocked. By everyone, I mean everyone, even the teacher's kissass pet. Her justification behind this was **"It is a realization and a wakeup call to prepare for the AP Exam. If you got over a 70% you will do great (5/5) on the AP Exam!"** If I was this close to a 5/5, why didn't I get the 100/100, or even the 80/100 (4/5)? This was the frustration for many other students. the teacher might think our overall grades are amazing, but literally nobody else on the planet would consider an 84% reasonable. I talked with the boys on the discord VC after school, and those in APUSH said their grades dropped by 5%, as did mine. Now it is barely recoverable, and the teacher probably screwed over everyone else and their future GPA's as well. Everyone I knew to have As in the class (pretty much everyone) no longer had it. Not only is this a significant drop in a statistic, it is a huge drop in morale. HUGE. I worked my ass off so far to have one unfairly graded exam drop it to a grade I have never observed to be so low in my life. My grade is so low, and it can barely be recovered, what is the point of even trying in the class anymore? Is there a purpose at all? In anything? If you think that the 84% is actually not bad, I respect that, but I would also like to reiterate that I live i an extremely competitive, stressful area where A's are nearly mandated by parents and Colleges. TLDR: The teacher's irreversible and regimental grading policy for this one exam has quite literally screwed over every student in APUSH this year, and everyone's future with a trashy GPA. The system is pretty fucked NGL. Thanks for reading this rant I just had to vent a little.

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Hey I’d like to talk to someone I’m super bored so I’d love to chat to someone. I’m 16M and I’m happy to chat about anything or play the number game. Dm me!!

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Anyone to talk to?I'd appreciate it.

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First day of high school! Hooray, right? I'm in high school. I'm gonna get a better education. I'm gonna have so much fun. Pretty much all my old friends from middle school are in the same high school as me and most of them are in the same class as me. Hooray, right? If only I wasn't such a fucking failure of a human being, huh. If only I knew how to keep a conversation going. If only I knew how to talk to new people. If only I could get enough sleep to actually listen in school. If only I didn't basically have panic attacks in the middle of the hallway because there are too many people around. If only I wasn't constantly anxious about having all the possible mental and physical illnesses in the book. If only I wasn't bi and trans. If only I had a relationship with my dad whom I live with. If only the one person who I feel like actually gives a shit about me in this world didn't live 700km away. I fucking know that no-one cares and that everyone has their problems. I just want someone to listen to me. I'm just so done and so miserable. I have no friends. I have zero social skills. I'm constantly anxious. Why does life have to be like this?

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Prince Phillip is dead Lmao that is the funniest shit EVER How old was that stinking pedi anyway? 99? Jeaus that's 1 off a queen's letter, damn mate Go rest with jeffrey and Jimmy in hell you sick fuck

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I want to die but I want to get helpI want to tell someone I want to kill myself but I don't want to be hospitalized. I've been hospitalized before and it was not great. If I tell a doctor or a therapist I want to die, what will happen?

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I just wish I could take the leapI'm done guys my life is falling apart I'm not a drug addict or a bad guy my so is a great support but I just acnt take this anymore my mother and her boyfriend have made my life impossible to live I feel useless and unwanted I am screamed at demeaned and put down regularly I have a plan to get away but only have two hundred dollars to live on for at least two weeks I'm thinking about dieing I keep having it flash through my head how bad I just want too end it but I don't have the balls to do it I sit here every night and any time I am alone crying screaming and begging a god I'm unsure if I believe in to finally take me to kill me because I don't have the strength to do it myself all I want is to know the next time I go to sleep I never have to wake up again I just want to know nothing else bad can happen to me because I'm gone I'm dead I've moved on and I can no longer hurt but I just can't I can't bring that blade to my skin or my feet to that cliff it hurts so much I just wish I could end it

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British school lunches "Thy nourishment is thy sustenance" — William Shakespeare Not only is the food served at my school unhealthy, we have to gobble it up so we can't even digest that junk properly. The consumption of dry and greasy wedges is a time-consuming process, especially if you don't want to get cancer and you meticulously remove the burnt parts. Furthermore, you have to factor in the initial time needed to mentally prepare yourself for what you're about to go through. Even though I have my meals in monastic silence, I'm always the last one to finish. Many a time I arrive at class the following period while still chewing. On the other hand, my peers have elaborate conversations about whatever newfangled claptrap is currently popular and after five minutes their green plastic trays are already empty. I have several hypotheses to explain this phenomenon: * Exercising your jaws during speech increases chewing performance. As a result, the loud alpha male or female eats their food in the least amount of time. * The others use their cutlery to pulverise the food and then inhale it when they pause for breath between words. * They eat so messily that a large proportion of the food ends up somewhere like the ceiling fan. The only guy who brings lunch from home and therefore has a different-sized portion eats vinegar crisps sandwiched between two slices of white bread, a diet which I assume has been developed by a professional to meet his unique nutritional needs. Last but not least, there is an utter lack of hygiene. The older generations complain that we've killed the napkin industry, but they are the ones who don't provide us with any! I hereby assert that eating is just as important as maths or history and therefore a sufficient amount of time has to be allocated to it.

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Suicidal, but my life is fine.My life is actually kinda going pretty great now. But, for some reason, I still feel the desire to end my own life. You’d expect it to be scary or whatever, but it’s not. I’m doing a lot of stuff that I’ve wanted to for a while as of late and my birthday is coming up. But, for whatever reason, my brain is telling me that I want to die. It’s weird and hard to explain. Sorry for bad explanation.

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I'm not a good enough mom.I take care of my step children full time. I'm never enough for them, because I'm not their real mom. Can't do this anymore.

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I guess this is it.I always knew that I’d end up in the obituary section of a small town newspaper. My grieving parents would find a picture of me (maybe one from high school) and it would be pasted in grayscale between ‘Doris Smith, 88, survived by seven grandchildren’ and ‘Emory Deacon, 56, who succumbed after a long illness’. People would see that I was only 24 and wonder what happened. *Was it a car accident? The poor dear probably had something terminal. It’s a shame to see someone die so young.* Is it? I’m 24 years old and I don’t remember what it’s like to be normal. This dusty room and my elderly parents are all that I have left in the world. The anxiety is constant and the panic attacks even happen when I’m sleeping. The doctor’s office smelled like Lysol and the nurse didn’t mind when I cried. The white pills make me drowsy and the small green ones make me sweat. I can’t stop grinding my teeth but they say I’m getting better now. I accept that I’m dying and offer this as my final testament: Paradise is understanding. Words are better wasted than unspoken. I would have named my daughter Adeline. I can’t stop grinding my teeth and I would have named my daughter Adeline.

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Finally Did it After years of liking this girl, she finally confessed her feelings and now we are together. Havent felt this good for a while.

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BananaDuck221 is cool Just thought I should say that. I’m bored and I should be doing other stuff rn

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I don’t wanna fight no moreBut I don’t wanna fight no more ’Cause I’m not a fighter, I won’t no more But I don’t wanna fight no more ’Cause I’m not a fighter, I won’t no more Anybody wanna be my friend?

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I just wanted to say itI think my problem is that I've always felt like an outsider. I used to think that if only someone would love me or be there for me then I'd finally be happy but that's not true..even though that hasn't really happened, I realized that I don't have anything to offer anyone that would make someone want to be with me.iThere is nothing about me that makes people fall in love with me.ive always been a placeholder, someone to be with and waste time with until someone better came along. I always hear that " until you love yourself no one will ever love you!!" How the fuck can I love myself if nobody NOBODY has ever loved me? I wasnt even good enough for my family as a kid. I am a collosal disappointment.I'm almost 40 years old and I'm alone. Never married ,could not have kids. I missed out on all of the things that make you feel like a person . I can't see that there is any reason to not kill myself at some point in the future and when I have enough or if something happens to me and I can't work anymore that's what I'm going to do. I just wanted to say what I was feeling into the void. I don't want any advice

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I just realised what a burden I amI kinda had a rough day, where I remembered everything. The only good thing I’ve ever done is given my mum emotional support, but that made me become emotionally exhausted and I had to stop. I’ve had a psychotic episode and it made me become so useless. Now I’m just a brat who can’t get over what happened two years ago. I just don’t wanna be a burden to anyone anymore. Sorry for wasting time. I’m just not sure if I should or not. :)

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My friend got diagnosed with covid Told him to stay positive... (x_x)

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Begging anyone to just talk to me right now.Please.

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I'm the most heartbroken I've ever been... I gave my dog a treat because she was being such a good girl. And she buried it in the pile of teddies on my bed and when she went back to get it for late, it was gone. And she searched and couldn't find it. :,(

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Yo I'm so fucking bored today Anyone wanna talk on discord or something? Cuz I'm just really bored today and have nothing to do

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bruh let's talk im bored as shit in class so lets do it m16 if it matters

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Just a sandcastleDoes anyone else ever fee like a sandcastle? Like a beautiful one that people stare at in awe? Some may envy it. Then you realize that it’s nothing more than crumbled remains of stones and bones, bleached by then sun then left alone with no hope of a being anything more fleeting enjoyment to those who wander by? I am nothing and will be swept back to sea and everyone will forget that once, for a brief moment in time , I was something beautiful.

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15 and ready to go.I’m so tired of this all. Every single day, I am laughed at in the streets, put down by my peers and I just feel invisible. I feel meaningless. Just today I overheard some girls talking about how I look “anorexic” (I’m a really skinny guy). I’ve tried to fix myself I’ve literally begged my parents to let me lift weights and gain confidence but they believe that it will damage my “bones” and “growth”. Even my brother (who is a fitness geek) has told them not to let me lift or do anything of the sort. I’m stuck and there’s only one way out. I’m tired of being the short (only 5 foot 7) , skinny, invisible, ugly guy but I just know there’s really no way out. This is really my last try. If anyone has anything, any genuine advice to give me then please just let me know. And just for reference, I resorted to plastic surgery after years of teasing a few years back. The only thing that’s changed is they just focus on every other flaw now.

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Update in my bead post It works because now that I have to take all of the beads off I'm really sad. I didnt notice that I was doing the thing until like i was sitting the doing it. Sadness

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You know what really fucking hurts? Realising your sibling is way more successful than you, and way more than you could ever be.You know what hurts more? The fact that they're younger than you. It really just makes me wonder what the fuck am I doing so wrong in life to be this fucked up? I truly cannot do anything right, and if that doesn't prove it I don't know what will. Just why? Why the fuck am I like this? I swear I can't go on like this. Why the fuck is life so cruel? Why am I expected to continue to live in a world that clearly doesn't want me? Because if it did, I wouldn't be dealt with a shitty ass hand of cards. (And, no. I did not say people clearly don't want me. I said the world. So please, don't start with the "you matter, people care, I care!" bullshit. You would not believe how many times I have heard that, and how absolutely tired I am of it. That shit has no meaning to me anymore. It's watered down. Tasteless.)

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Is there anybody listening?I feel I'm quite insane right now.

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This is rlly random but... Anyone down to play cold war on xbox for a youtube collab? I have 105 subs and i think it would be fun

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To those still giving their all...Keep going! The struggle is real and you are somehow able to give it your all, still... it’s beautiful that you do.

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A week and a half after going back to school a full third of my school will be self isolating within the week I live in the UK and we recently got sent back to school, within a week our new cases have doubled in the ehole country, and an entire year at my school is already off, with classes dropping like flies. Everyone i know is getting ill either because they got the vius or our immune systems are weak due to lockdown. I would give a month at most until another total lockdown. If you look at the cases it speaks for itself, the cases rise in the weekdays and flats out on weekend. Masks physically cannot do anything to help either, people are so densely packed its pointless. But oh no the economy comes first doesnt it? TLDR: government cares about money over safety.

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How come the answers on a test are always overly complicated Why not just make simple answers instead of writing overly complicated answer choices that are confusing? It’s as if the teachers are trying their hardest to make us fail

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FUCKHey y'all Another year and another handful of attempts later, here I am. Against all rhyme and reason I stand. I've heard so much motivational drivel that at this point it just goes in and out of my ears like trying to catch water with a dishrag. For years, the same "it'll get better!" "you are more than this" "it's just a feeling" bullshit. Nearly four years since I was diagnosed with depression, three years on various meds, and over a decade of feeling like this. This year, I've come to the conclusion that I have no fucking purpose. Am I young? Yes. Have I had hope that I'd one day amount to something? Yes. But nothing interests me or makes me feel whole. I've gone to therapy, worked out, tried every medication. I've cut off friends and family alike. It's easier to go if nobody cares, or thinks it's better off that I'm dead. I've hurt people. Really hurt them deep, in ways they'll probably never heal from. Everything that I bring to the table is manipulativeness, pain, and dishonesty. I don't want to see the new year, there's no hope left. No light at the end of the tunnel. Not for me anyways, whatever's to come will be better when I'm gone. Unsure if this is a final goodbye or some twisted cry for help or just the rantings of some sick, sad person. I'll keep you posted. Happy new year. If you see any hope at all, you better cling to that and don't let go until you've got enough hope and happiness to last you lifetimes. \-N

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Fucking roblox games AAAAAAAAAA IMMA WHINE ABOUT A CHILDRENS GAME NOW OAKY SO LETS GET STARTED Aethelborne is as balanced as North Korea is a democracy. Like, the block feature downs your character, and the katana is a one hit kill. FUCKING EVERYONE HAS A KATANA and yknow what the icing on the cake is? THE STARTER WEAPON IS WORSE THAN YOUR GODDAMN FISTS.

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Taking my meds, doing the therapy;Yet I still cry every day, want to kill myself every day. My work has changed hands recently, and the new team has forced us to understaff every shift, making things dangerous and stressful. So moral is low. People are leaving, signed off on stress leave. So we become more understaffed. Should have had 6 staff on last night. We had 3. I did everything alone, until the last 30minutes, when I asked someone to help me with a 2 minutes task. They blew up in my face and there I was, crying again. I want to die. I don’t want to do this all over again. I’m all pale skin, black bags, split skin and spots. I want to scream and punch and break myself and let everything out until I don’t exist any more. I want to die. I just want to die.

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Female I am not. Male, I am. Mm yes. So anybody wanna talk star wars or geeky stuff? Sorry for so many posts, not horny or simpin just bored

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Always check if you are mute So today I was having Zoom meeting in art. I showed one of the drawing I made and unmuted my self to tell how I made it. Once I stopped sharing my screen I forgot to mute. Sometimes I whisper when I read/write so the class was hearing whispering and we were also in the discussion of ASMR. My teacher found out it was me and I immediately muted myself and said I had to go since either way I had to eat. This taught me a lesson to always check if you are mute or not.

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ayo we hit 135 followers ily all *mwah*

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Bro remember when you would like open the door for your homie and be like "ladies first" 😂😂😂😳🤪😎 That shit was comedy gold at like 10 years old

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I won't make it to 21People would kill to get the advantages I have had in my life, from a fairly wealthy and supportive family to being born in one of the most prosperous areas in the world. However, I can hardly get myself to attend my college classes, and it is my first year. I would have blown my brains out already if it wasn't for my parents supporting me, it would destroy them to have their son die. I just know I won't amount to anything in my life, I think I am just too lazy or maybe something is wrong in my head. I have tried to get better but it didn't work in high school and it isn't working now. The only place I see myself in 2-3 years is either as a bum leeching off of my parents or dead, and I am not sure what to do. I'm not sure what I expect from this post, but I guess it just helps to see my thoughts typed out and if anyone else feels the same way.

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Hedgehog is the only one left keeping me alive....My gf is debating whether or not to leave me so they can be poly. Gotta love giving everything u have to someone just to watch them decide if they want to leave. At least my hedgehog will always love me.

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can we post selfies again i just want someone to simp for me tbh

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The most relaxing thing ever Playing fallout new Vegas, with a low level and the radio in the background

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My younger sister has been suicidal for a long time and of course, I have always tried being there to help and be her punching bag. When am I allowed to give up?My sister (20) has been suicidal/depressed since she was about 13 years old and she has only gotten worse. It began when her closest friends in high school ditched her and turned everyone in her class against her. Since then she hasn’t ever really recovered - did receive some help around then. She now refuses to seek any more help, says she will deal with it on her own and if it doesn’t work and she decides to kill herself “she’s tried her best”. Because of this decision and her being vehemently against any sort of help (she cut our parents out of her life because they tried to make her get help), I have been the only one she can turn to. She recently stopped being friends with her last remaining friend. I talk to her whenever she feels like it but it always seems like whatever I say makes her angry when all I’m doing is trying to help. Her reactions aren’t that of a normal person so it’s really hard to try and be there for her and making sure I don’t make her angry while doing so. At this point, it really is affecting my mental health (have been working through my own depression) and I have no idea what to do. I can’t imagine if the only person I could talk to decided to leave and would never want to but I also can’t be her punching bag forever. She also says that if I try and make her get help she will hate me and cut me out too. Do I just let her?

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I'm patheticI know this is going to sound overly dramatic, but as someone who has considered suicide since they were 8 years old, I jump to "dramatic" conclusions quickly. I've been in college for approximately 2 weeks now and I've realized what a piece of fucking lower middle class garbage I am compared to everyone else. I come from a state in the tri-state area and moved to NY (manhattan specifically) for college (living in the dorms) Where I'm from there is no opportunity for someone like me because I am a creative, and if you werent a family friend of some rich Italian family who owned a pizza restaurant in my old town - then you were shit out of luck for any opportunity. Now I go to an art school because, believe me, I'm not capable of doing anything else. I am fucking stupid. And yes, it's expensive to be here. And yes, I got a significant amount of financial aid, and yes, it's still a lot of money. When I moved here, I didn't come with that much money. I've been very good at limiting what I spend, I only spend money on what I absolutely need. On top of college being a lot of money, everything here is also more costly. So money goes quick, even if it's only on essentials. Started my painting class yesterday and got handed out the long ass materials list and knew off the bat I couldn't afford all of this. My class is full of wealthy exchange students who went out and bought everything on the list without any worry of financial stability during our break time. I spent 6 hours in that fucking studio class thinking about how I'm going to get all this shit and afford food at the same time. I walked to an art supply store nearby and almost considered stealing some things - but I didn't. I left empty handed and feeling like shit. On top of school materials, I am practically wearing the same clothes every week because I have so few. I've resisted spending literally anything or going out anywhere if I can help it. I've heard a million different things about student loans and all that bullshit and my head still isn't completely wrapped around about what I have to do and where to do it to make my stupid fucking payments. Don't really want to think about it right now but I'll do it anyways. My parents are helping me out paying for tuition and shit but other than that I'm on my own. I'm not going to kill myself right away but I would love to open my window and jump from 16 stories down onto the sidewalk and die. I am so fucking alone here and so fucking pathetic. Money doesnt buy happiness but it fucking controls everything that I can't afford. Fuck college fuck my painting class and fuck my stupid fucking life. I should have never been born.

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"Your gender is what's in your pants" i guess my gender is shit 😎

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I am in so much painI have written my suicide note and I know how I want to do it, i dont want to deal with this pain anymore

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Send help I can't sleep Give advice for slep pls filler filler

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Well today's the day.I've had today picked out for awhile. And I have a mixture of emotions. But I plan on doing it tonight, but I still have to go buy my gun, and I'm so freaking lazy I'm worried I won't be motivated enough to go get it. The gun place opens so early and closes early so I won't be able to get any sleep if I want to go get it. It would be easier for me Thursday because I won't have work. I want to just ask to borrow some else's gun but everyone knows why I'd want it. I'm so sleepy. I just wanted to tell you guys that today was my last day. I'm going to play some Destiny and then go to bed. It's pretty bad that I actually do have a small amount of will power to live longer but it is 100% only because I want to play some more Destiny.

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i’d love to get a full body laser hair removal when i’m older BUT ITS SO EXPENSIVE MY GOD LIKE WTF SEARCH IT UP SEE THE PRICES ITS RIDICULOUSSSSSSSS AAAAAAAAA

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And feeling suicidal againJust great, theres half a bottle of Vodka in the freezer and a bunch of Oxycodone in my fathers room I could literally end myself right now I probably won't because I'm a bitch but I just wish I could, being drunk would really shutup that voice in my head that tells me "Hey keep being alive"

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TicktockFood. Cooking. Hungr. Watching her do nothing while i struggle. Watching her hurt, every day, with no hope in sight. Choosing between gas, cigarettes, or chicken. Cigarettes win and i walk. Brakes, oil, tires. "Get a real job" they think. "Leave her" they think. I hear your thoughts. I hear your message. "Always be happy". I want to k***. I want to eliminate my problems. I want to become a hurricane and devour the coast. I want to soar through the air like lightning and crash like thunder against a miserable sky. I want to fucking matter. I want to eat.

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Hey am I the only one bothered by YouTube's adds? Im seriously going to start watching demoniced channels only.

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End of week twoToday marks the end of the second week in quarantine. I’ve been working from home, and I almost never leave my tiny living space. I’m here 24/7, completely alone. I don’t think anyone would care if I died. I know my mom would, but everyone else would forget after a week. I have no purpose. I have no *reason* to wake up tomorrow. There’s nothing happening tomorrow that I need to be here for. Same for the day after that, and the day after that. I just wake up and work for eight hours. Then I sit there not knowing what to do with myself. I used to be able to think about killing myself, and it brought me a lot of comfort. But now I’m new meds and they’re working. I can’t think about death anymore. Which I know is supposed to be good, but I feel like I lost my only real coping mechanism. I always felt that no matter how bad things got, no matter how much pain I was in, I could always kill myself. And I sort of feel like I lost that comforting thought. I just don’t see any reason to be here. I don’t want to be here.

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I need guidance... please help me.Nothing religious, oh God no. (haha, funny joke.) but i feel like I'm dying on the inside. I'm so alone.. Forever Alone even rejected to be with me. I'm in high school now, and I've had these thoughts since forever, around 7th grade. I'm the epitome of a failure, i have nothing going for me. I spend my entire afternoon studying, and yes, my ENTIRE afternoon. Sometimes it goes to 5 hours of just one subject because I'm too stupid to understand the simplicity, or logicality of it. I'm in two AP classes, my GPA is a 3.468. I do have friends, yes. Maybe I'm not entirely forever alone, but i have never had a girlfriend. I'm too shy, i don't know how being a kid works. My parents don't talk to me, i'm given full independence of thinking, but i'm not allowed outside of my home. My parents want me to be independent, but they still won't let me outside. I spend my whole night studying, and thinking of what could have been, or what could be. I don't see myself in the future, mostly because i feel like ending it now. I don't know why, i feel so fortunate, but i feel so insignificant, i feel like a nuisance. I feel like i'm the one my friends hate together, or make fun of me behind my back, even though i KNOW they don't. I just feel useless, empty, and pathetic. Everyday. I study and study, and still can't get good grades, while other kids in my class don't study at all, and pass the class with a straight 100 in every test. I do all my homework, even if it's optional. This might just be a vent, but i really don't believe it is a vent without a purpose of death. I need help, i'm chronically depressed, and don't want anyone to think of me as the failure i already am. Please help me. I'm 16, and i don't want to cry, but i find myself doing that very often now.

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Let’s make a fun chain. What would you do if I sand out of tune?

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It gets worse beyond death.28 y/o divorced male here. With one beautiful son, and he's god sent. That being said, he is a real problem as I cannot handle the thoughts of how he will have to go through with life when I discharge a shotgun in my face. I've considered taking his life as well, in order to spare him. I am a completely and utterly hopeless romantic. I married my ex-wife after threatening to abort our child (we had an abortion a year before we had our son). The divorce and custody trials are still not over, have lasted over 3 years, and has put me in debt to my family trust for over $50,000. I met an absolutely beautiful and exquisite individual over a dating app about two months ago. She fills me with joy and is the most remarkable woman I have ever met. She gave many different types of messages over the past few weeks, which have all been predominantly reassuring. This week my emotions boiled over a bit and I told her how much I want to be with her. Our phone call last night concluded with her telling me, in essence, that my emotional overflow has created a small rift between us and she is in need of the emotions to be removed from our equation. I haven't slept all week, as I've felt like I've been losing her, due to the fact that I have baggage, and am otherwise more invested in this than she is. I've looked all my life for someone like her. I detest the concept of not putting all my eggs in one basket, I've already hooked up with someone else since I met her to do precisely this, and I thought about her the entire time, it made me hate myself and want to purify, and thus, has caused me to overextend my affection and quite honestly appear to not have all my ducks in a line, in addition to how emotionally distraught I was in our most recent conversation. I have a 4-year degree and apply for better jobs on a daily basis, but to no avail, I am living in a high income area, and am no better off than I was a decade ago. I have a huge issue with capitalism, and, coming from both a conservative and military family, am routinely crucified verbally for my lack of personal motivation to seek and act in ways that will project my son and I forward. I have suffered from extreme depression since adolescence, took every antidepressant available in high school, and self medicated with marijuana for a decade. I can't cope with my situation, let alone another great romantic loss, any more than I can cope with the fact that I've never felt capable of overcoming the gravity of my emotions. As a single parent with full custody, options for seeking help are all but plentiful, especially with an ex-spouse eager to reverse the custody situation, who also happens to be in very dire straits financially. Assuming I am compromised enough to even consider the destruction of my life, and even that of my sons to spare him pain, my only real issue is with God. As a frequent lucid dreamer and someone unable to recover from the daily perils of life through an inability to sleep without working through significant karmic events, (I routinely deal with the aftermath of sins such as murder, am imprisoned, or am otherwise finding myself in a deep state of isolated suffering when I dream), I am very much aware of the fact that there exists a life in the ether, and the truth is that my life in the ether is worse than it is in reality. I hate God for the situation that planet earth is currently in, and has been in for thousands of years, I hate that I cannot be at peace, having lived a life where I've tried to be considerate of others, and truly feel that there is no escape whether i commit suicide or not. I've felt this way for decades, and I've deteriorated to the point of complete anguish, where I truly wish to destroy my life and the lives of others as I see the human struggle to be so fickle and grotesque, my mind desires seeking the dark web to sign murder contracts, and then as I let my thinking spiral, I return to a state where I realize that I truly have no desire to hurt anyone, but to completely erase all aspects of myself entirely. No memories, no essence, no soul. Total obliteration and liberation through the end of what has felt like truly a life of magnified suffering. I don't know how to end this, because again, in my mind there is no end no matter what action I take, but I'm so sick and unorganized that it has effected each and every person involved in my life.

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I just need someone to listen to me...Back story: I'm 18, I've been suffering from depression for 3 or 4 years but I don't want to go back to the doctor because I'm scared that they won't take me seriously and think I'm just another teenager. I have never talked about my problems to anyone else because when I try I freeze and am unable to say anything. Over the past couple of years, I have tried to kill myself over 20 times including pills and alcohol and trying to drown myself. Now to my current problems: I came out at gay when I finished my GCSE's at 16. All my friends said they didn't care and all but within 2 months, I only had 2 or 3 friends that would still talk to me. When I went back to the school to pick up my GCSE certificates, about 100 people, all my old friends and classmates included, started shouting insults like faggot and queer, right up until I was 5 minutes down the road and couldn't hear them any more. My best friend at the time stopped talking to me about 2 or 3 months after this incident. My other friend at that time still talked to me and did right up until October 2011 when he stopped talking to me and started doing drugs and all sorts. When I went to a new school after a year to start my A Levels, I made new friends, and they would come out with me and smoke weed and such, but then a month ago, they did the exact same thing as my other good friends did and just stopped talking to me, unless they need me for something, usually to ask me for a cigarette. At this same time, a month or so my last friends, had a baby. Now I understand that they had a baby and all but they just stopped talking to me as well. It's not even that they've not had time due to their child, but they have been going out nearly every day and had time to themselves, but nothing. Now, I have no friends that will talk to me and the only person I've talked to today is my mom and that was about 3 words. I'm in love with a straight guy in my school. I would talk to him and say how I feel, but I'm scared about what will happen due to my year group in school consisting of a whole 25 people who are all very good friends with each other, plus the way they get on with each other consists of finding something to make fun f someone for and taking the piss out of that for a long time. If I did say anything, my whole year group in school would hear about it within a day and I won't be able to stay there for another year because people will go on about it every day. I can't go to another school as this was the only one I was able to go to since I was previously doing a electrician training course somewhere else. I'm also poor as fuck. My mom has a lot of health problems and is unable to work. My dad works a job that earns just enough to cover the bills. I've been trying to find a job but somehow, the people with no qualifications at all get picked for jobs instead of me. All my clothes are borderline too small and are at least a year old. I'm sorry about this rant and I thank you for reading it. It took me 3 hours and 20 cigarettes to finally get written out.

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I went on a full out rant in my English report writing. Basically, whenever I am asked to write an essay on a "problem", I express my true feelings and go on a full out rant, turning what was supposed to be a 200 to 300 word essay into a 500 to 1,000 word lecture. Four pages is a bit excessive, but once I start, I can't stop rant-writing. Surprisingly, these rants actually positively surprise my teachers, making me get near perfect scores, so it might be a good thing after all. Apparently, the grammar, vocabulary, and content were exactly what my teachers were looking for. Every single time I do the same thing, and each time I get the same results.

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I would rather enjoy help. If you are so kind as to provide it. So here's my problem. Last night I was eating popcorn when a piece gets stuck IN MY GUMBS. The stuff that holds your teeth. It wont get out. I've made my gumbs bleed trying to remove it. I ALLMOST got it out but then my tongue accidentally shoved it back in the hole. I've ripped a small part of it off but theres still a lot in there. This is the biggest piece of popcorn kernal I've seen. It's super deep in. It's back to back on my teeth and my gumbs. Anyone got tips for removal?

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The smart kid called all of my classmates racists For context she snitches a lot and we don t really like her. She is the stereotypical 13 yo white girl who can t take jokes and is offended by everything. Btw she doesn t have any friends and she blames us for that(the school is in europe and we re the same nation.

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Couldn’t believe that this would happen to me one day Me (M15) and my brother (20) had a great relations and then he opened up to me that he drank, A LOT, and keep telling me he can’t go drunk easily despite he tried a lot to get drunk. Which shocked me a lot because i thought it would have been much worse than what i’ve thought before. Until this happened today. He went home drunk as shit, with his friends having to drive him home. One cunt destroyed one trunk of my favourite plant while they were trying to park his car, and when he came out of the car, he looks messy as fuck, with a puke bag and pukes in his rubber mat. His friends had to get him up and lift him to his room. And when i went to my room after witnessing the whole situation, i cried. Out of shame and disappointment. And telling my Mum about this incident would have ended up him getting banished from the house, which is a horrible sight i wish i would have never seen in my life. Can’t believe having to watch your brother went home like this.

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The Weeknd is goated I don’t get people who hate on him. One of the most talented singers of this generation, he’s phenomenal

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Finally going to the eye doctor I haven't gotten new glasses in over 3 years so it'll be nice to have glasses that actually work

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Posting everyday until I get a girlfriend. Day: 161 Second day of really trying to spend time in school with this girl. So far it’s going pretty well. We have a lot of laughs together

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Does anyone else feel empty and sad even after they had a great day? bruh what's wrong with me

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lonelyi feel suicidal and pathetic, i have no friends nor love. im 20 and i do work, going to college and pay for some bills but i feel empty and stupid as life goes on, all i think about is wanting love, how ugly i am, and how my peers have accomplished more in life. ive always been the one picked on and unloved in school, i barely got any family and was abused as a child. i just hate my life im bored of life honestly im sick of it always being lonely it kills me inside.

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fucking doing it nowi can’t continue... thank you for everything. sorry.

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I just cut myself for the first time since 2010Does anyone do this as a means to punish themselves? I can't believe I did it. I'm 28 years old and I cut myself. I'm such a child and failure. I don't know why I have to be so fucking broken. Sometimes I am okay, and even recently I felt like maybe my life would change. I've made some major life decisions recently that at the time I thought could improve my life. But now here I am alone, hissing at fresh cuts in my left arm, drinking whiskey so I can try to not feel every fucking awful feeling in the world at once, thank you very much. I'm just so tired. I honestly would just kill myself if I didn't have a family that would be devastated if I do that. I already ruin enough friendships and people's lives as it is. Killing myself would be the ultimate offense to the few who actually love me. So I can't do it. Ever. But Why do I have to suffer? Why do I have to be so alone? Did I do something I a past life to deserve this? I just wish there was a place I could go where there would hold and hug me. Why am I still here. Why? Ugh.

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Thank youHey, Last night I was seriously considering suicide, after murphy's law has pretty much been proven for me. Reading this subreddit however gave me some strength and got me in bed. This morning, one of the main reasons that made me feel like ending it all, has gone away, and I have hope now.. Thanks.

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running out of optionslost my job today. let go for 'poor performance', because i am a broken failure of a human being. it does not matter that this poor performance comes partially from a medical condition and chronic pain. my significant other is getting tired of all the shit that gets thrown my way, most of it self made. he's constantly stressed and has panic attacks because of me. he's at work right now. he can't come home. it's my fault. i ruin everything in my life. i feel so guilty for letting him in. i should have known better, should have pushed him away. he'd be so much better off. the world is so full of pain. everywhere i look there are awful people doing awful things to others. i am constantly sad and anxious and i feel like i am drowning. i want to get help, to try and be better, but i can't afford it. and now i have no health insurance, so the little help i do have from antidepressants and painkillers is going to go bye bye. my state didn't fund medicaid expansion so that's a non option. my lawyer won't call me back about the car accident that left me with this chronic pain. probably decided i am not worth it. i am so tired. i just want to stop feeling. i want to stop existing. i wish i could just get up the courage to do it.

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Today is my birthday but I don't have no ideas for gifts. Today is my birthday but I don't have no ideas for gifts. Does anybody have any suggestion?

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Most of the people involved in the system are so fucking dumb and incompetentI would call the crisis support call number but half the times I call it’s a dumb person that doesn’t understand, and leaves me off worse than before. It’d be really nice if I had resources for recovering from disordered eating but no one’s fucking helping me out with this. I have a therapist and he’s really nice but he doesn’t tell me how to fix anything. I’m considering making a promise to myself that I’ll kill myself on 1/1/2022 if I’m not recovered or recovering by then

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ideai feel like i’m probably gonna kill myself friday, i don’t even know why anymore

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Words of Positive Self-AffirmationI am worthy I am lovable I am kind I am humble I am capable I deserve respect, and I give respect in return I am smart I am not a disappointment I don't have to live up to my parents' or societal expectations I am independent I deserve happiness, and I deserve good things in life I choose peace I will succeed and achieve my goals My life has purpose I am beautiful in my own unique ways

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i’ve been sobbing in my room and my cat doesn’t give a single fuck i Hate her cats are supposed to be able to sense human emotions so now i feel even worse

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Just sick of it. What's the fucking point.You're born, you grow up, you work a shitty job for a few years, you get laid off, you swallow your pride and eat shit to find more work, you meet someone you think is nice, you spend time with them and maybe have a kid or two, that person changes, you don't, suddenly they don't want to be with you anymore and your kids are caught in the middle... Then after all that emotional turmoil and endless working you eventually get old, get a bunch of diseases that you Wikipedia and understand exactly the way they're killing you, but it doesn't change anything and understanding it doesn't make it any easier. Then you die, and maybe you're lucky and a couple people are there by your side when you cease to exist. Maybe, but probably not - they have jobs and relationships to manage too and their bosses aren't very understanding when it comes to this stuff. Being a decent human being cuts into their bottom line. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of having only this pointless life to look forward to. I'm sick of being alone. People only give a fuck when they have something to gain - even here on this subreddit, you bastards are doing this because you get a fucking masturbatory ego boost from thinking you "helped" someone. You wanna help someone? Go outside and talk to someone who looks lonely. Stop fucking around on here. Talk to someone who looks lonely, don't even bother trying to make it profound and interesting, just talk and let it the conversation go where ever it has to. So what if it gets depressing, actually risk having a down night instead of coming here where you can alt+f4 the minute you start getting uncomfortable. Actually give something. Shit. We're all so fucking busy with our Facebook and our iPhones and our goddamn blogs that we've stopped talking to eachother face to face. That's what we have to look forward to, a future filled with people absorbed in their own bullshit. I don't want to live in that world. Fuck everyone who's ever seen someone who needed help and didn't reach out. Fuck everyone who ever stepped on someone else for personal gain. Fuck everyone who's ever hated someone just because they were different. Fuck my parents for bringing me into this shithole. And fuck me for waiting this long thinking I just had to give it a chance. There's no point to any of it. At all.

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Do you know this situation? You ask someone something and he doesnt understand you and asks what you said but you dont understand him either because you are both wearing masks and now youre staring at each other and wait for the other one to reply to what youve said. Awkward.

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I just rickrolled my whole school We were outside and the teacher allowed us to request song. FOR THE REPUBLLIC!

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I’ve always knownI’ve always know how my life will end, some people are born to be painters some basketball players but I’ve seem to be born to commit suicide, every day I think about it and everyday I ponder when it will happen. I’m only posting this because I’ve found peace in this world and just await the day my dad dies. He is the only person who I truly care about. This Isn’t something to be sad about it, but rather ceremony in that I’ve found something that is truly mine.

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I don't think i'll kill myself over this but this will definitely up the chancesHi /r/SuicideWatch so there's been a lot going on over the last year or so much more than I feel I want to type up in a post as it could take me all day but basically I've been fighting a losing battle for a while now but small victory's are helping me get through the worst parts for example i passed my driving theory test two days ago :). Anyway ill give you some background so you can help me with these problems, so around two years ago i was 16 got into my first real relationship with a girl named abbey about 9 months into the relationship she got really drunk at a party she got really angry at me when i told her to slow down a bit and tried to make out with one of my friends at the party needless to say it didn't work he didn't make out with her, for the remaining months of our relationship she acted extremely distant and unloving as i showered her with praise until around February last year I broke up with her. A bad and good break up at the same time as we were both extramly sad but were able to calmly talk to each other and come to an undersanding however my mother through this time told me she was disappointed in me because I wouldn't get over her in literally two days and said she must of raised me wrong because i'm fucked up anyway..... Between that time and now I got a job at McDonalds hated it quit got kicked out of my house got forced to move back into my house normal school issues however i don't mind school that much rampant suicidal thoughts and just generally scared of the future and sad at life. Throughout this time abbey would message me now and again and wed talk for a couple of days before i stopped as i never really stopped having feelings towards her so i couldn't talk to her without feeling like shit. ok so here's the real problem we started talking two months ago ended up started having casual sex weekly i know great idea, said at the begging that if we chose to date people we would be ok with that and would stop this. one of my friends asked her out couple of days ago im not ok with that they went out on a date none of them told me she lied to me about why she couldn't come round and where she went. I worked it out for myself [here are the texts from tmrw to today when i worked it out](http://imgur.com/a/927HO). I just read through that and have left a bit out but i hope this gives the general gist of what im trying to say honestly i never fell out of love with her i don't think that's really something i can do but i know she has with me. what should I do.

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Day 1 of alphabet: A A is a vowel, a letter in the alphabet

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Not sure what to do. My life feels like it's over.Hi I was just directed to this sub.. I'm not even sure where to begin. I have mental problems/memory issues so if there is a timeline discrepancy or everything is mixed up I'm sorry. I'm also sorry for the length of the post. You dont have to read it, it's OK. I'm 31 and have lived an incredibly dismal life. As a child I lived with a single mom, she had me when she was eighteen. She had no aspirations and not much of an education. So we lived with her parents off and on until she was over thirty. Which was alright except that my grandfather never took it up to be the male role model in my life. He was extremely cynical of me, and would make me cry pretty well daily. And for some reason I'd cry until I vomited, which I believe contributed to my future stomach problems. It sucks pretty bad when you're eight years old and your own family won't believe you have heatburn. It's like leaving me there to bleed out. I was very thankful of this when I vomited blood up for the first time due to the burning in my stomach. By the time I was in grade two I was removed from my school due to behavioral issues and placed in a "special" class for misbehaved students. This was also in a catholic school. It was an extremely hostile environment, and putting problem kids in a class full of problem kids is probably the worst idea I've ever heard. But it's still happening to this day and damaging the lives of countless children. The lax learn at your own pace philosophy they seem to have held probably wasn't very beneficial to a lot of the students. The only thing that pushed you to the next grade was to simply be there. There were no tests to pass, no work to be graded on. You didn't even have to do anything. In grade five we moved from the big city to a super small town, they didn't have behavioral classes, but I made so many friends and things were happy, the days were bright. Six months later we moved to another small town because my mom met some guy. We moved in with him. I made more friends, everything was OK I went to school there were no problems (They didn't have behavioral programs for students in these places in the country it seems, we moved from toronto to new brunswick to nova scotia)

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