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gave up let run around wont desert made cry said goodbye told many lies hurt	[]	[ "gave up let run around wont desert made cry said goodbye told many lies hurt" ]	16	Renunciar a dejar correr por el desierto no va a hacer llorar dijo adiós dijo muchas mentiras dolió
which came first the chicken or the egg do i hate myself because of the constant rejection i ve experienced my whole life or am i constantly rejected because i hate myself both are true negative experience are what made me doubt myself so much if this keep happening over and over again then it must be because there s something wrong with me that people want to run away from i take it entirely personally but on the other hand people don t want a person who hate themselves in their life so they reject me and distance themselves i can never sustain positive self worth because every single time i m rejected i feel that they ve judged my character in some way and determined me either insignificant or toxic to them it s a never ending loop that ultimately leaf me alone and bitter i don t know how to fix it nothing seems to work it s like my mind is broken i feel like an evolutionary failure a cancerous lump meant to be excised from a healthy society i feel like i ve given up on myself	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "which came first the chicken or the egg do i hate myself because of the constant rejection i ve experienced my whole life or am i constantly rejected because i hate myself both are true negative experience are what made me doubt myself so much if this keep happening over and over again then it must be because there s something wrong with me that people want to run away from i take it entirely personally but on the other hand people don t want a person who hate themselves in their life so they reject me and distance themselves i can never sustain positive self worth because every single time i m rejected i feel that they ve judged my character in some way and determined me either insignificant or toxic to them it s a never ending loop that ultimately leaf me alone and bitteri don t know how to fix itnothing seems to work it s like my mind is broken i feel like an evolutionary failure a cancerous lump meant to be excised from a healthy society i feel like i ve given up on myself" ]	198	Que vino primero el pollo o el huevo me odio a mí mismo debido al rechazo constante he experimentado toda mi vida o soy constantemente rechazado porque me odio a mí mismo ambos son experiencia negativa verdadera son lo que me hizo dudar de mí mismo tanto si esto sigue sucediendo una y otra vez entonces debe ser porque hay algo malo en mí que la gente quiere huir de lo que me tomo totalmente personalmente pero por otro lado la gente no quiere una persona que se odia a sí mismo en su vida así que me rechazan y se distancian a sí mismos nunca puedo mantener positivo yo vale la pena porque cada vez que me rechazan siento que han juzgado mi carácter de alguna manera y me han determinado o insignificante o tóxico para ellos es un bucle sin fin que en última instancia me hoja sola y amargo no sé cómo solucionar nada parece trabajar s como mi mente está roto me siento como un fracaso evolutivo un bulto canceroso destinado a ser extirpado de una sociedad sana me siento como he renunciado a mí mismo
need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone could help get done would great	[]	[ "need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone could help get done would great" ]	37	necesita ayuda a alguien buena tribometría pythagriam media hora necesita ayuda discordia ahappysleepdeprivednerd alguien podría ayudar a conseguir hecho sería genial
@Anitaa31 GoOd MOrning	[]	[ "@Anitaa31 GoOd MOrning" ]	12	@Anitaa31 GoOd MOrning
dont care anymoreout blue bf years thought going propose summer broke tuesday everything right went therapy got sober etc fact person told loved promised theyd never leave could make decision like blue makes realize isnt place want anymore starting let guard trust people again thats ruined now bought bottle jameson first time years hope kills	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "dont care anymoreout blue bf years thought going propose summer broke tuesday everything right went therapy got sober etc fact person told loved promised theyd never leave could make decision like blue makes realize isnt place want anymore starting let guard trust people again thats ruined now bought bottle jameson first time years hope kills" ]	66	Ya no me importa azul bf años pensó que va a proponer verano rompió martes todo derecho fue terapia se sobria etc hecho persona le dijo amado prometido que nunca se iría podría tomar una decisión como azul hace no se dan cuenta de lugar no quiere más desde guardia confiar en la gente de nuevo que se arruina ahora comprado botella jameson primera vez años esperanza mata
dont want dieplease help mothers day mother overbearing cruel dont get hit takesthrows away stuff constantly tells us much suck whatever dont know im right mind right now therapist told call ever feel suicidal am suicidal doubt make end week dont wanna make things worse already dont know anyone advice whatever just call her please need dont know dont want see dont know else please	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "dont want dieplease help mothers day mother overbearing cruel dont get hit takesthrows away stuff constantly tells us much suck whatever dont know im right mind right now therapist told call ever feel suicidal am suicidal doubt make end week dont wanna make things worse already dont know anyone advice whatever just call her please need dont know dont want see dont know elseplease" ]	78	No quiero morir por favor ayuda a las madres día madre dominante cruel no te dan golpe quita cosas constantemente nos dice mucho chupar lo que no sé lo que estoy bien mente en este momento terapeuta dijo llamar siempre sentir suicida soy duda suicida hacer fin de semana no quiero hacer las cosas peor ya no conozco a nadie consejo lo que sea llamarla por favor no sé no quiero ver no sé por favor por favor
wish she didn t have om homework to do right now	[]	[ "wish she didn t have om homework to do right now" ]	12	Ojalá no tuviera tarea que hacer ahora mismo.
friends go years isolation took bigtm e p r e loving support network best friend always me matter what unconditional dropping anything world make sure ok one relationship later cut connections people closest me took years build connections with feel loved love best friend ever ex love pure like mothers love never let fall low low enough want die like now never impress make sure favourite person cared much matter happened would them jealousy demands economic ties battles life goals pure ex must love corrupt energy socialise never really know peoples opinions are probably think weird	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "friends go years isolation took bigtm e p r e loving support network best friend always me matter what unconditional dropping anything world make sure ok one relationship later cut connections people closest me took years build connections with feel loved love best friend ever ex love pure like mothers love never let fall low low enough want die like now never impress make sure favourite person cared much matter happened would them jealousy demands economic ties battles life goals pure ex must love corrupt energy socialise never really know peoples opinions are probably think weird" ]	99	amigos van años aislamiento tomó bittm e p r e red de apoyo amoroso mejor amigo siempre me importa lo incondicional caer cualquier cosa mundo asegurarse de ok una relación más tarde cortar conexiones personas más cerca de mí tomó años construir conexiones con sentir amor mejor amigo siempre ex amor puro como madres amor nunca dejar caer bajo lo suficiente querer morir como ahora nunca impresionar asegurarse de persona favorita cuidado mucho materia pasó si los celos exige lazos económicos batallas objetivos de la vida puro ex debe amar energía corrupta socialise nunca realmente saber opiniones de la gente son probablemente pensar raro
feel suicidal every dayi keep telling suicidal thoughts self indulgent self pitying cant make stop ocd behaviours driving parents mad running helps think much get angry try make stop dont know	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "feel suicidal every dayi keep telling suicidal thoughts self indulgent self pitying cant make stop ocd behaviours driving parents mad running helps think much get angry try make stop dont know" ]	39	Sentirse suicida cada día sigo diciendo pensamientos suicidas auto indulgente auto compadecimiento no puedo hacer parar comportamientos de ocd conducir padres locos correr ayuda pensar mucho enojarse tratar de hacer parar no saber
Just got a big wave of depression at work and I have a date with a girl tonight. #prayforme <Emoji: Face with cold sweat><Emoji: Person with folded hands (light skin tone)>	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "Just got a big wave of depression at work and I have a date with a girl tonight.#prayforme <Emoji: Face with cold sweat><Emoji: Person with folded hands (light skin tone)>" ]	49	Acabo de tener una gran ola de depresión en el trabajo y tengo una cita con una chica esta noche.#prayforme <Emoji: Cara con sudor frío•Emoji: Persona con las manos dobladas (tono ligero de la piel)>
ringing ears taking shower took shower ringing left ear think cant really tell cause really loud kind repeating ringing pattern second ringing second break second ringing repeats wanted share pain im experiencing perhaps got water ear something itll stop bit dont know thanks reading post	[]	[ "ringing ears taking shower took shower ringing left ear think cant really tell cause really loud kind repeating ringing pattern second ringing second break second ringing repeats wanted share pain im experiencing perhaps got water ear something itll stop bit dont know thanks reading post" ]	49	zumbido oídos tomando la ducha zumbido oído izquierdo pensar realmente no se puede decir causa muy fuerte tipo repetir patrón de zumbido segundo sonido segundo descanso segunda repetición llamada quería compartir dolor que tal vez tengo oído de agua algo se detiene poco no sé gracias lectura post
really sure anymorehi want start saying nothing tragic happened lost family member anything like that none less still consider redflag everyday option honest guts even pain probably would dont way painlessly right would consider even more every time contemplate cutting cant scars would still manage heal this also parents would send hospital straight away could impact year old year old brothers love much basically hope thats keeping alive right now hope normal again reason feel way impossible talk people properly anymore in real life way look impossible look uncomfortable social situations truthfully am basically shit scared people now including family im really sure screwed know life went downhill ever since year im year developed believe chronic dry eyes sleep deprivation anxiety social awkwardness depressed name probably feel it never drugs smoked yet still look act talk bit like drug addict ok reason life went downhill year onwards well basically move statesaustralia met someone who wish never met got addicted game masturbation porn became consumed masturbating porn found self energy play sport especially soccer cognitive skills window ever since then used really sporty kid really likeable enthusiastic life feel like energy drained zombie every day im sure masturbation problem tried stopping see improvement still stressed etc although managed stop week already several doctors specialists eyes nothings helped im starting lose hope self feel like every year going get worse worse think ill ever get job way am drive anything want homeless know deep really smart person hidden behind wall shit thats happening me theres anyone help would much obliged thank you	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "really sure anymorehi want start saying nothing tragic happened lost family member anything like that none less still consider redflag everyday option honest guts even pain probably would dont way painlessly right would consider even more every time contemplate cutting cant scars would still manage heal this also parents would send hospital straight away could impact year old year old brothers love much basically hope thats keeping alive right now hope normal again reason feel way impossible talk people properly anymore in real life way look impossible look uncomfortable social situations truthfully am basically shit scared people now including familyim really sure screwed know life went downhill ever since year im year developed believe chronic dry eyes sleep deprivation anxiety social awkwardness depressed name probably feel it never drugs smoked yet still look act talk bit like drug addict", "ok reason life went downhill year onwards well basically move statesaustralia met someone who wish never met got addicted game masturbation porn became consumed masturbating porn found self energy play sport especially soccer cognitive skills window ever since then used really sporty kid really likeable enthusiastic life feel like energy drained zombie every day im sure masturbation problem tried stopping see improvement still stressed etc although managed stop week already several doctors specialists eyes nothings helped im starting lose hope self feel like every year going get worse worse think ill ever get job way am drive anything want homeless know deep really smart person hidden behind wall shit thats happening me theres anyone help would much obliged thank you" ]	152	realmente seguro morehi quiero empezar a decir nada trágico pasó miembro perdido de la familia algo como que no menos todavía considerar rojo flag opción diaria tripas honestas incluso dolor probablemente no lo haría de manera indolora derecha considerar aún más cada vez contemplar cortando cicatrices cant todavía manejar sanar esto también padres enviar hospital de inmediato podría afectar año viejo años hermanos de edad amor mucho básicamente esperanza que se mantiene vivo en este momento normal esperanza de nuevo razón sentirse como imposible hablar gente correctamente ya en la vida real manera parecer imposible situaciones sociales incómodas soy básicamente mierda gente asustada ahora incluyendo familia realmente seguro jodido saber la vida fue cuesta abajo desde año en desarrollo creer ojos secos crónicos privación del sueño ansiedad social torpeza nombre probablemente sentir nunca drogas fumadas y todavía parecer un poco como adicto a las drogas
pedos sub ok ok someone explain many posts pedos recently drama wave pedos	[]	[ "pedos subok ok someone explain many posts pedos recently drama wave pedos" ]	16	pedos subok ok alguien explica muchos posts pedos recientemente drama wave pedos
imagine me running bedroom am morning screaming hustle hustle hustle wake ask confused who tf you answer get hustle go go h sleep hustle hustle hustle	[]	[ "imagine me running bedroom am morning screaming hustlehustle hustle wake ask confused who tf you answer get hustle go go h sleephustlehustle hustle" ]	33	Imagíname corriendo dormitorio a la mañana gritando chanchullo ajetreo despertar preguntar confundido quién si usted responde conseguir chanchullo go go h sleephustlehustle ajetreo
sister first seizure years im younger sister younger sis diagnosed epilepsy age really bad surgery see seizures while yesterday came room saying felt wierd slumped over called looked like stopped breathing bit ok now really scary know im strong enough go went last time sis bad seizures	[]	[ "sister first seizure years im younger sister younger sis diagnosed epilepsy age really bad surgery see seizures while yesterday came room saying felt wierd slumped over called looked like stopped breathing bit ok now really scary knowim strong enough go went last time sis bad seizures" ]	52	hermana primera convulsión años im hermana menor sis menor diagnosticada epilepsia edad realmente mala cirugía ver convulsiones mientras que ayer llegó habitación diciendo se sintió wierd se desplomó sobre llamado parecía dejar de respirar poco ok ahora realmente miedo knowim lo suficientemente fuerte ir la última vez sis mal convulsiones
please stop telling guys stop mansplaining manspreading stupid sexist terms give feminazis excuse mistreat men seriously like fact exist mean assholes us true women oppression generations fault ancestors generation like people stop coming new problems like mansplaining manspreading oh yeah manspreading thing called penis sensitive part bodies would ask us move legs instead making big deal would fine people pouring fucking bleach dicks apparently know ask politely ive enough shit thanks listening rant	[]	[ "please stop telling guys stop mansplaining manspreading stupid sexist terms give feminazis excuse mistreat men seriously like fact exist mean assholes us true women oppression generations fault ancestors generation like people stop coming new problems like mansplaining manspreadingoh yeah manspreading thing called penis sensitive part bodies would ask us move legs instead making big deal would fine people pouring fucking bleach dicks apparently know ask politely ive enough shit thanks listening rant" ]	96	Por favor, deja de decirle a los chicos que dejen de mansplaining mansplaining estúpido machista términos dar feminazis excusa maltratar a los hombres seriamente como hecho existen medios imbéciles nosotros verdaderas mujeres opresión generaciones culpa antepasados generación como la gente dejar de venir nuevos problemas como mansplaining mansplainingoh yeah hombredifusión cosa llamada pene partes sensibles cuerpos nos pediría mover piernas en lugar de hacer gran cosa gente fina verter puta pollas lejía aparentemente saber preguntar cortésmente suficiente mierda gracias escuchar despotricar
i m so tired all the time in the physical mental and emotional sense all the time day go by doing nothing tired day of overexertion tired and sleep deprived the constant headache and facial pain doesn t help i feel like my tolerance to people is so low that i cry after i go outside my house or even more pathetically after when someone enters my room i don t know what s wrong with me nobody belief it you re so young how are you tired you need to toughen up the lab came back normal there s nothing wrong with you they don t know that every time i have to hold up this act the effect grows more and more devastating i don t blame them for it honestly i ve put up this act for such a long time that i don t think anybody really know who i am a a person i ve only allowed them to see the good side and whenever the bad side inevitably creep to the surface it inevitably end up being anticlimactically and severely misunderstood my mother try to string me along in vacation that end up draining me significantly and then she wonder why i sleep for hour every day a week after i ve given up the thing i like and i m passionate about because i feel too restless and tired to carry out anything towards a meaningful level jobless living with parent and on the cusp of a breakdown but nothing and no one that can help every night i hope i die in my sleep	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "i m so tired all the time in the physical mental and emotional sense all the time day go by doing nothing tired day of overexertion tired and sleep deprived the constant headache and facial pain doesn t help i feel like my tolerance to people is so low that i cry after i go outside my house or even more pathetically after when someone enters my room i dont know what s wrong with me nobody belief it you re so young how are you tired you need to toughen up the lab came back normal there s nothing wrong with you they don t know that every time i have to hold up this act the effect grows more and more devastating i don t blame them for it honestly i ve put up this act for such a long time that i don t think anybody really know who i am a a person i ve only allowed them to see the good side and whenever the bad side inevitably creep to the surface it inevitably end up being anticlimactically and severely misunderstood my mother try to string me along in vacation that end up draining me significantlyand then she wonder why i sleep for hour every day a week after i ve given up the thing i like", "and i m passionate about because i feel too restless and tired to carry out anything towards a meaningful level jobless living with parent and on the cusp of a breakdown but nothing and no one that can help every night i hope i die in my sleep" ]	237	Estoy tan cansado todo el tiempo en el sentido físico mental y emocional todo el tiempo día pasar haciendo nada cansado día de sobreexerción cansado y sueño privado el dolor de cabeza constante y dolor facial no ayuda siento que mi tolerancia a la gente es tan baja que lloro después de salir de mi casa o incluso más patéticamente después de que alguien entra en mi habitación no sé lo que está mal conmigo nadie cree que es tan joven ¿cómo estás cansado que necesita para endurecer el laboratorio volvió normal no hay nada malo con usted no saben que cada vez que tengo que mantener este acto el efecto crece más y más devastador no les culpo por ello honestamente he puesto este acto durante tanto tiempo que no creo que nadie realmente sabe quién soy una persona que sólo les he permitido ver el lado bueno y siempre que el lado malo inevitablemente se arrastra a la superficie inevitablemente terminan siendo anticlimáticamente y severamente malentendida mi madre tratar de encadenarme en vacaciones que terminan drenando y luego se pregunta por qué duermo durante una hora cada día que una semana después de haber dado la cosa i i i drive
cant handle iti tried tried tried tried tried accomplish parents have know place much energy finding partner clock ticking everyone else family kid family age started angry im always either angry depressed get partner happy truly happy lot people understand happiness get addicted things feel good think happiness experience take care partner cant even begin describe waterfall comfort sunlight rushing me like im needed like life purpose like im something right try hardest jackass referred rniceguys ive coiled anger ive letting slowly bits sordid degrading commentary pornographic subreddits comes sickness feel rage feel like im nothing like ill never anything lot people read listen problems take one way without even considering feelings nobody considers feelings ever ive depressed years nobody fucking cares im going tell nobody cares maybe help clear mind shoot myself severe abandonment issues severe mommy issues barely toddler woman gave birth ready fit mother still young would neglect favor parties friends dad way well suddenly awakening saw house party took away her married woman raised that except quite count one hand amount times ive hugged shown displays physical affection woman yeah yeah laugh want fucking hugged enough child something me several memories pushing try hug small shed sneer say something negative connotation child hearing words hearing tone voice good tone id often wonder wrong deserve hug oh always affectionate lovey dog shed kiss hug pet hours imagine like jealous dog getting attention felt deserved child you always best behavior effort get notice hug let like shed pet him never did late now im good late shit im afraid physical contact except sex learned young age sex feels good suitable replacement attention getting mother constantly busy work father got good sex briefly got trouble law sex somewhat main focus life now met ex first one actually display interest rather looks cock likely met online video game why wed talk hours end killing aliens together grew close eventually blossoming relationship lasted three beautiful years loved far away rarely got visit made it told eachother things weve never told anyone including problems mothers ive never told anyone something like her held me burst tears never held like before held close close could feel heart beating shook snotted shirt even matter her held told understood held told okay would hold always always said kept saying always way month broke know it really dont took care sexually even together took care made sure orgasmed every day would talk try best make smile everyday part associated mommy sort figure felt good made laugh smile sudden told love anymore lovedmemorelokea friend partner friends did mention fact three years friends told always pretty much times week and god heart broke could feel it like cold ice cold cracks splitting across heart really felt it changed thats rage started happening thats would start blacking anger getting sexual head aches sorts awful things got another partner everything wonderful again took care way took care ex better even even better stay always right good get keep always right wrong girl also said shed forever approximately six months later abandoned also explanation why next girl next next milicent found quality partnerand god damn mili best partner ive ever had one split mutually beneficial could pick back later were less busy could actually time eachother know trust go anyone else leave like but abused worse differently child understood thought actually listened talked anyways agreed would best talk completed college started college really almost year anyways thats wanted shoot brain stem earlier wanted kill earlier current partner ignoring week now honestly really liked lot sad girl made happy god feels good needed bring light someones life felt lovely abused us abused children got along together fabulously gave free reign body mind soul improved health mind set mother started grade bitch ruining everything also said something instead supportive talk me sounds trivial probably is worst feeling world guess really ds relationships well feel like failure make happy enough talking me third person ive talked troubles felt like could understand did hurts doubly ignoring me get hurt feel emotions really translates rage broken first heart break lasted long would shake hours collapse id fine one minute literally ground unable move legs breathe drowning dry land thats felt like cope sadness prevent dying body somehow learned translate emotions anger wrath pure unbridled whole body went cold vision went black also sort affect think combination heart breaking many times over lied mistreated relying anger much just even feel human feel except now feel like getting hard breathe feel like failure feel like nothing ever work out matter hard try matter much time attention devotion give partners also surrogate mommys matter always fail never enough im ever good enough really considered ending earlier started writing this going go garage get old russian officer pistol dad bought online know sure works put brain stem pull trigger im sick females lying me lie them treat every single partner ive ever like theyre going last partner thats want date marriage date marriage date heart break try hard please soothe issues try hard keep makes happy making happy always end failing get vengefuland sink wallowing wretchedness want die first time actually considered though suicide hotline pulled google know kill myself thats closest ever ending things dead worry living own worry money supplies maintaining image life style dead mymommy issues hurt so dead women bother me deadpeopleeoildmt make fun anymore say mean things me im done everything right now killed myself know theres probably least three people typing comments pathetic am maybe pathetic right almost died another human lied me sltof always lie use	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "cant handle iti tried tried tried tried tried accomplish parents have know place much energy finding partner clock ticking everyone else family kid family age started angry im always either angry depressed get partner happy truly happy lot people understand happiness get addicted things feel good think happiness experience take care partner cant even begin describe waterfall comfort sunlight rushing me like im needed like life purpose like im something right try hardest jackass referred rniceguys ive coiled anger ive letting slowly bits sordid degrading commentary pornographic subreddits comes sickness feel rage feel like im nothing like ill never anything lot people read listen problems take one way without even considering feelings nobody considers feelings ever ive depressed years nobody fucking cares im going tell nobody cares maybe help clear mind shoot myself severe abandonment issues severe mommy issues barely toddler woman gave birth ready fit mother still young would neglect favor parties friends dad way well suddenly awakening saw house party took away her married woman raised that except quite count one hand amount times ive hugged shown displays physical affection woman", "yeahyeahlaugh want fucking hugged enough child something me several memories pushing try hug small shed sneer say something negative connotation child hearing words hearing tone voice good toneid often wonder wrong deserve hugoh always affectionate lovey dog shed kiss hug pet hours imagine like jealous dog getting attention felt deserved child you always best behavior effort get notice hug let like shed pet him never did late now im good late shit", "im afraid physical contact except sex learned young age sex feels good suitable replacement attention getting mother constantly busy work father got good sex briefly got trouble law sex somewhat main focus life now met ex first one actually display interest rather looks cock likely met online video game why wed talk hours end killing aliens together grew close eventually blossoming relationship lasted three beautiful years loved far away rarely got visit made it told eachother things weve never told anyone including problems mothers ive never told anyone something like her held me burst tears never held like before held close close could feel heart beating shook snotted shirt even matter her held told understood held told okay would hold always always said kept saying always way month broke know it really dont took care sexually even together took care made sure orgasmed every day would talk try best make smile everyday part associated mommy sort figure felt good made laugh smile sudden told love anymore lovedmemorelokea friend partner friends did mention fact three years friends told always pretty much times week and god heart broke could feel it like cold ice cold cracks splitting across heart really felt it changed thats rage started happening thats would start blacking anger getting sexual head aches sorts awful things got another partner everything wonderful again took care way took care ex better even even better stay always right good get keep always right wrong girl also said shed forever approximately six months later abandoned also explanation why next girl next next milicent found quality partnerand god damn mili best partner ive ever had one split mutually beneficial could pick back later were less busy could actually time eachother know trust go anyone else leave like but abused worse differently child understood thought actually listened talked anyways agreed would best talk completed college started college really almost year anyways thats wanted shoot brain stem earlier wanted kill earlier current partner ignoring week now honestly really liked lot sad girl made happy god feels good needed bring light someones life felt lovely abused us abused children got along together fabulously gave free reign body mind soul improved health mind set mother started grade bitch ruining everything also said something instead supportive talk me sounds trivial probably is worst feeling world guess really ds relationships well feel like failure make happy enough talking me third person ive talked troubles felt like could understand did hurts doubly ignoring me get hurt feel emotions really translates rage broken first heart break lasted long would shake hours collapse id fine one minute literally ground unable move legs breathe drowning dry land thats felt like cope sadness prevent dying body somehow learned translate emotions anger wrath pure unbridled whole body went cold vision went black also sort affect think combination heart breaking many times over lied mistreated relying anger much just even feel human feel except now feel like getting hard breathe feel like failure feel like nothing ever work out matter hard try matter much time attention devotion give partners also surrogate mommys matter always fail never enough im ever good enough really considered ending earlier started writing this going go garage get old russian officer pistol dad bought online know sure works put brain stem pull trigger", "im sick females lying me lie them treat every single partner ive ever like theyre going last partner thats want date marriage date marriage date heart break try hard please soothe issues try hard keep makes happy making happy always end failing get vengefuland sink wallowing wretchedness want die first time actually considered though suicide hotline pulled google know kill myself thats closest ever ending things dead worry living own worry money supplies maintaining image life style dead mymommy issues hurt so dead women bother me deadpeopleeoildmt make fun anymore say mean things meim done everything right now killed myself know theres probably least three people typing comments pathetic am maybe pathetic right almost died another human lied me sltof always lie use" ]	205	No puedo manejarlo, he intentado, he intentado, he intentado, he logrado los padres han sabido lugar mucha energía encontrar pareja reloj tictac todos los demás familia niño familia edad comenzó enojado im siempre enojado deprimido conseguir pareja feliz realmente feliz mucha gente entender felicidad conseguir adicto cosas se siente bien pensar felicidad experiencia tener cuidado pareja no puede incluso comenzar describir cascada comodidad luz del sol como im necesitado como vida propósito como im algo derecho intentar más duro jackass referido rniceguys ive enrolled ira ive dejando lentamente bits sórdido degradante comentario pornográfico subreddits comes enfermedad sentir rabia se siente como im nada como enfermo nunca mucha gente lee escucha problemas tomar una manera sin siquiera considerar sentimientos nadie considera sentimientos siempre vida depresión años nadie mierda se preocupa im va decir a nadie le importa tal vez ayudar a mente clara dispararme graves problemas de abandono mamá severa problemas apenas niño mujer dio a luz listo a la madre todavía joven descuidaría favor fiestas amigos papá manera bien despertar vio partido levantó que excepto bastante cuenta una mano cantidad de veces en vivo abrazado muestra muestra afecto físico mujer
whats hentai hear people talking alot idea is best examples find pms understand is thanks	[]	[ "whats hentai hear people talking alot idea is best examples find pms understand is thanks" ]	20	lo que hentai escuchar gente hablando muchas ideas es los mejores ejemplos encontrar pms entender es gracias
literally anything funnier night literally anything funnier night	[]	[ "literally anything funnier night literally anything funnier night" ]	10	literalmente cualquier noche más divertida literalmente cualquier noche más divertida
new article from obmneurobiology antidepressant treatment of depression in the elderly efficacy and safety consideration http t co hsu g pvhn narrative review of surgery for myasthenia gravis http t co siqks rzxp depression pharmacotherapy antibody http t co scs0lby0pi	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "new article from obmneurobiology antidepressant treatment of depression in the elderly efficacy and safety consideration http t co hsu g pvhn narrative review of surgery for myasthenia gravis http t co siqks rzxp depression pharmacotherapy antibody http t co scs0lby0pi" ]	68	nuevo artículo de obmneurobiología tratamiento antidepresivo de la depresión en la edad avanzada eficacia y la consideración de seguridad http t co hsu g pvhn revisión narrativa de la cirugía para miastenia gravis http t co siqks rzxp depresión anticuerpo farmacoterapéutico http t co scs0lby0pi
im broken man looking forward deathnothing interests anymore really tried best nothing everyday cus im unmotivated anything all bring everyones mood im burden fucking disappointment	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "im broken man looking forward deathnothing interests anymore really tried best nothing everyday cus im unmotivated anything all bring everyones mood im burden fucking disappointment" ]	32	I hombre roto mirando hacia adelante muerte nada intereses más realmente intentó mejor nada todos los días cus im desmotivado cualquier cosa todos traer a todos el estado de ánimo im carga puta decepción
im still horndog reddit listening musicals baseball game tomorrow wtf wrong rn	[]	[ "im still horndog reddit listening musicals baseball game tomorrow wtf wrong rn" ]	19	Todavía estoy escuchando música música juego de béisbol mañana wtf mal rn
finally finished noteit feels good finally see end sight days ill completely free happy	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "finally finished noteit feels good finally see end sight days ill completely free happy" ]	15	Finalmente terminó nota se siente bien finalmente ver el final días de vista enfermo completamente libre feliz
genuinely dont see point holding anymorenothing else say	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "genuinely dont see point holding anymorenothing else say" ]	11	Realmente no veo el punto de sostener nada más decir
give best pick line joke anything find exceptional ill give gold last post didnt get enough attention still got gold left	[]	[ "give best pick line joke anything find exceptional ill give gold last post didnt get enough attention still got gold left" ]	22	dar mejor línea de selección broma cualquier cosa encontrar excepcional mal dar oro último post no recibió suficiente atención todavía tiene oro izquierda
wrap me tight in rice-paper string http://archiveofourown.org/works/11717343Â â¢ NAMJIN, namjoon-centric (7.6k)â¢ LOT of dark stuff but mainly abt recovery and healingâ¢ BIG TW!: child sexual abuse, rape, depression, drug use, suicide attemptâ¢ only recommending this cause it's very well-written pic.twitter.com/6fqddXe5BY	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "wrap me tight in rice-paper string http://archiveofourown.org/works/11717343Â â¢ NAMJIN, namjoon-centric (7.6k)â¢ LOT of dark stuff but mainly abt recovery and healingâ¢ BIG TW!:child sexual abuse, rape, depression, drug use, suicide attemptâ¢ only recommending this cause it's very well-written pic.twitter.com/6fqddXe5BY" ]	100	Envuélveme bien en la cadena de papel de arroz http://archiveofourown.org/works/11717343Â NAMJIN, namjoon-centrado (7.6k) MUCHAs cosas oscuras, pero principalmente abt recuperación y curación BIG TW!: abuso sexual infantil, violación, depresión, consumo de drogas, intento de suicidio sólo recomendando esta causa es muy bien escrito pic.twitter.com/6fqddXe5BY
humanity mistake httpswwwredditcomrspongebobporncommentsluaoh_gaaarryyyy_im_homeutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare	[]	[ "humanity mistake httpswwwredditcomrspongebobporncommentsluaoh_gaaarryyyy_im_homeutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare" ]	47	error de humanidad httpswwwredditcomrspongebobporncommentsluaoh_gaaarryyyy_im_homeutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare
excuse the blasphemy but no i dont need god to tell me anything before i choose to do whats right no my lack of religion isnt what gave me anxiety and depression it your abusive parenting style on the first half of my life dont blame my belief pls	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "excuse the blasphemybut no i dont need god to tell me anything before i choose to do whatsrightno my lack of religion isnt what gave me anxiety and depression it your abusive parenting style on the first half of my life dont blame my belief pls" ]	55	Disculpa la blasfemia pero no necesito que Dios me diga nada antes de que elija hacer lo que es correcto mi falta de religión no es lo que me dio ansiedad y depresión es su estilo de crianza abusivo en la primera mitad de mi vida no culpes a mi creencia pls
massage wa great i just spilled coke all over my desk lame watching the simpson a i ve finished all my hill dvd	[]	[ "massage wa greati just spilled coke all over my desk lame watching the simpson a i ve finished all my hill dvd" ]	29	masaje wa Greati acaba de derramar coca por todo mi escritorio cojo viendo el Simpson a i he terminado todo mi dvd colina
@Runrabbit hello ^^ the meeting will be this evening ~ will start around 9pm how are you today?	[]	[ "@Runrabbit hello ^^the meeting will be this evening ~ will start around 9pm how are you today?" ]	27	@Runrabbit hola La reunión será esta noche ~ comenzará alrededor de las 9pm ¿Cómo estás hoy?
knight no no notice they told me i d be working tomorrow and then i called the agency to follow up and they said it wa over	[]	[ "knight no no notice they told me i d be working tomorrowand then i called the agency to follow upand they said it wa over" ]	27	Caballero sin aviso me dijeron que trabajaría mañana y luego llamé a la agencia para hacer un seguimiento y me dijeron que se acabó.
hey guys im lunch right wanna spam notifications see english class care spam letter want ton	[]	[ "hey guys im lunch right wanna spam notifications see english class care spam letter want ton" ]	17	hey chicos im almuerzo derecho quiere notificaciones de spam ver Inglés atención carta spam want ton
death comes mewhen die hand serene think it end without fear spoke friend day similar state mind commiserated tribulations life mundane existence door close now beckon void	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "death comes mewhen die hand serene think it end without fear spoke friend day similar state mind commiserated tribulations life mundane existence door close now beckon void" ]	35	muerte me viene cuando muere mano serena pensar que termina sin miedo amigo hablado día similar estado mente tribulaciones vida existencia mundana puerta cerca ahora llamar a vacío
@dougiemcfly @harrymcfly @Dannymcfly Thank you for your songs and being you, you help me forget the guy who broke my heart again	[]	[ "@dougiemcfly @harrymcfly @Dannymcfly Thank you for your songs and being you, you help me forget the guy who broke my heart again" ]	42	@dougiemcfly @harrymcfly @Dannymcfly Gracias por tus canciones y por ser tú, me ayudas a olvidar al tipo que me rompió el corazón de nuevo
rteenagers snoo girl ascii art hope like it txt filehttpstinyuploadcomindexphpfile_id	[]	[ "rteenagers snoo girl ascii art hope like it txt filehttpstinyuploadcomindexphpfile_id" ]	31	rteenagers snoo girl ascii art hope like it txt filehttpstinyuploadcomindexphpfile_id
Why on earth do we sit here thinking ourselves into depression over someone who doesn't deserve it?	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "Why on earth do we sit here thinking ourselves into depression over someone who doesn't deserve it?" ]	20	¿Por qué diablos nos sentamos aquí pensando que estamos deprimidos por alguien que no se lo merece?
pros cons pros convicted pedophile	[]	[ "pros cons pros convicted pedophile" ]	11	pros contras pros convicto pedófilo
i ve always had anxiety issue a a kid i thought that i wa normal and everyone felt this way dry heaving in the car on the way to a new babysitter house i m now and i still have constant anxiety the last three month have been worse than anything prior the only time i feel slightly normal is when i take a xanax my dr said that they re addictive so it s a short term solution i have been off of work on and off for two month my dr gave me zoloft and i ve been on it for a week and a half and i m still somewhat hopeful that it ll kick in but idk what i ll do if it doesn t help substantially	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "i ve always had anxiety issue a a kidi thought that i wa normal and everyone felt this way dry heaving in the car on the way to a new babysitter house i m nowand i still have constant anxiety the last three month have been worse than anything prior the only time i feel slightly normal is when i take a xanax my dr said that they re addictive so it s a short term solution i have been off of work on and off for two month my dr gave me zoloft and i ve been on it for a week and a halfand i m still somewhat hopeful that it ll kick in but idk what i ll do if it doesn t help substantially" ]	146	Yo siempre he tenido ansiedad problema un kidi pensamiento que yo wa normal y todo el mundo se sentía así seco heaviing en el coche en el camino a una nueva casa de niñera i m ahora y todavía tengo ansiedad constante los últimos tres meses han sido peores que cualquier cosa antes de la única vez que me siento ligeramente normal es cuando tomo un xanax mi dr dijo que son adictivos así que es una solución a corto plazo he estado fuera de trabajo durante dos meses mi dr me dio zoloft y he estado en él durante una semana y media y todavía tengo un poco de esperanza de que va a patear pero idk lo que voy a hacer si no ayuda sustancialmente
im pretty weak willed personim sorry know long guess ill start introducing myself name tony years old father two children married mother two children things rough since first child born august know plenty people kids young gone tough times title suggests weak willed person im coward im easily broken im physically weak wife counters ways stronger me mentally her everything simple thats me ive tried strong always turns facade wife well ive gotten help ive therapist part months feel like everything said made sense stupid reason never follow through im quitter stubborn turn tail run going gets tough every single one aspects attributed depression constant thoughts ending all offing myself kids awesome lately feel like ive feeling hate them especially daughter pick up practically screams me never done started little harsh cries for literally nothing harsh yelling light smacks butt nothing hard enough let know unacceptable months feel hatred her son two years old every time discipline something unacceptable yells back me know hes kid thats kids bothers discipline says i want mommy broke heart made break down crying first time heard it yesterday ever since daughter born thoughts redflag gotten progressively worse thinking trying it without success mostly pills course think everybody else take death hurt them would dead ability care selfish thought feel like made handle everything im going now kids young married young two jobs moving state want at used live arizona loved there wife practically forced move california hate here thats things got worse felt choice still wanted children would left behind anyway conflict wife right now moved want to got job amazon fulfillment center want to were living brother girlfriend want judgemental pretentious people ever share conflict well one point brother almost got fight argument feel like go anymore	[ "selfharm" ]	[ "im pretty weak willed personimsorry know long guess ill start introducing myself name tony years old father two children married mother two children things rough since first child born august knowplenty people kids young gone tough times title suggests weak willed person im cowardim easily broken im physically weak wife counters ways stronger me mentally her everything simple thats me ive tried strong always turns facade wife", "well ive gotten help ive therapist part months feel like everything said made sense stupid reason never follow through im quitter stubborn turn tail run going gets tough every single one aspects attributed depression constant thoughts ending all offing myself kids awesome lately feel like ive feeling hate them especially daughter pick up practically screams me never done started little harsh cries for literally nothing harsh yelling light smacks butt nothing hard enough let know unacceptable months feel hatred her son two years old every time discipline something unacceptable yells back me know hes kid thats kids bothers discipline says i want mommy broke heart made break down crying first time heard it yesterday ever since daughter born thoughts redflag gotten progressively worse thinking trying it without success mostly pills course think everybody else take death hurt them would dead ability care selfish thought feel like made handle everything im going now kids young married young two jobs moving state want at used live arizona loved there wife practically forced move california hate here thats things got worse felt choice still wanted children would left behind anyway conflict wife right now moved want to got job amazon fulfillment center want to were living brother girlfriend want judgemental pretentious people ever share conflict well one point brother almost got fight argument feel like go anymore" ]	82	Im muy débil voluntad personaimdolencia saber largo adivinar mal empezar a presentarme nombre Tony años padre dos hijos casados madre dos hijos cosas ásperas desde primer hijo nacido augusto conocimiento mucha gente niños jóvenes idos tiempos difíciles título sugiere débil voluntad persona im cobardiim fácilmente roto im físicamente débil esposa contadores maneras más fuertes me mentalmente su todo simple que ive probado fuerte siempre se convierte en fachada esposa