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[ "went see film caution suicidal comedy seem consistent brother attempted suicide seeing devastation caused whole family know first hand crushing deal issue must say film deals way allows viewer inside someone suffering simply know why stop it film perfect respects subject matter importantly makes accessible masses know family humor helped us lot pain and max grace portends suicidal comedy funny and also felt characters real vibrant also extremely intelligent yet simple cuts chase appreciate that give recommend it" ]

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[ "whats disturbing fact know yhgtwwbu ytstawrcmrnwatvatyrywydhcefyyugfruwyfweyfywruruwhfhiwuhywytydawyrwa" ]

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[ "dont care people cry diethey get it living give others satisfaction safety without feeling hell end everyones alone" ]

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[ "@MeganKn yess i was with him XD @aacerr smartie" ]

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[ "guys know good illegal websites use watch shows hey guys website use stream shows got taken need good secure website lmao thanks" ]

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[ "Awww lakers & magic.Yayyyy dwight." ]

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[ "slit wrist end thinking days cannot gather courage want" ]

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[ "depression is the new cool small thing i m depressed a microscopic glance at what s making them depressed amp you ll realise they re trivial ample worrisome the people who actually undergo depression barely announce it cause a major xteristic of the syndrome is reclusion" ]

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[ "really cool movie remember first seeing really young used watch time like weekshadow favorite character movie homeward bound really funny really cool train animals things parts movie sad though such sassy cat falls waterfall shadow falls hole end seen second homeward bound gotta say good first shadow smart one sassy is well sassy chance funny idiot recommend movie anyone likes comedies talking animals one top ten favorite movies" ]

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[ "#selegiline dosage for depression https://goo.gl/uZtvkd  emsam weight gain" ]

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[ "still use snapchat snap girl thats cute face brightens day every morning way im making move tho im afraid commitment" ]

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[ "seen lady red hair back appeared remember something cherish truth that notwithstanding base true story screen play silly unbelievable real merit picture cast constellation best supporting players s s make background delicate intelligent work always underrated miriam hopkins wonderful spectacular performance claude rains who usual best thing picture actor never oscar good company chaplin garbo hitchcock perhaps lady red hair contains best work films see enjoy himbr br" ]

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[ "doe anyone else experience this i had a very traumatic fainting experience when i wa 0 year old and have fainted maybe 0 or so time in the last year following it normally is brought on by extreme anxiety and trigger would love to know if anyone ha any tip with dealing with this at this point i can kind of know what s going to cause a fainting spellbut it s very exhausting to always have to think about" ]

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[ "i cant focus on my studies rn idk why is this depression or am i just being the lazy bitch i am??hmmm<Emoji: Thinking face>" ]

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[ "im going honest fat girls kinda cute fetish thing im talking rangeim guy likes drinking nyquil anyone else agree" ]

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[ "married overseas thanks stupid mother married moron vicious moron divorced freak kids him finish high school kids finish high school" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "I'm sure my liver is stoked I'm not taking my depression out on him anymore." ]

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[ "@hannahwinter Looks stronger than it was!" ]

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[ "Feeling better and hoping we all allow ourselves to be open to the possibilities" ]

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[ "im doneim see anybody would still care me friends dont anyone pour emotional shit out even mom last year ill frank mom found taken weed form brownie one classmates curiosity says dissapointed wouldnt be teachers dont know year im almost graduating highschool ended classmates guy gave shit didnt even tell mom truth happened told spat bathroom year end classmates mom wants change class section would inform faculty drugs batch sure enough name would turn kicked out know faultright id rather die face problem every night wish would go away already far younger brother moms favorite ive disgrace whole family go" ]

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[ "hey look birthday finally get change fuckin flair" ]

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[ "@TraceCyrusHey Brudder!!i miss you sooo much..come back from tour when can i see you?" ]

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[ "@sherylunderwood I know you are a praying woman please pray for me I'm going through depression bad something got to give can't take much more.Just keep me in your prayers.And I'm not going to do harm to myself.I lost my wife last year.It is been rough we were married 41 years" ]

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[ "ive made mistake recently guilt mixing lot pressuresso goofed past weekend something im proud of friends mad me first time theyve seen moral lowest really feels ugly im super ashamed did regret it lifeline friends extremely pissed coupling pressure finals family drama create difficult whirlpool emotions me easily depressed ive while know outside continuing apologize ive done already" ]

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[ "and so another week begins.this one has got to be better than the last" ]

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[ "important thing heres important thing two sexualities aromantic asexual see theres difference two quite obvious people might get it feel romantic attraction brain goes like want cuddle kiss them feel sexual attraction like want fuck them see thats difference two asexual person doesnt feel sexual attraction feels platonic romantic one aromantic person doesnt feel romantic attraction feels sexual platonic one aromantic asexual person feels platonic kind attraction thank listening questions likely answer them" ]

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[ "embarrassed zoom call pap algebra zoom call bunch kids year older class campus watch lot anime singing japanese openings realized muted heard everyone class starting laugh confused af realized muted everyone class heard horrible voice left zoom call immediately told mom it told join again agreed really hope one thought me" ]

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[ "Enjoying the aroma of fresh cut grass....and a beer need to go buy The Shack" ]

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[ "require music searched litterally every genre music like cant find suggestions would greatly appreciated" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "hope catch covid diebecause im pussy" ]

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[ "anyone actually care stretch marks almost friends super insecure idk guys even care lmao" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "live miserable lifeive wanted kill years always talked it though maybe things would get better decade things gotten worse nothing good life purpose direction live theres nothing look forward to misery pain whats point ive got nothing live attempt ive made make life better bearable failed im broken failure go decades like pain end tonight arguments dont worktheres one miss me things wont get better dont value im alive think truly happy day ill life day die ill know wont hurt anymore" ]

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[ "dont know feelthis seems like right place every morning wake think redflag im process completing year everything feels hard walk school hardest get like half hour thoughts consistent loop do worthless cunt what point putting dieanyway ive written redflag note mentally difficult get lethal dose sleeping pills thing stopping mum ruin life like that got much life leftim terrified day dies know im probably immature teenager would love hear anyones opinion" ]

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[ "@xMissMelisax LOL yeahabsolutely xx" ]

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[ "yeahhh Orlando &amp; naw Lakers won't stop them either.via NBA on http://www.tnt.tv/sports/nba/playoffs09" ]

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[ "kinda lonely feel depressi feelmy friendseven bestfriendleft behind need someone somehow comfort mei lot friends feel none need mostso decided cut friendship bestfriendbecause even care feel ithes need help school subjects forthi hope find someone stay longterm real friend" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "ready dieive spent whole life worthless im nothing show it im worth women im worth friends im tired caring everyone else want end cant take anymore" ]

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[ "current mood charles boyle says life party im piata" ]

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[ "If you're able to pull yourself out of depression then that's great but don't make it seem like what works for you will work for everyone boo.Mental illnesses and how ppl cope with them are on too big of a spectrum to even believe some bullshit like that" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "wife currently uncontrollable rage caused depression so angry leave house real problems says calm til apologize angry aboutthe problem something really petty actually caused completely understand confused mindset apologize something control ofi know do" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "let everyone walk hate itit hurts lot feel numb everytime meet someonenew know theyll use me letting life simple give fuck anymore feel worthless pointless im living even though choose stop it maybe last thing everyone gonna hear me need advice make want go it matter advice just helpful advice" ]

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[ "comment ill put u list maybe ill text years something idk" ]

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[ "fact juicceyy just say these are step to depression" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "running awaydisappearing instead ending lifeive thought ending life consistently months now theres day goes dont think it ive diagnosed depression given medication due certain health conditions ive forced stop them opioids list refuse take since family history addiction id rather go rout since im fearful physically pain which havent committed redflag wondering disappeared instead basically person gone missing ive made scenarios mind would would go thought im assume police would still forced look ifwhen parents friends reported missing attempted this mind close fresh start would get" ]

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[ "transgender men women switched men modded women since cant post shower thoughts cause apparently political posted" ]

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[ "@lululawlessYeah but paying rent and eating is way cool too.My next road trip is Edmonton, then we'll discuss 'Nipeg.\\m/" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "im going jump apartment sooni cant take loneliness anymore im done literally way it im years old still feel like fucking child compared peers experiences had feels like permanent brain damage years isolation impossible recover it rather kill live rest fucking life loneliness" ]

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[ "facts eat lettuce alone herbivore" ]

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[ "@CindiCupcaking headin' east - Boston" ]

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[ "comment something pe teacher said add emoji end ill go first gotta slow ladies youre going fast" ]

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[ "question would change suicidaljust question curiosity want know better help" ]

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[ "hey guys subreddit called rpatriciasbitches would cool youd join im patricia roleplay kinda sub im running president kinda small think would cool people joined" ]

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[ "today i felt like doing something about this so i decided to make an account and come here ive been suicidal for like a year nowand i cant fucking bear itive almost killed myself quite alotbut apparently i have a habit of pussying out of everything i dont know if im dealing with depression or if life is just giving me shitbut im finally going to try to get help i also might just stop using this account all togetheri dont really know what people say hereand i dont know what to say myself and thinking about it i dont even know why im doing this" ]

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[ "Think the sun has melted everyone away like ice lollies.lol" ]

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[ "The Wackness = dopeness.Gran Torino = much better than I expected.On my way to being Eastwood's char when I'm that age &amp; that makes me" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "During classes: bad depressionClasses over: bad depression" ]

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[ "aussie gothpunk clothing storefim tryna dress gothpunkas rlly like kinda style cant find clothing stores rlly sell kind stuff dont like ordering online much stores good clothes arent australia anyone got suggestion aussie gothpunk clothing store also dont want anything inappropriate again im short shorts rlly small cropped tops seductive clothing goth clothing sometimes is also find hard accessorise gothpunk accessory suggestions welcome just saying dont like wearing crosses bc im christian spiritual stuff like zodiac signs dont believe either" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "please kill nowi dont want live anymore im tired manipulated people lied to nothing ever goes way feel helpless lost cant keep forcing happyim miserable inside lost everyone one left broken numb inside keep cutting legs feel pain feel selfish wanting die cant take anymore whole chest hurts brain hurts eyes hurt crying imfucking mess want fall asleep disappear want painless dont deserve feel way work hard try best im good person everyone intentionally try hurt me dont deserve this whatever did never deserved this want die" ]

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[ "sub starting get dominated complete pussies karma whores fictitious stories complaints sub stupid fact people actually think making stuff attention cool makes extremely disappointed another thing disappoints lately amount people quick call anyone bigot straight throw tantrum jokes silly tooive noticed mostly latter half s kids like that sub used different much better things mentioned agenda posts dont turn place twittersuper weenie hit jrs please" ]

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[ "@GriseldaLoL2009Hey Yes I am - I'm from East Lothian (you know it?).How is Dundee at this time of year?" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "realized narcissistic family main reason feel like cant kill myselfi born grew abusive environment abused home family phisically emotionally bullied school harassed street hospital years ago went contact everyone family thats full narcissists except father toxic codependent relationship im one whos aware this heres problem id kill myself father would inevitably tell whole family would give indirectly great great satisfaction feel like war created them like years still manage control letting taking life would make happy want make happy deserve that time simply cant move forward neither life right worth living never worth living ive lot feel like im damaged ever function properly dreams desperately need instant gratification know get that like abusive family let live life wanted that now finally want give up let kill neither want live life allowed that want kill yourself allowed that" ]

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[ "want hear proof live society pissed nothing came still felt satisfaction fuck america" ]

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[ "got home and realized that both batman and superman need another coat of paint.oops.that'll have to wait.art history ahoy!" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "homehome break feel alone brings back feelings people miss dearly people used life bed makes feel like sleeping never getting up place heavily associated many issues ive escaped away college toxic" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "hang yourselfsoive wanting ive checked sites google cant find one actually works tie knot tie pull bar tighten falls down helpwould really appreciated" ]

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[ "gave film reserving eg amadeus slumdog millionaire recently film close slumdog difficult judge film without understanding balkan life mentality soul kusturica presents masterfully understand really need one balkan amazing movie much better contemporary previous films boring time think kusturica moving forward movie like humour balkan humour photography art itself scene artistic limit plot probably fairy tale recall now remember reading daughtergoingto sleep similar story" ]

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[ "sorry unsure right subreddit post already know goods severe depression adhd redflag name it today like hours put game something happened caused wastelose least two hours worth progress immediately made lose interest motivation keep going happens time me sense small thing leading loss feeling something do loss motivation boredom melts depression end sitting around day bored unable convince even bother trying another game my comfort hobby have even get up hate feeling like small inconveniences knowget funk find new thing hyper fixate distract boreddepressed easily depressed unmotivated" ]

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[ "the cure touching poignant drama film focuses two neighborhood boys become good friends one boys aids boys become good friends despite eriks apprehensiveness first film shows boys journey discover the cure ohio according the national examiner affects relationship actingwonderful i never seen annabella sciorra better movie plain touching stop crying shoe scene good tearjerker keep kleenex nearby" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "is anyone there maybe someone just up to talk i haven t had a hug since i wa a kid do anyone care about me lately my medication is weak or not working i just had cocaine and more medication i dont care too much anymore anyone up for a chat or something or not probably let hope the big nothing is better will it be good enough to od editcool so did sme reading itll probably suffice sorryy all this will be it let hope probably here for a bit more until i sign off amp x 00b edit cheer i canceled my plan with my friend tomorrow based on some thread like http www reddit com r ama comment oa pdz i overdosed on antipsychotic yesterday ama http www reddit com r ama comment oa pdzi overdosed on antipsychotic yesterday ama http www reddit com r youshouldknow comment emqvvk ysk overdosing on antidepressant is not easy or http www reddit com r youshouldknow comment emqvvk ysk overdosing on antidepressant is not easy or or others all i need is a good day and not be found maybe i wake up later for some last word if this is it please enjoy with me frans listz little bell a k a la campanella" ]

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[ "deadlines three days cant fucking get anythingpleasefucking end me death better migraines head cant get anything done meds helping shitty family friends shitty world live reasons go on smart enough good enough courageous enough better dead" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "park bom treated her depression by intaking PRESCRIBED MEDICATIONS BY A LEGIT DOCTOR WHY CAN'T ANY OF YOU DRILLTHE FUCKING CONCEPT INTO YOUR HARD SKULLS?##박봄제발내버려두세요" ]

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[ "zenojones i can t go to sleep too much to do too little time long week ahead of me and ok i ll get u hat lol" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "watched documentary assisted redflag people suffer psychologicallyand honestly expecting relate much light end tunnel end meim extremely tired alive wish never existed first place wanna cry want rip face off never want see again everytime look mirror cant help think im better dead everytime j think face body imagine jumping infront train hanging jumping building everytime close eyes imagine killing myself usually knife cant take anymore everyday worse suffering goes on" ]

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[ "want live twentyonly days thereabouts th thats deadline guess maybe setting one finally make able take next step want twenty want idea theres another year ahead another year soulcrushing loneliness another year selfhatred another year wanting die want futureme know ever good oneim person ive met entire life truly think hopeless see nothing myself ugly toxic piece shit dead set path inevitable empty funeral days ago finally set in im getting return investment need im unlovedno family lover hardly youd call friendsand honestly pretty unlovable ugly face ugly body ugly personality trifecta considering love one things keeps going guess realized meaningless is cant keep living people care love anymore enough thats im at days either man bite literal bullet wimp keep living hell begrudgingly call life heres hoping" ]

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[ "story time frightening moment life ok going sound ridiculous came farm goat visiting dads farm getting back car go home dad said bringing goat along sit next me next thing know sitting next goat back seat parents car terrible goat screaming kicking around scared life dad kept insisting safe certainly didnt feel safe all point crying like crazy screaming let front seat eventually mom convinced dad let go away goat still traumatizing slaughter goat now brb write another post traumatized time slaughter" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "someone going noticeive cutting months scars wrists matter time someone notices dont know im going do" ]

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[ "@raraheileen have amber give you a little massage...shes taking after her mom" ]

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[ "@NoToriousTori Love the new pic" ]

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[ "i think we should all delete @whosjenny off facebook.yeah" ]

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[ "nasty budget due and my iphone is being sent to apple today" ]

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[ "money job hopeim cant get thought killing head different methods specific certain since background chemistryresearch fuck wish could it want it it hate even more thoughts get less coherent this muddled anger migraines want hospitalized never money never get another job cant around people got fired last job unable work others yelling one theyre goddamned irritating idiotic ended telling boss fucked everything is fuck him fuck world nothing madness head want stop" ]

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[ "notice senpai w ___________________________________________" ]

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[ "@stormewg i hope the excessively mopey jams didn't affect your marks" ]

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[ "think im an insomniac i just cant sleep birthday in dayoh yay" ]

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[ "@MarioSoulTruth Mannn, Im so amped for &quot;And Then There Was Me&quot;.Break-Up is a banga.Turn Her On is a sexy, slow ballad.its gon be hott!" ]

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[ "grownup mids even close nancy drews key demographics pleasantly surprised film afternoon so could tell pair sixtyish silverhaired ladies row me older man left theater ahead specifically praised film ish female usher who said shed seen film previous evening quite liked itbr br more point however row ahead me nine count them nine tenyearold girls lined next other passing popcorn hot dogs candy back forth giggling previewsbr br once film began promptly settled watchbr br and much peep till closing credits began rollbr br this perfect film quite pay high school subplots quite confident enough tone thugs hair far toward critically inept times adaptation source material essentially respectful plot hangs together fairly well treads deftly sins excessive cheesiness excessive modernization last least emma roberts carries movie startling grace josh flitters superb timing notwithstanding roberts movie pulls beautifully nancy drew much direct ancestor kristen bells veronica mars film also lineal descendant jodie fosters early underrated candleshoebr br in todays marketplace rarity family movie respects viewers intelligence such everyones taste is best movie kind decades" ]

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[ "never together pointhuman beings suppose find couple someone feels good someone know forever lonely see point anymore except finding gun rope ending all" ]

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[ "suicidal ideation told manipulativei feel awful told someone trying date felt suicidal took ploy manipulation even though feel way lot told found someone died redflag note explain took cries help badly know need seek professional help feel like expressions feeling way taken manipulative regardless real feels me guess matter much need address late feel guilty saying emergency thought like terrible manipulative person thought normal live thoughts long time times worse others hurts lot feeling like must seem faking manipulate feel like thats true dont want hurt real attempt prove wrong think guess im fake all" ]

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[ "well sucks moms fleetwood mack record that have theres scratch middle song secondhand news makes replay spot repeatedly sucks" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "really wanna kill myselflikeyeah life tough depression believe bad care people sadly dont care people care much really dont wanna hurt them yes would end suffering dont care that care dont want suffer something did wish things different wish loved wish could happy wish didnt deal this" ]

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[ "uhh bored ill idk anyone tell sometjing im pool none mu friends dont wanna get water" ]

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[ "don t let depression slow you downwe got this" ]

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[ "@gfalcone601 Mooorning Gio!Have a good trip!I hope to stop rain" ]

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[ "saw last night fort lauderdale general funny liked characters especially sabrina acting good story line ok except ending left way many strings dangling like what wanted know happened characters strange ending could done much betterbr br the film portray rule life really well laughed throughout flaws sure first time film ash christian thought good might want wait dvd one get chance see give shot" ]

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[ "really want cat live something so like ive wanting pet long literally since really really young apartment doesnt allow dogs grewolder mental health issues started getting worse got psychiatrist decision get therapy dog apartment allows therapy dogs last moment decided wanted cat instead match energy less stress apartment building staff really want kittenim suicidal nowadays need something live problem first kittens expensive parents dont type money kk second all dad saying apparently theres room apartment clearly hes complaining fur left around im literally going clean doesnt clean house mom to concerned dont think im going able get catim really really upset im crying right now anyone advice could give im really desperate" ]

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[ "@modejunkie awww sweetness!But he's still a cutie!" ]

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[ "wrote little story short man muscular physique smiles lifts rippled arms air lets great victorious bellow wooooyeah baby thats ive waiting for thats about cheers success mighty canine tetra loyally trots side enthusiastically celebrate accomplishment finally getting see unicorn relieve itself end" ]

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[ "trying to get higher paw points in pet society" ]

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[ "cannot believe unknown movie isit absolutely incredible ending alone stuck almost thirty years road sign rearveiw mirror blew away liked race devil love movie" ]

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[ "we found out a couple of day ago that my dog needed to be put down we had a beautiful last day with her yesterday technically she wa the family dog but she spent the most time with me and turned into an unofficial support dog for me she ha been with me through trauma and therapy and everything in between she ha been my rock scarlett ha been an anchor point a grounding into the world she ha been the only thing that ha stayed steady in a world of ups and downshe wa there no matter the mood or how sicki wa she ha kept me engaged with the outside world walk and beginning interaction she greeted the world with a smile no matter what she forced you to give her affection and in turn forced hers on you she ha been the definition of unconditional love in my life mainly because i can t assume or misunderstand what she doe or say she ha been my safe place both physically and mentally i didn t want to leave her behind not understanding i ve been struggling with everything even with her to bring me calm i dont know how to do this without her i ve been using numbness to try and stop myself from shattering but a it splinter into smaller and smaller piece there s only so long it can hold a", "i hear the splintering standing on the cliff edge the ground start to shake i know that if i move i will explode into tiny fragment and that i can t escape from the edge of the cliff falling the splinter are so small i won t be able to be put back together without missing piece the fall into the abyss will spread the fragment far and wide there isn t a way to climb back out this time there isn t the energy to hope enough to look i don t want to die specificallyi just can t keep doing this anymore i m beyondtiredi m spent i can t see any other option i ve tried and tried and tried different treatment i ve pushed to do exercise and socialise and do what other people have decided is the best for me i ve taken medication even with shitty side effect taking some rest time with no appointment or pressure wa lovely but didn t change anything inside i ve been fighting a hard a", "i can and it hasn t been enough i began having passive suicidality when i wa and having intense trauma later certainly didn t help the past year ha been the hardest and lowest i ve ever reached i ve been in and out of hospital tried over 0 different med tried different therapy than i have in the past had ect and tried emdr i have a whole team mental health social worker psych intervention team a doctor specialist and so on the only advice that i wa given when i explained that i wa too tired wa to push through to keep going because there have been improvement and people think it will change and to be patient for thing to start workingand maybe i should try doing more thing or le thing or have extra support or change my dosage or simplify my medication or go to hospital or an outpatient program i can t do anymorei can t keep forcing myself onwards because other people will notice a change in the outside without much of a change insidei know it s a selfish decision and that it doesn t get rid of the pain just pass over to the people around me it will affect them forever it won t disappear with time i can t kid myself that they will get over it a much a", "i think it will be the better option i know none of them will agree i can t look through rose coloured glass saying it take away the burden it just change it from me to the people around mei d love to say my goodbye with everyone and give them time to grieve and prepare with them have a perfect last day making sure that everyone know i love them and that it is no one s fault doing thing with people that are special for u trying to say everything that i want to to people face to face to give big hug and laugh together one last time i wish i could give everyone that i m so sorry that i can t and for the suffering that brings there is too much to say to all the people who are precious in my life to write downi msorry i love youyou did nothing wrong you are so important to mei m sorry that i stopped trying thank you for our relationship you have added so much joy to my life i believe in you and all you can achieve i m sorry that there is no time to come to term with the idea i know there isn t any combination of word or thought that will make it any easier for anyone i know there isn t anything that i can do to assuage the guilt and pain and anger", "i wish i could but that doesn t really matter doe it i don t even know if i can commit to finishing a plan everyone seems to thinksobut i don t knowand if i can t go through with it then no one need to worry or be concerned because there isn t actually dangerand i can just be unhappy without the need for restriction and people feeling responsibility for me" ]