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[ "hi fello peeps peepettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d" ]

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[ "sniff sniff rips roof building mmm smell cabbage rips entire fridge devours contents" ]

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[ "damn ugly feel like taking knife peeling face face better ugly faceugliness one reasons struggle suicidal ideation hate way look hate ancestors even more say anything looks subjective positive thing buy it people need face facts live fantasy looks looks beautiful beautiful ugly ugly positive negative good bad beautiful ugly amount positive propoganda motivational quotes examples many ugly people would change watching gotham today scene jokers face stolen face face still better ugly face" ]

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[ "planned everything tested stuff see could work actually scared it decided tell long distance boyfriend it break feel guilty online friend going block himi know sounds bad going easier forget way cannot seem thoughi want die alone think asshole scared hurt lot really want end mental hospital would worse dying would fucking hell me scared" ]

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[ "best friend lives hours train ride away often meet met years ago meeting online friends became friends remained contact past years became best friends basically speakplay games online daily basis know gf pretty well sometimes join play hangs us gf travelled city next mine meet best time long time cannot even remember maybe best weekend life weekend eventually passed went home took bus home way home felt bit contributed tiredness got home took shower decided go sleep got really depressed felt sad could sleep started cry really hit hard cried years since awake crying time time know speak tomorrow work know meet future method cope ease pain live map train are feel like fucking stalker now want text him know either sleeps good time want ruin him depressed past years bad times past nothing could get through ever feel sad depressed never happened prior occasion makes sense me happening really depressed really good weekend friends" ]

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[ "everything feels shitim year old male suicidal told mom stepdad depressed laughed said wasnt ive also told friends one thought said joke friends depressed get help from depressed since turned got suicidal feel lonely think kill im school im eating etc almost never sleep hours per night makes tired school sleep class really good reason suicidal except hate way everyone lives wake up go work get paid go home eat sleep starts again also feel like im dick towards everyone care anything anymore people annoyed negativity towards everything alive pain suffering ive almost stopped feeling emotions all feel empathy towards people anymore animals school ive started pretending everything alright someone said emo something like hard be happy" ]

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[ "id like kill nowstanding balcony trying pluck courage it" ]

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[ "really venting posti live constant need end every day thats want write about ive subscribing lot different subreddits recently found one ive reading snippets reading comments others guess want give collective heartfelt thank everyone subreddit really cool little virtual respite exists uncaring cold void worldyeah post follow rules something guess none ever read this" ]

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[ "problem sex girl schoolimshes didnt use protection need ideas parents dont know parents dont know wont talk im bot lost" ]

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[ "hello teensim officially teen know account thats year old fuck cares" ]

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[ "cant post images rteenagershey all wanted share achievement made sub cant upload image first post know pls help" ]

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[ "kinda like habits killing mei think ive passive ideation life finally feel affects it course im much pussy actually kill myself feel like picking smoking drugs either kill snap whatever shit im in understand impact life othersgod damn ready done entire life filled shitty circumstance bad luck maybe sign" ]

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[ "almost argentina want reach help doesnt feel righti dont know do ill give backstory asked im panic attacks again feel endthe end everything near dont like humans want get rid possessions house leavei dont know id go talk people love swallow lot alprazolam pills momits medication keeps them im low dose want go wait peacefully death want make people love suffer dont want cats see asleep never see again keeping short need help get help need guide someone help make decisions dont feel ok make them im asking help tell professionals need know help me im afraid tell people close im planning committing part wants end all half desperately looking help thanks reading" ]

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[ "gotta honest dont even know ex actually broke lol" ]

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[ "laid todayas title says laid job today cant get thoughts killing head know end world anything cant seem shake thoughts im filling unemploymentbrowsing jobs despite overall dislike amount stress caused pay much deserved plus feels like positive thing going point life really reason posting this wanted get chest guess" ]

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[ "antidepressantsi hate antidepressants thing keeping killing myself anyone else" ]

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[ "dont immature bitch piece advice selfcentered people universe doesnt revolve around you karen matter say cant make saying something terrible acting likeokay youre you theres ones fake depression always say stuff like know depression right think im going go cut now mental health joke dont treat like one edit also includes people say didnt ask" ]

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[ "suicidal slightly homocidal help re uploaded try get help hey sound like edgy kid seeking attention please hear out isnt im struggling suicidal homocidal thoughts wanna kill scared keep razor gonna kill i live guns almost impossible getthank godive wanted hurt others go hurt others wrists slit first" ]

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[ "acceptable venti see thousands people complaining venting lgbt people check privilege tfw gf my granny died absolute instant barely mention even think mentioning diagnosed schizophrenia borderline autism psychomotory retardation tachicardia since born never knew late suddenly everyone wants head ruby plate straight attempt murder like become feral something feels like im walking dead ok vent even legal point im now could healed treated fixed cant anymore feel like existence mistake is cause nothing grief destruction" ]

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[ "someone please help im seriously overwhelmed daydream jumping front train extreme school stress procrastinating everything stress friends went lots trauma past feeling confused certain things slow processing difficulty expressing specific thoughts dull pressure frontal sinus" ]

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[ "accept parents never accept youmy mother probably one invalidating human beings ive ever met first asked see therapist told work would make stop feeling sad first found cuts yelled me attempted got angry told selfish never understand people say stay moms anything would reason couldnt anymore shes catalyst many problems everytime even mention depression ask set appointment psychiatrist asks really need it sad youre happy youre around us doesnt even notice wear hoodies summer hide cuts isolate day cant even eat shell ask dont ever leave house get mad do ive accepted never truly care me never validate me never need be im gonna go listen mitski" ]

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[ "dog keeps staring like bro ur allowed couch stop staring whimpering pls" ]

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[ "titlei feel worthless discernible live directions goals family hates me money shitty paying jobs mother tried kick day barely left room since dont know im going do ive laying bed wishing could end deep know could never im spineless always been feel broken never repaired im lazy cant anything right always fuck everything up im disgusting want end im tired feeling like every day pretending everything fine im tired happygolucky friend thats truly am despise myself feelings anxiety worthlessness go away feel like never ending cycle wont ever able break away from want go away" ]

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[ "reaching outi suppose ill start saying past days unbearable ive never felt lost scares know go ill able start feeling anything besides cold im uncomfortable sharing many personal details open anyone time spare id grateful someone could message me picky ideal lgbt" ]

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[ "so got list mental physical issues deal with really fun sometimes gets feel really alone ex family great me ex made feel loved cared miss much even though broke roughly year ago point wish someone loved cared me least look back say one point that feel sad alone" ]

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[ "definition great movie want continue see again movie reason strikes cord even though scenes scott glenn still make winch watch love music" ]

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[ "whatever good enough im years old im constantly feeling never meeting anyones expectations everyone always wants me even everything possible power something best ability always", "oh well good wrong differently throughout school coasted whole way always told incredibly smart gifted never tried except came computers ive loved computers since started using them escape real world turned mom stepfather always incredibly restrictive usage electronics always wanted less always wanted get away life hated much never really stable home parents got divorced mom remarried still married biggest asshole ive ever met life sad remarried twice single now ive never really stable home ever since parents got divorced ive moved around lot even then kept count went different schools years regular schooling result never made friends feel worthless job dad successfully started company im told grandfather also works underperform everything ever need get away electronics something productive time see point going anymore feel like one cares focuses wrong live life standards whole thought process stemmed argument grandfather who live temporarily basically tried run car walking home reasoning trying teach lesson hear going around listening music time" ]

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[ "basically long blogpost think ive got pretty good reasons myself see think otherwiseim end line folks although would like hear lads would say personally think ive done good job making long blogpost explanation bit top usual cocktail anxiety depression substance abuse chemically addicted thing prescribed not fact dropped school highschool freshman amp elongated social interaction since bout years job doesnt count ive chronic disease since baby ibd turned crohns disease large intestine removed amp ulcers kept popping replacement small intestine this two choices first option connected jpouch w pouchitis little remission relative people jpouches ive developed antibodies hardhitting immunosuppressants ie remicade since pumped full stuff kid im likely die extreme painsometime", "ss meds stop working regardless meaning constant diarrhea constantly shitting bed night nearconstant internal pain amp constant fear stricture complications leading extreme pain option ostomy amp ostomy bag due fact scar indent inch deep amp inches long abdomen dozen surgeries child bag leaks constantly without ton extra adhesive thus put adhesive leading x diameter circle basically painful fungus infection thats especially raw thanks acidic nature shit antifungal things hamper it never notpainful turn leads a extreme pain upon taking shower touching it applying new bag b pain bend wrong goddamn direction sleep angleslight leanrightyes issue brought wound care nurses", "well relevant doctor cant anything right now due stricture im stuck ostomy without active intervention monthly endoscopies balloon dilation area intestinal fluid pool said stricture eventually leading internal expansion amp thus mindrending pain speaking experience due covid operations stopped guess halfyear absolutely negative desire condition passed onto kid point ive informed parents intentions yes course theyve tried help appreciate efforts despite futile are point believe keeping alive sake others is lack better word phrase simply worth it ampxb relevant bit think obvious anyone anxiety little social interaction constant fucking pain nearly every second day multiple addictions due aforementioned things tends make man suicidal id prolly psychologists fucking field day ive picked nice area woods although near road first responders go much effort plan call killing order streamline things despite possible risk main thing yet decide upon whether go head unfortunately meaning none family members would want keep rifle mm head unlikely possible become vegetable rather dying exit baghave wait materials cant transported car higher risk failure two things yet decide upon are know whether drive place question walk driving would mean family would trouble getting car back walking might get cops called ass decide head would impossible decide exit bag also itd give much time back out another thing ive drafted redflag letter family amp ive planned short post chat servers frequent", "im still trying think something give first responders either means apology something make laugh either sorry mess letter joke something maybe both less id appreciate opinions question regarding leave first responders" ]

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[ "think worth try reach tiny amount happinessi cant anything im tired trying make failing im going school job cant things anxietys bad want supported mom entire life im fucking useless seeing everyone else good fun makes feel like shit wanna draw try to cant shit cant things want cant write program video edit make music see people around make feel horrible top success people cant happiness never will assuming get anxiety find sucess something im good at never enjoy things way people do everyone sex drugs drink im interested things wanna interested cause people ive looked seems like theyve much them want am want badim scared idealistic think reach amount happiness others even eventually get better potential shit even reaching happy think want relationships want friends girlfriend able talk people long keep getting worse seeing interact fun makes feel cause cant that feel worse cause im getting upset peoples happiness think im bad person thinking like this see point trying make life get happiness amount happiness reach little especially go pain long little amount happiness garunteed" ]

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[ "know want grow up im go th grade live known last year middle school already plans future career ive talked parents college plans funding getting job renting place end getting brushed youve still got time youll change mind frustrating make decision want clear view im gonna grow up gonna time end running time older cousin gonna go th grade year doesnt even know wants do says time he confusing me" ]

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[ "yall ever just want sugar daddy meokay asking friend anyway" ]

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[ "silence thoughtspretty consistently find hardly hearing listening people find wanting die almost time like warn people involuntarily awful everyone leaves eventually find narrating thoughts life others talking dont know maybe alone this im not fuck remain present anymore think negatives practice dbt doesnt help" ]

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[ "get yesterday want get noooooo avoid getting age" ]

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[ "fellas gay sit toilet dick touches ceramic bowl" ]

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[ "checking hotel itthis question told someone a close friend checking hotel end life would able get police find hotel in words would hotel obligated tell police occupant name obviously want able find me want know" ]

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[ "arrived crime scene inspected victims body signs struggle slash marks lower chest searched nearby dumpsters recovered meat cleaver blood staining followed suspects footprints road witnesses claim suspect boarded taxi realise watch broken" ]

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[ "dont want add pain worldbasically m dont want live anymore one would assume guess since im subreddit short version ive onandoff depression suicidal tendencies past years life hasnt easy either dad severe ptsd physical disabilities mom works double fulltime job get watch youngest siblings pretty much guess could say family kind dysfunctionaloh also homeschooled havent done practically substantive coursework two years now technically graduate high school soon dont think show mom anything put portfolio honestly dont care im tired everything im passionate major career path ive lookedim ready college anyway lmao im remarkably talented enjoy doing ive experiences homelifeim attractive every instance ive tried making something last boy ended disaster really dont want alive anymore time know fact lot people whod pretty fucked killed myself really dont want add pain world especially dont want burden little brothers sisters that time would tear apart lot see give throw life away like inevitably will dont know would hurt worse" ]

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[ "cannot life anymore everyone know amazingwell friends leave everything fun treat like child gf happy giving everything give nothing keep happy enjoy used love afraid runaway think suicide much seems option take think many people know would really care anywaycannot" ]

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[ "flag big thing america like australia nearly common see government buildings souvenir shops hardly ever see private property even government buildings usually front flag pole thats one" ]

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[ "society brainwashed blinded accept genital mutilation babies genital mutilation legal every single country world also known circumcision baby boys condemn circumcision baby girls call fgm whereas blatantly accept boys st century humans rights havent even established men women given right vote fgm banned decades ago yet boys opening genitally mutilated reasons circumcision barbaric cruel procedure cut pierce babys natural genitals knives scissors crosses limits humanityethics circumcision absolute violation human rights violation babys body arent consenting cruel surgery permanently alters body life talk consent abortion sexim pretty sure cutting genitals also violates choice foreskin natural fully functional part penis contains blood vessels nerve endings sensory neurones circumcision decreases sensitivity destroys natural function penis foreskin also acts natural lubricant protective layer fact women equivalent foreskin clitoris hood however considering cutting female foreskin fgm male foreskin circumcision genital mutilation main points" ]

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[ "tik tok weird hello downloaded tik tok last week ask would like see chose comedy first says ok says saw people thinking funny drive people protest girls around age pretending raptors read right raptors girls talking needing men reproduce flat earthers choose comedy saw wtf" ]

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[ "might corona work butcher grocery story one people work never wears mask confirmed corona woke morning killerheadachecough really bad chest pain ive currently locked room fear infecting family fun homies" ]

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[ "teen boy crush girl rejected cried hours straight would anything her love much rejected dont know make like me perfect cute ugly photo me httpsibbcoffwltb photo her httpsibbcovxskvq" ]

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[ "went see vanilla sky huge huge hugetom cruise fan extremely cynical brother girlfriend say totally blown away movie especially tcs performance thought moving film expectingbr br i read reviews decided go see it pleased coerced into seeing it strange thing cannot say why say found totally involving could stop thinking next day felt film say is storyline fantasy psychodrama whatever people events shape life small events like getting car change everythingbr br as critics wrote yes maybe original stunning nd film alejandro amenbar totally different interpretation subject means narcissistic remake benefit tom cruise penelope cruzbr bri cannot even consider writing couple trite glib sentences describe film go see itbr br yes know balanced thoughtful review its kind film" ]

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[ "today birthday im now legally stay hereanyway im looking girls around years old hmu" ]

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[ "horrible mental episodebreakdown yesterday im shit deserve livei get stressed easily especially social situations let emotions take control go crazy hate world much took pickaxe construction site started smashing breaking things screaming crying got arrested almost got tazed carrying deadly weapon know whats wrong me stuff like this know else cope sometimes feel like shit nobody deal me nobody ever understand cant wait end need man fuck up stop coward tie rope around neck suffering all need serious help seem available matter hard try im crazy alcoholic piece shit thats going till end death thing ever comfort meim really cut world" ]

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[ "well sucks moms fleetwood mack record that have theres scratch middle song secondhand news makes replay spot repeatedly sucks" ]

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[ "teenagers reddit life currently mods please mercifully banish goes rule potentially mandatory teenager m curious must like teenager world right now already believe experience short ago was vastly different main reason want always keep change mistake many generations parents made assumed much us based lives s s etc way society advancing things exist even im saying age someone years younger me crazy stage happy pressures have worries you" ]

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[ "ok so since last post fairly good tuesday felt amazing got ball python name chad slithers hes amazing cute aslo amazing much better therapy helping lot ever think suicide feeling really good things rn love all feeling better" ]

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[ "someone please talk meeveryone hates me feel like already dead help whole world shit hole one cares me hyperventilating somebody please tell care seriously believe die soon" ]

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[ "bite every post open ton bite comments someone explain pls" ]

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[ "need help english hw usually need help questions fucking hard least know answer pls help stranger need gave every apologize opportunity possibility way means hes always time got office now will would might may have procedure apply person normal ordinary plain regular ps english second language mean ok" ]

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[ "losing willi want suffer alone silence anymore pcp left therapist left friends left me family noninvolved sick feeling guilty wishing dead want anymore want tolerate pain wish easy way out" ]

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[ "idk needs hear but go bed am" ]

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[ "thinking tying something around neck bedthis seems like peaceful way go honestly actually hanging seems painful shooting would gruesome someone find body laying bed air conditioner watching tv slowly going unconscious seems almost peaceful" ]

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[ "i eoke yesterday even though wanted sleep poped stuff hope wont wake" ]

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[ "help idk take frustration anger guys frustrated" ]

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[ "please tell still care whenever bf gone today went nyc family hes target phone dying didnt even tell sister spamming vids said instead letting know knows get excessively sad goes mia hours without notice hes still home yet wish hed cares more always ends makes feel better hes taken shower back room call everynight heart still settled hes favorite person atm makes sad almost everyday consider leaving makes thoat tight eyes water even consider im worried wont ever able stable anyone love j wish would give attention care maybe problem im attached clingy" ]

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[ "please helpcan someone please tell live regret much things ill never able take back get badly hurt ill never go back ignorant people really believe me really drama queen like thought know put stupid situation know said wrong things still thought someone would help told hurt long ago humiliation comes back waves again" ]

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[ "plan nnn november starts hours me im gonna nut nonstop dont nut left buy time nut regenerates ill already enough willpower fap checkmate" ]

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[ "thought killing myselfso posted multipul times really want kill myself like really everyday shit gets worse either way going say im now graduated highschool thinking really wanted kill back didnt thought things could get better today another interview went nowhere thought kill years ago nothing experienced would regret getting experience except maybe good video games lol said years nothing good worth noting thats past years school even worse bullying ontop faliure tell ok head cliff near house want fucking bad said mom still live isnt world sposed somewhat even arnt supposed get good bad bad bad bad bad bad" ]

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[ "prescribed something overdose guarantee death today im worried ill itim terrified ill swallow whole bottle moment despair subject loved ones seizures death drawn week" ]

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[ "thanks covid mental health help easy get family going issues share need hearing mine right want redflag out depressed past present future feel empty hollow self hmed days ago want know going make worse trying figure sexually assaulted kid cannot remember confusing hate much feel like anyone talk me want hug ill probably cry get one thinking texting crisis line depressed need help cannot get" ]

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[ "never loved life wish someone did feel lonely worthless always end crying sleep wonder feels loved" ]

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[ "people like gecs sounds like someone stroke trying make song" ]

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[ "number day big day guys our first milestone day" ]

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[ "im trying change life really worth iti fucking hate everything myself cant deal it im becoming asshole lashing family dont job despite applying going interviews didnt go college im dumb fuck cant remember anything barely graduated high school want fucking give up often imagine dying tragic way family wont burdened cause death ive always wanted get fight maybe beaten senseless maybe someone murder get hit car ive often thought running away jumping death want feel pain die" ]

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[ "dan katzir produced wonderful film takes us rollercoaster ride real romance set troubles surrounding modern israelbr br for anyone whos ever love film brings back uncertainties insecurities heartache make love bittersweet atmosphere fear isolation came difficult times israel time serve intensify feeling instantly drawn dans plight cant fail deeply movedbr br you cant write drama passion like contrast realities dans desperate snatched relationship iris realities state turmoil make eminently watchable ounce passion ever love see film" ]

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[ "guys help im slipping recently got among us realized im scrolling reddit less often please dont let leave" ]

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[ "see posts people sad want end lives makes feel even lonelier want die even more fuck thoughts debilitatingim sleeping time now maybe hours day want anymore life cant take wantto" ]

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[ "japanses trees pretty school tree starting grow white flowers looks like trees japan pinkim sure probably wanted share" ]

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[ "ahaha might suffocate ahahaha last six months costicted throat hard breathe moments asthma symptoms read im afraid tell parents cuz doctor set coronavirus restrictions me im really careful corona anyways government controls real bad system counrty really badly done send pics police taken home every minutes im patient instead weeks ill corona knows end choose tell ahaha cant get meds way ahahaha help" ]

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[ "cant anymorei know else do im point return depression gets worse everyday even real reason it hit one day everything fell apart thought once could rebuild think anymore think ive made peace it end pointless suffering knowim even bothering write this maybe kind survival instinct maybe want leave note kind either way im gone" ]

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[ "seen movie number times find compelling sad lack real emotion characters disturbing seem empty hopeless story based real eventbr br a teenage girl murdered boyfriend obvious reason apparently felt like it boasts friends believe takes view body number times one reports murder two strong leads keanu reeves crispen glover crispen glovers character seriously annoyingbr br keanus character matt appears one sense right wrong keanu best flawless performance believable anyone thinks man cant act watch movie matts little brother almost disturbing character movie twelve compassion love factor life sad think kids like this really makes grateful have" ]

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[ "want kill spitejust make family friends angry upset care temporary want suffer ive already written redflag note" ]

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[ "movie needs come dvd cause thats way buy it thought soo funny real plot it suppose oscar winning film appreciate films cary elwes cute robin hood cant even think favorite part movie pretty good anyways peace out" ]

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[ "went jack like th time today decided im tired horny hell gets accomplished jack off feel good seconds feel hollow again much dick hurts ache" ]

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[ "holy shit didnt get caught update last posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslxdi_wanna_go_outside_so_badutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf im living room wondering didnt get kidnapped caught nice doe one besides cars passing" ]

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[ "yee yee ass haircut makes feel comfortable ngl head feels lighter small price bitches dick which never anyway" ]

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[ "lot justifications kill myselffear deathim afraid death want kill gets first revenge hurt betrayed everyone id kill make feel way made feel betrayed abandoned trapped believe say life nothing want escape truth reality us" ]

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[ "coronavirus day coronavirus test officially came positive struggling breathe day congestion head nose felt stuffy head feels heavy still cant smell anything" ]

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[ "crashed car days ago im depressed got license midaugust sucks go without crashing car two months anyways stop sign neighborhood turned right looking behind mirror dark outside see much reached dome light i think called quote it next thing knew heard loud noise airbags deployed subaru service automatically getting called shellshocked idea happened fast got see mailbox made rock completely leveled bottom front car broken too minutes later dude whos mailbox broke came garage driving car immediately stopped saw mailbox got car explained happened called parents i adhd tend panic often came instantly since house literally one block explained happened police came well since subaru service alerted guess officer asked obvious showed him asked guy wanted put ticket license said no man going pick pizza dominos mom dad helped shovel remains mailbox he able leave completely blocked driveway told family name towing service left mom came back pizza called towing company told us wait minutes mom left dad waited came towed", "subaru im left car rural illinois the university like miles away tho small village dq mcdonalds subway jj arbys know do parents like leaving house much stranded home im also picky eater know family brings food like also supposed poll worker cant without car tldr illinois teen crashes car mailbox cant drive next month rural area ps fine airbag gave bad scratch back left handim good physically mentally whole nother story" ]

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[ "feel reason liveim unemployed mentally ill facing criminal charges borderline broke im verge ending it career prospects ruined now way hole" ]

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[ "im alonei one matter try still one one would care died" ]

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[ "ibe gotten point even tried kill myself im pretty sure id faili going kill tonight as hope school everyday thought youll good everything else want end life obviously pointlessim sure way certainly die risk taker dont know do parents wont take seriously friends try help cant do" ]

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[ "care lazy trying restart life years life shittier excercised dieted got hobbies gone therapy things drones constantly drone forums insipid generic platitude never succeeded always failed time stepped face dirt more believe myself zero self esteem since kid nothin proud of horrible hand eye coordination always picked last sports ooor academic performance socially clueless hate myself that despise everyone else want go msss shooting massacre bunch retards feel terror pani maybe would cathartic lucky able get gun license poisonously envious anyone something want intimate notredflag friendships money degree independence respect charisma beauty youth one things best feign indifference cannot pretend happy tlothers longer wish worst care fairness care earned what thing deserve deterministic universe repeat would love horribly injure ruin peoples lives deserve it would cathartic me would especially love stab every cunt ever yttered phrase pull bootstraps normie fucktardstion interested fitting society want every single person die come afterwards ah would antnatalist paradise done fighting" ]

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[ "i want end hopefully tomorrow better idk much take" ]

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[ "every seconds patrick rochei hope listen poem poem patrick roche" ]

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[ "happy new year goodbyewelp another year alone im even going lie say maybe ill find love im gonna end life simple" ]

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[ "chillin here thinking steven universe x baki crossover au anyone wants ask it suggest details even major plot points even tell better subreddit post this feel free put even dm" ]

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[ "dear lord someone help ive dug whole dont know getoh god sorry long text really do school thing called remind basically sign different teachers get automatic text messages saying stuff like dont forget project due tomorrow things like that today hanging friend got one saying teachers name birthday tomorrow animal print show love specify science teacher telling us wish social studies teacher happy birthday least wasnt teachers birthday thought like bot sending messages teachers couldnt see text back last year accidentally texted one back came automatic message saying messaging back disabled something like assumed like teachers messaged back friend stupid got text back saying okay then science teacher saw text messaged back saying dont animal print sorry realize sounds snotty didnt mean be see teacher tomorrow dont know whether kill kill self someone tell get hole ive dug" ]

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[ "iti fucking it tried many times hang myself felt time vision getting dark sounds becoming surreal head getting heavy me getting back toes grasping air hating myself want die cant live fucking hate coward let go die already" ]

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[ "im readyi borderline personality disorder everyday terrible war rages mind heart simply surpassed able cope with rifle need one bullet cant even muster energy find one wonder hurts" ]

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[ "ive miserable long rememberim almost thirty goddamned tired living like this sad scared lonely miserable reference point peaceful content life like like trying imagine completely new color get hold there get past crisis thats whole damned life im tired surviving crisis crisis never getting feel like real human being fuck human being do tried getting smarter getting kinder making useful enough never enough point straightup cruel string person along vague promises one day feeling pain know whatll stop pain one responsible me hell responsible myself responsibility take care myself unless someone else going step in im one decides looks like know did understand could done little kid whole goddamned world denied me itll always denied me ill always feel like ive never felt different yet am held almost three decades dream cant even see im damned tiredwant end one person one person whole damned life genuinely cared helped me died completely unexpectedly know ill never meet anyone else like them one sliver goodness world gone never deserved it" ]

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[ "hi guys um know post today ampxb um ampxb uh ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb bet expect spanish inquisition ampxb no one expects spanish inquisition" ]

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[ "screenplay due go back school wont live longi dont care anymore dont care anything anymore want kill myself plan want slit wrists open longer here longer burden anyone dont matter make people mad me im worthless" ]