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[ "@djreplay You're at the Kogi truck???Omg!We were totally gonna go today!Been wanting to try it for ages!How is it??" ]

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[ "mrsa ruined life im considering ending itever since caught illness friend august every single day dominated it either actual symptoms worrying theyre going come next both earlier today told cant get help works private healthcare started accepted onto scheme thats final kick teeth long fucking line them ever since caught illness ive hopes raised new antibiotic referred different doctor every single time shattered im fucking done fightingim done hopes dashed over cant take another heartbreak keep fighting obvious im meant lose battle nothing beaten it im looking best ways ending life are ive asked friend mine works nursing home help hes refused method im capable looks promisingi may pick least worst option ive tried breaking news boyfriend hes devastated want end life says matter give me feel incredibly guilty might him hell better without me keeps living hell probably catch much misery im now hell better without even realise yet work tomorrow weekim sure might go in know know ill end this im sure anything right now im honest thought dying scares life basically nowi future worth looking forward anymore", "illness robbed it im rambing apologise know do want keep living future thought dying scares too thought picking least worst way thatdoes anyone know anything might help" ]

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[ "im straight vibing seasons change love went cold feed flame cause cant let go run away were running circles" ]

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[ "@MELindsey lol, he has no shame" ]

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[ "caresi always feel like shit think assholes ive met life family friends love them general luck everyones praise smallest thing feel like ive tried hard make life end day realize one gives shit even give shit try hard right thing nice try successful helpothers matter end day im loser one would miss good trying alone feel fucking worthless older get realize going change true worthless mistake mean vent reddit one else gives shit give up" ]

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[ "im going get trouble dad bought shitty camera system context stepdad setup cameras corners house usually uses check took dog out yesterday guarantee took dog every time supposed since bought crappy cameras even worse motion tracking believe took probably going get grounded hell do" ]

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[ "im days self harm hello everyone lots wondering hell past weeks got phone taken away let spend time family ive addiction self harm want self harming thing past honest ill get back reddit wanted clear gone weeks want end addiction" ]

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[ "fucked bigtime actually started months ago started dating current girlfriend around then problem meth could stay away long time end least month even though really fucking hate stuff first asked told recovering addict asked problem it said stay away her felt like maybe girl would able help finally quit good course months dating though ended getting high noticed every time last night told somebody sold day got high could tell coming downi kind feel like killing now feel like ruined life know meth ruined mine best friend year old girltoo best friend ends getting curious ends know gonna fault told tell best friend young impressionable fucking meth dealers sell almost anybody think happen im gonna shoot myself know damn sure im never gonna touch shit now ive already ruined friend mines life introducing back first started years ago really cares about think could live guilt fucked up" ]

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[ "@fake_vyvyanI second that." ]

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[ "@MillenFinServ How many memes about unemployment, the high cost of living, and depression are you encouraging people to post." ]

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[ "i m all set for post anime depression attackontitan http t co vj jjwfrow" ]

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[ "quarantined coming awhile gives another level social anxiety like bro ok seen one old classmates brain flipped freak telling go outside while cold shi came back awkward like bro awkward asf" ]

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[ "thing super straight youre lonely ugly smelly guy dont date trans person doesnt matter dont make identity invalidates" ]

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[ "If we could take @kanyewest 's opinion of himself, dry it out, and grind it down into little tablets, we could single handily cure depression in this country; if not the world.." ]

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[ "guess i should go to bed have to be up in hour haven t been able to sleep lately too stressed about website not being done yet" ]

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[ "end linehey there im starting go crazy ive miserable downwards spiral years think finally reached end ive become unmotivated mny like cant bring things used like go gym sleep even simple hygienic things seems like cant hold true friendship friends annoy never find something actually do nothing interests anymore simple things like skating gaming even reading gone disire focus simple gone life summer months go back school stay tilam wake am work day sit computer mindless things get frustrated everything boring bland ive begin wander dangerous existentialist mindset nothing really matters dont even know here point desperate obtain significant other know probably wont make happy want someone care careback people always say im virgin loser never find anyone makes even insecure sex always mind frustrating knowing everyone going im not viginity thing bothers know does well honestly really really dont see point livingyeah might sad see go care choice last pathetic attempt getting help something potentially stupid dont know dont see point", "anymore im ugly loser beta male lives parents basement goes community college gets terrible grades im unmotivated pathetic existence anything people like even born world dont contribute anything fail everything do hate hometown really need leavedont resources travel maybe find myself anyways maybe someone read maybe wont sorry thoughts writing style grammar spelling format head racing kill yourself kill yourselfim little drunk even care j" ]

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[ "tiredi stupid amount money owed various places owed council due fact flatmate initially failed declare tax exemption court hearing said owed money th sept divorcing parents tearing whole family setup farewell abusive husband father mother me flatmate leaving go live someone else expected happen growing tired living could tell hard find work chosen career depression impedes efforts work times have tired feeling dull constant ache throbbing feels being nearly breaking middle supermarkets unable tell people around feel would gladly cease existenceoh yes mind long wish around deal aftermath mother stepfather friends such aftermath would horrible note would fix anything brothers sisters fill place know feeling death another leaves open wound empty bare could die affect noone would lovely im throwing hands air shouting one last fuck you jumping front oncoming train want go quietly night nothing more" ]

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[ "know anymore im completely losti finished high school monday nothing planned careers go depression anxiety wasis bad dropped two four courses really really badtwo kept ive throw world plan go im getting worse every day really think redflag im ready adult know do im much coward take life know happen time soon want work live gain enjoyment things two eating disorders top everything else one one knows bad am help whoever needs never want help return one day ill gain confidence one day ill finally peace" ]

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[ "hey shitass wanna see speedbridge fiiiller fiiiillerrrrr fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllleerrrrrrrr" ]

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[ "@rosie_g_yo http://twitpic.com/6acm2 - OooOo yay new makeups I love that cute lil bag." ]

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[ "idk else ask question us guys take better spicy pics know weird u better sub put pls lmk anyway feel like guys get lot slander taking horrible dick pics wondering girls gays tips us guys take better noods spicy pics general" ]

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[ "depression wont find me anymore http t co mj w9psbln" ]

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[ "survived odonly option cut wrist throat" ]

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[ "want die sleepsome nights go sleep hoping wake up would much easier wife family scar redflag easy too tonight one nights think would ever kill myself would gladly accept quick painless death sleep face big challenge tomorrow want anymore stressful year life things settling down something major wrong houseim sure it contractor confirm morning material object yes last straw cant handle financial problems im tired problems tired struggling mental health issues wife dog loves me wider family love too jobs corona life really fucked addiction seems like problems people deal push edge easily one thing weigh us financially years hate alive more feelspointlessive lot live view third party plain old me want way devastate beyond normal death thanks reading" ]

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[ "ollien and carousella i can t i have another doctor appointment at 9 and another one at suck" ]

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[ "year lastit interests see year die new years eve perhaps" ]

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[ "turn soon thing remember pain angerhigh school hellme ugly hs basically means try avoid bullied redflag im college now nights cant sleep remember lonely hs pain experienced fucking building intense still feel burn years later recall sophomore junior year nobody sit lunch entire years sat alone counselors office sometimes would sit cry nobody ever offered hand nobody ever helped me supposed magical time many teenagers me dont ever want fucking remember bullshit ever again bullied ugly virgin shamed me girls rejected worst ways imaginable hate much could fucking punch wall right now deserve right quick painless death life isnt fair ugly even doable" ]

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[ "getting hit realityok kinda stupid life made like every bad choice imaginable stuck reality reputation damaged forever done bunch dumb shit like randomly stalk people even assaulted someone nowhere guess bad idea address shit comes up living little fantasy land getting hit reality literally might go prison entire career like ruined idea cant repair reputation stalemate guess" ]

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[ "i woke up an hour ago now i m having a hard time going back to bed in lakewood ca http loopt u rywlhq" ]

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[ "feel pretty today feel happy pretty could conquer anything set mind it love right always" ]

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[ "imma sleep good night everybody good noon morning everybody else" ]

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[ "want die badlyi yo male hate much want die want parents find dead body" ]

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[ "young woman comes home town husband passed away accident barely settles small town shortly after loses little son kidnapping hopes could lead kinds following plots normal movie find new partner happy finally depressed enough struggle finally kill herself try kill herself series severe fights god trusts god find god seems forgive everyone even killer well careful god movie mean thing god way movie deals issue quite interesting womans point view gods perspective in way would lots grass growing clouds flying views suppose rather third partys eye movie let us perceive explain thingbr br the movie interesting woman theres man whos everywhere around woman obviously love her way hes funny guy like clown say shamelessly hangs around heroine combination two woman full tension crying throwing always man smiling talking stupidly ends good balance emotions nothing absurdly wrong tediousbr br highly recommend" ]

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[ "needing help badly whats voluntary commitment likeim pretty bad off tell like id committed myself especially insight trans well" ]

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[ "certain die water overdosei want die now want injured attempt searched find answer" ]

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[ "hopeok but i will be soon dy" ]

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[ "i can t believe iti got my answer and didn t have to ask the question this feel awful" ]

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[ "emptinessnumbnessim years old currently serving active duty united states army a even tho im pretty successful life still want dieim suicidal please dont say that im going cause im coward want already im sick feeling empty helplessim sick feeling worthless alone even though im surrounded best friends time want pain stop" ]

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[ "done research come revolutionary breakthrough make anime body pillows sides waifu would allow people use time allowing people spend much money body pillows buy im sure exist make maximise body pillow usage rest case tldr make anime body pillows double sided maximum efficiency" ]

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[ "teacher whos coded years know inspect is thought guys might enjoy story quite funny goes nothing one day science class working presentations make planets think was well go computer lab make presentations stuffhop computers start researching getting work finished project bit early thought hey use inspect chrome page pretty funny people know though do went site relating project ispect make say mr great teacher decided give students as show friend next thinks funny go teacher heres happened nexthey mr look found website walk computer show text gets super angry though shout hes really great teacher like time saw get mad what messing websites stuff school illegal everyone gonna think theyre gonna get matter what wait mr hacking inspect affects see hacking even save reload page reload page show reset no could get suspended could get suspended that ive coding years even know inspect hacking im going talk tech teacher talk might able use tech school walks friend burst laughter tech teacher calls talk me", "hey man know again ok yep happen again went apologize science teacher everything good plus get as class thats good thanks listening teacher super nice probably bad day something tldr change page say teacher give us free as using inspect teacher loses threatens suspend though tech teacher saved me" ]

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[ "anyone else got crazy annoying feelibg calf got thats shit killing" ]

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[ "cant seem find answers cant even connect peoplei looking answers years even know start looking end losing time always lose lose lose im sick it drift away people keep making mistakes almost everyone ends leaving almost one left cant even make new friends reconnect old ones keep wasting away selfisolation selfhate loneliness regret broken cursed horrid almost one tries connect me im lonely people might think im special needs person kind future ill have probably one filled mostly indifference emptiness" ]

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[ "enough energy explain im tired thats it thats post" ]

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[ "first person guess number gets random bear award idk ehehehehdhhsshhdhd shdhshdhshhdhshshshshsgsgshhshdhdhdhdbdbbdbsbsbsbsbshssghshshshshshshsbshshhshshshhsshhs" ]

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[ "think worth try reach tiny amount happinessi cant anything im tired trying make failing im going school job cant things anxietys bad want supported mom entire life im fucking useless seeing everyone else good fun makes feel like shit wanna draw try to cant shit cant things want cant write program video edit make music see people around make feel horrible top success people cant happiness never will assuming get anxiety find sucess something im good at never enjoy things way people do everyone sex drugs drink im interested things wanna interested cause people ive looked seems like theyve much them want am want badim scared idealistic think reach amount happiness others even eventually get better potential shit even reaching happy think want relationships want friends girlfriend able talk people long keep getting worse seeing interact fun makes feel cause cant that feel worse cause im getting upset peoples happiness think im bad person thinking like this see point trying make life get happiness amount happiness reach little especially go pain long little amount happiness garunteed" ]

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[ "friend got google meets early became host proceeded let anyone in class ampxb httpspreviewredditrmcejvbzpatpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbddbcefdaacaecd" ]

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[ "would nice guy move serious question girl dating really like other last week friends got drunk hours girl agreed meet met drunk behaved like shit got really really mad disappointed me next morning apologized nice little text forgave me meet next friday thought getting flowers bc that think would good move way late nice guy move something like that" ]

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[ "@paleenigma CONGRATS TO YOU!Tho God only knows why you'd want to leave British soil for the USA!Be careful!NIN SOON!!!" ]

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[ "cant wait anymoreim thinking blasting brains dont succeed ill live even miserable life" ]

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[ "official school year started im junior year im getting old i want get oldno nono" ]

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[ "Well.... like 30 seconds of vibes, not thinking much to that twt.fm lark" ]

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[ "finnish teens there im looking make friends finlandim christian years ago started feeling like god leading there im us mom suggested try make finnish friends id love learn like actually live finland ofc talk stuff too love music writing also im really us state trivia pm leave comment also recently turned anyones interested id prefer like" ]

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[ "old person according redditthanks see ya" ]

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[ "uh im new help bitch heyim transfer tiktok ive decided longer uncultured like help are girls allowed rteenagers whats political consensus johnny depp amber whatever dumb shits side do worry ableist classist shit basically ill watch learnbut yeah" ]

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[ "@justlikeanovel You like life like a novel, all tangled up Just write, I'd like to read more of your work and thoughts" ]

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[ "getting ready for a day full of sunshine and fun!" ]

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[ "for context mysoand i are living with our in law temporarily a famously difficult living arrangement and the main issue ha been their constant and relentless remark they love passive aggressively hinting at thing they dislike and throwing little dig here and there to get a rise out of u i m well aware that they are very much projecting their own insecurity unhappiness onto u and i m somewhat able to find solace in thatyet it still get tiring after awhile i m extremely sensitive and hyper aware of myself and others and even little throw away comment can feel like a punch in the gut sometimes we plan to move out soon but for the time being how can i distance myself emotionally and take thing at face value" ]

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[ "@ShaneSwagz hehe...try kayak.com thats usually where i go first when i'm looking for tickets." ]

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[ "london life living torturing without realising it way think messed stemmed early child regretful fixing since last year realised something severely wrong me sense child friends self isolated whole life without knowing affecting kid never went high school remember primary high school came home straight school even go weekends totally warped perspective school took seriously realise anything wrong year haunting me more grew quickly young went far left mum passed life hit hard anything bad life exaggerated due this like poor got head insecure clothes go clothes saddened could experiences buy things like kids lack support system parents fully care overprotective never showed love like growing never gave advice tips take anywhere like shops normal parents get really jealous friends talk experiences playing sports dad going shopping mum know neglect cannot balme parents care end day abusive also got addicted porn young age sure started remember trying quit years old remember trip school redflaged watching porn scared going die", "well yrs idk dying probably started obviously probably indirect attempt brain soothe pain time vicious life think worst part first half life lost mum dad worked hard himself stepmom came worked hard eventhough know me hard part nd half loved blindly torturing myself grief childhood never felt like child cannot remember memories high redflag feel like lived negative thousand years feel like year old going counselling since beginning year barely helps whole life feels like illusion never understood school was never social life recently started developing one realised way lived thought normal hurt teenagers actually psychological torture cannot help keep thinking lived yet even though hurts want live anymore" ]

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[ "moderate severe depression unveiled sad entire time hope recommended light therapy dragging spiral bit glad better understanding inflicting me ordering light said happy could reduce wonder work anyone besides me psychologist made acronym sad knew doing epic jokester" ]

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[ "robertfperez ugh of course not just thursday and friday sat i have both kid" ]

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[ "anyone want aroundmy family friends use have girlfriend myself hate myself im cant normal people life fucking rehashed bullshit over hurt fucking bad cant even get anyone fucking talk day im tired begging friendship love respect fucking anything fucking feel empty time melt meltdown cant anything right probably cant even kill rightim tired this fucking lifetimethis even try still here want fucking die fucking sucks wish ended long time ago wait everyone always wait wait waitfucking unfair" ]

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[ "whats popular show like cant get into vampire diaries julie phantoms" ]

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[ "@jiarhwei daddy bought kfc back" ]

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[ "tw depression okay besties i need some help opinion ab my struggle with brushing my hair i currently have really bad knot in my hair and i m hispanic white and my hair is so thick and curly i don t understand how to properly take care of itand i haven t brushed my hair" ]

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[ "posting everyday get girlfriend day im spain without s nothing it dont want live dont want dieim happy im sad pain" ]

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[ "boy make game freind start develop first game would yall support usnah im gonna assume nah" ]

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[ "susiewilson@dramaprincess I am from Melbourne, Australia.What is your question?" ]

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[ "@MoeDoueik iam researching bout scary movies tht came out this yr, iam actually googling it....i think im ready for summer" ]

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[ "fuck hate posting herei feel selfish posting here fuck life sucks moved km away whim get change never lonely desperate contact moved back home couple months ago things werent working out ending things woth gf left already found replavement made sure smeare face home things get better made radical decision move k km life worse here miss friends unable make friends never needed too work sucks ass even tho get something amazing dive guide read sea decided drink today ended breaking bunch shit laying face beach currently siting safely resteraunt dont trust myself fuck life sucks reason act way spoild brat yet cant help myself loathe behaveiour sorry formating drunk phone eating burger" ]

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[ "im probably going end soontitle says all thought someone know ive tried help worked while tried guilting stay alive work anymore even know ill make christmas wish would end mistakeim useless worthless want die tonight" ]

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[ "this is not the time for my depression to act up but here it is again" ]

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[ "new subreddit hey there really expecting hey got new subreddit rrandomcaptions interested subreddit well pictures random captions ive looking subreddit pictures captions fit find any created one come check brand new might like" ]

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[ "@wopkec7 I'm listening to Wonderful Days 2.08 - showtek remix.Definitely something for you" ]

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[ "after long ass time it cut myself hurt bad needed feel something want happy never works pain hurts bad never goes away matter do" ]

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[ "vindiekins aww you re leaving me just wa hoping for input i have avatar in the rp thread on mtp torn on personality" ]

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[ "life shit dog eats dog world nobody ever cared nobody would ever carei tools disappear im sad lonely nobody understand feeling except you look bright side things bullsht me feel cant talk anyone friends everybody happy right bother them could say this mentioned suicidal things one answer sad smiley horse poop life purposes problem solve frankly dont motivation feel stupid wortheless im hipersensitive wanna cry almost time situation work shit relationship mother exists dont partner dont want want one im looking anything anyone dont wanna ruin one life nonsense dont fear afterlife fear pain succesfull attempt cause trouble dont want point im glad minimised stuffim gone dont pack crp hoarded years thought would easier less sense good every time throw give someone else something feel less connected current place wish disappear items happening friends disappearing f" ]

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[ "So true.I'm reading 'Lost Connections' by @johannhari101 and it's an extraordinary book.Completely turning around everything I'd wrongly assumed about loneliness and depression and making me look at our society anew.I highly recommend it!https://twitter.com/BandofmothersHQ/status/989046035929554944 …" ]

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[ "sitting at home and im very bored keep hearing really weird noise downstairs kinda creepy" ]

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[ "marcfennell i should be in that photo" ]

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[ "isnt stupid isnt stupid im afraid tell family important stuff fear teased honestly cant believe it smh ridiculous" ]

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[ "never gonna hit notes filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler" ]

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[ "anyone needs know look amazing smile loveokay please give up even think one loves you love even know you well know amazing person whos going really rough patch know caring person puts others happiness know faking happy make sure one worries selfless person and faking happy faking long cant keep anymore love much whole world heaps people think cared worlds shatter lives never give please give get better promise time even thought killing pushed glad did life got better happiest ever life may seem like never going get better promise promise going glad give thought would remind love okay" ]

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[ "sex cool sike virginity superior stay pure bois" ]

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[ "stop telling gets betterive tried hard believe going ups downs reality life consistently getting worse like past years doesnt matter im youngim turn im going kid responsibilities im still going treated like kid age teen it know people want life be want go college get degree get job next years im old meaningless marriage bringing kids world live meaningless lifeim abandoned nursing homeim dead isnt life want live know hardyhar harim kid dont know real problems" ]

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[ "im lowest pointmy girlfriend took step back tore heart out hadnt worked months due shoulder issue really came us matter many times try reach rejects says isnt ready respect feelings wants sometimes feel like never work things out means world cant see future without hershes person ever understood dont want move on time sit contemplate ending everything pretty much zero friends left friend group due live changes dont get along wellfamily feels like easiest thing do dont know intend getting post feel good type get chest" ]

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[ "every opportunity i have i always end up embarrassing myself no matter what thing like just communicating and anything that ha to do with the real world is so hard for me to get right i mso insecure and soft spoken and everyone probably know mea that weird shy kid thingi do when i m on my own like talking to myself or doing anything weird would never be okay in front of othersi m never aware of what i do until somebody notice me and i get embarrassed instantly and i m so ashamed of myself i probably will never see anyone romantically or have any close friend because i m so immature and childish" ]

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[ "cant sleep suicidal thoughts strongfirst things first im male female trans individual recently turned job work walmart asset protection associate contacted bosss bosss boss a regional ap manager putting management position knew desperately wanted store close home me interview prepared for practiced thought id nailed alas meant be ive stuck working stores nothing abusive last two years usually report inappropriate things associates done said me never want person done couple times times ive done it nothing done it id given reporting them interviewer who person asked applied market ap manager going things could done better said one thing able shake really affected me told me six months ago never would expected interview someone like you times changing times changing me exactly theyve ever been like twentieth time ive turned job suitable experience education bachelors degree two jobs last years means feel like ideal candidate ing walmart management see point anymore ive depressed whole freakin life know much take feel like whole life wasted wanted true myself" ]

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[ "depressed several years ago thought ok seems come backlong story short fucked youth scarred pretty badly got shit together thought right track this years ago however lately past months so feeling horrible back point suicidal thoughts cannot talk people problems matter hard try tried several psychiatrists etc hate job get recognition anything do hours exhausting see change future applied several jobs reply qualified finance wise stuff going shitter well surprise costs makes savings like bucket hole it last euros moment luckily girlfriend but stupid know wrong dick towards her means well frustrations get irritated work her relationship tense weird thoughts dumping click anymore crying im alone thought leave sooner later nobody friends only drinking buddies family non existing due problemsissues first sentence feel lonely lot even though like alone really know going post apologies possible mistakes english first language sort weird back phase killing scare calms sort way knowing could end miserybe peace one little act" ]

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[ "hi favio years old boy suffers depression redflagi close friends not interested all know humans social beings sometimes need talk another person study virtually really hate quarantine exercise at home course tried commit suicide tried hang could complete painful always feel empty like existing like idk necessary wasting oxygen lmaoi decided join reddit meet new people passed something similar forgive mistake basic english d introducing" ]

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[ "hey f 9 and two month sober today so have been reading lot of quitlit lately i suffer badly with anxiety too so would love to hear some of your book recommendation thanks in advance x" ]

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[ "know enemy know need fear result hundred battles finished art war sun tzu everything war war winned deception ask anything" ]

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[ "cannot life anymore everyone know amazingwell friends leave everything fun treat like child gf happy giving everything give nothing keep happy enjoy used love afraid runaway think suicide much seems option take think many people know would really care anywaycannot" ]

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[ "microwave like mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm moan" ]

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[ "live alone talk anyone regularly enough notice went mia literally way would work unless attempt unsuccessful wake up tired weighing options bad far outweighs good nothing ever feels right never happy tired always either tired depressed angry numb alternating emotions believe ever content tired lashing people taking anger unhappiness them tired toxic person toxic deeply depressed even think excuse become shitty person hate myself truly think years misery enough torture going for know waiting me depression never goes anger gets unbearable afraid of it everyone dies world nothing certain except death taxes think saying goes going die eventually really matter when for allowing stay pain like this what every day trying get day nothing pleasurable life me need get fear death sake nobody would even find" ]

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[ "soo bored bored lying bed pondering life" ]

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[ "@marcostartari thank you" ]

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[ "all time henry kb9 platini zidane kopa juste ce noms le mette en d pression" ]

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[ "hate the weeks before holidays!but I managed physics and.. it was'nt that bad...I hope" ]

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[ "i have this tendency to abandon pretty much everything when something or someone becomes somewhat of a challenge i just leave them i have ghosted girlfriend i have completely disregarded good friend just because they invited me to do something i did t want to do i have abandoned friend who had lent me a hand i have abandoned work just because i didn t feel capable i make stupidi excuse and then run away yesterday i stood up from my new job and left made a bogus excuse v a text and quit via email the job had a lot of potential but it wa too stressful for me i have just noticed this is a pattern in how i cope with thing every time i feel trappedi just want to bust out i have a deep rooted belief that i need to be in control of my time and my space and when something or someone interferes with that i should be entitled to claim my supposed freedom i dont know how to deal with this i just noticed this pattern and i can see how it affect my life p english is not my first language typing on phone" ]