body
stringlengths
51
7.79k
subreddit
int64
0
1
FUCK YOU I LITERALLY READ THIS AT 1AM ON THE DOT PLAYING VIDEOGAMES THAT IM REALLY NOT ENJOYING THAT MUCH ANYMORE
1
Don’t know if that helps you, but on our very first date my now girlfriend of four years suggested to view my adhd as my 'superpower'. When we met, I had been struggling a lot and suffered from a constant feeling of worthlessness after a mountain of setbacks in both my personal and professional life. I 'confessed' my diagnosis to her to give her a chance to leave the failure I felt I was early. Since then, I always remind myself that I can do things with ease that most of the people around me aren’t equipped to do and openly address that there’s this other area of life that I am not suited for. I mean, super heroes all have flaws too. Life’s been really good for me since that change of my mind.
1
Got rid of all the physical rituals years ago, but the mental ones are another thing entirely
0
Is this the same for lock checking and do handwashers see the germs? I have Scrupulosity which deals with intrusive "sinful" thoughts and obsessions regarding unworthiness to God...my compulsion...confession. I would consider anything or any thought as a stain on my soul and sought confession to relieve that.
0
Am i the only ADHD person here who does not consider herself smart or intelligent
1
I have very few physical / manifested compulsions so I'm always second guessing. terrible intrusive thoughts etc tho. It's weird and I kinda hate being high functioning cuz I force myself to do too much stuff
0
I wish I had this feeling of Euphoria or clarity. I don't feel any change at this time with my 20mg a day.
1
I didn't realize how much I relied on it until my therapist wanted me to try and stop. it's so hard. good job for working on it though!
0
Howard Stern used to say his father told him Stop being stupid!
1
omg I use SO many commas and I’m always called out for it! concise writing is definitely something I’ve struggled with. good points
1
Meanwhile I’m still at way you don’t need a subscription for Microsoft word anymore? I stopped using it because my subscription ended. I might try this. I should definitely try this.
1
My adhd kid can watch tv while carrying on a full conversation and reading a book. It’s insane. She doesn’t look track and knows exactly what’s happening.
1
Im accepting that it is a medical condition where my brain cannot filter and move on from thoughts. So I actively face my thoughts and use my higher cognition to help get through. I totally get the feeling described here. Be strong all
0
Reading this lowkey makes me wanna cry. I’ve been suspecting since last year that I️ have adhd (specifically inattentive). And reading that “smart people can have adhd” is so comforting. I️ ping pong between thinking I️ have depression and/or adhd, but mostly thinking that I’m a dirty rotten imposter who is making all my symptoms up for attention. One of the biggest reasons I️ feel like I’m an imposter is because I️ have two degrees. “If I️ made it through nursing school it must not be that bad right?” when in reality it was the hardest thing I’ve had to do and I️ actually got held back because my brain couldn’t get motivated soon enough. Reading this helped to validate what I’m feeling. So, thank you
1
This has happened to me beforeee. I will be putting away dishes and while I’m putting away a knife my brain is like “if you don’t put that knife away right now you’re going to stab yourself or a family member”
0
I have procrastinated my health also even though I’ve shown issues for a while. I haven’t slept much due to worrying. I have gone through many test and they are worried it’s colon cancer. I haven’t been diagnosed yet but I understand part of the process. I keep trying to wrap my head around if they tell me if I have cancer but I just can’t because I think it’s something that you have to experience. I’m sorry that you have cancer. Thank you for posting this, it can’t be easy.
1
When I was getting ideas for humorous essays, I wrote the headline “Student Solves World Hunger While Putting Off Homework.” I thought it was a typical college thing.
1
Well now I’m gonna think about whether or not the thought actually appeared like lightning or if I’m a horrible person lol.
0
Ugh I spent my entire day napping and playing mindless games on my phone. Nothing got done. My house is a disaster, I’m behind at work, and I feel like my husband just thinks I’m lazy, which just makes me feel like garbage. It’s never ending.
1
“I’m just locked in my own head” is one of the best ways to describe ADHD for me personally. I might use that
1
Oh god all the time! This was one of a few of the first few intrusive thoughts that initially drove me to therapy. That one and other related ones. It’s tough but it helps to just accept the uncertainty that maybe it did happen and continue on with your work day. I know it’s easier said than done but it is the only thing that seems to work.
0
Drinking alcohol is the only way to suppress it for me. It’s the only time I feel free and not consumed with anxiety regarding it...so of course it led to me developing a drinking problem. I don’t even like drinking at this point but I feel obligated To when it gets really bad. I’m in therapy and everything but it’s just so tiring.
0
I had it happen during class but idk if i have adhd or not
1
Oh my God, I'm so scared about this too. My university hasn't gone online yet, but there's a lot of rumors about them planning to, and other colleges around us have started going online. If this happens to us to, that's that, my fate is sealed. I'm so unable to learn from video lectures, I don't know how it'd be possible for me to pass this semester.
1
And anxiety on top of that. The trifecta. Some days are nearly impossible to get through. Honestly though, if I even just as much as made it through those days (productivity and accomplishments aside), it's a win. Please know that you aren't alone at the very least.
1
24f who was diagnosed this year and completely agree with the feeling of infantilisation but i feel so vindicated hearing someone else realises they're procrastinating and it makes them research ADHD stuff lmao
1
Ugh. I try to just accept the thought but why would I want to do that because it might become true??
0
This is good information... I just reached 4400 today...
1
If I see an object like a statue broken in a movie, especially if the statue is of a person or an animal, I feel really bad. Same with paintings.
0
I honestly wish there was a post like this pinned at the top of my feed every day. This one thing is frustratingly tricky to remember.
1
I burned all of my old journals wish I hadn’t kinda wish I had something to look back on that time in my life to see how much things have changed
0
You have nothing to be ashamed of. Society unfortunately is not designed for people with ADHD. It’s similar to being left handed. There’s nothing inherently wrong or shameful about being left handed, but considering 99% of the world is designed for right handed people (which makes up more than 90% of the population), it’s harder for left handed people just due to societal constructs. The guilt/shame you are expressing is a result of other’s judgements of you. People tend to rush to judgement/generalizations about others as many don’t have solid explanations/knowledge for their behaviors. However their lack of perspective/knowledge has nothing to do with you, nor is it a reflection of who you are. As for “maning up”, the fact that you are willing to face your problems and are trying to find solutions for them instead of taking them out on others is the epitome of what a man (or woman) should be/do. And as for your concern about being too sensitive, that’s a good thing. It means you’re not a heartless POS, and the world needs more people like you (so stay with us :) ).
1
Reading this was sooooo liberating in a way :’)). I love you all so soo much!!! We all will get through this!! 😤❤️
0
You have to be careful with the third point though especially if you are suffering from Pure-O or Harm OCD. Exposure without proper supervision can further fuel your compulsions.
0
Me except it’s stab yourself in the eye when I’m using a fork or see someone else using a fork
0
Same, fashion is my hobby and my OCD always attack my hobbies
0
This made me cry. I'm very sorry for your loss. Thank you for the kind words of encouragement. We need more people like you in the world.
1
Fuuuck this hit me so hard! I feel so selfish though. Like manipulative asking people if everything is okay so I can put myself at ease.
0
Thank you! I have been doing much better generally, but last night was rough. Definitely caught myself trying to search for the “right” feeling and trying to solve my thoughts. Is SO hard not to engage sometimes.
0
Yes!!!! That’s why my room is in the state it’s in... I mean it could be my diagnosed hoarding disorder, but... Still. :)
1
Me in fourth grade stepping in and out of a room: ....dancing¿? ?
0
I haven't done the dishes in a year. Whenever I get drinking water from the tap now, I'm literally afraid to touch the contents of my sink and be contaminated. My kitchen sink is literally a biohazard—this isn't even an OCD-related fear of contamination...
0
Actual footage of me opening this subreddit everyday
0
Sonic boom. One across my bed room that goest off at 4:45am and one in the kitchen that goes off at 4:46. I have to get out of bed for the first alarm and then have to physically leave my bedroom for the second. At that point I’m semi functioning enough to get the day started. Don’t have to get up as early but the alarm system has worked so far for me on getting me up. As far as time: I try to look at everything on an hourly basis. If I have a full days schedule ahead of me I’m tapped out before I get started, but if it’s an hour it’s doable. So 6 is close to 8 but it’s almost 7. And that chapter I need to read will take me almost an hour. And at 7 it’s almost 8 which I can almost finish outlining what I just read. But the “hey I’ve got 2 hours to read and outline this chapter” is enough that I’ll procrastinate until I die.
1
YES! I do this with any relationship that I value, my husband, my kids, my cousins. It's nice when my brain goes in dark places that everything isn't actually falling into chaos, it will pass.
1
My only saved post is a meme I want to add a gif to
1
I'll tell you what I've told my siblings with ADHD: I'll impart with you my technique for never* being late. -find out travel time to you destination -include additional travel (e.g. Walking from the parking lot, stairs, etc.) -add 15 min to this time (this'll be the time you leave the house) -add the time it takes for you to get ready (brushing teeth, showering, pooping, seeing, etc.) -this final time will determine when to set your alarm to get ready/wake up *never: rarely These rough plans and alarms have always helped me.
1
Lol totally. I see a new relatable post on her everyday
1
This is the most amazing comprehensive list I’ve ever read! Seriously, this is going to help me so much in so many areas of my life. Thanks for being my superhero today!!
1
Words can’t express how happy this makes me feel. Congrats dude
1
You literally just stopped me in my tracks walking from one room into the other! I just wanted to say thanks for writing this. You don't know how much this meant to me. I'm in my 40s and I only found out about the inattentive-type last year. I sought help from mental health professionals for the first time in my life. After months of lockdown-limited phone-appointments and super long written forms (gah!!), I started a med trial last week. Constantly reading stories from others with worse symptoms than me, I'm constantly thinking "Maybe I don't have ADHD after all. Perhaps I'm just lazy". This post summed up my whole life. Thank you.
1
Oh wow. Yes. I just had to talk to my mom about this yesterday! I feel overstimulated when she’s just in the room... 🥵 For the past couple months my mom has been living with me and my partner... and my sister. I’m REALLY trying to hold it together. Feel like I’m bursting at the seams sometimes.
1
Since home schooling began I feel like my symptoms have gotten way worse. When im sitting (if I even am) its really difficult concentrating on a given task and even if I need to read a small text i scroll with my eyes and sometimes even don't remember anything. Yet my grades ar good. Most of them are A's. And that leads me to believe that I'm just lazy. I haven't been diagnosed but I'm looking forward to being. I'm not sure my self but I feel like something's wrong with me. It might not be ADHD but it's the closet one. I experienced weird ticks when i was younger like checking my phones clock 10 times and i would not understand it, i knew the time yet i had to check. I still get these some days. My attention is really hard to control and I feel like sometimes i can focus super good on something and other times it's just impossible. Fidgeting is a big part of me. I can't go without fidgeting for a minute. It doesn't matter what the situation is I do it. These are a few things that make me believe it could be ADHD. What is your opinion on this?
1
In New Zealand I can go to a counsellor for therapy sessions for basically free. If I had any other illness, I would go get it treated. Health insurance wouldn’t be a problem.. Tf is wrong with America
0
Theres so much I want to do.. Yet i have zero motivation or push to do it
1
I am clean and organized and do have OCD, though. So…
0
Dude. This shit has me fucked up. I was making steady progress on my own......bam........my standard fears I know are irrational all of a sudden are real real
0
I always think about what I might say to the security if they stop me, when I've done absolutely nothing to be suspicious about
0
Fighting the thoughts IS the problem. When you fight the thoughts and engage with them, you're doing mental compulsions. ANY engagement with the thought or threat or feeling or danger IS the compulsion. And the compulsions are what LEAD to OCD and the thoughts in the first place! ​ You've been fighting the thoughts for so, so long. Why not try something new?
0
I’m cured from reading those words. Thank your father for me.
1
I have to organize some interviews I did for school. I'm sitting in front of my computer on my phone. And the coffee I made 2 hours ago is now cold.
1
If I don’t turn the bathroom light on it’s all I think of!
0
It seems like this is a really common experience. What do I actually do to help it be less of a problem? 😭
1
Brian isn’t a computer. It’s a folding of one material to trap electricity. Left & right pronged, it’s actually a fuse. Makes sense don’t it.
0
Ahhh, holy crap is this accurate. I always try to get things out of the way first thing in the morning, or right after work, if I have to work that day. I had the choice to see the psychiatrist at 7 am on a day off. or 1:30 pm, and I jumped on that 7 am without even thinking twice. Whenever people want to meet up at 2:00 pm, I take it as a personal offense. I know they don't feel that way, but WHY DON'T THEY UNDERSTAND THAT THAT'S A TERRIBLE TIME TO MEET UP?! I feel sick at the prospect of 3 pm. I was just coordinating to meet a family member with my mom this weekend, and my mom suggested afternoon. I said, "Okay, so like noon?" We'll be meeting at 12:30, so I'm okay with that, I suppose. Though I would prefer meeting at 10 am. 😆 Thank you. I feel seen and less alone in this constant social/professional/appointment struggle.
1
Fucking mood. My councillor said that she would be away for the rest of March, and I have to wait a whole month of pain and suffering :(((
0
To be fair, perfectionism is a disorder too, but it’s called OCPD. To also be fair, in this example, they were probably using it colloquially which I then agree with what this post is saying.
0
it doesn’t help that a good amount of my family members have schizophrenia, ocd, and manic depression. i’m just counting down the days, getting weirder and weirder until i’m lost in my mind and too far gone
0
You know, you didn't have do call me out like that...
0
I've found its really theraputic to paint how ocd makes me feel, great work OP, maybe I'll post one of mine eventually!
0
Yes!! I was also diagnosed late (at 21) so the idea that I’m lazy and useless has really been ingrained into me. And on top of ADHD, I developed significant mental illness, so the amount of times I’ve had my ADHD diagnosis questioned by doctors treating my mood disorder has been truly infuriating and upsetting. I’ve had symptoms of ADHD since I was 5! I could never keep up with homework and rarely finished exams, despite being ‘smart’. There has been no variation in my symptoms and I was always ‘falling short of expectations’ in school. So I either have ADHD, or I really *am* all of the horrible things I was convinced into believing as a child. School was traumatizing and the only way to explain why is because I have ADHD, I am so tired of being told it ‘could be so many other things’!
1
What’s dumber is people think it just means I have to flick my light switch on and off 8 times before entering a room
0
You know what I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was young about 9-10 and as an adult my hyperactivity is non existent but this list here sums it all up so well they’re was even times I think I was prescribed wrong my dad passed 5 weeks ago and my sister are super upset but me I just carried on as normal and I thought am I weird or some thing
1
I had this so bad it nearly lead to suicide for me. I convinced myself I had done horrible things that never happened and would obsess about it. Not until I understood how bad my OCD was did I then realize that’s why I had gone insane in my head. And I’ve read on here a lot of other people had the same experiences. The brain is a mother fucker sometimes lol
0
Should've looked at this sooner so I wouldn't miss the train
1
Because we have too much to talk about, because reasons
1
So. Many. Times. Actually I was fired today because of this. I just won't do things.
1
Anybody ever looked into understanding right brain thinking? It's a perspective thats really been something thats helped me a lot...
0
Literally didn’t know I had OCD because of the overuse of the disorder and miseducation of what it actually is.
0
yep... when you get over one obsession thinking that it's over...
0
I need to do my taxes. I am just gonna step out to get some dinner at my favorite pizza shop first . Told my friend around the corner that I would meet him.... *Comes back with a bucket of KFC alone ".....
1
wow - i thought that was just a perfectionist trait. Opps
0
My university asked me to get ready for that possibility... I'm the teacher. All is lost....
1
True here in the US. It’s like yeah... thanks. Wtf are you supposed to do in the mean time when you feel like you hit rock bottom. 🙄
0
Plus: feeling like you don’t have time to learn to / try to build a rocket because you’re watching tv, scrolling through TikTok, and doing literally anything else but productivity all hours of the day… (Or is that just be & my senior thesis? Lol)
1
Another pro tip, though admittedly, a dangerous one potentially: When I was in school, I got a 0.8 . After 3 years at college, I got a 3.5 overall. The trick was first, finding something I loved, and secondly (the pro tip): *was that I noticed I only excelled when under extreme stress. I took 18-21 units a semester. While it was hell, not allowing myself any time to waste forced me to be on top of everything and to do any work as it came.* So, use this with a grain of salt. Learn yourself and what works and doesn’t work for you, but perhaps for some, this strategy of making yourself too busy to procrastinate got me through school. This can also possibly be adopted to other things in ADHD life not pertaining to school.
1
Best thing I ever did was channel that need to keep my hands occupied into a productive hobby. I picked up embroidery in university after I was diagnosed, and my professors were very understanding. It's a quiet, portable hobby and as a bonus I was able to channel focusing in lectures into a profitable little side hustle on etsy!
1
Other people giving sleep advice: always have a set time to go to bed, it helps. For example, try going to sleep every night at 11pm. How my brain interprets that: if it’s 11:03 I’ve fucked up oh well might as well stay up Seriously though, the best sleep advice I’ve gotten is listening to a podcast or something while going to sleep. It helps me focus on one thing instead of a million thoughts. Because it’s dark and I usually choose a calming podcast I’m asleep very soon.
1
ADHD, depression and anxiety is the holy trinity. What an awesome combo. I feel like I hit the jack pot in life.
1
OMG LOLLL I can’t believe I’m reading this post. I literally have a fear of signing up for game shows or attempting to become an “influencer” because of this fear.
0
I have PureO basically centered around relationships. But I didn't know it was OCD till about 3 weeks ago. And I still haven't told my gf. I just thought it was anxiety so I'm in my head doing my thing and she goes: "what are you thinking?" And the ONLY logical response is "nothing" because how do you explain that you're trying to figure out if the feelings you have are real or imaginary and that you should break up with her because of the red flags but also are they really red flags or am I imagining things.... Etc etc... Then she says "I don't know how to deal with you when you're like this!" And storms off and ignores me for a few hours. Yeah.
0
Jokes on you, it’s 3:23 at time of posting this comment
1
Somehow I have actually increased exercise per day, only problem is I sacrificed lunch and a normal sleep schedule
1
I hope you feel better. I can relate to the contamination struggles. It’s so difficult. I also haven’t cleaned my room in over a month because I’m scared to touch certain things. Wishing you the best. Brilliant depiction by the way.
0
I'm in bed. Even if I've forgotten something life threatening that will kill me minutes from now, it can wait til tomorrow.
1
The worst part is when people aren’t even joking. You know, when they say they have (or rather, “are”) OCD and genuinely believe that it’s just a synonym for anal-retentive.
0
I agree with this minus the Alzheimer's thing. Aren't we basically doing the same thing that the "So OCD" people are doing to us? ...this was probably a compulsion, but my point still stands. Good for you for finding a trick. Edit: a word
0
Honestly I’m really really appreciative about how my younger brother and Mum handled it when I told them about my struggle with intrusive thoughts for the past few years. When I told them, I made sure they understood that OCD wasn’t just about cleanliness and that stereotypical stuff, but that it can manifest in other obsessions. I sat down with her and Googled OCD together. She didn’t dismiss it or invalidate me which I thank her so much for. And my younger brother has been just as supportive which is awesome and asks me regularly how I’m doing and if I’m being bothered by my thoughts.
0
Imagine struggling to get better, go through therapy, get better by fighting for it with all you've got to then get told that you did nothing, Jesus did it... I would get pretty mad
0
Whoa. I mean I've been terrified that I'm a malignant narcissist like my mother but I've never worried about this. I'm pretty sure that you know whether or not you've got the urge to rape or murder.
0