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[ "sometimes feel ive got __shit brick__" ]

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[ "whythe thing keeping earth right nephew granddaddy know killed self would hurt them let get bad die yet" ]

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[ "questiondoes anyone else rant snapchat stories pretty much friends talk feel like shit" ]

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[ "wow really liked movie william h macy great quiet hitman alexbr br all performances really good plot interesting entertainingbr br alex married hitman like fatherwith little son going middle age crisis wants quit family business goes psychiatrist help place meets young free spirit sarah falls love to one day alex know gets job kill person knows br br i recommend watch like mature interesting moviesbr br stars good" ]

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[ "got pc among us hit apollo discord" ]

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[ "first saw movie papua new guinea remembered since although never seen since first timebr br just easily good peoples lives destroyed pure evil existed still memory haunt foreverbr br the movie funny immensely sad time role played anthony quinn superbbr br this movie college studies mans inhumanity man" ]

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[ "weird place life girl really good friends might like might like like domt want ruin help" ]

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[ "southerners snow amusing watching guys complain inch two snow sincerely canadian" ]

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[ "tell things wish someone would tell youi always see posts reddit similar ones always tell people things wish someone said me tell things wish someone said you" ]

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[ "still find love social anxiety social anxiety feel like girls dont like dudes social anxiety" ]

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[ "f like m ive never called texted girl weve exchanged numbers said hi school go asked number days ago added snapchat via contacts surprise added back interestingly consistently views stories snapchat reposts videos tiktok mainly food comedy musiclipsyncing occasionally politics never unfriended anything were still friends first time six months anything since fired target never ever told boyfriend anything every check instagram two different boyfriends recall one current boyfriend boyfriend girl im feeling women older men even younger boyfriend since tend mature secure professional kinglike monarchic girl really post anything snapchat views story every time make post btw im semitrump supporteri post hilarious musical stuff appeal trump supporters girl cute mexican girl mixing european used ig stories website view story early june regards george floyd breonna taylor stuff going put story saying black lives matter performative activism much stupid idea staying", "silent injustice boyfriend east asian tell middle eastern armenian kind guy funny thing two tiktok accounts one always keep away snapchat instagram friends family account petitioned hispanic women marry white arab armenian men only black asian men stick got hella likes comments thanks for page promoting it" ]

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[ "girl might like idk theres girl classes ive known years mostly acquaintances may like got clue heres list stuffshes said upon hearing arent mentor group school club awwww breaking heart history class another girl wait outside dont want go first get class want go first says go first ill love good drive club in group me get group leaves yells hi my name asks answers lot stuff one classes talks good amount class sit near even though lot friends near her also teases sometimes seems like minor stuff sounds bit weird wording kind weird idk" ]

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[ "picture walked away kinds ocars best director john ford actor victor mclaglen music max seiner victor mclaglengypo nolan call marines gave outstanding performance irish rebel belonged rough tough crowd fighting cause time getting poorer poorer plenty drinking gypo nolan made bad mistake decided become informer best friend order take trip gal america new way living preston foster don gallagherguadalcanal diary gave great supporting role leader irish rebellion anxious capture informer group gypo nolan becomes haunted betrayal friend begins feel like judas great film wonderful acting mclaglen rather depressing every aspect film" ]

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[ "much people get shoes size bigger mean bigger shoes normal means toe room make toes suffer grown" ]

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[ "one want read note im leaving herehi redditors long time lurker here time make first last post feel like leave words significance disappearvacuum anyway probably lived decades longer people kill posting here unfortunate could lived long years majority years quite happy honest circumstances proven best years behind me rather live miserable knowledge life downhill here decided make one last short uphill brief sweet much money saved since someone stole lifes savings enough go s america spend rest cash hookers blow in exact method yet determined suggestions welcome painless quick would better probably able get firearm unless steal one suppose may well try good luck maximum happiness everyone here coming someone older supposedly wiser young still time bet unfuck life still" ]

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[ "days lefti know missed th one im tired im waiting everything end" ]

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[ "better dying alonethe happiest way live alone everyone love die people spend time loved ones thinking far enough future theyre together happy personally think one day im going notice cant jump high used to cant walk far used to theyre starting forget important things often grey hair wrinkles face cloudiness eyes every phone call theyre away could one lets know terrible accident every hour past time supposed home could day make home pet dies sure get new one outlive it new spouse one going first best friends theyll replace someone things want do love makes people stronger erode me point loving anything sure hurt end" ]

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[ "anyone else barely hanging time im clinging memories better times constantly thing keeping going ive developed extremely strong bonds inanimate things car tv characters take place massive whole joy missing life idk is fear im going breakdown front someone soon gonna come out make worse give strength keep in dig ever growing whole push" ]

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[ "holy shit schools care fuking hood like look soo hot hood tell take im ugly see hair im trying grow" ]

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[ "pt gonna stick needle foot please noonnojonoim scared gonna go second pls distract plass" ]

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[ "th birthday todayyy leave nnani" ]

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[ "theres reason live life severely socially anxioushumans social animals need socialize need friends relationships im friends really care me ive never relationship completely wasted away teen years zero memories scared anything completely useless skipped life experiences get fucked genetically enough im also trans fantastic transitioning totally doable process cant even fucking buy groceries without almost dying cant get profesional help because again thats social interaction difficult one that even want get better like even enjoy living sleep cutwatch youtube ocassionally drink im studying fucking hate im horrible it also fucked future career fuck it dug hole theres way get it" ]

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[ "every saturday morning am watched superstars biggest events happened show time challenge aired sunday mornings decent too big stuff happened show wrestlers would interviews mean gene platform next live crowd talk screen front background promoted them matches usually squashes sometimes would see mid carders square main event also interview shows usually resulted violence thus setting feud segments ranged pipers pit body shop flower shop snake pit brother love show funeral parlor barber shop recall titles changing hands show usually happened pay per views saturday nights main event" ]

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[ "friend said scared babygirl wtfffffim wtf means wants secks me kidding this actually happened ago day still dont fucking know means" ]

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[ "wants start femboy empire basically conquer bunch territories everyone territories become femboys prosecuted brainwashed becoming femboy moral reasons joke" ]

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[ "small rant ok im extremely annoyedpissed grandma went stairs pretty quickly got bottom slipped fell instead nice asking ok instead goes dont slip mopped floors already fell told fell she says well shouldnt went flying stairs like that without hint care kicker is didnt know mopped fucking floor" ]

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[ "feel alonei friends livingi boyfriend complicated talking things family live states away suicidal thoughts something cope hearing me ive attempted redflag almost two years ago hallucinating essentially saved life unfortunately angry woke hospital stop crying really want live honest really anything stopping iti think im someone worth missingi feel attached anythingi feel empty like hobbies interestsi energy motivation waste oxygen typing now like go it bother writing this know wish interest life im sorry" ]

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[ "im sure feel again genuinely feel sad first time forever think genuinely loved girl hate taking granted wish never bruh wish wasnt fucked head im lonely sad depressed idk kinda wanna go know im done whatever put for idk man feel something" ]

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[ "wanting diei never wanted die right now dont wan alive" ]

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[ "whats worst rejected crush lying like you basically moths back told crush liked her said liked back could get ice cream together not decided tell told liked one else liked pity worse rejected" ]

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[ "hope helpsif feeling hopeless feel worthless ways ive gotten past live country plenty room garden highly recommend this feel bad go hoe weeds pick rocks get quite bit ive able sell local farmers market obviously full garden work everyone get pepper plant something small take care it highly recommend hot pepper plant takes lot care worth add spice cooking coloring painting drawing im good drawer trace others help learn cooking baking also great way help express yourself get small pet can taking care something else help take mind things bit talk someone feel like ive found writing feel leaving someplace allows distance awhile think say truly hope help ive struggling depression suicidal thoughts year ive found helped most im always need talk help" ]

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[ "remember makes happy even really good moments really good days lately know them cannot remember them hate feeling everythings reach cannot remember things made happy" ]

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[ "hurtthis girl like told likes best friend shit brought back lot pain pastim suicidal dont know" ]

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[ "imagine first time filmed somebody saw tryna fuck first time id wanna die" ]

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[ "life getting better im suicidal ever updatei explained different post got deleted ill skim short make it december started dating girlfriend love lot already joke marriage mutual neglect parents made us love lot get attracted fast december th contemplated redflag point loaded gun head told girlfriend then best friend friend groups goodbye februaryth bday parents get heated argument moms lack ability sleep due insomnia dad forced sleep familys store february th parents tell getting divorce im scared know legal battle messy sister points ive shown except first one decided kill february th really dont want really dont love girlfriend much live free away parents cant know" ]

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[ "would say enjoy show expected something completely different first saw what like you expected find something along lines all that i sure going anymore say like show classify breakthrough show charming like chemistry characters well including supporting castbr br i would definitely say great see wesley jonathan back screen really loved city guy also seen woman plays valeries friend popular think okay show really like character show cup tea rounds pretty well" ]

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[ "stop making redflag youim sorry rant really am reading post guy acquaintance die redflaghes feeling overwhelmed anxious know terrible thing bothers comment section like ohh sorry cant imagine going through fucking serious human died hes thinking fucking self god damn reaffirms wanting die like people dont care want stop killing dont care pain youre dont want feel bad death it one wants feel bad death stay alive suffer endlessly gosh poor dude killed himself really dont want imagine type pain suffering went head death brought peace life ever may eternal peace fucking selfish everything" ]

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[ "crush lol fellas approach girl interested in texting since quarantine chance sorta move got text introduce myself without awkward andor getting friend zoned lol" ]

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[ "really hurtful memory mom back going lot shit really want explain everything going much although backstory needed right answer ill give little everything happening time escape goat family made feel horrible point ended carving branding monster course happened years ago also really depressed happened opened suicidal family handed knife said oh were waiting day ive wanted question soo long im scared to probably gonna always mention past act like never happend live sunshine rainbows meannarcissisticyeah shell flip shit try say im accusing shit never happend anyone wondering bad mom fucked childhood going lotno hate her tries really hard keep roof head would anything family however causes much stress pain life turns around works hard usim mental conflict one hand want hate her hand works hard us feels unfair selfish im getting topic back saying originally im wondering question it want feel would cause harm anything know please someone help decide" ]

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[ "spirit classic the sting movie hits truly hurts heart prim proper female psychiatrist hungry adventure meets dirtiest rottenest scoundrals vulnerable doctor falls career badman begs involved operation movie moves kind slow climax ending stunning especially enjoy doctor forgives herself" ]

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[ "u c eim alone tomorrow morning doesnt anybody love think im irritating cant function anymore hate think soon" ]

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[ "feel like protesting education system wants join me" ]

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[ "cute oversized tshirt even bunny" ]

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[ "pain gonei make new scars carry shit rest life might well make short tripright sure everyone sad angry pain due time inderstand i fact found peace anybodys fault mine kept quiet late make people worry know ill finally decide it noose tied while need find good place rewrite note less seconds lifes troubles just flow away minutes life follow sleep ones fear truly hurt parents child sorry destroyed worked hard create made sure smiles laughes around worry idea dying inside momdad know think depression feeling solved manning getting it simple never tell that may blame yourself friends family im sorry hope effected this stopped talking wanted make soft blow possible never cut off knowthis want get help you know shit deal with end like me loved all see soon m love matter time" ]

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[ "fuck everybodyive posted many times nobody ever says anything thats fine add list ive struggled years thought would get better long series ups downs im still fucking back feeling set deadline gone turned turn today nothings changed shouldnt given chance therapists ive either dont understand basically venting never enough time crisis text lines try help moment say understand dont theyre talking strangers theyve volunteered do every time close eyes think jumping highest parking ramp know knife held heart land itll go straight in want increase chances success much possible fall head trauma doesnt stabbing will im going fail theres way im going keep going hate everything much" ]

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[ "cant really condemn movie work enough film noir elements consider noir movie think categorybr br theres nothing sinister piece thats noir elements fail sure disease might considered sinister hard time seeing that movie hints darker side blackie may trafficking human beings new orleans police willing arrest reporter specter plague hangs people movie really hintsbr br theres attempt made question reeds motivations one marlowe spade attempt bring humans side blackie would make even contemptuous human trafficking actually played outbr br that lack depth fails movie endbr br the story decent acting good writing direction well done nothing make movie return over worth watching once maybe twice remember years ago putting away" ]

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[ "plan next yearim year old guy live withy parents need get fuck out im going save much money next months leave far away im going tell anyone probably end homeless probably kill anyways whatever work im going kill july th thats day dog died years ago hopefully works know probably wont" ]

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[ "ok film may oscars bad film original doa undoubtedly better film mean film badbr br the film stars dennis quaid one early roles first becoming really famous the right stuff made star lovely looking meg ryan still quite famousbr br this update film rather remake since setting different characters too different plot pretty much same man this time english professor university texas austin poisoned hours find poisoned why meg ryan plays young college student tries help him jane kaczmarek plays quaids estranged wife low key intense performance steals every scene in daniel stern also early role home alone made famous plays quaids colleague charlotte rampling fine supporting rolebr br the entire cast top notch film stylish quick pace keeps guessing end br br i think film certainly worth watching thriller modern version classic film" ]

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[ "goodbye fellow teens taking action change person feel better friends loved ones aswell first step im taking cut negative stuff life unfortunately majority reddit one thoes things know ton hate definitely some dont want part person good run soldiers hope every one good day night adios" ]

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[ "im tiredevery day get fix it whatever is fix it job kids lives supposed like mine childhood supposed like mine supposed suffer broken guilt feel brought world mom breaking back died tried kill teen feels like mistake survived died got anyone else involved fucking mess mistake lived" ]

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[ "dont know one nights yearn music nothing good enough feeling emotional trying embrace wanting bury emotions time im tired dont want sleep cant anything dont know dont really like living cycle everyone goodbye" ]

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[ "feeling like fraudim mental health nurse job basically stop people want kill selves make sure get right support ive previous episodes depression required medication recent years ive always able deal dips mood got bad ive downward spiral months nothing working feel numb nothing outside work barely take care myself im sleeping lie awake end thinkingfantasising killing how im stage think would feel like inevitably end there try get help honest feel probably get referred team job positive would rather die lose professional reputation want help everyone else know answers feel trapped isnt way get help without making everything worse" ]

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[ "im hate life even though really bad think redflag daily years stress buildingsorry long is id like preface saying im right edge think contemplate redflag every day im closer year two tell call hotline whatever urgent think need talk get advice whatnot", "im ever serious call hotline first abused since kid institutionalized think times redflag attempts diagnosed depressive disorder around around time entered foster care never got treatment antidepressants recently took whole bottle one day prescribed once obviously ran gotten im bad scheduling doctors appointments anxiety clerk always feels patronizing me feel think theres something wrong like im retarded even though even know ive never diagnosed anything mental except depressive disorder serious physical disability hate calling thus put put more tried weeks ago schedule appointment got busy signal times tried since supposed go talk vitamin levels well antidepressant early may im month overdue makes want go back well im afraid ill scolded rightfully fucking stupid to think antidepressant help bit living situation like said im foster care never lived anywhere year since like im program pays apartment with one roommate food cable transportation work dj work consistent working one night week enough make much it weeks get work attending college college summer college financial aid department fucked telling id keep financial aid even failed class did called said id lost financial aid next semester means cant really go one big point stress this anyway program houses like people around age apartment complex two apartment took lease apartments needed since roommate first move thus first lease expire theyve forced us move different apartment complex incredibly stressful settled much shit move dropped us suddenly first heard monday told wed move sometime week monday night came apartment told start moving well moved tonight manager place started bitching apparently supposed move roommate moved things afternoon were supposed thursday though make sense were getting mixed signals manager staff work here nobody communicating us", "im new apartmentright apparently im supposed even though nobody fucking told like pm id already moved electronics bedding less everything else except furniture pa speakers sleep schedule terrible virtually impossible fall asleep am tomorrow ive got wake up get ppd shot finish moving unpack clean get bitched manager goddamn lack communication skills relax really bad day ive far far worse days life soft life foster care made soft compared used abused even though peoples standards im still hard like stoic confident tough whatnot im absolutely dreading tomorrow additionally im terrified theyre going make get minimumwage job theres something possibly lyme may due extreme vitamin deficiency wrong bones cant handle physical stress every time past ive job like pushed closer redflag every fucking day djing handle less prolonged stress one night week most plus find extremely enjoyable less thing makes happy im also looking substitute teacher local highschool next semester meet states requirements one could handle desk job thats one really think may able get", "im type roll defeated all im dj im gogetter im sure could come another way make money yet partially motivation completely died used get early hop bike pin fliers advertising around town go random businesses ask use dj that forget repost ad craigslist half fucking time much less actually go market physically plus even inconsistent gigsim still grossing money peers here save least everything make whereas burn money like object bank despite spending equipment working way sum using speakers lights got goddamn thrift shop even despite working nearly hours week every week relationship status another big problem cant get girlfriendim hot project confidence even though tell im actually wreck im good always put facade living mom im creepy", "whatever ive girlfriendsfwbs since highschool ive single months now killing selfesteem girlfriend less makes selfworth one two friends last girlfriend practically begged stay friends her tried literally reason it blue suddenly started ignoring completely still christmas tree loaned december impression lot sentimental value her refused come get months contact cut ive tried tinder chicks seem understand dating app get ton matches good conversations them time time soon actually ask completely stop responding think bitches using boost ego hell else would match me talkflirt hours drop hints going date disappear moment actual date mentioned extremely limited social contact real life im young go bars college out two social things know", "im fucking isolated ill never meet anyone it need someone know absolute fact im much attractive average dude standards high go ugly fat chick want fucking die kind pathetic fucking worm attractive cant get girlfriend im onpar disgusting slime rincels whatever must absolutely fucking worthless something literally used girls me past girlfriends hot standards came classes whatnot think recent ex pretty much every night understand suddenly decided act like exist obviously situations usually dude didsaid something creepy absolutely didnt last conversation id minutes late presentation together class took together semester broke up presentation which wound even late for bullshit art rest semester whenever id talk shed seem awkward it completely stopped responding texts absolutely nothing on end things then think may ex broke get me theyd together years abusive hadhas selfesteem issues rolled it broke assured get back together im sure broke sort mental issue started shortly got together ended months split less issue would always extremely tired physically mentally problem demanding sex could never remember things said remember fucking anything reason went sauve charming confident dude got hots blithering idiot probably thought gave fucks relationship said felt like listening remember things tried explaining fluke weird thing never happened life im sure thought excuse anyway guess main thing idk either those got girlfriend problem living work situation seem bad all cant", "im fucking young go literally social spots miles chicks tinder get ego boost rather actually go someone guess since late ive got get early noon probably tomorrow im gonna go sleep ill back tomorrow respond read stuff im killing tonight gaurenteed im heavily considering calling ex begging come back guess ill save another night" ]

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[ "end ropeim kids financial failure burden brother parents cant make good decision time try get life straight end screwing again im work leave surgery havent paid month wont get paid middle january fail attempt relationships basically im unlovable useless im coward ive plan plan cant find courage it family would better without me im chicken shit follow through" ]

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[ "ok think agree pizza hut commercials trump pretty fire text" ]

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[ "today marks month since broke one single day wake thinking her incredibly sorry things went depression lack motivation ruined relationship light heart went lot support me never got tired me never things got progressively harder harder situation unbearable decided broke better miss her miss fucking much love think ever stop loving here worst part know also loves or used to cannot stand thought knowing hurt person love most want her past weeks incredibly taxing me works shit feel miserable person used relax enjoy faultfeel empty void slowly eating inside lights life consumed nothing darkness bittersweet taste had know cope that currently going therapy stopped drinking promised would fall old habits hard want anything want her want make happy again make laugh one last timesorry anything wrongly written english main language miss much" ]

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[ "ampxbmy parents longer infallible role models thought deeply flawed apes know anything like rest us fact role models anymorehuman notredflag mysterious wonderful fateful predictable chemical reactions broken science life exciting wonderful boring predictable horrendous disillusioned life" ]

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[ "boyfriend deals knowing im suicidalis normal boyfriend treats like exist pick call like ever in years dating text first ask day answer wanna talk make effort see me last year tried commit redflag one knows it thankfully im okay physically mentally all know fault cant help imagine way treats normal mentally stable girlfriend importantly girl full anxiety pain heal from wrong me act like care" ]

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[ "ask teacher send video pls read sooooo live suriname sad poor country needed heart surgery done sad poor country im netherlands right now surgery weeks ago ill till november th get back stay quarantine days ill miss presentation week week presentations lol everyone else gets partner someone else alone since im lol alone class full people know since missed begi school year ill also miss st test week lmao literally week full tests subjects ill catch tests simultaneously getting ready second test week probably weeks go school also fucked principal refused give books advance cant study anything here anyway back english ask film presentation send worry catching test week missed preparing following test week" ]

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[ "th birthday today couldnt give less fuck strange seems like every year birthdays becoming normal day plus dont really like messages get old friends etc find awkward dreading going college checking snapchat sound like miserable cuntright im starting feel every year birthday birthdays aint special anymore" ]

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[ "ngl im superstraight one im gonna make new sexuality dont believe stuff appreciate theyre trying say" ]

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[ "type rope works best hanginglooking something sturdy" ]

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[ "think may accidentally caused someone kill themselvesi" ]

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[ "weird think future could day life better look back depressed useless cause sounds futuristic like already part life happier feeling like s shit" ]

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[ "goodbye gavinthis always favorite part day napping always ends one arms around head sunlight shinning blinds look peaceful pure beautiful truly love gavin reece heart left best friend soul mate im sorry every mistake ive made you hope forgive way start this im sorry stress arguments lies ever hurt you unfaithful nothing like that second kissed stared eyes knew loved gavin thought ever could love another person past week so fall asleep ive staying crying burden embarrassment idk hope find someone pure gavin someone change worse make harder you hope life gets simpler quiet hope pass get license hope never remove name tattood leg least hope hatred new girlfriendlove gavin reece stop loving you please forget me" ]

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[ "want kill myselfcan escape feeling dont want die want dieim probably going die" ]

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[ "constantly thinking ending everythingi dream last night shot shotgun bf found me turned around walked away" ]

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[ "grownup lonely thingi make many mistakes grownup anyone blame yourself grownup fix mistakes grownup responsible everything do crushing lonely confusing think making right choice wrong choice think right thing wrong thing spend days weeks months sometimes years working make life better family fail again christmas worst theres nothing like christmas make feel like horrible parent tired alone yet keep going day day day keep waiting silver liningright im slogging endless sea gray" ]

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[ "dont think teenager moderators subreddit ok lets rational people one second bere ok bear im blow mind moderators supposed teenagers guess teenagers attend school ok might thinking penis multiple mods cover multiple time zoneswell im blow mind checked moderators list turns mods left despite expiration date passed mean internal conflict worse theory moderators nothing get adults moderate feel comfortable groomers rise up change world" ]

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[ "know joke really sad im alone girlfriend years dumped week anniversary back december since then still expressing lots feeling other semimutual understanding arent ready relationship im truly sad alone great relationship her think truly experienced love gotta taste crave it want life pretty much friends girl least got brouzr_stealth boys hopefully game tonight unless watch anime play pc lol might play siege chug monsters own anyways point like guess whos single looking reddit memes genuinely h u r inside ideas get mind absolutely fucking single" ]

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[ "help raise awareness raise awareness redflag ive myself im saw one way out however ive faced head reached support want support people know hard is ive set gofundme feel free message redflag awareness httpswwwgofundmecomfwsbrbgoutm_mediumcopy_linkamputm_sourcecustomeramputm_campaignp_nasharesheetamprcidcaefefbefcba" ]

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[ "kake day points probably not kake day overrated right anyway suffer wrath protektors true alphabet war wages on sukkumb will join die" ]

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[ "th coming up idea ask for anyone suggestions m im pc gamer love big lego sets ideas those" ]

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[ "idea started channel freshmen year high school center projects hopefully become electrical engineer welcome error electronics here post reveals creations along tutorials much more httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucekbzxifijqnlknxikq" ]

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[ "breaking pointim seriously close tipping fucking shattering everywhere cant much longer even know im going stopim afraid whatll happen break up much else reason" ]

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[ "obviously needed like make choice forced situation go down reason went inpatient treatment program" ]

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[ "cliff diving except theres water freeway bridge man sounds fun" ]

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[ "tired all bright things people past would gone long time ago make mistakes feel invisible feeling like burden able feel love longer remember feel unrepairable physically emotionally hurts live moved different country start new life tiny things improved end defective meant anything am years years proven thatampxbi want sleep yrs old tired failed attempts past" ]

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[ "dont care meeveryone always says ok whats wrong know dont care literally feel annoyance coming screen feel like one person actually cares me honestly want get rid friends besides one person wish could that id loose too wouldnt able take enough time me friends feel ungrateful care still sad jesus sounds lame sorry whoever read this crap im sorry ill stop typing" ]

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[ "life flashing eyesthese intrusive thoughts every memory ive ever had random ones unimportant events keep flooding hurt much want anymore like ive recorded mentally like mind like myself want anymore hate mentally ill hate emotional responses past feel childish" ]

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[ "got back back second unskippable ads youtube wtf youtube sat seconds ads" ]

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[ "suicidal dont want exist sometimesi cant one feels way sometimes wish start new life one knows fresh canvas see family see fit but without picture somedays im grateful circumstances days really really bad days think myself cant live grid another land want alone sometimes days feel alone want people support arms reach conflicting feeling like live new life keep close me know silly stress future stressful feel like dont enough time days worry im gonna three decades worry im going failure" ]

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[ "friend saved life know doi fully prepared end today pills ready laid got back knew today going last day id planning month knew mum brother would out weirdly settled knowledge one thing actually control happening finished school day began walk back home usual walked past group people considered friends go home way me one said anything walked bit behind me turned usual point halfway road heard running feet behind me friend ran entire way back around corner road nearly asthma attack it asked important looking back fucking rude her done ask needed anything looked really recently worried apparently looked even lower usual today know was something stopped me still want live state cant see getting better cant bring now know do thought control least cant even control that" ]

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[ "tell parents tried kill long story short struggling depression anxiety years now got phone call randomly mum yesterday saying dad they split young wanted meet together talk must picked last couple years realised something right months prior though actually went holiday friends went home early one night intention killing ending all wrote notes drunk time actually slipped tile floor hotel knocked unconscious wake friends back hotel room gathered around me feeling stupid said slipped left early drunk since decided end came round read notes left parents couldnt stop crying thinking mum reading it question tell keep" ]

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[ "im honestly doneth march ill goneah friend suggested subreddit realised reasons minuscule might well reasons even exist first place anyways go longest ramble history made promise would kill time couple weeks be need hurry up honestly dont know wanted eh lets hope joking thought cliche thing friday th april thats week birthday dont need pressure reasons want ahem kick bucket lately everyone pressuring hurry get sort place university quickly loose chance would years would attend besides know wont last long cant remember last time happy wasnt medication remember plenty quite lot medication none naturally lastly im generally done ill grab box thats full blades grab pill bottle grab note ive writing since honestly like book short story everything ive put it lets hope lets hope dont survive ive survived many times" ]

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[ "wish could go bed without wanting wake next dayand wish could wake without wishing woken thing want stop feeling anything" ]

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[ "got super cold really fast like like degrees last night even october weather insane" ]

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[ "okay cry song like idk cried shit one song every time hear cant hold tears" ]

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[ "circle supposed shape one side angles sides angles shape circularyes know circle also considered shape infinite sides near length infinite angles near degrees shhhhhh" ]

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[ "ye genshin servers anymore yeyeye" ]

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[ "recently posted trying find help afford rent pay transmission fixed depleted little finally able save able afford rent caused overdraft im asking cover overdraft negative balance give enough buy groceries next week this include bag dog food send picture receipt money spent on" ]

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[ "attempted todayand didnt fucking work ran husband couldnt get police stop me tried overdosing instead ive puking night third attempt wtf" ]

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[ "theoretically speaking much sugar would enough sugar crash thanks fall asleep cant im taking special reinforcementsbad idea let know" ]

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[ "anxiety attackso didnt sleep night morning go father buy food get energy drinks try every time go buy fod someone get panic attack every time go alone fell like every body watching ext whe entrer good whe go drinks buy whiskey beer ext father go pick something place looking energy drinks alone girl behind starts talk saying dont buy st discont next week didnt know say start think works ask discont answers yes discount wanted one drinks fell nervous pick also dont pick would fell also impotent leave father reches whe leave father ask talking say girl looks suprise fuck whe leaving see car start think dont work say haplend dad says hiting like nahh says big men laughting felt bad thinking im shit talking pressure fell pressure times talking girl hiting fucked realy bad like even hit me something good happends" ]

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[ "im starting like hair maybe stop wearing hoods" ]

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[ "want stop drinking time want stopi lost best friend reality had talked family long time interest reconnect messy childhood friends think made codependent first week long time text theres one im looking new friendno anyway ex best friend said want friend anymore much piece shit become drink said verbally abusive see am get drunk sometimes hate almost much hate myself hate life choices im always bad guy feel like better met her time different way better now like emotionally better image lifestyle better now feel im ranting imsorry know ive felt hopeless before ive never lonely before feeling mean ive driven across many state city town village before alone ive never truly alone maybe thats im writing post feel alone know ampxb want kill myself time dont thats fear comes next im scared process no want quick gunive never fan them im highest floor apartment think jump kill me luxury crashing car going hope car hits me might survive that want quick way out one alcohol maybe ill get courage figure way out ampxb sorry waste time" ]

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[ "think it point living not even here tired everything want fight anymore mood swings happen multiple times day cannot control them people always judge fucking sick it therapist parents mockit friends swear understand ask cannot happy once one gets it medications even fucking help therapist months room always mess saw aunt today smiled said glad better never get better cannot people understand am cannot control change it trying years feel better soon think anymore ill another teenage suicide statistic chart fucking tired" ]

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[ "imma real absolutely fucking terrified parents especially terrified tell mental health ask anything" ]

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[ "test ctei wondering wonder severe depression related brain injuries football" ]

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[ "think donei cannot continue like past two years indication cannot change either overwhelmed studies care little friends although know family kind would care mind leaving behind slept night long sleep least hours day cannot remember last saw daylight would nice see sun one last time written things owe everyone brief explanation least decided method think done thank reading" ]