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[ "losti want make post educate people looked signs redflag because everyone overlooked ignored mine wife affair decided rip family apart ive made many references detailed jokes kill myself hanging rafter tall bridge near live everyone laughs saysyeah right even best friend said id prefer didnt ive battling months now ive made decision wife going holiday lover th three days it one knows one paid attention pleas help kills leaving behind month old year old daughter read wifes diary found influencing daughter call daddy pappa simply reinforces fact needed temporary as always been posting sympathy posting people underatand little comments may think funny joke actually request cry help finis vitae around th th ill make sure kids safe home night notify friends neighbors please ignore signs time realize maybe late time passed love forgiveness all gabriel" ]

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[ "good day ladsyeah good day sidenote birthday" ]

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[ "cant post polls here thats boring fuck see title wanna collect data sell big corporations money dumbfuck mod team disabled polls seriousness able polls sub would kinda cool feel like people cant assed leave comments" ]

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[ "girl liked long kept messing were together today im going housewell alone so think first kiss going today happy thats" ]

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[ "im thinking getting rid need adviceimim probably looking attention really want end life diagnosed depression months ago still cant get life barely go school family sick me ive hit mam multiple times disabled might add im able control matter family even said nobody wants anything anymoreit" ]

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[ "man say dog died ees hongry" ]

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[ "fun fact brown eyes beautiful especially honey brown" ]

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[ "remembering mom singing sunshine moves tears thing keeps calmshe used sing time little lullaby im feel good times gone dad says make new memories together family isnt same asked mom sing didnt sound like soothing voice remember cried tonight im crying now thought forgot cry cant resist it looking old toys old memories ill never times back remember going park dad kindergarten playing autumn try recreate memories isnt same one lyric song breaks me please dont take sunshine away want die badlyim sunshine cant leave life stressful dont understand feel like im falling lyric telling stay shes telling stay cant handle it cant im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared good times gone want go badly song damn song damn lyric cant dont knowdo" ]

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[ "pregnant bf flat broke live week week car stopped working still drug user family money friends point suicide want termination two girls work found pregnant say it know whether tell people complications lost baby kill myself please give advice someone laying bath knife bf asleep couch downstairs calling ungrateful bitch said cannot provide us family verge giving real time" ]

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[ "got girls number first time ever first time went comfort zone asked girls number need advice girls guys game track field practice never met before introduced back kept talking till practice ended easy fimd keeping conversation going asked snap couldnt find account went way give number number fake wondering guy asks girls number gives it chances shes interested girls give numbers guys think friends with like odds finds attractive im going jump gun anything im confused intentions like guy asks girls number gives like non verbal agreement interested knowing eachother more also chances gave number would feel bad saying no thanks help" ]

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[ "imdoinf ir right nowaorry im thinking right" ]

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[ "failing redflag years sure would work tonight body keeps failing meive depression since motorbike crash sustained severe brain injury permanent brain damage frontal lobe syndrome struggle much stuff filter anymore stupid things one tell brain injuryim still communicative feel like complete different person acts impulsively ptsd insomnia mixed anxiety disorder depression classed chronic insurer refusing treat me one understands feel face everything apparently appear absolutely fine never talk people brain past mentioned something people disregarded said im fine mood swings severe gohigh extreme low try", "i think first usually always act kill myself kid know much redflag overdosed times pills so naive ended hospital watch crash brain changed depressed long time tried take life several times downed v large bottle oramorph online drank times fatal dose again incredibly stupid decided bottle instead sporadically drinking it course body puked straight away left much alive vision almost completely gone several hours closest point ever got to tried hang banister stairs low suspended drop pretty painless lost consciousness body thrashed leg reached back edge step right tried tonight noose hanging loft steps suspended hang hurting time body begins jolt pull up cant lose consciousness seconds like says online also hurts lot time sure do want end body wont let" ]

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[ "day masturbating first started may pm mnt standard time currently november pm mnt standard time running weeks days nothing say" ]

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[ "still stalker mean like real stalker knows dont tell coz u better leave alone" ]

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[ "pp hard boi wake up biology someone knows biology pls help think something blood pressure blood flow know rhymes sorry also im sad" ]

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[ "want kill otherstoday walking saw two happy girls chatting laughing enjoying life instead happy that immediately thought murdering them knife think ill ever something like ever since became suicidal kind thoughts became something ordinary me" ]

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[ "need talk feel like least one friend leave tonighti really need someone talk to one talked another human months posted one ever really talks me last chance im staring sleeping pills want take tonight least id something eat im literally dying one friend tonight go" ]

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[ "wrote note bought rope im watching tutorials tie hangmans knotim losing god mindi really wanna die day im slowly becoming convinced way pathetic life ive depressed years theres end sight soulcrushing pandemic worst is tell anyone irl feel theyll send back icu could get sick virus die anyway could also stuck people much unstable me mercy another bureaucratic powertripping doctor looks patients enduring worse death imo ive holding long can give one good reason keep holding further" ]

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[ "born waywhy trans feelings family never accept live transphobic country difficulty imagining body ever looking like girl gets worse every day want exist anymore" ]

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[ "watching hour creepypasta video it idk gonna continue hell yes" ]

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[ "going describe judge comments name redacted call dooramii year old girl like eddsworld danganronpa ojamajo doremi mixels lego movie course like playing legos playing videogames steam account minecraft accounts subscribed youtube channels timtamtom chris cross iilluminaughtii schaffrilas productions living tombstone vivziepop eddsworld rebeltaxi play roblox premium simp fictional characters picture face httpspreviewredditalfjmxyrjthpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfeffcdcfdedacddfdeeb" ]

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[ "common problem see often recently ive seeing lot posts comments saying much people hate subreddit gone complete shit anything along lines dont like something going change leave ignore it change want see whether thats real world online dont afraid voice opinion youre likely one said thoughts opinions stay hydrated homies" ]

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[ "dropped shortly turning turned now cannot believe fast time moves barely recall anything happened almost nothing years probably deep undiagnosed depression looking back iti feel like mentally physically developed since turned makes sick stomach could coma years nothing would changedmy real excuse major surgery put commission course wielded shield questions responsibilities passed faked distance education age covid served grand excuse first months last year snapped ridiculous mindset mid earned spot decent university starting properly age many people mind straight finished iti redflag even completely palmed life money game without considering experiences missing going answer age question maintaining straight face months feel like missed much already actions taking mostly meaningless people knew already kids getting promotions going grad school fun got big circle friends show iti fucking even time year degree over thinking close makes upset taking stock writing helps even one reads it hold hatred anyone myself deal much lost time" ]

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[ "life really worth livingin world power conscious greed limit leads endless killing suffering really point life all may good bad realistically speaking know good enough outweigh badim going insane unable cope day day wished could muster last minute insane courage die already" ]

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[ "something triggered earlier insides turning burning ripping apart feel like nothing ever going fill way hole chest needs filledi feel hopeless suicide feels like optionmy hands aching scratch torso open stop feelings make feel like world disgusting cruel feel like drowning sea shit gets worse burning" ]

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[ "want nice day wonderful week keep head everything work eventually dont let people put down youre wonderful you" ]

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[ "advice dogs dog adopt dont shop also check rdogelore" ]

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[ "people dont speak english english st languagewhen suicidal thoughts never language idk always english weird often read posts english mind remembers that me someone please answer" ]

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[ "feel like one feels miserable life right now happy feeling alone" ]

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[ "dont understand illicit drugs bro would even waste money something cause problems solves yo btw also include ciggies despite illegal" ]

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[ "want go onim yo school student experiencing suicidal thoughts since despite well school music still feel like disappointment due several bad behavioural tendencies short violent temper lot issues anxiety due constant bullying lot time feel like worth tried get help past worked time ive mentioned wanting kill harm parents theyve gotten angry called stupid feel like cannot get form help due ingrained paranoia something go horribly wrong tried cutting myself always weak it help matters either so long story short feel ready end all feel conflicted people keep trying show good life throw off threaten replicate kill myself know anymore" ]

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[ "hello playmatesi recently watched film first time ever also first experience arthur askey admit impressed film fan black white films generally passport pimlico lavender hill mob tommy trinder who apparently distant relative film appealed provided good old fashioned british humour notice criticised askeys performance however opinion stands test time fine example forties comic acting anything adds picture creating characters mere stereotypes seem dominate films nowif get hold film would recommend get hold itshame films generally shown sunday afternoons anymorei also glad opportunity watch another piece work arnold ridley private godfrey dads armyi thank" ]

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[ "ive really turbulent month unexpected bills trouble old landlord resulted almost minus account almost rice feed myself moved got scammed deposit landlord still awaiting buy new things aswell take care sick mate would really appreciate help could feed upcoming time sure offer much return except utmost gratitude though tell need anything might able help really last resort me food banks nearby family could get help unfortunately thanks advance reading cheers location denmark" ]

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[ "god sake let diei cant anymore want therapy want anything wanted gone lack so nobody lets get drunk know lose fucking survival instinct nothing stopso im tired crying every corner hiding everyone hating myself need end this theres point staying here" ]

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[ "diagnosed bipolar disorder ii due financial problem able continue medication year also cannot afford therapy country health insurance mental healthfor part year feel like really need medication anymore well cured really bipolar all days even feel strangely positive hopeful even though pretty much given life even non depressive state days like this paralyzed past hurts unable move on thought move things depressed comes rushing backi trying psyche myself think positively giving headache brain constantly feeds failures inadequacy try feed positive thoughtsbut feel tired want think anymorei just empty empty" ]

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[ "really need someone talk toi know sounds stupid told friend suicidal thoughts said messagecall anytime want talk anxiety kind feel like putting burden messaging her come reddit find someone talk to feel completely utterly alone moment ever im group always feel like im one always background one would notice disappear also problems feel comfortable posting publicly" ]

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[ "im scared ill regret itim scared ill regret it feel bad leaving parents brother two family dogs theyve much help me care me love much still want die cant fuxking suffer anymore anxiety sucks depression sucks symptoms come sucks life sucks like live wanna go really do im anxious scared go one knows happens death reincarnated afterlife absolutely nothing gone know much" ]

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[ "person dmed claimed knowing everything me driving house every night asked could prove telling least one crumb information wouldnt pedophile" ]

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[ "fun fact friday dolphins sleep one eye open" ]

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[ "texted different redflag text lines morning am still answer single one ami really bad suicidal thoughts bad anxiety crying trembling uncontrollably vomiting going hot cold sweats want burden boyfriend sleeping tried texting hotline get like cannot bring speak words reason title says ive response whatsoever making feel hopeless fuck like different hotlines redflag answer adamant killing would done already absolutely help thing thats keeping fact boyfriend cat would homeless alive make money apartment anyone know seek help better way google redflag hotlines bc cant anything without risking losing job apartment relationship" ]

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[ "hey yall im f super bored wanting talk well thats basically itim also zooted fuckerinod rn like deadass im living jupiter point hmu talk anything like space life viewer discretion advised" ]

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[ "minutes gone waste could way home rn" ]

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[ "message automoderator hi automoderator unfortunately submission removed r teenagers following reasons messages may make people angry remove posts andor memes strictly forbidden please stop future please familiarise rules commenting submitting l _the_singularity_action performed automatically please contact moderators subreddit questions concerns" ]

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[ "sometimesthink future like dont kill turning ill go move girlfriend canada since saving slowlybut problem then get job im dumb college good paying job would require degree start think maybe stripper realise pole dancing skills actually look good fucks everything maybe prostitute girlfriend says doesnt want im thinking selling virginity trying sexually related job requires fuck even look good actual skillsi dunnoim useless" ]

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[ "every american thinks understands world war two see movie hollywood films war defied stereotype japanese soldiers emotionless brutes obeying orders without thinking like think every japanese man ready able fight death right day bombed nagasaki fires plain shows different reality troops pathetically undersupplied demoralized starved point cannibalism euphemistically refer human flesh monkey meat movie novel based also put death myth japanese soldiers preferred death surrender good reason believe enemies mood take prisoners raises question americans would rather avoid japanese military beaten point war necessary nuke hiroshima" ]

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[ "asker crush together cant express happy am" ]

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[ "thank reading this im sorry seems important annoying thought id let someone knows kids please treat nicely idea abusive acts would bring kids would affect treat siblings friends people theyd meet later life" ]

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[ "accidentally flipped mom riding bike neighborhood yesterday almost home im turning corner near apartment car behind honks me lot people area cant drive shit people honk aggressivelyshare road assholes tried hit cars bike lane anyways glanced behind thought driver another one freaks held hand kept pedaling car followed alley leads apt driver honked bunch times got pretty mad turned head put middle finger them car sped passed me rolled window andsurprise surprise mom" ]

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[ "gonna listen whole album right now one sitting not going tpab filler filler filler filler gshshsbsbsbsbsbsnehehsh" ]

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[ "want cry want cry please send videos make cry hard cry please need this" ]

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[ "welp lost day duolingo streak im sad duo send notif smt" ]

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[ "lgbtq sin im going hell isnt im still going hell" ]

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[ "hello first let start saying like all realizing little mean people giving up soon me going break mirror hope one shards big enough stab throat with bleed death probably suffocate okayeither one really matter long job gets done cannot stand living endless repetitive regret fun birthday next month one ever cared abt birthday even alive feel loved anyone alone hate much would rather die continue living like this already self harm stuff big deal right gives shit anymore never really mattered first place born dad could play house mother absolutely disgusting life wasted is good guess want everything end healthy way life huh" ]

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[ "think friend different country might commit redflagi live us friend lives ecuador said goodbye forever asked please hurt herself do would liable it asked tried help said cannot report police know real name address want liable" ]

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[ "rendered beautiful water colors ponyo cliff definitely sight behold vaguely remembering trailer witch find impressive surprised beautiful detailed was film washed puritybr br at center young boy comes contact sea creature relationship carries movie miyazaki master creating memorable imagery showing young ones interacting believable way little quirks intactbr br there parts sit well me would understatement say music particular scene resembled ride valkyrians shame precious film cant afford take liberties hurt otherwise truly great scene antagonist backstory never interested either guess served background anything elsebr br anyway great film boat trip scenario imagery seacreatures stood thinks pure magical yes handrawn artwork intimate computer animated im really pumped princes frog now" ]

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[ "major breakdown tonight scared alone knew would anything drastic matter getting closer friend mine really care respect one awake time kept going back forth eventually ended asking check tomorrow really needed someone call me worried pushing boundary friend suddenly since know much mental illnesses right feel like asked want respond tomorrow matter say would rather say all feel like let alone moment tomorrow feel like moved on also want jeopardize friendship one coolest people know never wanted come burden much work with idk worried made mistake idk done next ever since march depressions getting worse again want friend worry too sucks told friend check idk right call" ]

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[ "happy crisgunamcus big day fellas crazy think week isnt it" ]

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[ "ordered suppliesjust seeds dried leaves specific plant eat drink tea paralyze lungs idea year over sayonara suckaz" ]

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[ "help teacher yelling class going die streets two kids forgot homework why forgetting assignment isnt going make everyone class homeless future jeez" ]

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[ "ive really fucking stressed end everythings fucked want let thoughts talk ever since winter break ended everything mes going hill or even farther hill winter break even ended got several school assignments graded poorly made want work even harder feel like ive failing really hard today decisions made ago came bite ass cant sleep shit mind actually cant remember last time good night sleep keep telling gonna ok dont shape soon could affect entire life ive reflecting ive realized alone am ive always know ive always passed jokesim really alone good friends get hang xbox rd one havent seen like month virtual school even though still talk lot discord im really getting worried social lifeim dont real close ties wont even start talking girls cuz im completely hopeless especially greatest skill bottling emotions think bottling emotions comes dealing momshes got lot shit basically whenever gets really mad me brother dad really tries hurt us like really hurt usim one family doesnt know anything im aware protects dont tell anyone anything also fell really bad absolutely hate brother cant deny anymore even though know unfair him", "hes never done anything wrong fact hes naturally stronger promised future plenty friends basically anything better makes course super jealous even though hes barely done anything deserve hating him top things ive essential crisis stress hatred sadness left wanting end give think thing keeping im scared whats beyond also fact im aware things makes think able better myself cant makes hate even more first time life ive felt totally helpless seems place turn to thanks anyone read far" ]

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[ "kind overdose kill mehi ive intrusive suical thoughts almost month now lost job ive wanted years managed make two shifts last time came broke tears front everyonethe customers boss coworkers etc boss said would best got help trying maintain working im really frustrated working since end july year months ive let many job opportunities slip away cant bring get bed want die im looking kind attention want know overdose like would kill me ill way took mg seroquel mg hydroxyzine mg lexapro mg famotidine would kill me id rather life long complications like liver problems brain problems want stop existing right make sure ill gone im going cut arms let bleed" ]

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[ "epic gamer pp arent funny anymore cringe again least me wanna say power you cringe" ]

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[ "anyone awake even chat nothing would help right nowhey anyone awake live canada coming bender helped mask anxiety depression everything flooding im alone watching tv room would nice someone chat am cant really reach anyone without waking fucking day tuesday havent slept since saturday night hours" ]

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[ "day posting lines bee movie every day getsowow im out cant believe im out blue feel fast free box kitewow flowers" ]

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[ "minecraft dog died named lucky went mining fell pit lava miss" ]

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[ "nothing left cannot even right give switch lives someone abouttodie really want leave body scary tatics end life working igottahangmyself please entity anyone power please end me going end jail eventually sleeping am get jail sleep outside" ]

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[ "slowly giving upi job future planned true friends energy make new ones ive living depression many years now im tired sit cry never wanted live past wish courage strength end nightmare life then really want exist anymore" ]

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[ "found big funny simple do go google translate put vert angry sentences monty python quotes play audio" ]

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[ "ive seen various hamlets ive taught play watch jacobi im tempted think hes every bit intelligent hamlet himself alive every nuance characters wit deepens rather solves every puzzle regarding hamlets character illuminates line line word word shining light sparkling mind time however cringe horror hamlet feels betrayalfar actorbecause jacobi feels pain profoundly anyone else shudder hamlets betrayals jacobi afraid baseness hamlet descend short jacobi gives us hamlet full hamlet full greatest character literature thats im satisfied jacobis hamlet finest performance ive seen actor" ]

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[ "everybody get ready funny monkey friday going make swag meals make new religions night" ]

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[ "son septic respiratory diredflag hours my husband knowtime medical staff incompetent realize ambulance staff even worse son almost died beatup ambulance well horrible finally got bigger hospital antibiotics nearly month" ]

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[ "hey natsuu need thighs lay httpsnewredditcomrteenagerscommentsltioeremember_that_guy_that_ended_questions_like_this" ]

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[ "want love people butif experience people past ish years going is going past days kind teetering edge wanting truly end everything", "but im still scared afterlife ever able rest never bothered again listen everyone money money lets whatever want move pos parents house never look back buy sex people hold shit head relationships contribute something loved otherwise lazy annoying piece shit thats waste space thats love according society loved are standards hard work teams hold others to reciprocate people ever keep promises you know else say anymore everyones going say fault anyways believe capitalist people eat alive shithole website run nerds survive job retail think theyre menial work like play video games watch anime shit responsibilities goals outside shit too wish someone would prove wrong doubt will im always told pray god never seek actual help something wrong wanting keep paycheck something wrong placing value human lives anything wrong believing things make life worth living yes matter snowflake must die collective cause organizations giving money relationships must left pick reference social cue go school us growing up part clique friend group etc working hard paying bills im responsible for making work time supposed privileged according people cant handle wrong considering ending everything whats wrong makes unlovable" ]

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[ "thinking decided im going killim turn week im pretty fucked up thinking decided like said im preety fucked up lomg story short raped im preety anti social got trust issues mean damm like real real friendsyeah preety lonely obvious reasons havent relationship like said trust issues im preety fucked up nothing really keeping it idk soon go camping trip blow head" ]

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[ "hey everyone hope okayive many therapist years realised working me really get anything already know feel like paying someone idle chatter with case therapistsis something do maybe keep trying find one actually feels worthwhile maybe stop togetherthanks reading question therapy" ]

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[ "bad parents inability decide overall badi committed college beginning may get wrong great school clue im life think logical make around every semester fulltime college student apparently do great city want able enjoy it that plus leaving home gives extreme anxiety work college would ultimately make im able make matters worse im still hung end basically twoyear relationship five months ago keep thinking things could done differently could better caused lot stress school since blamed entire thing want apologize point late plus would make look like fool even would put ease would make poeple dislike id admitting wrong thatd cause whole lot more hate seeing ex successful going one best schools state feel like im competition her go local community college ill consider failure even better decision myself hate living home parents supportive all keep saying got whole college mess want go chosen community college begin with change mind every second im scared leave one second cant wait meet roommate go college life next love job love people they truly make feel like matter super easy", "im good it issue deadend job id keep went community college near me but work out would then im also totally love coworker might affecting opinion think also think really cool friendim bad determining platonic romantic feelings either cool though yikes knowsituation kind unrealistic ill drop haha so go college not know decision make myself cant hence contemplation redflag lot im quite bad dealing unfortunately pause button life even know want die think feel important anyone lifeim unsure life course thats typical guess im conflicted really want anymore guess sad ive written redflag letter almost every month year months write little one feel like cold say goodbye many people care even really seem care anymore felt sad while want know do want know someone cares wants succeed kind feels like nobody does feels like nobody believes me im terrified failure even want try graduate eighteenth birthday never saw living past age seventeenim here hell doing clueim scared anything absolutely hate college could absolutely hate come back wasted first semester", "oh well im broke cant afford that cant certain ill actually end going anywhere life unless go school god know mind filled idea death want know people know ive lately want know care notim tired assuming do feel like let people know matter way much really seem care all like theyre affectionatecaring people probably me know really know looking posting this well maybe stemmedwholei seek validation romantic partners thing quite well college came again love would kind nice guess one funny thing happened though kind brightened day little last night trying make asmr video friend joke make laugh one soap cutting videos accidentally stabbed hand know sounds terrible kind funny fact lol" ]

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[ "zero tolerance xanax alcoholthat probably would end lifeit sad reality but people meant brought world xanax alcohol combo kill me" ]

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[ "late party star wars explain ampxb ast wuestion promise" ]

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[ "need help dealing acquaintance canadian input especially usefulhi guys first post sorry longer whats usually posted here guy know not closely live far away cannot help directly recently failed first semester college too late get courses currently debt always poor academic standing every subject seems academia in subjects question also likely chronic illnesshttpsenwikipediaorgwikiankylosing_spondylitis already appeared close family members limiting comes work trades ive proposed get diagnosis doctor least potentially get disability ontario plan cpp however hard motivate even this family members live like permanently afraid becoming like this would bad selfesteem however due illness getting wellpaid jobs in trades keeping years really hard also", "asthma keeps joining army know himself im bit stumped too ideas driving basic office work precise trade require much hard physical labor like watchmakers decades back ideasresources wellappreciated one family member grandfather supports lended college money told failing semester yet somewhat suicidal though thankfully extremely committed yet usual kinds cases ashamed finds existence useless thinks would useful society family dead constantly miserable mood wakes morning feeling hit car stuff think greatest longterm cure would fulfilling job ideas useful temporarily longer term" ]

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[ "song do know christmas offensive ignorant distasteful one song specifically ethiopia ever refer ethiopia africa reassuring rest world africa apparently single country rather entire continent people ignorant enough believe care enough educate themselves know people think egypt middle east secondly and snow africa christmaswellyeah equator middle summer australia christmas make less christmasy them summer their christmas one grew with also do knowchristmas time dominant religion ethiopia roman catholicyeahim pretty sure do ethiopia also muslim care christmas care ramadan effect quality life knowing ramadan finally song depicts entirety ethiopia africa complete shit hole lyrics like gttheres world outside window world dread fear gtwhere water flowing bitter sting tears actually ethiopia famine northern part ethiopia tigray whole ethiopia africa like this rastafarians believe ethiopia holy land paints whole continent shithole nothing grows everyone starving death one area tigray famine s" ]

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[ "saw cat pissing outside window pissing meanit pissing bush" ]

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[ "it take jump scared fucking too overthink understand suicidal people considered selfish cowards opinion incredibly brave brave taking step unknown pulling plug brave taking matters hands never saying born saying way ends hope display bravery time there really hope will brave" ]

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[ "need advice know ask maybe guys help okay know belongs here know else hope get deleted something so days ago date birthday friend mine lost brother car accident told talked evening seem sad desperate know react this self defense mechanism realise happened yet do im needs help asked help yet cant presume pretending okay would tell me im wrong fine anything do im already doing would do im confused scared also sorry poor englishim native speaker" ]

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[ "see genuine reason exist anymorei dont want exist every day consists either embarrassing reminded truly inferior compared around get miserable passing day oftentimes force stay standing literally collapse giving entirely cant find enjoyment anything hobby pastime desperately distract long enough dont remember absolutely fucking helpless truly am futurewise nothing look forward to live bloated egotistical country dying economy repeatedly told every single person know grateful suck up ever feel anger often exploding smallest inconvenience dont feel anger feel either nothing allconsuming despair longer go worse feel would mercy died quietly corner dorm instead forcing stay awake ive tried therapy medication never anything frankly dont want anything would happier couldnt remember anything" ]

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[ "guys happened game stop reddit keep seeing memes im confused" ]

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[ "normal emo teen boy wanna crushs slave normal" ]

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[ "time hit woman kept hitting everyone got mad unfairim strong guy went playground babysitting kid one friend hits me thought gender equality decided hit back she years old used strength punched face launched meters away people got mad smh head dude live saucity" ]

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[ "counts diagnosed depressed clinically depressed get regular treatments therapist depressive suicidal thoughts something doctor fills out sort process go through" ]

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[ "im dead inside whats left now die physicallymy biggest fear heightim minutes jumping window please need someone talk to please" ]

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[ "lost friendnote posted tifu subreddit found would appropriate post here im im sure begin im scared know do now friend one person a redflag hotline worker knew situation now knowfriend girl ive known two years knew internet know why never able make friends one would talk me one wanted talk me friend never really understood importance relevance human interaction met her much fun talking her enjoying others company never realised much fun talk someone never realised big world really was confess perhaps harboured unhealthy attachment her time year met alone finished college course stopped going work family went vacation like months always thought certain tolerance social isolation wrong leave home except buy food internet front me never approached people it real life one girl always reached me always initiated conversations confused first little annoyed isolation getting worse anyone talked me led believe one cared me one would care ceased", "exist started experiencing doubt wanted kill myself know trivial thing kill ones self over thats thinking make difference anyones lives whats point living whats point living cant useful girl always talked me slow process slow realise doubts became positivity happened happy sometimes would talk week excited giddy always looked forward messaging program would light corner make sound asinine thing happy about really content let know im complete recluse im waiter even basic level social intelligence felt indebted her incredible feeling know this tell happy it certainly know suicidal time debt weight all felt like purpose happy try repay it perhaps useful her admit fantasised partners scared would one benefiting relationship plus always relationship difficult find right time offer thought but honestly say still content friends fast forward year later gotten relationship someone strongly attached to never expected last knew person months half year best really happy enough make happy too felt horrible happened fell state depression always felt awful end relationships time hurt bad lasted longer facebook posts ominous chat program use often changed profile pictures crying people would change username something equally depressing worthless prominent one stuck really felt like needed something wanted me talk tried talking every day tried always initiate conversation maybe bombarding her gathered talking me suicidal say directly made afraid trying distract nasty stuff trying replace negativity positivity told once told take one step time told thought strong told felt saved her told talking alone but mention suicidal thoughts time moment got better last long near christmas getting worse felt friends facebook dancing around issue licking wounds dealing directly problem decided become villain thought confronted bit short term pain lay facts shell suffer moment realise world much bigger thought time time things getting heated said know felt partner told though hated say it said inexperienced relationships started online main setting all partner time someone often met real life though told insensitive replied knew was something mention depression often asked could talk again indirectly promise anything stupid feared still suicidal asked could talk again asked apologise refused saying did would mean words meant nothing apologised hurt left heated huff logged off never got response question got scared wondered really made right decision desperation started contacting friends try get contact her none responded me one point this even messaged mother depression nothing could do doubts coming back wondered killed her froze place could nothing hope going cool off friends go contact her following that thought best course action back leave alone while thought would contact ready sign chat program case want see me still facebook friends know anything christmas sent gift steam know thought it know played long time ended backing month time fears realised made post facebook talking killing herself frightened wondered really helped made things worse going respond friends quick respond believed terrible state doubt chose reply friends much better job doubts becoming heavier one point depression cleared up admit become facebook stalker point thats knew getting along everything going well her made new friends claimed found people appreciated company know meant thought would actively try seek point still logging chat program doubts taken again thought would come help like tried help her wondering worried me realise thoughts become poisoned nasty two months since stopped talking grew desperate thought care me questioned whether really existed ended creating new account facebook began adding lot friends noticed friends always flew side made scary post thought maybe could friend too could fixed using different alias know expecting made feel worse made facebook friends two weeks felt emptier point seemed figure was know how did blocked well real accounts scared annoyed angry know me felt like somehow recognised bad qualities semblance redeeming factor blocking me messaged saying knew me chose ignore it doubt growing worse felt like complete reversal situation in took positivity confidence took negativity doubts difference was friends people could share worries with felt awful compounded fact home robbed recently felt guilty parents upset turn alarm leaving work wanted die couldnt paid debt debt parents ended calling samaritans redflag hotline said perhaps misunderstood something try talking her time person knew situation took long time muster courage talk her know cared last talked her went offline answering question took mean want talk me lack responses past three months indicated that scared going bother cause trouble her thats wanted do talked things went relatively well though apologised needed to probably apparently never contacted outside chat program main medium communication felt bitter trouble sending message facebook found alias remember talked much time though appeared friends again talk much month felt like didnt felt like still nuisance wanted badly talk her knew doubts would disgust her while doubts built much let one burst her coming fourth final month talked bit seemed well felt like things going back way were doubts left last long remembered suicidal posts would accrue much support ominous usernames profile pictures ended changing mine well hoped someone necessarily her would come check me didnt else did know im idiot know thoughts nasty disgusting know heart black know", "im irrational another round doubt head confronted again without realising it making feel guilty situation doubts selfdeprecating behaviour felt horrible suggested block me while felt discussion going nowhere took offer blocked me leaving final piece fair goodbye all complete slamming door face heart spirit shattered happened yesterday scared backup accounts facebook contacted with got freaked creeped me told aware told least cut contact terms agree upon really necessary responded blocking accounts still one mode communication one users cant blocked certain website messaged it told thought needed cool time gather thoughts told interest friends stalkerish tendencies backed off intended try again spent entirety today working letter sorts felt rational entire thing sent her responded imsorry ive already made mind im interested friends anymore never able trust again already told want move blocked you blocking means", "want talk drag thing anymore want harass anymore everything blocked constitutes harassment tolerate it fact made shake fear please move already theres nothing gain this beating dead horse leave worse impression itll start make regret friends first place please stop actually becomes true responded this read message kind feels like im given fair trial knowim awkward thisim confused especially say disappeared know ive deluded thinking case still feel like biased this really think end then im sorryim sorry ive done really enjoyed time im sorry betraying trust could start again would course stupid things lead this incredible strength believe happy least one favour ever take granted thats ask for good life heh ever change mind know find me thank least reading thoughts one last time last message her two hours ago read message decision respect decision avoid me thank you", "hope find other better people goodbye fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up know do im horrible idiot fucked up do fucked up talk with fucked up friends fucked up want kill myself fucked up really want end really want hurt her fucked up doubts fucked up edit thought might interested seeing letter worked sent today well were talking stalkers one shirai kuroko much invasive blatant me intention going horror genre soon recomposed yourself i too best focus task hand im going let slam door face like this im backed corner course im going fight doubts damned want live sudden shift attitude mine takes precedence doubt know stayed away longer response lack thereof following message serve good indication last time disappeared said have let fire back you want disappear either am idea im doing guess would good start apology apologise continuous display terrible sides know apologise things again expect forgiven ive known two years even time meant little you meant lot metheres reason feel strong towards you know suggested blocking me going bumpy believe satisfied ending either seem unlikely well ever friends again mean things ended way did know proper goodbye", "right goodbyes necessarily mean complete drop contact parties no something else people stop talking goodbye going say goodbye ill say hello rather good evening but want talk im hurting you please tell me case least want say proper farewell fair get say piece leave disappear think suddenreally solutions mind one solution want one could face properly again think discussion going nowhere thinkirrational believe possibilities exploredyesterday kept asking tried leave think looking back now afraid id break know selfish makes sound like im considering feel may continue selfish id like hear rest say again im make sure want regret anything guess cant say sure you want regret anything either right right now think main issue im hurt you say waswell im probably hurting you too know sure really that casethen though may reluctant and exactly satisfied understand contact another solution try get irrational feeling hurt really think thats impossible know work", "but like you im given enough time replaced something positive thats theory test out need assistance know im position asking something like you perhaps hear rest say hate come this want come victim anything kind feels terrible friends seen like someone used friends with honestly intention guilt you wanted help there said it wanted help getting feeling want told it want told im capable want get clap back told go run laps around block one else knows situation though technically speaking one person knows thats relevant wanted attract attention failed it know else turn problems guess thought again thought made scary posts before thought maybe showed reflection im thinking name image could get attention without actually asking help im aware clumsy awkward way ask it didnt you naive part thought someone else steam would try approach me frustration built get any want help want advice im asking much try find elsewhere want continue talking you wish thrown away say before want it want it let hear answer even things turned sour mean stop talking one another even were friends want continue talking things you anime games life sorts stupid nonsense know you detest rushed endings dropping contact something painful doubt itself something happens thirdrate television dramas really think doubtful real me think depressed self real you honestly say meant things said time again hate sounds like im trying justify myself needed form perspective took considerable amount time get everything much granted privilege waited got everything too though admit ended changing result think unfair irrational behaviour punished clear im saying want punished saying deserve be maybe want understand you wanted understand me think get little better now too trying avoid nasty stuff trying avoid commotion avoiding drama maybe thats avoided doubting makes sense mentioned believe friendships destined end wonder really believe that mean regards current friendships hate bring up too", "im understanding must felt before say scared left thought thought found disgusting right now im feeling exact thing overcome this win want believe that want believe can know asking lot you see that say realised importance human interaction one point forgot it now become obvious i too frustrated behaviour make mistake crying begging intention either things simply wish see satisfactory conclusion discussion underestimate power debate need be ill deal doubt somehow myself never hear again would think thats favourable compromise want lose again allow it try again aforementioned conditionsif really end theres nothing stop it least make sure real im talking to depressed angry scared you means happy respect decision last letter sorts took months compose hope serves indicate serious this courseid much like hear thoughts side story this tldr sabotaged myself everything entirely doing im revolting life ive made one real friend fucked up im weakim patheticim useful anyone exist im villainim irrational" ]

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[ "must see film understand reality read book ms duke advocate afflicted bipolar disorder formerly labeled manicdepressionbr br it hard believe day age people still critique others emotional problems seek psychiatric help regressive discriminatory thinking still exists unfortunatebr br in film audience sees pain suffering ms duke through especially child many us may remember teenage patty duke show household name america age br br you learn exploitation rosswell played howard hesseman growing s stigma fullforce however see advances career yet illness becomes worse goes bouts substance abuse promiscuity even marries someone divorces next week several conflicts tantrums children elderly mother problem occurred received adequate therapy medicationbr br a recent survey released nami national alliance mental illness recorded majority us adults fail recognize classic symptoms bipolar disorder also released one five respondents poll believed people could control illness without medication wanted to bp magazine winter watch film learn true story talented woman could pull bootstraps get well educated disorder received proper treatment thank you ms duke advocate ignorance prejudice" ]