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[ "please keep family friendly guys mommy watches ipad parental controls please dont want ipad taken away complete fort nite battle pass ends soon" ]

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[ "palim falling apart insides collapsing msis yiu much please come baxk" ]

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[ "film shockingly underrated imdb like many films shawshank reasonably good predictable dance competition personal growth film want spend hour half watching sort mile female step dancer think like itbr br judging imdb ratings guess movie approaching top vote bombed many s happens many films mob special effects include nonwhite nonstraight charactersbr br its american film us film set mostly toronto cues subtle audiences may think set entirely us final competition border city detroitbr br i liked music liked dance but convinced worth know characters easy eyesbr br i agree title sucks remember anyone film saying words s no foreign languagebr br theres lot hate film and lets honest vote means hated it assume expression hate kind people it thats sad" ]

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[ "know stop myselfive pestering people problems knowing able helped anyways stop telling whats me stop crying nowhere spike bad feeling hits im one people make obvious something wrong try hide it feel selfish straightforward makes feel like get chance wanna ask whats wrong not ive confidence issues whole life theyve really taken bad turn downhill turned straight drop every time see mirror start crying gagging ive puked many times recently never deliberately like put toothbrush throat think still fault keep torturing looking beautiful talented people showertime horrible seeing abnormal body looks like cant compare anyone feel like im level least smile beautiful things takes small amount time start crying feeling gets bad cant go outside much either anymoreyeah keep seeing amazing great beautiful people everywherebut ever like that im enough", "right im trying push friends away me mean insult say strive better stuck me mean assume whats best think me mean say theyre selfish take overlords lives guess saying it ive tried apologising like this made people mad made say im actually sorry busy determining think im getting annoying this since learn one message feel like im constant trouble thats im asking could hide all never bother anyone ever stupid problems cant understand whyd want keep around im sort happy everyones getting sick meleavewellthey smile again extra baggage anymore everyones happiness nice course ill alone everyones forgotten me vanish hope th floor enough make decision im sorry long message thank reading" ]

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[ "dont carefriends saying care open suicidal thoughts never initiate contact again never asking something me bitch even know im gone dont say care obviously dont" ]

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[ "failing lifeive suffering severe depression social anxiety past five years never gotten better turned video games escape made things exponentially worse transferred college semester told going different fell back old habits first started getting social anxiety again hard meet talk people depression started fading in concentrate work sit hours study get stuff done cant focus drift away end nothing fade right back suicidal ideation feeling hopeless cant move life get shit done im failing courses two three beyond fixable point im pretty much guaranteed f sit around nothing time laying bed jack shit turning browsing web playing games ive hit brick wall think get slump meant go way im pissing away parents money ideation plan im done cant take pain anymore" ]

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[ "feel annoying fucking time im middle severe mental breakdown mean genuine medical definition quirky one ive bottled up love friends feel annoying keep accidentally venting server im talking much stupid feel awful like need so like sometimes like need stop venting emotional feel like wear people dont want hurt inconvenience im literally awful friend sometimes hurts much feel awful saying selfish like cant imagine feel makes feel awful annoying feel like fucking burden im fucking burden" ]

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[ "think related roommate last name parents signs aware" ]

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[ "advice every person subreddit m used really care people thought me friends friends rednecks rural ontario go brrt henceforth become wannabe redneckhick followed many many instagram pages posted donald trump far right political opinions diesel trucks well american political pages even though im canadian years later true myself friends like myself im weeb love heavy metal longer dislike lgbtq crowd disliked racist anymore said probably thinking wow kid probably dick right lmao aside theres one thing whole experience taught me nothing feels better yourself found new friends share interests struggling right feel like cant yourself lemme tell right now someone everyone world matter like everyone make friends world judge other best sub helped vent past ive laughed cried it want hit start conversation thank reading much got here sorry long tldr change fit in everyones got crowd somewhere" ]

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[ "germany killed million innocent people years everyone remembers japan belgium belgium one worst offenders britain spain china mongolia italy" ]

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[ "anyone need bodypillow also double matress" ]

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[ "people buy airpods rly give fuck music literally earbuds sound better airpods" ]

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[ "must force uimissyousomuch sleep uimissyousomuch sleep getting late" ]

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[ "want someone love metheres noone woman would ever touch" ]

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[ "ive become thing swore destroy cool person course" ]

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[ "kpop stans kpop stans horny teenagers change mind" ]

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[ "forgive sinned guys watched cuties trailer want know fuck watch" ]

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[ "bruhokay woke stayed hours took nap pm im trying get sleep schedule back keep messing like aaaa" ]

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[ "gif pfp got removed bruh removed gif pfp fucking super gif pfp working anymore fuck reddit making reddit icon orange removing gif pfps again" ]

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[ "miss dadon june dad killed redflag hung garage dad years miss every day wish here" ]

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[ "text start ive seen posts people calling national hotlines hung breaks heart thats fucking ridiculous recently started volunteering crisis text line recommend anyone here ive struggled many years came know crisis text line therapist recommended text struggling last year real people really want help you also takes anxiety away actually talking phone thats thing disclaimersour messages characters back seem shortthats why but send many long messages need to we follow certain timeframewe want talk divert crisis going talk coping skills try help find ways manage way youre feeling youre talking us dismissive anything want find help cant around help know truly wish best want get help youre looking for im sure legal whatever post recommend try it working something always text stop time legally allowed text back good luck everyone" ]

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[ "xposted ask transgender adult physically disabled trans woman friend abused facility staying at wants commit redflag escape abuse yr old friend helpwill ask somewhere else breaks rules im honestly end options here friend ill call j family whos extremely abusive transphobic mistreated bullied outside house nearly whole life bounced abusive transphobic shelters severely depressed suicidal one attempt unacknowledged parents left crippled waist down latest disabledfroendly shelter in experienced kinds abuse verbal mistreatment neglect respond asking food almost fainting i help focus stay conscious watched fall wheelchair made crawl bedits absolutely disgusting needless say suicidalim probably one reasons killed herself wants leave forget worry problems im foster care fighting abusive parents court says fucked life still hope stop stressing me ive spent hours talking redflag emailed parents intend email superiors abusers place shape up go parents seem interested treating well whatsoever dad held gun back head just fuck missouri decent place stay feels like might much do morning fear waking redflag notewhat help somethinganything" ]

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[ "wanting dead evolved accepting ill never happyive m attempted redflag twice last time within last year think main reasons last attempt feeling like wronged someone deeply cared about feeling like terrible person feeling ill never happy months passed ive kind accepted nothing going change me try better person treat friends better try find partner shares educational personal sexual interests dont believe ever going change dont want kill anymore dont think life works great someone like me every passing day think personal struggles eat more dont passions anymore think maybe real friends sometimes feel like everyone puts me anxiety situations used okay in anxiety pretty much everything actually kinda want press pause reset life impossible someone with vent to make happy would go long way much freak seem be think im going alone forever messed thing top think im lot happiest things others making happy etc even really find someone wants let them makes feel like im good enough even friendships let alone romantic relationships" ]

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[ "im feeling stuck confused scared lonely dont know do keep thinking girl stopped dating months ago lot things mind im getting lot mixed emotions im worried father feels do cant go much getting cold dark curl think girl dont know do" ]

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[ "cannot believe im actually posting this really know begin first all guess sort inconceivable", "im sub posting something like this hell add humiliation guess ill start saying im year old male currently college computer science im proud person default raised single mother im masculine person believe strength tenacity discipline importantly purpose personal motto always suffering breeds discipline discipline breeds strength im old school traditionalist believe natural order things although im leftist absolutely disdain liberals qualities exude weakness believe human beings equally worthless myself included ive suffered depression past sheer force able conquer it viewing depression martial light depression eternal enemy must continually fought kept bay must consciously maintain vigilance one dark thoughts enter mind must vanquish immediately available means me point however elements life worn last four years eroding iron depleting fighting spirit im going go got heartbroken girl although factor im pathetic let sole reason wanting carry on start saying thing wanted child fly military aircraft fact still maintain service state highest honor one aspire to attend flight school high school thought going accomplish dream becoming military aviator however suffer bad case adhd would seem academia insurmountable objective im medicated tried best ultimately unsuccessful attempts complete college courses without medication crushing defeat me picked moved on knack military history writing so im told fulfilling gen ed requirements took th century european history class professor army colonel years earned undergrad west point completed phd u m graduate thesis apache scouting parties one strictest professors humanities department earned nickname pressure sheer amount homework gave difficulty tests rather liked immediately excellent command presence additionally thrive environments im held standards excellence professor demanded nothing short excellence quickly became top student class due rather vast repository knowledge concerning cccp das kaiserreich und das dritte reich addition knowledge infantry tactics employed world wars even told you excellent work remains highest compliment ive ever received one day approached professor informed interest becoming military historian looked dead eye said dont itits difficult make living field although another dream crushed deemed acceptable wanted pursue career would allow maximize utility state professor instilled burning desire serve apart something greater myself deemed future battlefield would digital nature stuxnet proved me decided would pursue computer science major vowed henceforth compromises defeats knew going field would conquer greatest weakness mathematics knew going easy deemed anything possible courage discipline around time met ex loved much attracted femininity honestly tell want saw me obviously thought handsome transferred university moved together relationship ended devastated however heart hearts understood left bore responsibility break pretty nasty honest although knew largely fault felt betrayed yet quick find bed room another woman soon realized however made mistake new girl banging total opposite ends spectrum tend worship strength discipline least hedonistic broke trust her also mention point best friend ive known talked everyday since th grade best could me still devastated break up even though id women experienced better shape ex buddy though always grateful someone like him failed classes semester completely utterly ashamed felt broken family thought transfer schools move back home though seemed like admitting defeat simply unacceptable me tried again time though found ex fucking entire computer science department im ashamed admit point decided situation untenable retreated back home ashamed broken home quickly went trying recover defeat called computer repair shops asking hiring technicians one hiring got job local restaurant people appreciate strong authority figures job still haunts me chef de cusine total tyrant coworkers even noticed became verbal punching bag day know why give best shot however soon fired me time ive ever fired job honestly relieved point panic attacks shortly shift ended feeling pretty low point gone honor role student deans list college drop got fired first time around point started waking going bed suicidal thoughts got job liquor store worked next three years although liked coworkers boss store help feel disgraced felt like failure around time started hang around old high school crush seemed nice outside break forced necessity move home parents however absolutely toxic individual told numerous occasions expendable worthless", "im totally ashamed admit stayed around long did know why hate part myself also accepted university area wayne state however earned credits transferred start square one made extremely bitter gone precalc prealgerbra however persevered else really do anyway still unbelievable bitch started get stressed finals tolerance bullshit rapidly started diminishing faster think anticipated ultimately took game hockey restore masculinity sense self worth told sick shit sick driving places want talk anymore think caught guard next day texted telling back ex state told simply care absolute truth felt liberated cost started developing deep resentment toward western woman even still today aspirations foreign woman preferably middle east ive ever wanted simple life myself government job allow assume role breadwinner virtuous intelligent wife adheres traditional values family call own however im starting lose belief vision obtainable people would call chauvinistic sexist vision feel like relic bygone era born century off feel outofplace todays society quite clear belong erato add sense displacement academic achievements wayne however shadow former glory take education seriously stellar gpa takes toll self esteem finally come infamous summer year best friend died minutes phone him catastrophic loss one seriously fucked mentally knew person talked every day half life closest dearest friend grant sherman stonewall jackson robert e lee ill never know specifics died know fell onto subway tracks train coming screaming died something profoundly horrible think best friend screaming goes out drive new york recover ashes bring home parents single fucked thing ive ever do tell post lot shit already going wrong break emotionally day cannot feel emotions ways think blessing kind tired feeling point anyway new york meet current girlfriend appear love care me", "im justnot capable anymore reciprocating way ive become detached emotionally also western woman really type know love want to justcant feel anything guess thats say care her do something right though idea is also get job computer repair slightly fulfilling want fix peoples broken shit teach rich idiots computer semester rough ive taken calculus discreet math looking like im going flunk classes despite best efforts showed everyday class got help went office hours still failing financial aid likely going cut ultimate insult me prove hard work discipline simply enough situation feels futile wish model citizen serve state feel like theyd never accept point purpose pride cannot go like this would rather blow head off live disgraced failure the family fuck up simply refuse carry way want live see become failure still living home", "im seriously contemplating suicide living without pride without purpose way live yet despite hard work perseverance world seems determined make drag society wish serve issue receive stateaid personally simply unacceptable brings question identity male would rather die man beg scraps like dog existence feels like joke string disappointments setbacks feel though im disgrace family name family warriors grandfather awarded iron cross bravery cant even pass calculus equally inconceivable embarrassing work hard still nothing show it life started fall apart four long miserable years ive endured hoping things would get better havent feel like could spare decades soulcrushing defeats disappointments manage courage end now aus der traum" ]

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[ "crush agreed go date im famous tho shes fanta" ]

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[ "pet semetary creed family moved small town ludlow family consists father louis mother rachel brother gage daughter ellen greeted kindness jud crandall jud could basically tell entire history ludlowbr br behind creeds new house path leading pet cemetery spelled pet sematary ellen wants go see it jud willfully takes family trip start hell creed familybr br when rachel kids gone ellens cat church dies jud feels ellen ready death cat suggests louis follow path past pet cemeterybr br jud tells louis burial ground used micmac indians louis buries church without juds help couple days later church returns alive hellbr br this movie one two horror movies could actually scare me aside the exorcist greatest performance would ever zelda rachels sister spinal meningitis victor pascow ghost tries help creeds making mistake bringing back things deadbr br the music movie plays extravagant part time sad mysterious goes along movie wonderfullybr br" ]

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[ "thought death brings peace ive never felt im whenever decide herei always knew different knew fucked way got here ive life formally diagnosed ive struggled short term memory loss since kid brings much anxiety life cannot really know am want die already know id it waiting me really shame wanted somebody try fail every single time hate myself itll huge shock everyone family always knew coming day" ]

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[ "killing new years dayi made promise ill stick shot got worse scabies worse depression shit even worse ever finally end suffering even family friends grieves better without me everyone something unique them me im uniquely useless" ]

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[ "sleep pattern ruining lifeim asleep day awake night ive tried everything change sleep patter nothing worked night im awake alone sad unable sleep" ]

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[ "first day work tomorrow got first job donut place tomorrow first day im nervous im pretty shy usually im okay talking adults im excited get paid still anxious af yall jobs advicethings know" ]

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[ "easy wearing mask time sometimes carry well times cannot even find strength put on everything fine long wear minute starts slip fun around cannot even open way truly feel nobody really understands enjoy anything literally autopilot constant state numbness like ball chain wife carry around course tired it would be understand constant pain in understand reason even keeping going opening causes pain know wants happy her thing though would anywhere happy without her world know do feel guilty around like this feel like wear mask time" ]

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[ "got back audiologista national expert ive seeing admitted theres nothing could hyperacusis told need work living life theres anything left live anything left live for cant talk anyone cant see anybody cant go anywhere audiophile barely even hear sound voice extrovert now little still hear hurts bad start screaming sit hour long car ride back home dad barking ear took lunch whole time cars lot blasting music say anything hed get angry me hed yell make ears feel even worse took sweet time finishing sandwich walked slow possible tried hurrying back car sit still say nothing whole fucking ride got back home knife want advice want feedback want answer questions want die" ]

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[ "anyone wanna pm bit im mega bored lol" ]

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[ "feel truly hollow aloneheya reading ive times awhile back past feel time different probably explain bit case people want understand im coming from name macy im transgender girl recently ive kinda fell fucked place dont think get one awhile back ended leaving highschool social anxiety bullying lack motivation things appease parents got enrolled online classes still legally need school age fifteen basically dropped point life ive able keep social life alive since happens awhile back world works regular teenager friends change time old friends gone really one anymore people online bed online friends arent really close either ive issues past drugs coke acid weed cigs others control part recently ive felt urge might way cope pain feel me thats driving sanity breaking point understand im young probably dont know im talking point life know feel feels really terrible exboyfriend hasnt spoken two weeks really strained mentality left terms close people struggle signs mental illnesses make really dependent clingy", "im fan self diagnosing therapist said show signs cant really disorder etc adult said would agree show signs things believe might have ive found state constant distraction keep thinking alone pain am eats more really dont know anymore ive tried hotlines past didnt help keep getting urge die something drastic make happy die peace knowing wanted im sorry bad grammarim really best moods proofread rant depression" ]

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[ "reddit therapy work wellwith way reddit works sub cant function free therapy easily many people scrolling new posts hot get lot help new bodies fault reddit" ]

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[ "bite myself raw sore get canker sore cannot eat cannot drink get sick finally energy eat go fast bite myselfand go again over whole life could summed canker sores" ]

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[ "ive decided six months still feel suicidal illiti dont want impulse decision want well thought out ive decided still feel way april first then well ill die" ]

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[ "would nice talk people rn im like super sickokay" ]

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[ "reddit got banned raskreddit so heresnext best thing baby" ]

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[ "felt ecstasy feari tried out sort of way want go quit could anything harmful want found goes plan ill try hours know want work im pretty sure do maybe ill choice taken away me know started feel immense pressure windpipe scared scared situations knew could easily get out tester all split second gloriously ecstatic going free cant stop coughing still feels like theres pressure throat also feel relief long anymore feel like ive stabbed heart every time hes somebody else deal terrible obsessive personality mine anymore deal intense longing desire love never be deal intense sessions highs lows fine week writing notes next even notes time want go least hell attend funeral hope im rollercoaster started started him know ever going stop cant forever much im done" ]

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[ "dont know anymoreim broke actually debt point holding lies im fucked actually like im seriously fucked dont knowfuck im going do next paycheque gonna pay debt hopefully pay car bills too late july early august need somehow come fucking thousand pay insurance fuck man like fuck me dont know fuckim going it parents dont even know ive failed fucking uni working developing courage tell them im fucking lost fuck here" ]

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[ "cross posting recursion crosspost post ask someone else crosspost see long redditors keep crossposting" ]

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[ "fell love married womani fell love best friend happens married woman ling says fell love too months together trying figure leave bad marriage told time horrible husband wanted live life me came clean month ago husband telling me guilted staying saying disobeyed god owes stay well continued tell believes god let leave someday found tonight husband told leave literally got suitcase put front her decide stay also gone back sleeping him emails telling things also saying continues pray everyday god bring us together know do husband threatened put restraining order me feel guilty also time hurt constant back forthi believe together need stay driving insane know believe anymore constant pain unbearable" ]

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[ "im tired mental illnessim tired trying muster courage commit redflag im tired constantly trying medications im sick explaining different therapists ive seven psych ward visits im sick illness" ]

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[ "dennis patrick plays man accidentally kills daughters boyfriend reveals secret local bar joe peter boyle bigot getting drunk there first takes joke story confirmed evening news instead calling cops like joe decides that since guy killed hippie must kindred spirits blackmails man becoming pal first film seemed harsh judgemental but revealed itself actually became quite complex portrait current society yes think exaggerate bit amusing ways really detract power messages susan sarandon debuted film shock see pretty around well worth seeing" ]

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[ "ill kill weekim boy friend girl im love her boyfriend told wait see future cant stand pain anymore wants friend moment boyfriend love her do want marry kids her want love survive love without cant much me much love give everytime try give love anyone suffer last hope" ]

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[ "woman left alone death husband finds attracted sons friend handy man slightly twisted story woman begins sleeping handy man effort revive herself twisted part handy man also daughters love interestbr br as strange enough mother manages fall man daughter finds out blames dysfunctional relationship also messed life poor motherbr br though may think badly woman truth movie manages portray notredflag light beautifully played anne reid character dimension portrays great emotionbr br a truly brilliant performance enjoyable filmbr br" ]

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[ "today lent crush jacket ran home raining making total times ive made wetyes realize im stealing umbrella joke fit situation are" ]

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[ "posting number everyday till reach end day kskksidhhdjsjdgdvhsushwhsjsjshhshssjsjsnjsjsjsjsjsbdbdjxurvvdhx" ]

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[ "point someone go hospitaltheres difference wanting disappear stop existing bit come back wanting die actual planwriting noteetc theres also nebulous inbetween phase person acts impulse maybe die maybe not spectrum someone go hospital im terrified commitment mental hospital ive heard terrible things them especially one area walk er nearby happen send there want go" ]

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[ "imma uncook food cant stop" ]

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[ "hiyou might sometimes look around feel like live world hate pain emptiness world disappointment exhaustion despair nothing okay thingsnever rightright know whats right would right wrong would feel hate knew nothing love never shown love hate would default even know it would nothing unusual disturbing ever know known love feel hate love need able see it happiness really believe feel it peace comfort beautiful world life beautiful beautiful clouds move across sun see sun rays come go back again beautiful summer smell comes feel woken up beautiful step uncut ice snow unexpectedly fallen life beautiful hope lives existence matter many people blind it matter many people deny even hate it even spent years hating it still there hope lives unconditionally existence true companionship lovely laughter fresh excitement peaceful content beautiful worth it come run scared reject it" ]

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[ "meanest thing ever done idk im bored answer u want ig" ]

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[ "let us say saved hundred pills course many months would enough know need incredibly high prozac dosage even symptoms appear like x prescribed amount thanks would happen took mg fluxotine prozac" ]

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[ "life constant embarrassmenteverywhere people laugh me im fucking joke everyone enjoy everything try do end embarrassing myself literally everything try fail fail fail make joke myself like fucking curse something literally took walk outside minutes ago somehow managed make brother father laugh scared bug come home father yells scared every day things everyone laughs suffer darkness unknown everyone im ugly dumb stupid loser good nothing good nothing theres use anyone telling me oh say good this goodthat know bullshit wouldve killed didnt shitty dream comic book artist ive matured know pointless everything is even become comic book artist what doubt anyone care knowing life ill find way embarrass again im used point expect it body pathetic worthless done shit except let down im limited pathetic useless body idea anymore tbh even know kill myself many things happened many damn things idk bear pain live boring lonely embarrassing life end here clue whats next im goingwait get college made good decision redflag looking hot rn" ]

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[ "boughtr flaming hot cheetos dust eye send help immediately ow" ]

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[ "feel like trying od desperately also dont want belike lady fahrenheit like shit probsbly easiest method also book made shit seem fucking scary get stomach pumped shit hope im remembering right book im gonna look like dumbass" ]

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[ "everything difficult cannot get apartment cannot get new job cannot pay school years old supposed afford own work hard never enough want die would better off sad" ]

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[ "stop scrolling getting frequent ingrown hairs penis shaft anyone plstell whats going" ]

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[ "im nervous getting back school tbh mean im pretty sure im one feeling way ill feel fine eventually still h e l p" ]

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[ "requirements ricardos valentine f tallish brunette muscles cmon theres gotta someone enjoy shitpost ladies gentlemen" ]

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[ "girls joining boy scouts kind retardation america" ]

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[ "damnit want make everything earrings now baby earrings done knife earrings check worm earrings hell yea come ideaspls" ]

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[ "im transyeahim trans trans guy specifically lot gonna understand heck im going right now whatever heres thoughts rolling around head lately im freak nature rest life ill never real man ill take testosterone shots day die unless want get fucked bone densityweird shit happening body surgeries ill frankensteins monster complete scars pretty much sexless now happened came trans way refuses sex except extremely boring terms week less always top hes always quiet oral sex nothing else mins tops whole act foreplay kisses noseducing kisses little bit goes straight the goods every time try initiate i stoppedoh around months ago rejects me know sting rejection im sure hurts waslast night thinking redflag really help cry little tiny bit silently unfortunately sleep bed mustve heard breath hitch it am huffed ugh really cant go sleep cant stop well talk morningughyeahhappened im reminded every day im man feel like am disgusting things body does back occasionally sore always wearing binderim pretty sick dealing my", "so im gonna buy another bed put different room cry fucking peace think lot evenings redflag would it would miss i used think would buti even know anymore dad would miss me brother sister mom though hah hates me think every day male get drive away partner disgusted becomes hes straight thing really hits easy would be almost easylikenot belittle anyone here easy way out believe afterlife imagine would like going sleep never waking up nothing worry anything anymorewouldnt get told goddamn partner parents everyone why eager start testosterone whats rushsomething words whats rush bother much im holding back tears right thinking words whats rush whats rush one understands days want toi get damn angry want rip stupid meatsack off something know lemme tell reddit sheer anger willpower could change stuff would problem days im angry enough feel like could punch brick wall sheer force pissedoffness could go many brokenhearted people left behind reddit days feel hopeful days want go fight good fight struggle life go things do days want freaking give up seriously thoughchrist thought partner would comfort something reaction get basically stfu im trying sleep", "damn idea thought me kinda hit little hard ya knowreddityeahhes acting like nothing happened fine" ]

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[ "hollow wicked thing unworthy love unworthy joy unworthy life cant anyone see me" ]

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[ "deleted photos phone dad transferring old phones stuff onto new phone done went photos forgot picture mug said cunt looked said really" ]

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[ "dont know get helpive walking fucking circles m trying say feel friend m cant it dont wanna die without knowing good me dont know want ask help say im ending tomorrow cant take inability something anymore stupid inability talk new people person cant stand anymore cant stand dad anymore wanna die idk stop feeling like except kms im tired crying useless anything games dont know life talking people helped while simply dont think would work again dont know want" ]

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[ "redflag without spreading miseryso things still going horrible worse ever way end suffering making others miss worse make suffer commiting redflagive thinking lot people want suffer committed redflag feel helpless played went missing would still miss me even though would false sense hope returning playing accident help either two weak options popped head moving really really far would little contact us thing may think weve lost contact would surely make little sad knew dead option good would extremely long letter explaining choice they hopefully could understand respect accept it maybe even combination two ideas thanks nick" ]

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[ "head hurts sooo uhmyeah might drinking problem causing go back bad habits whoops" ]

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[ "since posted hereeverything felt like could cope since last post gran died yesterday told idiot feeling way unrelated things thought dad finally done something nice dug vinyl basementive talking past two years turns sister suddenly shown interest today feeling great me feel fucking stupid feeling again exactly last post like justified feel way thought could cope now thought id worked now im tired feeling stupid second best feel like matter anyone would difference dead" ]

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[ "dont got many friends feeling good common taught sense less friendsyou ought depressed annoying sometimes still gets feel quite happy" ]

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[ "havent lived youve heard sea shanties" ]

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[ "venting right knowsi really wish truly loved someone soon got kicked exs home grandma feel tho eager turn stab backim still sure may agreeing grandma get crazy ass leave alone know next weekend goes way expect go nothing left gonna act redflag plan belive anyone ever gave flying fuck im mistake child severe mental disorders worsened abuse feeling love since ish never knew express emotion properly thanks parents may veey undoing one relationship think really loved person" ]

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[ "plani mean plan going not go phases seems endless pretty much cycle thought whats point gets old slightly less bolder people wait idea redflag instead physically acting it plan it like if life get better year ill kill myself sort dealive given im im nothing really changes think theres much point keeping shitty outlook affects people around know ill stick it moment ive pretty cemented long time now" ]

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[ "give upmy life fallen shit past months ive typically antisocial introverted began making effort get know people more partially succeeded feel guise fake persona someone far actually feel ive lost actual personality trying make friends shit well managed fall love one confessing sent letter essentially detailing friends felt obliged give letter solely circumstances hit pretty fucking hard big enough part life get away depression redflag first time feel like ive dug hole get of redflag honestly looks like better option continuing live shit ive flung im tired living say least" ]

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[ "friends suicidal dont know dotwo people know suicidal one cuts arms constantly talks ending it tried end life occasions help prevent it sorry isnt post this please tell post it" ]

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[ "batman movie quite good batman mask phantasm batman mr freeze subzero still good installment batman cartoons say equally good batman beyond movie movie good reasons storyline good quite good ones still pretty good lots action cartoon effects good voice actors really good kevin conroy batman bruce wayne tara strong barbra gordon efrem zimbalist jr eli marienthal robin villains good kyra sedgwick batwoman david ogden stiers pequin hector elizondo bane sure disappointed batman mystery batwomen make sure rent buy batman mystery batwoman movie really goodbr br overall score br br" ]

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[ "obtained anime woman yea thats basically" ]

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[ "dont want eat im reason im never bothered eating feel like im gaining weight never bothered motivation go get proper food sometimes im hungry eat cookie thats it dont eat breakfast sometimes eat lunch sometimes dinner barely feel like eating" ]

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[ "constantly controlled abuser fight continued harassment court controlled emotionally abusive husband cant leave money kids together starting become seriously suicidal last year birthday made serious almost successful attempt life redflag triggers even bad these birthday coming february know do" ]

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[ "feel worthless inferior person must kill myselfi failed kill past feel worthless must die introverted like myself wrong introverted must kill myself stressful people try talk me must kill cannot change personality im sorry bother people this probably best die contribute anything anyway" ]

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[ "im doneim going end life lock over live ive never experienced something positive parents hate every day wake making life hell one cares abusive relationships bad friends adhd autism spectrum disorder tried follow religion get relief cant see any tried taking hobbies cant see any get free access dorms uni parents rent place find job theyll dictating making life hellim walking punching bag nothing else" ]

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[ "guyswhat friend benefits really mean thought someone friend eat money copy homework" ]

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[ "thoughts feelings every day wall detailed text inbound hey guys going long one going read way end might want get comfy would first like disclose immediate distress sort making plans snuff anytime soon least yet ive lurking subreddit little now ive got say actually refreshing see people getting helpful answers comfort rather typical know feel classic help there even better people spam redflag hotlines number everywhere look im knocking redflag hotline anything like that helps someone immediate crisis power them knocking friends really know better help distressed state like that personally redflag hotline never effective parrot back things im telling add im sorry must tough everything say offense mirror effective people need someone listen thatsokayim need well bit point ive seen others getting things chest guess thats i", "m right now things ive seen people post similar thoughts others not one similar things intent taking immediate action quite people basically accepted likely going die redflag one people already method mind one messy mostly painless make easy clean authorities find body likely thing eventually get sick given familys medical history father brain cancer got treatment got witness slow decline new wife leaving she one destroyed relationship first place nursing home possibly dementia one thins lot cancer survivors talk toll takes loved ones medical costs constant treatments doctor visits spite strong person withering away shell former self ive already decided something similar happens me start putting plan motion loved ones assuming even still alive taken care of going way nah takes courage however something conflicted by long mother father alive cant put that circumstances went far en extreme would ever even consider that slowly developed", "toxic trait wish harm loved ones find wishing would go freak accident would pass away sleep something effect longer world could finally give permission take life thoughts feelings like make feel like real piece shit course past couple years distanced away acquaintances even closest friends hoping think little bit less and less day way reason end taking life hurt badly forget wrote it said person dies once first time physical body twice name spoken aloud last time last fleeting thought crosses someones mind last time", "know mean well friends is things say annoys hell me professional help there situation wouldve gotten long time ago thats things though took long time realize this want help already takes much motivation te bare minimum get by im going go someone ive never met develop trusting relationship break barriers put brick brick tell entire uncensored life story theyre going tell slowly start working things like thought process give pills keep among things work next years life away pray major catastrophe happen mean time die yay besides really much go far religious beliefs afterlife feel like magic words pills could put would magically make believe santa clause god change views world matter know probably thinking that point seen way certain situations play out way sociological constructs work cant really unsee it past ive told people things run mind daily basis im told need grow thats life quite frankly never asked begin with thinking way im ungrateful selfish immature person fuck that no whats selfish people claim would miss shit like that go says months time without talking eachother staying here thoughts feelings suffering worth minutes interaction eachother interactions even give second thought go sleep night", "im selfish oneright ive come realize humans one shittiest things happen earth know good ones there humansare cutthroat species ever exist one going friend unless something gain use you nice something people edge bets society taught way theyre suppose act behind closed doors kind remarks love hospitality vanishes cant okay find comfort fact way society is future ahead me one riddled bullshit always struggling make ends meet im tired trying giving all pushing feelings thoughts putting happy face draining always struggling make ends meet im tired best never enough started new job month half ago keep saying iwas greatim good everything do hire new person thats fill pick extra shifts okay thought lets see goes", "im pretty sure know going lets see low behold sudden getting shifts would normally get later find lot experience already front desk agent hotel im basically getting two days night audit lady off rest basically played ear helping house keepers shit like that matter put little euphemisms such busy work sure might lending hand makes jobs little easier helps cut time take clean rooms im part time guy now matter job im doing try try again amazing work ethic always time im great customers im professional time personal engaging guess understand always second choice know happy even job right now swift kick balls finally found something like doing im always pushed aside people makes feel like failure cant even thought adequate basic level jobs like front desk agent holiday inn express making hour half decent job always picks people me trying best applying never good enough places decide give chance take in point highlight day getting work watching bit youtube take ungodly amount counter sleep aids pass out theres something love much warm fuzzy feeling get kick in fighting bit enjoy finally kick in really wish could give life someone would actually use it someone would actually enjoy it way intend going out maybe call authorities", "right it get time organs able donated need them way death could give someone new lease lifehell ever robbery something someone tried mug", "id everything power get killed ive even thought something horrible ended dying result loved ones miss much even bring that putting weight moms shoulders especially would bury child mother guy decided shootout police gun full blanks redflag cop also messy even though job would go home sit dinner table remember shot guy earlier today one deserves live weight shoulders stupid decisions want go sleep wake up slowly forgotten everyone elses lives go normal maybe even better perhaps someone scientific mindset imagine death like going sleep never wake again believe afterlife reincarnation heaven hell anything effect think trying imagine anything death would like trying remember birth time spent womb speaking biological son barely knows existence tried there mother see good father man god fine dandy though since found someone ended two kids married him signed rights full custody best regardless bringing churchgoing godfearing christian didnt loving siblings something wanted did stable family father figure couldve actually taught things things could never do lot friends think want know older strongly disagree honestly thats best disrupt natural order things make suggestions get told tell raise child made right decision seeing watch grow sidelines place polar opposite person spiritual beliefs hanging around hes happy thats whats import me hes happy without me take chance confusing fucking things up theres much could type make damn bit difference im ready end time im terrified it reasons know best guess would death permanent thing cant comprehend existing like explaining earlier really like reason fear it since going happen us eventually embrace it made far wall text would like thank patience so another day life suicidal nutcase someone take comfort knowing alone way feeling thinking maybe afraid say aloud type out know word right way even anonymity bunch strangers reddit applies you best say take one day time think many ahead end eventually" ]

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[ "sitting park wondering frisbees get bigger get closer hit me" ]

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[ "really sure anymorehi want start saying nothing tragic happened lost family member anything like that none less still consider redflag everyday option honest guts even pain probably would dont way painlessly right would consider even more every time contemplate cutting cant scars would still manage heal this also parents would send hospital straight away could impact year old year old brothers love much basically hope thats keeping alive right now hope normal again reason feel way impossible talk people properly anymore in real life way look impossible look uncomfortable social situations truthfully am basically shit scared people now including familyim really sure screwed know life went downhill ever since year im year developed believe chronic dry eyes sleep deprivation anxiety social awkwardness depressed name probably feel it never drugs smoked yet still look act talk bit like drug addict", "ok reason life went downhill year onwards well basically move statesaustralia met someone who wish never met got addicted game masturbation porn became consumed masturbating porn found self energy play sport especially soccer cognitive skills window ever since then used really sporty kid really likeable enthusiastic life feel like energy drained zombie every day im sure masturbation problem tried stopping see improvement still stressed etc although managed stop week already several doctors specialists eyes nothings helped im starting lose hope self feel like every year going get worse worse think ill ever get job way am drive anything want homeless know deep really smart person hidden behind wall shit thats happening me theres anyone help would much obliged thank you" ]

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[ "feel like ive tried everything try keep afloathi year old male here depressed since high school severely depressed since beginning college still think redflag days problem telling things get better always turn wrong things might get better moment moment general way way truly counts always find asking why kill last yearor last month years ago nothing made want live since ive always felt impending doom future ie insecurities say thats depression gets unreasonably think sure enough currently experiencing doom gradually intense way over years always feared happened everyone telling life gets better ive learned right hate sporadic periods hope end disappointing me hope curse convinces stick around longer ive tried therapy meds talking friends gym sports like build tolerance simply effect anymore know else do" ]

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[ "im another problemi see people post things here things could help think wow could say things like cant im good helping im good making people worry" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "really bad spot right honestly know nobody ask helpi shitty eastern european country live alone money food left supposed wait end month get money scholarship university supposed get month got postponedi tried everything charity city food pantries like usa even church could get help nothing else besides phone need take online examsi amhungry tired anxious cannot even sleep redflag feel life completely done nobody ask help asked made feel like piece shit askingi know anyone talk please calm down rock bottom alone" ]

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[ "took photos damn im kinda hot ya know mean dont mean im feeling confident" ]

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[ "im thirteen yay wanted share im finally able sub really content post ill try creative later on" ]

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[ "feeling suicidal stop playing safecurrently unemployed married going years together kids dogs cat ongoing depression anxiety job search feeling pretty worthless ive thinking ending all read skimmed post sub someone said paraphrasing have ever dated guy want know like got thinking ive trying live life based messing existing life trying get back somewhere around was maybe right approach mean really thinking killing myself got lose completely crazy would even opportunity live much fear time wish would go away" ]

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[ "send link post ill give award got free award reddit thought pay forward please link reddit post fee deserves award btw applause award" ]

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[ "dms open lets interesting chat whatever me likes getting stickbugged prefers girls flat chest good keeping chat" ]

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[ "disappointing part kinda wondered even bother next karate kid could see saga continue still enjoyed next karate kid second third karate kid movies unrealistic moments situations enjoyable story catchy warm onebr br hilary swank girl come far what plays rebel girl lost parents car accident miaugi sort babysits per say notices karate skills offers lessons becomes serious life course boy likes mean bullies pretty similar first karate kid would recommend one think pleasantly surprisedbr br" ]

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[ "ladies gentlemen may done it may gotten girl type like me maybe not may have" ]

[ "selfharm" ]

[ "chronicles hopeful existencewe imagine young children grow great things use inspiration logic please know inspiration doesnt affect me im privileged blessed person raised guaranteed success got education failed endeavor let myself worked years made thought good money whilst blowing alcohol drugs debt im point going norm choices go grid saying fuck leave life saying fuck it im worried heaven hell believe see darkness passing nothing souls born another life know many live worse existences world cant help them would hurt take one person overpopulated equationmom yesher would destroy her wonderful faith tall tale jesus answer her cant even answer phone anymore anyways carry fellows arent meant this see another time" ]