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[ "wanting die ability kill urselfcan anyone else relate literally wanted die long remember really enjoy life feel attempting enjoy around genuinely exhausted point want keep going however several attempts finding unable go anything myself anyone else ever feel way idk literally want hit truck something way home work never works way" ]

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[ "hoursin hours ill go living room get sleeping pills family catches ill say cant sleep one really stop me family definitely cant doubt even care" ]

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[ "feel like shit help meim awful human deserve live get mad things life throw hit things im mad release frustrations get want feel like brat never spoiled want kind person lot things mind come every years make me say depressed since diagnosed sad want hit myself kill myself cant seem it always looking ways actually going it friends know things me want kind person want change want help life sucks cant afford therapy want parents finding even could idk maybe im acting holidays near get wrong hate holidays worst things happened during want get guess anyway made far reading this thankyou sometimes want heard feel free comment drag me" ]

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[ "might curtains mehi im yr old student whose parents found failing hs senioryr dont dont many friends great people cant live shame knowing ill never parents expected me maybe ill already dead probably gonna post man tough itll soon" ]

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[ "hate youre alone crapi know depressionanxietyredflagmental illness general pretty damn common point thats problem everyone lot worse theyre also succeeding despite it besides boat someone doesnt mean arent still rowing yourself doesnt mean youre making boat take water drowning you im glad people take comfort idea theyre ones self harming whatnot thats partly point subreddit all see kind posts twitter tumblr scream faux positivitynormalisationmeyeah sure experiences this going start talking properly cant lift stigma meaningful way rant" ]

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[ "honestly feel like shit feel like life driven sadness hate blind anger otherwise feel anything otherwise feel absolutely nothing care anything want anything found things used love bring little none satisfaction all cannot make decisions own spend night long crying morning absolute worst cannot talk anyone friends normal like depression shit last time talked said depression poser want talk parents neither therapist really help feel like one understands me mom said stage months ago really stage really stage" ]

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[ "guess complicatedthis worst five days life every year abusive horrific biomoms birthday th mine th every year imdumbfounded angry disgusted still allowed draw breath world makes really hard want make birthday know must silly heres hard part ive mostly come terms it hour hour minute minute did im really really worried blackouts im coconscious trust even im safeone be know people get lot shit could really use help right now" ]

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[ "well im back alright last time came basic issues seems worsened first off brother mental ward might get back guess bad really care thats also coping mechanism tune worldyeah might never return electricity might get cut out clue ill living next year im lost one person could talk left nobody started flirting girl guess good distraction time still just life downer man know do im guess im scared want see sister hurt anymoreim sick blamed things nothing with mean talk child services want go system want want to take pause let everything go away feel like im climax tragedy family crumble im starting out feel like im going get suffocated problems family thanks listening sw sorry able keep myself" ]

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[ "im realizing im loser lol almost im reddit math homework today photomath working cant basic math im siting room thats full anime merchandise pondering life also thinking reading yaoi soon" ]

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[ "truly enjoyed movie however realize little richard many things going life first aware lucille little hardly any mention females intimately involved little richard even life today mention involvement females romantic way wonder part life mentioned overall movie great also like leon playing part little richard good actor feel part went different actor visually remind little richard also totally unaware promiscuity little richard part of movie pictured sexual addict todays time would referred counseling sexual addition voyeur want ruin movie someone seen movie however several things movie feel part final cut" ]

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[ "feeling good year life unfair usso rewind years ago perfectly fine depressed hopeful energy look towards future entered college made lots friends love life then got depressed went zoloft things took turn there years later lost love life friends everything im scared really anythingit easy commit redflag like people make be live ourselves would want lose lifeim young im turning soonim female lost someone years feel like ill never find happiness im failing school im addicted smoking pot even though want to im gaining weight looking really bad lately help know do cant even find enjoyment videogames suck writing feel like ive ruined life it like normal people know im stuck endless loop sadness depression im tired" ]

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[ "mean know schoolwork sitting right front me want get done sounds crazy mind gets overwhelmed almost cry whenever look it ive missed many assignments cant dont care them parents show affection towards brother feel like theres nothing left lose skipping assignments someone told adhd dont know know isnt normal" ]

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[ "empty voidone afraid life death words never spoke truth im year old male living california currently ive depression ocd now taken life top im put simply shitty person im unemployed living parents house hope going anywhere failed navy let everyone including down take voices head felt weak wanting out dropped college cause id rather get fucked anything all ive plenty jobs ive either fired fucked somehow im pretty sure sort chest problem cant even sleep left side without chest hurting feeling heart pound lost recent friends awful them friends im burden family try productive want drink sleep went rehab drug addiction see getting better know im hoping writing ill feel even minute tranquility thank reading" ]

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[ "yk dating teenagers relationships fail thomy tchrs adults around always tell relationships dating teen almost always never works end nothingnot worth itetc obviously ppl get married early relationship high school become adults idk man yall real fooling around" ]

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[ "even distraught never get job done suicide mind exploding much redflag outlet relief already called police incident much one extremely hostile towards me triggered left tears already traumatized happened much pain support live alone disabled due mental health know else do desperate redflag even little understand internet good place seek support option called case manager already called crisis hotline national suicide hotline samaritans hotline tell thing get therapist waitlists long six months need immediate help now need someone now anyone know anything anyone could provide sort relief please someone something please read this need help police help me" ]

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[ "want try bondage ask partner keep ropei sure keeping rope trigger suicidal thoughts would dominant one want explain get suicidal thoughts recent fwb would do" ]

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[ "yesterday decided go finish degree covid forced withdraw year hardest year as previous posts highlight depressive suicidal thoughts highest life first time feel like looking see future weeks ago think had one step time but think saw smile face today decided go back finish degree first time seen light" ]

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[ "school stressfulmy weight school almost reason enough go ahead kms nobody likes even parents yell mom especially sets unrealistic expectations cant wait get hands gun end life" ]

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[ "deal negative emotions talk trusted friend get help express negative feelings physical activities hobbies non harmful outlets let stack behindface throat twist unhealthy rage causes break blow slightest inconvenience" ]

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[ "im scaredthrowaway account obvious reasons ive depressed since march causes revolving door problems ive open school church family roommates girlfriend it school tried help much me roommate helped tremendously best friend girlfriend ive moved back home semester far away them depression led struggle classes point may failing fail though parents basically turn back me feelings inadequacy anxiety future plagued mind nonstop ive semisuicidal thoughts whole time girlfriend knew them she roommate best friend as well religious convictions enough keep now seemed like thoughts going away end semester drew closer parents freaked possibility failing failill debt job degree family willing help me ill proven much failure ive always thought was honestly cant see reason keep going cant even see could wanted to scares that first time life actually started researching ways commit act started developing preferences decided it would want clean so one clean huge mess want family ones find body first im terrified thoughts even come mind thing keeping thought never seeing love life one last time" ]

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[ "fear disappear gonewhen longer fear it idea scare anymore cant recall exact day id say weeks ago" ]

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[ "guilthi reddit month ago watching video ramateur two days ago remebered it suddenly absolute horror girl underage rape today searched original content proven im disturbed think tell family kill myself today soon cant live uncertainty" ]

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[ "helpi feel really weak need someones help ive depressed years so ive never seen doctor saw happened older sister went hospital fuck that tonight really badim alone house parents europe late anyone awake want end it care anything anymore even loneliness thing past three nights ive gotten laid enjoy anything anymoreim really ready it know im asking help anyone able say anything not cliche help thats story ive got rope tied basement" ]

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[ "overwhelmedim starting college weeksim scared part wants run away it family issues getting hard like half im bridge between theres much head needs sorting big things coming driving crazy cant cope every time close eyes sleep quiet time think needs done whats coming know shouldnt say wanna give desire go college anymore want everything stop worry anything anymore plus feel like shit time go know theres probably easier ways cope excited college days lately getting overwhelming" ]

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[ "hang anyone needs talk know month week even today may feel impossible impossible arent try get it may hurt may angry here get better get better keep waking every day keep pushing least owe yourself yourself got this loves make day great" ]

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[ "everyone get wantyou cant follow dreams everyone would work retail stores would work dead end try chase dreams fail wasted time career path everyone ment happy shit works feel like im side character thats even part main story hey gotta flesh world somehow special people thrive love drawing art im delusional think somehow make become well something love thats works sure success stories happening failed need money get hours relief hobbie makes happy fuck life fuck world want die ment rather object something maybemug mugs cool think give pretty good mug energy" ]

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[ "want exist anymorei recently hurt love life shes thinking leaving me hearing cry feel sad makes want alive anymore much debt school cant get job covid lately ive thinking gun driving middle desert end it ive made worst mistake life wife never look way again alone makes think dont deserve alive anymore dont know do feel like ive shoved dark hole way out wish never existed dont want alive feeling emotions anymore" ]

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[ "loose ends tied nowm ive feeling actively passively suicidal years ive reached friends family hotlines ive dragged house cops hospitalized maybe time would switch actively suicidal passively reckless instead actual attempts two nights ago tried overdose near dozenth time failed next day agony got bed times throw up since moved much except small things like clean dog feed pets know looked go tied loose ends last weeks pushed friends away point hate me make things easier mention friends barely knew needed something im trans man ok insurance covers parts transition since live home rent free spare cash go student loans cover copays know im really fortunate lifeim college student as take maximum credit hours pass decent job pick hours make well min wage state mentors professors close contacts best schools state parents abusive family generally pretty ok except even working hrwk school full time making as parents think im enough every weeks threaten kick enough housework fast enough siblings treated way kind anything generally get yelled at live home", "im oldest youngest still feel alone incapable giving receiving love idea near people enough make skin crawl know like around me im ugly feel like imposter even constant overbearing urge kill bad life all next attempt going starving death hanging nobody bothers either easy enough" ]

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[ "im really rough day dont wanna socialize school started really havent well emotionally part school part things dont need go anyway past months ive organizing weekly zoom meetings friends us hang talk supposed one half hour really dont feel rn time know dont start everyone get freaked dont wanna deal ton people asking literally anyone start zoom meeting top know dont hang ill probably room crying alone couple hours thats exactly good option either feel like everything sucks idk" ]

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[ "canti know believe anymore anything know im miserable sick fighting it want done want disappear want feel anything anymore" ]

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[ "love dont know made post love myselfim glad exist world life great" ]

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[ "writing break tears eyes another meltdown work written posts similar one before deleted ill probably delete one too sick treated like shit everyone usually talkative try hard sociable considerate people around me know feels excluded looked want others feel way around me work ass stupid fucking store put every ounce energy getting things done right time take breather even second suddenly end world put notice boss slacking blatant fucking liei hate boss hate way talks way walks stupid juvenile sense humor fake wannabe tough guy attitude hate here matter go never get respect anyone know wrong me hate way look talk friends afraid even try make every friend ever abandoned whenever convenient them life boring pointless brave enough kill myself feel like doomed alone forever living meaningless life something fundamentally wrong me resent mother marrying dad huge loser maybe met someone else would son totally fucking useless know myself want stuck way forever know need change sleep thing enjoy anymoremaybe one days ill take nap never wake hate boss hate job hate myself hate life" ]

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[ "drove car first time im turning months dad took today empty parking lot districts highschool asked wanted get behind wheel wasnt sure ive always scared driving fact maybe ill bad driver time switched spots repeated commonly known steps start engine start driving spent minutes turning using break pedal drive pedal is called using turn signals stopped couple stop signs drove circles around different objects moved slowly didnt spin snow hit curb all still rush adrenaline driving pound machine made feel powerful" ]

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[ "years enoughive living like far long fight thoughts every day ive tried everything im tired im sorry m" ]

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[ "great little thriller expecting type silly horror movie got tight short thriller waste none time mostof movies get back characters stories either feel sympathy hatred people start getting killed foolishness hereyes see characters really interact principals husband wife motel whose room canceled saw could efficient lisa character inefficient new hotel clerk was see little girl simply small important role later movie heck breaks loose flight atrendants need particular move plot ahead bad guy particular needs beginning flight rude guy airport important movie too characters liners use plot two young guys plane clever thought would something plot first scene last woman character young hotel executive named lisa charge even jackson shows true colors panic thinks stall time movie smart executive women would acting like idiots one short movie waiting usual plot devices kick movie seemed coming conclusion fast thankfuly none used new hotel clerk usual called told do panic drop phone run hotel without saying anything question boss tell much drink dismiss her craven types movies also one last comment brian cox movie one clue was come see lisas father completely unrecognizable" ]

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[ "threw away pills todayi depressed thought redflag before ive walked it never did reached people got counseling made alive last year year fall like last year happened again time worse know loved know people care me would idiot deny fact im surrounded amazing community sadness feels like never going end might make side cant escape it feel like im dragging people down got accident take heavy painkillers couple weeks im sure messed head even weeks cant stop depressed anxious past week half so keep thinking pills left use kill myself last night stop crying thought pills want old back morning held held bottle thought it thinking knew much real control right threw away pills feel much better believe decision made life throwing away think good first step theres many people like sharing kind stuff thought might well get chest here" ]

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[ "hey there need share something u guys feel like im middle existential crisis guess may vulnerable depression bcoz entrance exam approaching amp feel quite afraid time mean cant stop procrastinating past failures amp seems like parents really acknowledge small successes teachers really mean amp predict might fail it things bit tough past years able perform according parents expectations think talking community similar age group might lighten heavy heart amp give head start towards destination anyways community encouraged get downfall thank u guyz" ]

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[ "guys party tonight regular show goddamn fucking good like come guitar melody slaps harder boxer steroids song written specifically cartoon goddamn good rant goodnight dm want ill respond im six hours im going bed" ]

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[ "first deepa mehta film saw film tv hindi version sita character presented nita also note radha underwent allegorical trial fire film nitasita yet loved film screenplay ms mehta direction characters big small welldeveloped seemed quixotic towards endsomewhat like end mazurskys an unmarried woman brave women surrounded cardboard men one cardboard man ashok seems come alive last shot see himcarrying invalid mother biji seems finally take future responsibility beyond celibacy adherance religion br br ms mehta seems fumble director however compared indian mainstream cinema would seem brilliant cannot use script go beyond microscopic joint family presenting except presenting glimpse chinese microminority social milieu india even dedicates film mother daughter not father yet radha reminesces halcyon days parents mustard field compare mrinal sen adoor gopalakrishnan muzaffar ali dwarfed giantsgiven competent canadian production team financial resources mehtas film two bisexual ladies indian middleclass household may sacrilege some merely captures atrophy middleclass homes seem aspire something better immediate survival limited", "social space kannada malayalam bengali films touched parallel themes india publicity surrounded film therefore seen wide segment knowledgeable cinemagoersbr br ms das ms azmi mr jafri mr kharbanda credible outstanding ms azmi talented actress gave superb performances good directors mrinal sens khandar gautam ghoses paar benegals ankur brilliance notably absent film ms das sparkled due screen presence rather acting capability all films strength remains structure screenplay average terms international cinema sure ms mehta hone writing talents future screenplays" ]

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[ "psychotic break best thing happened mefor life operated highlow basis manic would act physically emotionally impulsively manipulatively would sink lowest lows months later get bed shower take care basic needs convinced unworthy manic powered thoughts selfworth surprised people wanted around me clung semblance acceptance could would manipulate situations benefit feel like shit depressive episode came along took millionth suicidal intention mixed manic phase urge check institution insurance cover mental health knew last day didnt best friend ended relationship years way hospital text medication prescribed earlier year working me instead muffling depression brought redflag knowing would it planning would happen rose water drowning hour morning knew time better medication mood stabilizer given life back still working fallout finally hope reaching friends spoken years talking strangers internet going movies myself enjoying instead fearing time myself trust again happy confident ever hope guys proud here need someone talk to know here" ]

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[ "story shinae moves milyang seoul young son jun start accidental death husband husband born here opening piano school also ambitions land insurance money received death film about probably would like hollywood film falling local guy happy son new home but hollywood son gets kidnapped murdered ostensibly known cash settlement grief process attempts moving on attempts clear conscience guilt done admirably lead actress superb caveat stated depressing film know going in want shinae go grief find measure happiness again hollywood korea korean cinema especially drama pull punches life happens you great acting sometimes tough film watch due goings on stay rewarded that" ]

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[ "wish existmy family wants gone want gone mental illnesses get worse make every single aspect living pure hell still killing would cause much trouble wish never existed first place im sorry burden" ]

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[ "maybe todayi posted subreddit days ago stating wanted die planning taking life today planning buying rope shanaz im extremely tired painful atm want go college tho ive missed many days recently want piss tutor offor mother wish could end nowor least sleepmaybe whole daybut enough courage tell bf react badly all hes keeping eye today hope go hosptial psych unit soon enough hope make tonight hope many others well thank u kind words last post even tho lifted heart dayit enough" ]

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[ "suicidal thoughts require hospitalizationrecently ive feeling much stronger urge hurt myself past usually fleeting thoughts go away pretty quickly right now get vivid images want do play loop head pretty long time maybe im easily influenced makes susceptible influence thoughts head end really want get headspaceive trying push thoughts away often can honest theyre really strong im profound pain whereby need attempt redflag escape state im in honestly im attached prospect living everything feels little flat guess like daytoday life grey void idea ceasing exist burst color seems getting inviting me usually bed get thoughts usually try best leave bed try go sleep instead leave bed might it dont plan though feels like impulse thoughts go far as im thinking slicing arm kitchen knife gt could now everyones asleep gt get get knife gt now gt theyre going find tomorrow sad ill gone so theres redflag note plan specific time specific date get mean this ive honestly wondering would good idea get inpatient treatment feel like im becoming less less attached stopping hurting myself thoughts urges getting strong inviting im getting tired check myself", "so id like get opinions think suicidal thoughts as described bad enough require hospitalization yet would serious enough require trip er" ]

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[ "ok tried hanging myself work matter much pressure try put arteries feel explosive head sensation black out wtf one thing want life cant accomplish it gotta say feels peaceful this maybe keep trying one time ill get right spot whole life building to destiny feel it" ]

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[ "whats wierdest dream ever had best ive got one time dremnt lived new york city world ending nothing crazy idk whats wierdestdreams" ]

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[ "humble familyi want kill myself hard admit dont really reason christian parents well off im smart grades slipping lately motivation tanked get good college dont motivation parents hate pamper love older brother people say youngest pampered thats absolute bullshit always compare horrible people talk dont want brother become like me even though hes older gets away everything give everything brother works starbucks makes money expenses hes paying food sometimes buying stuff dad keep mindim even old enough work since im dad says see hes buying stuffyoure selfish like dont even make money whole life parents loving brother hating me hate itim donewould parents" ]

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[ "felt sleep paralysis didnt see cute demon felt tense muscles sweating vibrating back im scared am someone comfort me" ]

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[ "know volkswagen put lambo v audi s like im gonna need find one convince dad get car horsepower supercar engine" ]

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[ "biggest lie ever told gets better years since attempt nothing changed still agony future terrifying loosing faith god please stop testing god cannot fucking take anymore take now biggest lie ever told" ]

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[ "inevitableeverything leads inevitable death anything want lives hard think whats point" ]

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[ "situationbonjour jai ans et depuis longtemps lenvie de redflagr pourtant je ne suis pas hyper triste douleur de jai fais une tentative il moins dun et aprs avoir pris du recul je suis rendu compte que ce passage lacte tait juste un moyen de dire famille que jai tais manipul et pour en quelque sorte condamn socialement la personne de famille et annoncer son danger mes proches malgr cette ide folle javais quand mme envie de mourir comment pardonn cette personne sachant que je ne peux pas lattaquer frontalement car je sais que elle va nier le plus chiant dans cette histoire cest que mes parents prennent maintenant pour un salaud comme dhab le manipulateur te fais passer pour lagresseur et je suis oblig de partir en vacance avec bref jai limpression que quoi que je fasse elle fera chier jusqu que je tue pour de bon car aprs tentative elle continuait je ne sais plus quoi faire" ]

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[ "want happy want die wish never born first placemy parents two ignorant people good people ignorant fact existing pain think pain because think much thinking much case means realizing shit living in realizing alive much proves point living worst yet able understand living sensation alive existing like multiplying pain already unbearable thought slashing flesh liquid holds alive absurd ask me fucking liquid red liquid reason suffering fucking liquid pouring mind organ ridiculous form colour details mass shit fucking flesh fucking frail flesh cannot stand anymore taking lexapro month half now shit work fucking shit fucking work doctor insists continue taking it fuck fuck medicine would alive matter dump money fucking pill pack fuck shit cannot stand alive cannot stand existing" ]

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[ "know anymore im tired thisso got reddit thing created account specifically reason cannot cope wife kids anymore wife says hurtful things kids tend agree her im monster inside monster growing growing cant stop feel failed father cant take anymore everyone family hates urge leave getting harder deal every single day" ]

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[ "man walks street says why soft middle now get youve heard it" ]

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[ "looking supportive attempted redflag once unsuccessfully actually bit afterwords felt like made wrong choice deserved stay alive days feel empty though feel like im sleepwalking life kind funny today cake day account guess really must something time year fuck spring guess ive really terribly depressed feel like im going able claw way while know im going even graduate anymore second semester grades reached rock bottom used b occasional c student currently two fs one d cs across board elsewhere even pull things think college admitted still allow enroll im fairly certain big plummet grades result rescinding admission senior recital last tuesday show spent months practicing for got anxious got stage stop halfway set butchering every song walked stage tears ive started behavioral problems feel angry want act led getting first behavioral referral due calling teacher facebook reported it friends use car money stop hanging cut im desperate interaction keep around parents disappointed worried cant find success things want goodim really sure im anymore think im going kill soon know how really wish life perpetual cycle shitty days" ]

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[ "ive tried hardest really havewhere even start lifes crumbling years now seems like whenever try something happy make life better fucks up really ive tried fucking best feels like always losing battle help im alone time either stay room parents house weve big fight led write this im child too legitimately nobody ive somewhat tried redflag before tied something together remember choking near closet thought give another try maybe different time wasnt know im posting really im much bitch actually go redflag actually know do im friends parents fucking hate me job go school moment although im signing spring classes part wants say hey hold near future better another part let many times cynical think way thinks absolutely pointless live anymore im rambling know anymore might try get job ive got bad anxiety two times ive attempted get job fuck interview" ]

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[ "lie skittles taste same different colors different smells tricked weve backstabbed weve quite possibly bamboozled" ]

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[ "anyone always friendsi cant even remember last time hung friends people besides family depressing sad nobody age understands wants apart life" ]

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[ "whats best way kill selfmy girlfriend cheated left fuck another guy gave everything had tired happening whats painless method" ]

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[ "ask someone hey whats up day walking home school girl infront sat bench i later learned sophomore year me started sobbing ask strangerhey whats up let vent help struggles asking one simple question save someones life feel like nothing left someone" ]

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[ "name dog adopted cute puppy today know name give her give ideas" ]

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[ "one main reason im still im afraid afteri read many conflicting opinions around topic afterlife best case scenario absolutely nothing heaven hell terrifies thinking could something like hell reincarnation hell christians eternal damnation constant suffering never ending torment reincarnation russian roulette could lucky unlucky depending part world family people believe prison planet escape endless cycle life death via reincarnation ruled evil aliens feed negative emotions suffering theory scares even more true literally point redflag die reborn second later guys think" ]

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[ "question foreign english learners often taught something later learned wrongim wondering often happens like grammar words whatever much happened" ]

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[ "suicidal without depression sadnessi woke today orders head clear crisp repetition commit redflag happening lately thought today going drag not thought going depressed day im not im quite content actually ive got plenty energy big goofy smile bounce back suicidal thoughts casually anyone else feel suicidal without actually down im unhappy hate myself good life people generally really nice me think exhibit signs depression newfound lack desire connecttalk anybody even family figure im either really mentally sick realize it im becoming enlightened knows" ]